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Goodbye, sweet @wework office. <span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span> . You were my first office, and you sure were good at your job. ...
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Goodbye, sweet @wework office. . You were my first office, and you sure were good at your job. I cried a lot inside of your walls this year as you contained the explosions that came out of my heart. I laughed and screamed when prayers were finally answered. . I met with people all over the world ... Goodbye, sweet @wework office. 💋
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You were my first office, and you sure were good at your job. I cried a lot inside of your walls this year as you contained the explosions that came out of my heart. I laughed and screamed when prayers were finally answered. .
I met with people all over the world as we explored the vastness of our inner realm, diving deep into connection with our pain, our inner children who live within, and the God that abides in every breath. .
If you’re looking for the most kind, generous, creative, beautiful coworking space, I can’t recommend @wework enough. They have locations all over the world, and the staff & community were exactly what I needed this year. Luke and I need space to record & film, which is the only reason I’d give it up. .
Here’s to gratitude for the journey and excitement for new beginnings!! 🌊🌊🌊🔥🔥
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REGISTRATION FOR THE LAST MASTER HEART CLOSES TODAY! Don’t miss this opportunity! . Years ago, ...
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REGISTRATION FOR THE LAST MASTER HEART CLOSES TODAY! Don’t miss this opportunity! . Years ago, my heart was broken, looking out at a church world that was in just as many chains as the world they were trying to 'save.' But what were we trying to save people from when our own marriages were ... REGISTRATION FOR THE LAST MASTER HEART CLOSES TODAY! Don’t miss this opportunity!
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Years ago, my heart was broken, looking out at a church world that was in just as many chains as the world they were trying to 'save.' But what were we trying to save people from when our own marriages were a mess and so few were talking about intimacy problems? Our own addictions were off the charts, and so few were bringing their own chains into the light. Our own bodies were broken, sick, addicted, aligning with our hearts. Most people I knew in church settings were addicted to going in a room and throwing their hands up towards heaven to try & zap themselves into wholeness, without ever addressing the childhood trauma they were carrying around. Leaders seemed to know a lot about how to act towards God but few were doing the inner work to address their own ego and natural wounds of a soul in pain. .
The holy rebel in me was done. Just done. I could either fold my cards and exist in a mediocre state during this incarnation, or I could find out if the gospel message Jesus talked about was real.
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That the kingdom was FIRST inside of ME.
That to build the kingdom of heaven on the OUTSIDE of me meant I had to confront the hell I was carrying around every day. In my thoughts. My emotions.  My ego. My unconscious shadow. .
I created Master Heart because I was a hot mess and I couldn’t find a worship service that could zap out my addictions. I created Master Heart because I couldn’t find a sermon that could tell me how to actually FEEL and EXPERIENCE the Comforter inside the grief of a heart drowning in sadness.
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If you want to get the truth you know from your LEFT brain into your RIGHT brain, you have to have experiences.  Practices. Meditations. Master Heart will give you the teaching to understand your inner realm, but then to actually begin experiencing GOD and LOVE inside of the madness & numbness you might carry within, like I did.
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Tag a friend. This is your last change for this course. Click the link in my profile and take the journey of a lifetime—into your heart. .
Course content begins FRIDAY! Can’t wait to see you there!
X, CJ
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Continuing today’s “project lose followers by being myself!” ........anyone want to learn to enjoy pleasure? 🏻🏻 As a woman riddled with religious shame and guilt as a woman inside my female body, this one took me a hot minute. . Make sure and listen to this week’s @headtoheartpodcast ... Continuing today’s “project lose followers by being myself!”
........anyone want to learn to enjoy pleasure? 💃🏻💋🙌🏻 As a woman riddled with religious shame and guilt as a woman inside my female body, this one took me a hot minute. .
Make sure and listen to this week’s @headtoheartpodcast !
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You’ll thank me later. ☺️
Xx CJ .
@masterheart.luke (Link in the @headtoheartpodcast profile ) xx
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A few years ago, I decided to leave institutionalized Christianity in search of Christ. 🏻🧘‍♀️🧚‍♀️🕺🏻 . When you go on that pilgrimage—away from the safe borders of a religious institution that needs some major revamping to line up with the teachings of Jesus—there aren’t many institutions ... A few years ago, I decided to leave institutionalized Christianity in search of Christ. 💃🏻🧘‍♀️🧚‍♀️🕺🏻👑
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When you go on that pilgrimage—away from the safe borders of a religious institution that needs some major revamping to line up with the teachings of Jesus—there aren’t many institutions where you’re a fit to speak anymore. ☺️😂
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But when the @unitedpursuit guys call and ask you to speak again at their Reunion event, (all because they loved my blog titled “My Journey Into Atheism” where I stopped believing in an off planet solely MALE God who looked like a man and kept far away from my sin), you jump up with a big fat YES! .
These guys are so beautiful. The want to make a safe place for your tough questions. For your pain that religion hasn’t been able to reach. To find unity within diversity and to embrace those who still love Jesus but feel spiritually homeless in a religious setting that sometimes acts more political than relational.
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Tickets sell out fast so make sure you get on the wait list!
#Repost @unitedpursuit with @get_repost
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Mark your calendars…Reunion 2018 is on for October 11th - 14th, 2018! Join us for a weekend of worship, camping & community in the beautiful hills of TN. 🎉🔥⛺️ This is our 3rd year for Reunion and have some surprises up our sleeves:) Take a sec and jump on the RSVP list on our website to be first to know when tickets drop. Link in bio 👆We expect to sell out fast! As a little bonus, when you RSVP, we’ll add you to our RE18 giveaway. One lucky winner gets 2 tickets + 1 glamping tent. Tag your road trip buddies #upreunion18 #upreunion17
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Our emotions store in the cells of our bodies, especially when we don’t know how to alchemize the lead into gold. The body keeps the score, or in the words of the brilliant @caroline.myss “your biography becomes your biology.” . For years, my biography of hatred towards myself as a sexual ... Our emotions store in the cells of our bodies, especially when we don’t know how to alchemize the lead into gold. The body keeps the score, or in the words of the brilliant @caroline.myss “your biography becomes your biology.”
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For years, my biography of hatred towards myself as a sexual being BECAME my biology, and my lady parts listened and followed the orders of my broken heart...
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DON’T open up.
DON’T enjoy arousal.
DON’T feel pleasure in your sexuality. .
If you feel GUILT for the pleasure of a candy bar, the pleasure of a hot bath when there’s still dishes in the sink, the pleasure of a great outfit when you can find a million reasons to get more clothes for your kids, the pleasure of a good sweat, the pleasure of your sensuality, the pleasure of your BODY....
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Then go listen to our latest @headtoheartpodcast on “The Power of Pleasure.” God literally rested in Genesis on the 7th day to ENJOY or find PLEASURE IN everything that was created. .
Where in the world did we learn to deny the enjoyment of our bodies, our physical world, our destinies, our relationships, our food, our sexuality—all things created BY God?
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(Link is in the @headtoheartpodcast profile!) .
Xx, CJ 💋 @masterheart.luke heart .
Ps. ONLY FOUR MORE DAYS TO REGISTER FOR MASTER HEART! We start FRIDAY, so click the link in my profile and sign up today! Prioritize your inner realm over everything external and watch as your WHOLE LIFE begins to transform, from the inside-out! ♥️ )
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“Light this when you decide to love yourself.” . I guess this candle is going to stay lit. <span class="emoji emoji1f525"></span> . #afriendlyreminder ...
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“Light this when you decide to love yourself.” . I guess this candle is going to stay lit. . #afriendlyreminder #LoveYourselflikeGodlovesyou #allof you #loveyourself @shabazzlarkin “Light this when you decide to love yourself.” .
I guess this candle is going to stay lit. 🔥 .
#afriendlyreminder #LoveYourselflikeGodlovesyou #allof you #loveyourself @shabazzlarkin
Do you know how to FEEL pleasure? . I didn’t for years. Pleasure was associated with pain. Pleasure was associated with guilt. Pleasure was associated with punishment. Enter religious doctrine that implies if something brings us pleasure, we have to deny it. We have to give it up, to ... Do you know how to FEEL pleasure?
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I didn’t for years. Pleasure was associated with pain. Pleasure was associated with guilt. Pleasure was associated with punishment. 💔
Enter religious doctrine that implies if something brings us pleasure, we have to deny it. We have to give it up, to lay it down, to suffer.
What a load of total garbage.
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When we cut off cultivating pleasure in our physical body, we cut off the place God calls a temple. When we cut off FEELING pleasure in a piece of chocolate (or we end up punishing ourselves with it like I did for years), we slowly lose pleasure in ANYTHING.
The pleasure you feel and cultivate for LIFE through your senses is directly tied to the pleasure you will feel sexually in your body. You cannot I twist those wires, and they are completely linked. The more I begin to cultivate pleasure in ALL things, in a sunrise, in my favorite organic matcha almond milk latte, in a sexy silk nightgown that feels delicious on my skin...
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Guess what.
It sure is easier for my lady parts to feel pleasure during intimacy.
This week on our @headtoheartpodcast, @masterheart.luke and I talk about what it did to our bodies and hearts to deny pleasure for so many years and deem it as bad and unholy.
Now, we’re not saying there’s not wisdom in experiencing sexual intimacy inside of a covenant...we’re saying that leading UP to a committed relationship, if you associate pleasure with guilt and pain...it will follow you into your marriage. 😭
It’s time to unwind that thinking. It’s time to change our neural pathways. It’s time to unlock our hearts and FEEL pleasure. It’s time to find pleasure in ALL....especially the bodies God created to be sexual. 👯‍♀️
(To listen click on the @headtoheartpodcast link in the profile!)
Xx, CJ
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WE’VE HAD THE BIGGEST RESPONSE FOR MASTERHEART EVER! <span class="emoji emoji1f64c"></span>🏻<span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span> So as a little gift, we’ve extended early ...
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WE’VE HAD THE BIGGEST RESPONSE FOR MASTERHEART EVER! 🏻 So as a little gift, we’ve extended early bird pricing until midnight TONIGHT! . Is Master Heart for you? . 🏻It is if you have addictive cycles that you can’t break…. 🏻Or if you feel like you can’t control your emotional world ... WE’VE HAD THE BIGGEST RESPONSE FOR MASTERHEART EVER! 🙌🏻💋 So as a little gift, we’ve extended early bird pricing until midnight TONIGHT!
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Is Master Heart for you?
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✌🏻It is if you have addictive cycles that you can’t break….
✌🏻Or if you feel like you can’t control your emotional world and it controls you.
✌🏻It’s for those who want to stop passing on their dysfunction to their kids…
✌🏻Or if you feel numb inside and you want to feel joy again.
✌🏻It’s for those of you who have been taught by a religious institution that your heart is evil and bad so you’ve lived up in your head…
✌🏻Or if you can’t feel or hear the Spirit living inside.
For most of my life I was suffering in one way or another. I got good at masking it, hiding it, numbing it out, but underneath all the masks, the pain was so unbearable that my heart had gone numb. 💔
👉🏻Numb to avoid feeling the overwhelming terror inside me that never went away.
👉🏻Numb to avoid feeling the constant insecurity. 👉🏻Numb to try and forget the forever sadness.
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I didn’t understand that pain is inevitable in this bumper-car of a life, however suffering—well, suffering is completely optional.
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There is a way to end the internal suffering, and friend, I long to teach you ways to do this. 💪🏻
Today is the last day to get the early bird pricing, and this is the absolute last time you can get the full 6 weeks of course material, personal coaching, meditations, assignments, and videos for just $99.
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As a classic overachiever, I very genuinely give you thousands and thousands of dollars of content because a) I love you, and b) you’re so so worth it.
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If you’re wondering if MasterHeart is right for you, jump on the live feed where I explain about the course!
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Click the link. Take care of your internal realm. Stop running from your emotions--they’re sending you messages. It’s time you learned to decipher the voice of your wounded soul and let it lead you to the voice of the Spirit waiting within.
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Love you!
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Xx, Christa (click the link to sign up! We also have a couples price because believe me, it’s way easier to have a marriage when you’re trying to find the same page internally!) 💋 📷: @theexplorerdad
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So this person hurt you. They crushed your heart. And every time you get around them, your throat ...
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So this person hurt you. They crushed your heart. And every time you get around them, your throat closes up, or your palms sweat, or even the mention of their name makes your face beet red or causes you to shrink in fear. You’re triggered. It happens. It’s normal for a broken heart that hasn’t ... So this person hurt you. They crushed your heart. And every time you get around them, your throat closes up, or your palms sweat, or even the mention of their name makes your face beet red or causes you to shrink in fear.
You’re triggered. It happens. It’s normal for a broken heart that hasn’t yet healed.
But now what?
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Join me at 10:30amCST this morning for the LAST INSTALLMENT of my free course, DRAIN YOUR PAIN!
See you soon. Xx
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MASTER HEART IS NOW OPEN FOR REGISTRATION, and for the next 48 hours, it’s at a discount price! (click ...
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MASTER HEART IS NOW OPEN FOR REGISTRATION, and for the next 48 hours, it’s at a discount price! (click the link in my profile to register for this 6 week course!) . This is the last time I'm running my Master Heart course before moving on to produce new content, and I'm running it again for YOU.  To ... MASTER HEART IS NOW OPEN FOR REGISTRATION, and for the next 48 hours, it’s at a discount price! (click the link in my profile to register for this 6 week course!)
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This is the last time I'm running my Master Heart course before moving on to produce new content, and I'm running it again for YOU.  To give you the tools that I used this year to find heaven on the INSIDE of me when all hell was breaking loose in my marriage.  To give you the meditations and experiences to go into your heart and actually RELEASE the pain you’ve been hauling around.  To give you practices and sacred rituals to make your beautifully broken heart a place of miracles!
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I cannot wait to teach Master Heart from THIS space and as THIS woman....a woman who's tired of playing small.  A woman who knows that hearts feel shut down, numb, broken from pain, and who KNOWS how to lead you to that inner oasis always connected to the Divine essence of God. .
We spend so much money on total crap....on clothes we barely wear. On drinks we pee out in an hour.  On movies that don't change our life.  It's time to stop devaluing yourself, your heart---the place that actually RUNS your life---and value it above ALL cost, doing whatever we have to do to commit to seeing it healed, revived, and set free!
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Can't wait for you to join me in this last run of Master Heart!  Sign up before the early bird pricing goes away!
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You're worth everything.  And I can't wait to teach you how to feel this way.
Love you with all my heart.
xx, Christa
📷: @theexplorerdad
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Anyone listened to this week’s @headtoheartpodcast on “Learning to trust YOURSELF?” This is one of the most important things we can teach you, beautiful friend, that you have an inner voice connected to the Divine at every moment...& YOU’VE GOT TO START LISTENING IN TO THAT VOICE AND TAKING ... Anyone listened to this week’s @headtoheartpodcast on “Learning to trust YOURSELF?” This is one of the most important things we can teach you, beautiful friend, that you have an inner voice connected to the Divine at every moment...& YOU’VE GOT TO START LISTENING IN TO THAT VOICE AND TAKING ACTION STEPS!
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Which voice are we talking about? The voice of your broken heart? The voice of your ego? The voice of your pain? Or the voice of your deepest SPIRIT? It’s time for you to begin deciphering these voices, leaning in, listening, and following the voice of TRUTH that’s tailor made for your life. 💪🏻
In my 20’s, the voice said to detox substances keep away from alcohol. 🍺
In my 30’s, the voice said everything was permissible and I could enjoy drinking in moderation to experience freedom! 🍻
In my 40’s, I’m longing to keep my spiritual radar clear so it’s not law, but it’s BEST in certain situations not to drink🍸 . You see how you might need to learn to hear for YOU and YOUR life, past, history, and future?
So many of us have stayed silent for a long time, ignoring our gut that the way we were allowing ourselves to be treated in religious settings, job settings, family environments isn’t okay anymore. The more you begin actually loving and valuing yourself the way GOD says you’re loved and valued, the less you can continue prostituting yourself for a paycheck, having to trust that God will provide for you. The more you lean in and hear your gut intuition that’s speaking to you at every moment, the more you can’t live with yourself when you ignore it again and again.
For many of you, you’ve ignored yourself for so many years you don’t even know where to start. For others, you’ve grown physically ill for ignoring your intuition when you knew something was off and that it’s time for you to leave.
In the words of @masterheart.luke, “you can do what’s right for YOU without making someone else WRONG.” This is KEY. 🔑
Listen to this week’s podcast, share your fears, your victories, your thoughts, and your heart.
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Adore you!!
XX CJ @masterheart.luke
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Do you know how to OWN the feelings inside of you? Or are you trying to avoid the contents of your emotional ...
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Do you know how to OWN the feelings inside of you? Or are you trying to avoid the contents of your emotional world at all cost? . When Luke left last year, I was given the greatest gift of my life.  I was given the gift of being FORCED to feel every emotion inside of me that I had stuffed down for ... Do you know how to OWN the feelings inside of you?
Or are you trying to avoid the contents of your emotional world at all cost?
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When Luke left last year, I was given the greatest gift of my life.  I was given the gift of being FORCED to feel every emotion inside of me that I had stuffed down for decades. 🔥
Betrayal as an adult FORCES you to FEEL the REAL FEELS.  The anger.  The terror.  The sadness.  The grief.  The fear.  The rage.  The fury.  The agony.  The hurt.  The loneliness.  The hopelessness.  The abandonment.  The shame.  The unworthiness.  The powerlessness.
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And the thing is, guys, these weren’t new emotions for me—Luke didn’t cause these emotions. They had been trapped inside of me for DECADES.  Our situation simply provided a hole big enough in my fortress for those emotions to finally come to the surface, then releasing from my psyche, my heart, my body, my soul.
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WHAT A FREAKING GIFT! 🎁 .
Betrayal can be a beautiful wrecking ball, smashing into a lifetime of walls you’ve built around your broken heart, allowing you to finally get to the core of YOU.
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But the thing is, friend, you can either choose to…
a) intentionally, carefully, and lovingly FEEL the emotions trapped inside your body (which I’m going to teach you how to do)…..or….
b) life will continue smashing into you unexpectedly to try and get those stuck emotions out of you.
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This is the goodness of God—committed to everything inside your soul that poisons you, that kills you, that drains your life, that destroys you.  This is the goodness of God inside everything—trying to get to the heart of YOU—and heal you, making you whole in this incarnation of life. 🙌🏻
Join us again tomorrow at 10am CST live on Instagram as we learn to go in and FEEL THE REAL FEELS that we might have avoided.  Learn practical, safe ways to release your anger, your rage, your fury at your abuser, your betrayer, the person who wounded you, without destroying your soul OR punishing them. (Cause that never helps anything.)
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Tag a friend who needs this! (Cause we all do!)
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xx, CJ 📷 @theexplorerdad
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Today, I began a free live course called “Drain Your Pain: Surrender the past to create a new future,” ...
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Today, I began a free live course called “Drain Your Pain: Surrender the past to create a new future,” and in just a few hours over 6000 of you have participated! 🏻 What does this tell me? 🤔 It tells me you guys are tired of hauling around old emotional pain and you’re ready to let go and heal. It ... Today, I began a free live course called “Drain Your Pain: Surrender the past to create a new future,” and in just a few hours over 6000 of you have participated! 🙌🏻 What does this tell me? 🤔
It tells me you guys are tired of hauling around old emotional pain and you’re ready to let go and heal. It tells me he story you’ve told yourself about your betrayal and all the ways you’ve been wronged isn’t working to change your future or set you free. It tells me you’re desperate for tools to unlock your inner world and finally find PEACE.
Today, we learned that HOW we tell our story, WHY we tell our story, and WHO we tell our story to either perpetuates our emotional world of anger, betrayal, and a victim mentality...OR, we can choose to take the reigns of our story and retell it in a way that helps to HEAL us. 💪🏻
Tomorrow at 10am CST live on Instagram and Facebook, we’ll be doing a soul diagnostic scan, finding our root wound and choosing to make it sacred, allowing the pain to become the fuel we need to transform and bloom. 🌺
Tag a friend who needs this. Listen in and participate and tomorrow. If you’re carrying around the betrayal of someone who has hurt you in the past and you don’t know how to heal, you owe it to yourself to learn to surrender. It’s time we stop blaming everyone else for how we FEEL and learn tools to FEEL the way we’re destined to feel...
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Alive. Free. Whole. Blameless. Loved. Forgiven. Purposed. Intentional. Joyful. Peace. .
Who’s gonna join me?
X, Christa
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FREE COURSE, starting tomorrow at 10amCST, live on Instagram, DRAIN YOUR PAIN. . When Luke came ...
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FREE COURSE, starting tomorrow at 10amCST, live on Instagram, DRAIN YOUR PAIN. . When Luke came home on Easter after almost 9 months of separation, I knew I had two people living inside of me. . a) I had the woman who’s oozing in forgiveness, who committed not to punish, & longs to keep no ... FREE COURSE, starting tomorrow at 10amCST, live on Instagram, DRAIN YOUR PAIN.
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When Luke came home on Easter after almost 9 months of separation, I knew I had two people living inside of me.
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a) I had the woman who’s oozing in forgiveness, who committed not to punish, & longs to keep no record of wrongs.
b) & then I had a hurt, betrayed woman who was just pissed & wanted to run from him as fast as I could.
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I knew if I didn’t have a plan for HER…the very real, beautifully broken part of me who felt very wronged…then the emotional energy of her very loud victim story would circulate inside my heart, body, and mind…ruining my future.
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You don’t have to know spousal betrayal to feel this kind of pain inside your body. Maybe for you it was a parent, a teacher, a childhood bully. Maybe it was a boss, a coworker, a pastor or leader. Betrayal pain & feeling wronged by someone is a story all of us know at some degree…
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But here’s the catch. If you aren’t intentional about clearing out the emotional energy of the toxic emotions produced after the bomb goes off….
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Those emotions never, ever go away, and you spend your life trying to never feel those feelings again. .
You might just get busy and move into denial, growing numb. Or find yourself depressed and don’t know why. You might have picked up an addiction or two to help you not to feel, or maybe you did the nice Christian thing & forgave with clenched teeth before you really felt like it. Maybe your logical head is always trying to talk your broken heart out of being hurt, to no avail. If you do not know how to carefully take the bomb that went off inside your chest & DRAIN the emotional energy of that anger…that sadness…that rage…that hate…that sorrow….that rejection…that abandonment…that betrayal…..
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It will slowly poison your heart, your mind, your soul, your body, your life.
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Join me tomorrow, 10am, live. Don’t let the old pain from betrayal wounds destroy your life for one second longer. Learn meditations, tools, practices & techniques to remove the old pain and replace it with the life you’ve always wanted. See you tomorrow! X, CJ 📷 @theexplorerdad
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When Luke left last August and I found myself facing my worst fear at 40-years-old with three small ...
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When Luke left last August and I found myself facing my worst fear at 40-years-old with three small kids(abandonment and deepest rejection) I went inside & made some commitments to myself.  First commitment? Don't abandon YOURSELF in this pain, Christa. 🏻 Don't abandon your heart, ... When Luke left last August and I found myself facing my worst fear at 40-years-old with three small kids(abandonment and deepest rejection) I went inside & made some commitments to myself.  First commitment?
Don't abandon YOURSELF in this pain, Christa. 💪🏻
Don't abandon your heart, your fears, your hurts. Don't abandon your torment, your insecurities, your unlovable moments. Learn to be present with yourself, in whatever state you're in, continuing to tend to your heart every moment as if it was your most precious possession.
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I couldn't have survived, much less thrived, inside the circumstances of this last year without my foundation in my MasterHeart Course material.  Everything I did to experience heaven inside of hell, I lived years ago when my daughter Goldie died, then putting my methods, meditations, teachings, & nuggets of gold inside a 6-week-course that will absolutely change your life as they have transformed mine. The principles in this course were my lifeline this past year as I faced the potential end of my marriage, and though there were excruciating moments, I knew how to go inside my heart and find a haven of PEACE in the midst of the worst storm of my life.
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It's time for you to learn how to do this for yourself, and I'm going to teach you how. ☺️
On August 13th, registration opens for my final run of the Master Heart Course, & for early bird registrants, we're offering a 25% off promotional discount for the first 48 hours! 🙌🏻
Go to my website (link in profile), sign up for my email list to get updates on the launch, tell a friend, recruit your spouse for that much-needed deep internal cleansing. It's never too late to find peace and create the life of your dreams.
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Over the moon excited about our final journey through this teaching, and I can't wait for you to join me.
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Who wants to turn your broken💔 into the home of your dreams? Comment below if you’re IN or ask me any questions about the course!
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Love you, xx, CHRISTA
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It offends people when you heal faster than they believe possible. If offends people when forgiveness ...
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It offends people when you heal faster than they believe possible. If offends people when forgiveness and grace actually work. It offends people when you decide to believe that love really doesn’t keep a record of wrongs, even when some days those wrongs still hurt as you choose to keep ... It offends people when you heal faster than they believe possible.
If offends people when forgiveness and grace actually work.
It offends people when you decide to believe that love really doesn’t keep a record of wrongs, even when some days those wrongs still hurt as you choose to keep healing.
It’s offensive to love as lavishly as you have been eternally loved. ♥️
People said this past weekend was too soon. That we shouldn’t be leading people who came in from all over the world at our first Love Yourself Retreat. That we didn’t need to be teaching people so quickly after the year of hell we walked through.
And you know what I have to say about that?
☺️ We’re not doing this for you—for those who think you have to have every duck in a row before you can help others. 🙅🏼‍♀️
You know who we want? We want the cheaters. We want the liars. Bring us the broken, the outcast, the shamed. Bring us the addicted. Bring us the heartbroken. Bring us the abused AND the abusers, the exploited AND the exploiters, the helpless AND the narcissists. Bring us those who have hit, who’ve been hit, who’ve made bruises, & who still have them. Bring us the outcast. The young and old. The marginalized. The judged. The unfaithful. The damned. 🙌🏻
You’re our people. We want you. We get you. And you know what? ♥️
We ARE you. And you are endlessly loved as we are in all of our imperfections. 💪🏻
My heart is full of an ocean of gratitude for the perfectly searching souls that entrusted us with their broken hearts this weekend, learning to love the parts of themselves that the world has said are unlovable. ♥️
And every time I looked in the eyes of someone this weekend who GOT IT, that right now in your pain you can FEEL loved at every moment no matter what...watching people leave their old unlovable stories and trade them for a new life centered in love...
It all became worth it. The year we’ve had, the journey, the pain, the hell...it’s all become worth it. All of it. ♥️
Proud of us, baby. @masterheart.luke
The beginning of our new life feels really really good.
Xx, CJ
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Let me start this post with a very clear statement. I am a completely heterosexual woman who is addressing a past fantasy life with the female form. This is NOT a statement about gay men or lesbians, transgenders, bisexual, any other sexual orientation...this is my heterosexual woman story ... Let me start this post with a very clear statement. I am a completely heterosexual woman who is addressing a past fantasy life with the female form. This is NOT a statement about gay men or lesbians, transgenders, bisexual, any other sexual orientation...this is my heterosexual woman story and what I learned from my sexual fantasy world. Got it?
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Ok. Now that we got that out of the way. Ladies, how many of you have ever been turned on by watching two women make out in a movie? 🙋🏼 How many of you know you’re not a lesbian but when you feel sexual, sometimes your fantasy world has drifted to find you with a woman? Or you with a woman and a man? (Remember, I’ve already addressed dissociating through fantasy and how detrimental it is to being inside your body with your ACTUAL partner in my private account for women @spirituallysexy ). 🙋🏼
In this week’s Head to Heart Podcast, I address what my heart was trying to tell ME through my sexual fantasy life, more specifically, what it was trying to HEAL in me...what I longed to be intimate with—my divine femininity. ♥️
Everything can be used in our lives, bringing us to wholeness and life. Even the parts of us we have been taught to be ashamed of, the parts we think we need to hide, the parts of our heart in pain longing to just be seen, brought into the light, and deeply loved. ♥️
To listen to this week’s @headtoheartpodcast with me and @masterheart.luke, click the link in my profile, tell your friends, and let’s bring our shadows into the light to find that we’re always LOVED!
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So grateful for all of you. Xx CJ 💋
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Bad sex. Something you don’t know you’re having until you have GOOD sex. 🏻 In this week’s Head to Heart episode, @masterheart.luke and I talk about all the things we did wrong for almost a decade, completely unprepared for the world of sex and the potential it held for greater intimacy, ... Bad sex. Something you don’t know you’re having until you have GOOD sex. ♥️🙌🏻
In this week’s Head to Heart episode, @masterheart.luke and I talk about all the things we did wrong for almost a decade, completely unprepared for the world of sex and the potential it held for greater intimacy, pleasure, connection, and power inside our marriage.
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If you’re single, listen up. Believe me…we talk about things I only wish I’d known about before we jumped into bed together.  And if you’re married, you might need a sexual refresher (like we did) where things had slowly started to take a turn for the worse.
Sex is stunning.  Pure ecstasy.  And I’m going to say a statement that might ruffle some feathers….but we know it to be very, very true in our own lives.
Your marriage is only as healthy as your sex life. (Notice I said HEALTHY, not “we have sex like rabbits all the time.” So what does healthy mean?)
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After years of unhealthy, disconnected sex….we are finally cultivating health in and out of the bedroom that affects everything about our life.
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Link is in my profile.
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Adore you guys.
xx, Christa
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WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME ABOUT THE LITTLE SNEAKY TRICK OF PROJECTION BEFORE I GOT MARRIED? 🤪 . If only I had known that it wasn’t my husband’s sole responsibility to make me FEEL loved with his actions and words. That FEELING love begins with me CHOOSING to love myself as God says I’m loved every ... WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME ABOUT THE LITTLE SNEAKY TRICK OF PROJECTION BEFORE I GOT MARRIED? 🤪
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If only I had known that it wasn’t my husband’s sole responsibility to make me FEEL loved with his actions and words. That FEELING love begins with me CHOOSING to love myself as God says I’m loved every single day. If only I had known that when I felt unsafe, controlling my outside world would never bring me inner peace and would just stress me out more. If only I had known the right tricks and tools to curb my frustration, getting back into my body and soul to release that emotional energy. If only I had been awakened to the Divine Feminine nature inside of me, and the essence of the cyclical nature of a woman—and how to ride the wave of femininity instead of constraining myself into a masculine world. If only I had known that anger wasn’t bad—that it was a siren for deeper sadness & grief going on in my heart that was crying out to be healed. If only, if only, if only…..sigh.
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But now, I know. And knowledge is power. And I can either take the wisdom of the years when I lived in agony, projecting all of my emotional problems onto everyone and everything in the world, & USE that wisdom now. .
So that every time anger arises in me, I breathe, get back into my body, and know how to diffuse a bomb and connect deeply to my heart. So that every time I feel unloved or neglected, I breathe, get back into my feminine essence, and drink from the wellspring of the Spirit that lives inside of me. So that every time I feel unworthy or ungrounded, I move back out of the chaos of the mind & back onto earth, grounding myself in nature—the physical expression of the female nature of God in front of me every day. .
Do you project your emotions onto others? To a faraway outcome? And if so, what is one sacred vow you can make today to take responsibility for your inner world and learn to own your emotions?
xx, CJ @masterheart.luke (link in profile for this episode!)
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When Luke left last year, one of his main arguments for leaving was that I had hit him several times.  Over the years when we’d get in a knock down, drag out fight and I’d lose my mind, I’d just rev back and sock him, just like I’d seen Marian do in Indiana Jones, & Cameron Diez in The Holiday, and ... When Luke left last year, one of his main arguments for leaving was that I had hit him several times.  Over the years when we’d get in a knock down, drag out fight and I’d lose my mind, I’d just rev back and sock him, just like I’d seen Marian do in Indiana Jones, & Cameron Diez in The Holiday, and Laurie in the musical Oklahoma.  According to the movies I grew up with, if a woman got mad enough at a man, it was comedy to find to punch him, even sexy, passionate—but not wrong. .
I remember bawling my eyes out with female friend after friend, letting them know that I was an abuser and my husband had to leave me because I had hit him….and the response I got was confusing, beginning with my lawyer.
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“Oh honey, I’ve hit my husband so many times—especially when I was pregnant!  I think most women have at some point!”
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Friend after friend would confess that she, too, had hit her husband.  Women young and old, newlyweds and grandmothers.  It was a clear boundary abusive line for a man in his strength to hit a woman, but is it okay for a woman to ever hit a man?  Even though she might be weaker?
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We dive into topics like these in our latest podcast.  Have you listened yet?  And if so, what are your thoughts [email protected] issue?
xx, CJ
@masterheart.luke @headtoheartpodcast (link in profile!)
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Yesterday on 7/7/18, @masterheart.luke and I celebrated our 11 year anniversary after a very painful ...
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Yesterday on 7/7/18, @masterheart.luke and I celebrated our 11 year anniversary after a very painful 9 months of separation. In honor of our new marriage, I made some new vows to the hubs as the bedrock of this new union. . ️I vow to swim in the ocean of love for myself every day, so I have a shot ... Yesterday on 7/7/18, @masterheart.luke and I celebrated our 11 year anniversary after a very painful 9 months of separation. In honor of our new marriage, I made some new vows to the hubs as the bedrock of this new union. .
♥️I vow to swim in the ocean of love for myself every day, so I have a shot at beginning my thoughts, words, and actions towards you FROM that ocean of love. ♥️I vow to honor myself as a woman, every day, so I have the ability to give honor to you as a man. ♥️I vow to stay faithful to me, undyingly faithful, in good times and bad, so that I know how to be faithful to you in the ebbs and flows of life. ♥️I vow to drink of the endless grace available to me every day as I learn and blow it, able to extend that grace same grace to you as you make mistakes. ♥️I vow to take care of my heart, to listen to its whispers, to cry when I need to cry & honor my emotional world, feeling safe inside MYSELF so I don’t project that pressure onto you to be the only one who can make me feel safe. ♥️ I vow to adore myself so that when you adore me, my heart will be able to open wide & receive your affection as a matched confirmation of my worth. ♥️I vow to take care of myself so my cup will feel full and I can then overflow to you and our family. ♥️ I vow to keep exploring the sacred holiness of my feminine sexuality and opening in a deeper way with you in the bedroom. ♥️ I vow to daily surrender my will to the will of heaven, & continue to drink of the height, the depth, the length, and the endless nature of the Unconditional Love that we know as our true north. .
That football stadium behind us in the picture was where we made our first marriage vows...on a field of collision, of crashing, of conflict, of battle. The era of collision is over, and we usher in a new season, overlooking the old vows from a higher, wiser, more peaceful place. .
You are my match.
You are my partner.
You are my lover.
You are my friend.
You are my chosen. & You have been chosen for me.
And instead of just being my forever—a future far off into the distance—you are my RIGHT NOW.
You are my “this moment.”
You are my present.
My present gift. Happy 11th baby. Xx, CJ
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Our second @headtoheartpodcast called “Why THAT truth hasn’t set you free,” is now LIVE! <span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f64c"></span>🏻<span class="emoji emoji1f4aa"></span>🏻 . “In ...
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Our second @headtoheartpodcast called “Why THAT truth hasn’t set you free,” is now LIVE! 🏻🏻 . “In this episode we dig into the some our hard truth. . If the truth sets us free then why don't feel free, live free or act free? Why are we still addicted? Depressed? Insecure? Sexually broken? . Are ... Our second @headtoheartpodcast called “Why THAT truth hasn’t set you free,” is now LIVE! 💋🙌🏻💪🏻
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“In this episode we dig into the some our hard truth. .
If the truth sets us free then why don't feel free, live free or act free? Why are we still addicted? Depressed? Insecure? Sexually broken?
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Are you really free? Really free?
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Or are you managing your issues? Have you resolved that you’re destined to live in a prison so you might as well decorate with some flowers and curtains? Do you dress up your cage to imitate freedom because you’re never really going to be free of your issues?
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Or are you actually, legitimately free. Do you KNOW and are you experiencing a transformed life...for real? .
In this episode we take a look at what hasn't been working and we walk you through our stories and steps to begin set yourself free. ♥️ xx CJ & @masterheart.luke
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So I believe we all incarnated to this earth for a specific purpose and destiny that was set before we breathed our first breath. And guess what...it would be very hard for me to be a healer (my God-given destiny), if I had never been wounded and had to heal. And it would be very hard for you to be ... So I believe we all incarnated to this earth for a specific purpose and destiny that was set before we breathed our first breath. And guess what...it would be very hard for me to be a healer (my God-given destiny), if I had never been wounded and had to heal. And it would be very hard for you to be known for your unconditional love if you never had anyone you had to forgive. It would be very difficult for you to create peace if you had never been stung by the turmoil of war.
I believe we’re all wounded at different degrees. A sacred wound. A core pain that we all know from early childhood where trauma was either received as A) the absence of what we needed and didn’t get, or B) external things like abandonment, divorce, bullying and abuse.
And I believe life after that wound comes in two major stages.
1. To awaken to the pain and our need to release it from our body and soul, &
2. To then have the inner authority and solutions to help others.
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In my sweet Christian family, we sometimes like the devil scapegoat for all our problems, blaming an external invisible beings on internal pain we don’t want to own or face.
But that is changing.
This year when my husband left, I finally dropped the victim and looked at the PATTERN. I was the pattern. I was the one always abandoned, not because a big bad devil was the one to blame, but because I was unwilling to address the very toxic emotional energy that had been inside of me since childhood that I never knew how to release and let go of....& it kept creating a life that was trying to HEAL me.
Your life is trying to heal you, friend. Your patterns are trying to clue you in. Your inner sacred wounds and core pains-they’re still IN you if you haven’t forgiven, released, & let go for a love that’s greater. This is not work for the faint of ♥️. This isn’t going to the altar once and praying a prayer & you never feel pain again. This is a lifetime of loving yourself enough to confront everything INSIDE of you that is destroying your life, and COMMITTING to see it alchemized into gold.
Want to learn? Listen to @headtoheartpodcast w @masterheart.luke
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Here’s why I’m really going to go for it with the Divine Feminine and why I believe it’s so important to what God is doing in the earth. 🏼️ The rest of the video is in Instagram TV if you’re curious. (also, if you’re a girl and you’re not following my private account @spirituallysexy for females, ... Here’s why I’m really going to go for it with the Divine Feminine and why I believe it’s so important to what God is doing in the earth. 💋🙋🏼♥️ The rest of the video is in Instagram TV if you’re curious. 💋 (also, if you’re a girl and you’re not following my private account @spirituallysexy for females, you should) xx
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After a 2 year hiatus, & 300,000 downloads with only 9 episodes, the @headtoheartpodcast is back, ...
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After a 2 year hiatus, & 300,000 downloads with only 9 episodes, the @headtoheartpodcast is back, people. 🏻 . And after the year we’ve had, we definitely have a few things to say. 🏼 Our first episode, ‘The Deconstruction of US,’ dives right into the deep end of the pool as we discuss the ... After a 2 year hiatus, & 300,000 downloads with only 9 episodes, the @headtoheartpodcast is back, people. 🙌🏻
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And after the year we’ve had, we definitely have a few things to say. 🙋🏼
Our first episode, ‘The Deconstruction of US,’ dives right into the deep end of the pool as we discuss the deconstruction of our marriage last year, the deconstruction of the illusion of God we built around our pain, & the deconstruction of the religious boxes that weren’t doing anything to solve the emptiness and ache in our hearts.
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We teach you how to change the story and the narrative of your life, using EVERYTHING to your benefit—especially the things you think you’re a victim of. We talk about masculine/feminine energy and how it’s in all of us. & we discuss the gift of our separation and how it exposed old, deep traumas that had been inside our hearts long before our marriage ever began.
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Listen, I’m a 3 on the enneagram (performer/achiever), & I’m an obliger, which means I usually sacrifice my inner needs to make sure you’re taken care of. Because of my personality makeup, for many years I have been terrified of being myself in front of you, knowing a lot of my audience are evangelical Christians who (in my experience), can tend to get very scared and very mean when you say things that stretch their boxes. 📦
I am not leaving Christianity (though sometimes I’m embarrassed to use that term because it can mean so many things these days), nor will I ever leave Jesus. But the Jesus I knew in my religious box wasn’t ever getting to my sexual dysfunction that had been there since childhood & followed me into my marriage. The Jesus I was taught about wasn’t teaching me about my addict archetype & how being an addict was a good thing I could harness and use. My religious churchy Jesus wasn’t healing my marriage that I didn’t even realize was dysfunctional. 💔
@masterheart.luke and I are going to really be ourselves, and that might offend some people. But I’ve decided it’s better to be my authentic self and trust that SHE is far more powerful than someone sometimes pretending to keep everyone happy. ☺️
(link in profile.) Subscribe & comment topics you’d like us to hit up! X
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Four years ago when my baby girl Luca Gold died in my arms, my dearest friends all hopped on planes ...
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Four years ago when my baby girl Luca Gold died in my arms, my dearest friends all hopped on planes and showed up at our door. . Before her memorial service, and in an attempt to get me out of the house and help distract me from the tsunami of pain, we all went to go get gold manicures. As I walked over ... Four years ago when my baby girl Luca Gold died in my arms, my dearest friends all hopped on planes and showed up at our door. .
Before her memorial service, and in an attempt to get me out of the house and help distract me from the tsunami of pain, we all went to go get gold manicures. As I walked over to grab a drink of water at the nail salon, I happened to look up directly at a tiny pink princess throne...a chair specifically for little girls to get pedicures. 👑
To say that I lost it was an understatement. 😭
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I remember my friend Amanda holding me as I sobbed, gasping for breath, wondering if a silly dream of getting mommy/daughter mani-pedis would ever come true. 💔💅🏻 Would I ever have a daughter? Will my heart ever beat again without it feeling like I’m going to die? Was the pain ever going to end?
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Three years ago today, my body went into labor 9 weeks early, popping out a little 3lb 10oz force of nature named Birdie James on Father’s Day. She came out fighting for life making her mark on the world and doing it HER way, charging forward without fear, and nothing has changed. ☺️ I remember sitting in the NICU holding my breathing, alive, whole baby girl, crying in joy. My silly dream was going to get to come true...
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I was going to have a mommy/daughter mani-pedis partner. ☺️🙌🏻💅🏻♥️
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For four years since Goldie died, and for three years since Birdie was born, I’ve waited for this moment, sitting side by side and doing something girlie for no other reason than to be together...& to get pampered a bit. 💋
As she sat in her little polka dotted pedicure chair yesterday, she looked over at me with a huge grin, said, “Mommy, I am SO happy.” 😭♥️ .
“So am I baby girl. So am I.” ☺️😭
Happy Birthday, little Bird. So grateful you are here. So grateful your sister Goldie’s spirit is still so present, and we could both feel her with us yesterday. So grateful for redemption and how it can come in pink packages. And so grateful for silly dreams coming true with princess thrones and mani-pedis. ♥️💋
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#BirdieJamesturns3
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The mama bear. <span class="emoji emoji1f43b"></span> You haven’t had to birth children out of your physical womb to have the mama bear ...
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The mama bear. You haven’t had to birth children out of your physical womb to have the mama bear beating her sacred drum inside your heart.  She lives inside of you because you are a woman, and it’s time to tune in and listen to her wisdom. ️ She’s the energy that watches children being stripped ... The mama bear. 🐻
You haven’t had to birth children out of your physical womb to have the mama bear beating her sacred drum inside your heart.  She lives inside of you because you are a woman, and it’s time to tune in and listen to her wisdom. ♥️
She’s the energy that watches children being stripped from their parents at a borden and screams in agony, knowing those children aren’t the children of another woman….they’re YOUR children.  Because they’re GOD’S children.  They’re our GLOBAL children, and it’s not okay.
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She’s the energy of your deepest intuition, that inner knowing that roars in anger when innocence is being threatened and needs your voice, your protection, your scream, your help. .
This week, I watched a man use one scripture in a bible to justify stripping children from their parents for political reasons, and my mama bear wanted to charge and fight. 👊🏻
Mama bear isn’t wrong. She’s instinctual.  She’s not evil or bad or sinful.  Mama bear is the part of you who knows that righteous anger is good—it’s the inner fuel we sometimes need to act, to protect innocence, to fight for those who cannot fight for themselves. 💔
This is not about party lines.  It’s not about Republican or Democrat. It’s about children being used as political bait to get something, and the mama bear knows that those means never justify any ends.
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Reposting @jenhatmaker and @glennondoyle to know how to call senators and reps and what to say to help the Keep Families Together Act:
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“This is not partisan. This policy has been condemned by key Republican leaders, the United Methodist Church, ACLU, United We Dream, Faith In Action, the Catholic Church, the Presbyterian Church, Laura Bush.” Follow @together.rising “learn four easy steps to call senators and reps. Script included so you’ll know what to write or say on the phone. (I also write my reps every single day through @resistbot which takes this down to a four minute process).”
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Rise up, mama bear. Our kids need us. 💪🏻
xx, CJ (photo by @jbmoorephoto. If you have a hard time with this or disagree or think it’s fake, go read his description of what was happening when he took it).
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If you've had a hell of a year like I've had, you need a hug or two. The beautiful thing about hell is ...
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If you've had a hell of a year like I've had, you need a hug or two. The beautiful thing about hell is this: You can find God's hug inside your hell every single time. And I want to teach you how to do it. . I remember sitting with my spiritual father Paul Young who wrote 'The Shack,' wrestling with ... If you've had a hell of a year like I've had, you need a hug or two. The beautiful thing about hell is this: You can find God's hug inside your hell every single time. And I want to teach you how to do it.
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I remember sitting with my spiritual father Paul Young who wrote 'The Shack,' wrestling with a lyric someone added on a song I helped write being sung around the world. The lyric implied what a lot of us were taught, that Jesus was abandoned by God as he died because "God was too holy and couldn't look at sin or be around it," making God appear as the weak component in the equation and sin the powerhouse. Paul Young said something that rocked my religious 🧦 off. "Christa," he said excitedly. "People never ask the most important question when they talk about God abandoning Jesus at his death. When Jesus was in the grave, where was the Holy Spirit?" 🤔
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As life continues to knock the wind out of me, the most important thing I've learned is this: you can always find LOVE inside your personal hell because Love never leaves you or forsakes you. BUT you will block experiencing that love if you....
a) Believe you don't deserve it.
b) Live in shame.
c) Are constantly unsatisfied with who you are.
d) Are terrified of intimacy and being seen as you are.
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You're ready to transform, I can feel it. You're ready to stop being so hard on yourself---to stop being so hard on your spouse, your kids, and friends. You're ready to stop feeling like a victim of life, to stop hating who you are. You're ready to learn to fully OWN the person you've become---the broken and the whole---and learn to do what you were created to do, LOVE YOURSELF. Not tomorrow when you hit that weight. Not next year when you get married. Not the day you finally beat that addiction or your life changes and gets easier. NOW. Right NOW.
It's the 🔑 to your transformation. It's the linchpin of your destiny. It's the 🚀 fuel shooting you into freedom.
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If you're desperate to want to do this—to sit in a room & learn techniques, exercises, meditations, & tools to get the medicine of love into those wounded parts of your soul, click the link. Register. Join us. And never be the same. ♥️. Who’s coming?Xx, CJ
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Good men still exist. Not just good men, but the kind of men who are made of solid gold goodness. It’s ...
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Good men still exist. Not just good men, but the kind of men who are made of solid gold goodness. It’s just in their bones and they don’t know any other way. 🏻 The kind of goodness that would drop anything for their baby girl and make sure she’s taken care of. The kind of goodness who would answer ... Good men still exist. Not just good men, but the kind of men who are made of solid gold goodness. It’s just in their bones and they don’t know any other way. 💪🏻
The kind of goodness that would drop anything for their baby girl and make sure she’s taken care of. The kind of goodness who would answer the phone every day and listen to her blab about everything and nothing, ready to fight for her and get out their shotgun, cry with her, share their wisdom, or tell her a horrible dad joke to make her crack up and smile. The kind of goodness that would give up their Christmas to spend 10 hours a day laying a new kitchen floor because she needed one, driving through the night multiple times just because she felt like she was losing it.
I couldn’t imagine a better father. I can’t believe somehow out of all the dads in the world, I got the best one. ☺️
Thank you for teaching me that goodness will always exist, because you exist. And everywhere you go, and every person who gets the gift of your presence, they get to discover the reality of goodness—because they get to meet you.
You’re so good to me, Daddy. Happy Fathers Day. ♥️♥️♥️
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Love you with every breath.
Xx, your CJ
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🏼 When they have croup, you sit up all night holding them so they can breathe. 🏼 When they have high fevers and we’re in a hotel room an ocean away from home, you get in the ice bath and sing to them until it breaks. 🏼 When they need to learn how to fly, you throw them into the air and catch their fall. ... 👶🏼 When they have croup, you sit up all night holding them so they can breathe. 👶🏼 When they have high fevers and we’re in a hotel room an ocean away from home, you get in the ice bath and sing to them until it breaks. 👶🏼 When they need to learn how to fly, you throw them into the air and catch their fall. 👧🏼 When they’re in the NICU, you make sure you’re there hour upon the hour. 👦🏼 You teach them to climb trees. 👧🏼 You twirl them in their princess dresses. 👦🏼 And your body is a constant jungle gym.
Happy Fathers Day my love. ♥️
So glad these 4 littles chose us. So glad you chose me.
Xx
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Soul mates don’t exist. 😮 . I hate to burst the Cinderella fairytale bubble, but deep down you know ...
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Soul mates don’t exist. 😮 . I hate to burst the Cinderella fairytale bubble, but deep down you know it’s true. The belief that a soul on the OUTSIDE of you can finally come in and, like a missing puzzle piece, complete you, cure you, fix you....where all your inner inadequacies & fears melt ... Soul mates don’t exist. 😮
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I hate to burst the Cinderella fairytale bubble, but deep down you know it’s true. The belief that a soul on the OUTSIDE of you can finally come in and, like a missing puzzle piece, complete you, cure you, fix you....where all your inner inadequacies & fears melt away...it only causes suffering.
Why? 🙋🏼 Because YOU are your first soul mate. 🙋🏼And until you choose to mate, marry, and be in love with YOUR soul, you can never expect someone else to do what you believe you don’t deserve. 🙃. 🌺You MUST experience and abide in the completion of God’s eternal union within your spirit or you will always try and extract love from another. And it will never be enough. 🌺You MUST realize that your inner spirit contains the source of all you will ever need in this life, or you will constantly look to another to meet your needs. And you will feel continually empty. 🌺You MUST swim in the unconditional love inside of you and drink of its waters moment by moment, being so sourced within by the Truth, that you’re able to then give that water away to another. .
I thought Luke was my soulmate, and it caused hell in my marriage for years because I was expecting him to do something for me I was unwilling to do for myself—accept ME unconditionally. 💔As I committed to mate with MY soul this year, learning to fully embrace every single part of my existence, guess what. I actually dropped my desperation for a partner to complete me...relaxed in my feminine essence..& realized I don’t NEED a partner.
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I WANT one. ♥️ And my friends, that is a very different feeling. .
Need begins in desperation and lack.
Want begins in fullness. 🙌🏻
Now, I have a spiritual partner. 🙏🏻 Where we both are committed to the fullness of our inner cups so we now can mutually give. 💋
Want to learn how to do this?
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If you’re a woman, join my new private group👉🏻@spirituallysexy . We’ll explore some of these ideas. ♥️
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What is one way you can begin to be your soulmate today?
X, Christa (if you’re in the group already, tag a girlfriend!)
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I have a confession. I’ve been getting drunk these days. Very very drunk. <span class="emoji emoji2665"></span>️ . “Gratitude is the ...
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I have a confession. I’ve been getting drunk these days. Very very drunk. ️ . “Gratitude is the wine of the soul. Go on! Get drunk!” -Rumi . #grateFULL #crew #rideordie I have a confession. I’ve been getting drunk these days. Very very drunk. ♥️
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“Gratitude is the wine of the soul. Go on! Get drunk!” -Rumi
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#grateFULL #crew #rideordie
My lady parts have been through the ringer over the years. . Sexual abuse as a child. My sex drive/vagina ...
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My lady parts have been through the ringer over the years. . Sexual abuse as a child. My sex drive/vagina turning off completely as a newlywed when sex was now legal and holy. My cervix deciding it wasn’t safe to dilate fully and let my son Moses out as a newborn, resulting in a traumatic first ... My lady parts have been through the ringer over the years.
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Sexual abuse as a child.
My sex drive/vagina turning off completely as a newlywed when sex was now legal and holy.
My cervix deciding it wasn’t safe to dilate fully and let my son Moses out as a newborn, resulting in a traumatic first birth and painful tearing.
Giving birth to a 5lb bundle of gold who didn’t have her skull and the top of her head, resulting in unexpected infant death from anencephaly.
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As women, our capacity is limitless. We were created as females to receive all that the world throws at us, then transforming it and birthing something breathtaking out of the mess.
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But we can get stuck, can’t we ladies?  Especially in our femininity.  Especially in our womb.  When we harden up to protect ourselves from feeling more pain and trauma, we harden AROUND the pain and trauma we want to release, keeping it locked in our bodies, our cells, our pelvic floor, our sexuality, and our hearts.
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This year, I decided to soften into MYSELF—into the woman I was created to be. I decided to clear out my womb from all the traumatic emotional energy I was holding onto from old abuse, birth trauma, and infant death death.  I decided to soften into my naturally sexual side—a part of me I’d always felt wrong for exploring and embracing. .
And guess what. Femininity started to bloom. I began to soften up.  Sex started to register as off-the-charts-OH-MY-GAH good.  And my womb—my energy center in me that births creativity and life….it’s finally starting to birth LIFE in all areas—relationally, sexually, emotionally, spiritually, financially, mentally, and physically.
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I’m starting a new Instagram account for women called @spirituallysexy. Yes, that’s right. I’m going to explore the sexual side of spirituality inside a feminine space, but especially in womb clearing from past trauma (miscarriage, abuse, abortion, infant death, trauma in birth), sexual awakening (COMEON LADIES), & spiritual fertility in LIFE.
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If you’d like to explore the beautiful bloom of the divine, sacred feminine inside of you, join me.  @spirituallysexy
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#ohyesshedid #finallybeingmyself #causeimkindaoutthere #okimwaywaywayoutthere
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It’s one thing to say you love yourself. . It’s another thing to FEEL deep, abiding affection inside ...
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It’s one thing to say you love yourself. . It’s another thing to FEEL deep, abiding affection inside your bones—affection so powerful that when you look in the mirror, instead of seeing all that’s WRONG, your shoulders relax, your face softens into a grin, you turn your gaze towards the ... It’s one thing to say you love yourself.
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It’s another thing to FEEL deep, abiding affection inside your bones—affection so powerful that when you look in the mirror, instead of seeing all that’s WRONG, your shoulders relax, your face softens into a grin, you turn your gaze towards the sun and exhale, certain that you can thrive inside your skin…..
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Because inside your skin, you are held safely, securely in Love’s embrace.
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This love isn’t something you have to attain.  It’s not something you can extract and coerce from others.  It’s not a substance that you ever have to perform for, manipulate for, prostitute for, or be without.
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Because this Love…this thing you’ve searched for your whole life….it’s already on the inside of you. And we’re going to teach you how to FEEL it whenever you want. .
2 THINGS—>
1.You can either do what we did and wait until life feels like a hellacious war zone to find heaven (this love) inside….OR
2.You can learn each day, through a devoted sacred art of spiritual practices, to allow that inner heaven—that endless ocean of love—to be the foundation of your thoughts.  Of your emotions.  Of your actions.
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And it starts by learning to love who you are TODAY.
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Not YOU when you lose 25lb.  Not YOU when you beat that addiction.  Not YOU when you can somehow absolve the shame of your past with enough good deeds.  Not YOU when a spouse can love you and your marriage feels like a fairytale.  Not YOU when you’re the perfect mom, daughter, friend, coworker.
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You.  Now.  This ego-driven, scared, manipulative, insecure, imperfect human.  This person—this person you are NOW needs your love.  They need your devotion without judgment or shame.  They need your commitment to spiritual growth, to thriving physically and emotionally, to loving YOURSELF like the Divine has always loved you.
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Registration is now open for ‘The Love Yourself Retreat.’ Come hang out with us in Nashville July 27-29th at @urbancownboybnb and learn how to do what we’re still learning….to rest in love because we are ALWAYS loved.
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http://masterheart.com (only 15 slots left!)
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(link in profile). #Loveyourself #Masterheart
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Today, my love turns 36. <span class="emoji emoji1f389"></span> . But instead of writing a long schpeel about him, I’m just going to go be ...
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Today, my love turns 36. . But instead of writing a long schpeel about him, I’m just going to go be with him. And make his favorite dinner and dessert. And spend the day on his arm. And laugh while we enjoy our children who exist because he was born. . Grateful. Explosively grateful today. ... Today, my love turns 36. 🎉 .
But instead of writing a long schpeel about him, I’m just going to go be with him. And make his favorite dinner and dessert. And spend the day on his arm. And laugh while we enjoy our children who exist because he was born. .
Grateful.
Explosively grateful today.
For life.
For Love that’s stronger than death.
For good times and bad.
For the present.
For the future.
And for this man.
Glad you were born, ride-or-die. ♥️
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Happy birthday baby! 🎂
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From Luke: “I am scared to death. I am afraid of failing. I am afraid of lying. I am afraid I will ...
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From Luke: “I am scared to death. I am afraid of failing. I am afraid of lying. I am afraid I will ruin any sort of leadership entrusted to me. I don’t really want to lead you. I want you to know that you can lead and love yourself. I am afraid that showing you my ways, my little secrets, my little ... From Luke:
“I am scared to death.
I am afraid of failing.
I am afraid of lying.
I am afraid I will ruin any sort of leadership entrusted to me.
I don’t really want to lead you.
I want you to know that you can lead and love yourself.
I am afraid that showing you my ways, my little secrets, my little ‘wooden box of knick-knacks’ that helped me love myself will give you the impression that I am a master of this.
But I am just a student, like you are, learning to accept and love who I truly am.
I am a cheater.
I am a liar.
I am a fraud
I am all the way broken.
I am crazy.
I am compulsive.
I am a sinner.
I am hurt and I hurt people—especially the ones I care about the most.
I have betrayed trust and destroyed my life.
I have abused power and driven people I care about away.
I have become that which I feared the most…..
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Myself at my worst.
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It was at my worst, when I was living out all my secret terrors and pains, that I discovered the key to the mystery I have been trying to solve my entire life. I learned that there is a system, a way, a step-by-step process that will ensure that my deepest desire to find love is always accessible. I learned tools in this last season that, if I was willing to trust and apply like my life depended on it, I would never be without the love I will always want. .
At my worst, I loved myself.
At your worst, you can love yourself, too.
And we’re going to teach you how.” -Luke
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The website for the Love Yourself Retreat is up, friends. Registration officially opens on Tuesday. 🙌🏻♥️ (link in profile) #LoveYourself #AtyourbestANDworst #Masterheart
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My whole life has been one big quest to feel loved. <span class="emoji emoji2665"></span>️ “Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells ...
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My whole life has been one big quest to feel loved. ️ “Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so,” so why, even after praying that prayer as a kid and feeling the reality of Gods love like lightening, why did that reality seem to go away? And why couldn’t I get that feeling back and keep ... My whole life has been one big quest to feel loved. ♥️
“Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so,” so why, even after praying that prayer as a kid and feeling the reality of Gods love like lightening, why did that reality seem to go away? And why couldn’t I get that feeling back and keep it permanently inside my chest?
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I searched for that feeling of love from parents, teachers, friends. I fought to feel loved through success, fame, accolades. Maybe a perfect body would make me feel forever love. Maybe that job, that house, that car. 🚘
And then, my salvation--the love of a husband came. The love of a man committed to adore me ‘until death do us part’ put a ring on my finger. Surely, this would be the solution to all of my problems. Surely the love of this man would be the medicine to finally make all my inner pain go away, patching me up inside and satisfying my eternal heartache. 💋
But Luke’s love, though powerful and strong, wasn’t powerful or strong enough. And it made me angry.  Infuriated.  Hopeless.  Despondent. 💔
My husband’s love was never meant to save me.
My salvation lived inside all along. 🙌🏻
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Last year when Luke left our marriage and my deepest fear that I was unlovable came to life, I was given the greatest gift I’ve ever been given. I finally came face to face with my biggest demon---ME and my hatred of myself--and had to finally decide it was bullsh**t.  Every day, I chose to drag myself out of bed and make a conscious choice in morning meditation. I could either be a victim and let my outward circumstances of abandonment define me, or I could finally stop abandoning myself.
I committed to love me, until death do us part.
I committed to love me, in sickness and in health.
I committed to love me, in good times and bad.
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I finally learned to love ME—the light AND the dark. .
Are you ready to love YOU, even when life screams that you’re unlovable? End of July, Luke and I are putting on a retreat, sharing about our process this last year as we learned to love ourselves in completely ‘unlovable’ states--the highs and lows, the pain and the breakthroughs. Whose interested in learning how to love yourself? #LOVEYOURSELF
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When your love is a poet & writes things that melt your <span class="emoji emoji2665"></span>️ . “You are the shade that has sheltered ...
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When your love is a poet & writes things that melt your ️ . “You are the shade that has sheltered me amidst the storm. You are the branches beneath which I find rest and respite in my deepest pain. . Your eyes are the green that see through me and see me through. Your love is the roots unseen ... When your love is a poet & writes things that melt your ♥️
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“You are the shade that has sheltered me amidst the storm.
You are the branches beneath which I find rest and respite in my deepest pain.
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Your eyes are the green that see through me and see me through.
Your love is the roots unseen that ensure faithfulness and long-suffering.
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You have held my acorn heart and loved me into an oak tree.
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May our roots ever deepen,
Our canopies ever widen.
May our branches bear full life,
And the heights that we reach never find limit!”
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-Luke Gifford
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It’s been a hell of a year. But Spring is finally here. <span class="emoji emoji1f337"></span> . This year, I finally learned to let go ...
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It’s been a hell of a year. But Spring is finally here. . This year, I finally learned to let go of things I could never let go of. . I learned to let go of a marriage I thought was certain. I learned to let go of the expectations of others. I learned to let go of my outer control freak. I learned ... It’s been a hell of a year.
But Spring is finally here. 🌷
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This year, I finally learned to let go of things I could never let go of. .
I learned to let go of a marriage I thought was certain.
I learned to let go of the expectations of others.
I learned to let go of my outer control freak.
I learned to let go of my inner critic.
I learned to let go of your opinions.
I learned to let go of my deep need to please everyone at the expense of myself.
I learned to let go of my reputation. I learned to let go of the shame of my mistakes.
I learned to let go of my crippling fear of abandonment.
And I learned to embrace the excruciating terror of darkness….finding it’s the only way to ever trust the leading of the Light of God inside.
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When my world was pitch black this year, there was always a spark within me I could turn to.
When my life felt like a war zone, there was always a haven of peace inside.
When the storm winds blew and blew, I found a quiet retreat inside my spirit.
And when circumstances screamed of hopelessness, I learned to go inside and listen, trusting a Truth far greater than the reality in front of me.
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Thank you, God, for the darkest year of my life.  When the thing I thought was most certain was stripped away.  Thank you, God, for teaching me how to finally be at peace inside of mystery—trusting that You’re inside the chaos when all seems lost, working things for good. And thank you, God, for this man...my spiritual partner, my greatest gift, my constant teacher, my best friend.
Thank you, God, for showing this family that redemption is messy, raw, sometimes painful, but very very real.
xx, Christa
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(Yes, I know you have your questions.
No, right now I don’t feel obligated to have answers.
Just know the Gifford clan is healing, repairing, resting, retreating, and enjoying a marriage that isn’t going anywhere). 💍♥️
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To the greatest thing I have ever done. 🤱🏼To the greatest beings I have ever known. Thank you for choosing ...
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To the greatest thing I have ever done. 🤱🏼To the greatest beings I have ever known. Thank you for choosing me to be your mommy. Moses Grae Lionheart 🦁 Luca “Goldie” Gold 🏻 Birdie James Loxley “Lolli” Phoenix #happymothersday (also...I’m kind of in awe at the beauty of birth so #sorrynotsorry ... To the greatest thing I have ever done. 🤱🏼To the greatest beings I have ever known. Thank you for choosing me to be your mommy. ♥️🌷 Moses Grae Lionheart 🦁 Luca “Goldie” Gold 👼🏻 Birdie James 🐣 Loxley “Lolli” Phoenix 🎀🌷🔥 #happymothersday (also...I’m kind of in awe at the beauty of birth so #sorrynotsorry about the first pic) ♥️ #4babies
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I’ve been pretty silent for a while. <span class="emoji emoji2665"></span>️ Up until this last year, I live my life just leaking out whoever ...
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I’ve been pretty silent for a while. ️ Up until this last year, I live my life just leaking out whoever I was in the moment, instead of being very intentional about what the water faucet of my heart was producing. This year, I went inside with heaven and decided something big...it was time to ... I’ve been pretty silent for a while. ♥️ Up until this last year, I live my life just leaking out whoever I was in the moment, instead of being very intentional about what the water faucet of my heart was producing. This year, I went inside with heaven and decided something big...it was time to learn to love me and not leak out until I did. And from that love, give birth to a new me. A new sound. A new expression of Christa...one that intentionally lives in Love and speaks from THAT space. ♥️ Though I’m not sure if we ever arrive at that full goal while breathing, I’ve decided that it’s time to start speaking again a bit. And when my dear friend @jonathanamartin called and asked me to be he first guest of his podcast, I knew it was time. If you’re looking for some interesting conversation about love, God, the frequency of sound, what to do with deepest pain, and a bit of everything in between, check out Son Of A Preacher Man. ♥️ #sonofapreacherman #podcast (link in profile)
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For months, I’ve been sitting in silence and listening to the trees. To the wind. To the birds that ...
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For months, I’ve been sitting in silence and listening to the trees. To the wind. To the birds that I couldn’t tune into above the chatter of my restless mind. To the rustling of the leaves. I’ve been called a pantheist more than one time in my life, believing that the chair I’m sitting on ISN’T ... For months, I’ve been sitting in silence and listening to the trees. To the wind. To the birds that I couldn’t tune into above the chatter of my restless mind. To the rustling of the leaves. I’ve been called a pantheist more than one time in my life, believing that the chair I’m sitting on ISN’T God, but according to Genesis, can’t exist apart from Logos, or the Word. All things were made in Him. Through Him all things came to being. So in this new awareness of God everywhere and in all things and all people, I started being nicer to the guy who cut me off in traffic, realizing his cruelty wasn’t at all about me. I started being sweeter to my dog, who has a soul. I started tuning into the soil and dirt outside my house and thanking it for growing green, letting my kids get dirty and working to partner with the land to produce life. I’m a mystic, yes, and will always be. And the quieter I get inside my inner temple in meditation, allowing my soul to come in alignment with the always present Spirit, the more I hear the whispers of God all around me....in things I used to see as void of God. As void of soul. “When you love something, you grant it soul, you see its soul, and you let its soul touch yours.” Now that sounds like living to me. ❤️♥️ @cacradicalgrace #RichardRohr #dailyemail #soulknowssoul
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I guarantee you, he’s already checked out the back 9 on heaven’s golf course. <span class="emoji emoji2665"></span>️ Miss you, my Pablo. ...
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I guarantee you, he’s already checked out the back 9 on heaven’s golf course. ️ Miss you, my Pablo. Love, your CJ. #WarrenPaulNew #RIP I guarantee you, he’s already checked out the back 9 on heaven’s golf course. ♥️ Miss you, my Pablo. Love, your CJ. 💔 #WarrenPaulNew #RIP
My “Pablo” died on Tuesday. A day after Goldie’s birthday. <span class="emoji emoji1f494"></span><span class="emoji emoji2764"></span>️ I love thinking about them together ...
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My “Pablo” died on Tuesday. A day after Goldie’s birthday. ️ I love thinking about them together right now, getting nice and acquainted. Pablo was a story teller, so I’m sure he’s telling her all kinds of stories about her mama...his CJ. ️ He was the kind of guy who walked in a room and everyone ... My “Pablo” died on Tuesday. A day after Goldie’s birthday. 💔❤️ I love thinking about them together right now, getting nice and acquainted. Pablo was a story teller, so I’m sure he’s telling her all kinds of stories about her mama...his CJ. ☺️ He was the kind of guy who walked in a room and everyone could feel it...whether he was arguing a case in front of the jury or singing old songs to his friends on the golf course. For most of my childhood he had a cigar in his mouth...at night he switched to a pipe...but somehow managed to be as healthy as an ox. Pablo wasn’t the kind of guy who liked to lose, especially to death...and fought hard until 96 where he finally felt free enough to let go after 71 years of marriage to my Gran. ❤️ Miss you, Pablo. Miss our duets together and your witty jokes. Miss the smell of your pipe tobacco and heading down to the DQ to get blizzards together. Miss the way you drove way too fast in your Cadillac while listening to Crystal Gayle...& how you taught me how to eat Vienna sausages from a can while sipping Sprite. Miss you like crazy, but glad you’re free. Free to go play golf again. ☺️🙌🏻❤️ #WarrenPaulNew #RIP #Pablo #March62018
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It’s international women’s day. Which means it’s my day.<span class="emoji emoji1f483"></span>🏻 My day to feel into our sacred femininity ...
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It’s international women’s day. Which means it’s my day.🏻 My day to feel into our sacred femininity as women and sing to it until she feels safe enough to bloom in all her fullness. My day to celebrate the womb of a woman and all that she creates & releases into the earth, both physical and non-physical. ... It’s international women’s day. Which means it’s my day.💃🏻
My day to feel into our sacred femininity as women and sing to it until she feels safe enough to bloom in all her fullness. My day to celebrate the womb of a woman and all that she creates & releases into the earth, both physical and non-physical. ❤️ My day to embrace my body, my God-given sexuality, my curves and my radiance...knowing it was created to be seen as beautiful.
And we stare in awe at things that are beautiful, don’t we? ☺️❤️
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I look around at women and I’m overwhelmed with the beauty I see. Overwhelmed with the different skin colors, the eyes, the curves and the sizes. Overwhelmed at how creative The Divine had to get to release so much artistry in the female expression of God’s nature. Overwhelmed at how far we’ve come on the earth...from being revered as property, something to trade and use...to living in cultures that finally recognize we are equals standing beside men in all our feminine glory.
We are not men and we do not want to be. We are women finally standing up inside our radiance. And we are breathtaking.
The soul of a woman is a mysterious, deep, adventurously unpredictable place....& it was created to be that way. Our hearts ebb and flow like the wind. Our souls run with passion and cannot be tamed or stopped. We feel deep, nurture hard, and color the world with beauty and grace. .
And dear God, do we love. We were made for it. And when Love feels absent from our feminine souls, we shrivel and lose life. 💔
Which is why, as women, we must learn to love ourselves above all else. Where we have sought love from external sources, we must learn that it’s already within us. We as women must embrace every part of our feminine nature with loyal passion and let that love of the feminine nurture and feed us inside. ♥️
If anyone has told you that you’re not beautiful as a woman...that you’re not radiant and attractive and stunning and breathtaking...they lied to you. Because beauty is who you are. You can’t escape it. You can’t run from it. You can only learn to surrender to your beauty as a woman, lean back, and let the world behold a miracle. The miracle of woman. 💃🏻♥️Love u sisters.
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Can you imagine how amazing it would feel to be this free? Can you imagine how powerfully cleansing it must be to just lose the filter of what other people think about you...to not judge your abilities compared to others (like I sometimes do)....& just do what’s truly inside of your heart because ... Can you imagine how amazing it would feel to be this free? Can you imagine how powerfully cleansing it must be to just lose the filter of what other people think about you...to not judge your abilities compared to others (like I sometimes do)....& just do what’s truly inside of your heart because it makes you feel alive? 🙌🏻 This guy is a father. He’s an adult. He has a job. But he doesn’t let all the boxes or the “shoulds” that society puts on him to keep him from just being who he truly is on the dance floor in a room full of strangers. And who is he? Well, my friends, he’s someone who inspired this mama to take some risks today to be herself...in all her glory...even if it means wearing a unicorn onesie and dancing around like a wild woman at 7am. #GOALS 🙌🏻❤️ #daybreakernashville @daybreakernash #lifestooshortnottohavefun #whosaysyouretooold #shakewhatchamamagaveya
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I make words and sounds and hearts look pretty. But I’m always in awe of people that can also make tables ...
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I make words and sounds and hearts look pretty. But I’m always in awe of people that can also make tables and magazines and art and houses and clothes look pretty...all for the purpose of bringing relationships together to nourish & refresh the human soul. 🏻 Big massive thanks to @darling ... I make words and sounds and hearts look pretty. But I’m always in awe of people that can also make tables and magazines and art and houses and clothes look pretty...all for the purpose of bringing relationships together to nourish & refresh the human soul. 🙌🏻 Big massive thanks to @darling magazine and @magnolia magazine for creating a weekend for creatives to get together, and through good food & beautiful moments, allow friends to get into the sacred places of the heart....while eating and drinking and being quite merry. ❤️ I’m leaving Waco very full...very inspired...& very challenged to use the words I’ve been given to spill out and change the world around me. ♥️ #magnoliaxdarling #sisterfriends
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I tried for the “get them all in one shot” scenario and have them look at the camera and smile....” ...
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I tried for the “get them all in one shot” scenario and have them look at the camera and smile....” but that’s a bit like wrangling butterflies and making them dance in unison. ️ These three are the happiest, funnest, most beautiful, most resilient little hearts I’ve ever met. They constantly ... I tried for the “get them all in one shot” scenario and have them look at the camera and smile....” but that’s a bit like wrangling butterflies and making them dance in unison. ☺️ These three are the happiest, funnest, most beautiful, most resilient little hearts I’ve ever met. They constantly teach me what it means to go inside my inner world and CHOOSE to be who I truly am...a woman who LOVES every second of her existence. ❤️ They’re my best practice to become her all the time. They’re my best teachers. They’re my champions, my dance partners, my cuddlers, my fighters, my challengers. 💪🏻 Their little souls are so pure...so honest...so trustworthy. They thrive when I’m walking in love....& shrivel when they feel a deficit. 💔 Some days are long...some days I wonder how in the world possibly go inside and find more love to pour out to meet their needs as they grow and develop & yearn and need.....& then I remember. I’m not their source of love. I’m just the hands and arms and words and actions that pour out the PERFECT LOVE that lives inside my spirit. ❤️ What a gift I get this Valentines Day...to remember and honor the endless supply of love that inhabits my heart because HEAVEN is in there. ☺️ What a gift that these kids help me learn to act like the woman God created me to be—a woman so doesn’t just love...a woman who IS love. The greatest thing I’ve learned this year is this....I can never pour out pure love for them from a heart that I hate. And they deserve better than that, my little Valentines. ♥️ Thank you, babies, for helping me learn to truly love all of me so I can learn to love all of you. You’re the best Valentines this mama could ever ask for. ♥️♥️ #MosesGraeLionheart #LucaGold #BirdieJames #LoxleyPhoenix
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My daughter Birdie doesn’t wonder if she is a beautifully adored princess. She BELIEVES she’s one ...
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My daughter Birdie doesn’t wonder if she is a beautifully adored princess. She BELIEVES she’s one on the inside, so when Birdie looks in the mirror, a beautifully adored princess is all she sees. Birdie SEES how she FEELS….and so do all of us. ️ . Most mornings, Birdie begins by picking ... My daughter Birdie doesn’t wonder if she is a beautifully adored princess. She BELIEVES she’s one on the inside, so when Birdie looks in the mirror, a beautifully adored princess is all she sees. 👸
Birdie SEES how she FEELS….and so do all of us. ❤️
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Most mornings, Birdie begins by picking out her favorite princess dress, and proceeds to stand in front of the mirror twirling around as she exclaims, “Aren’t I so pretty, Mama? Look at me, I’m beautiful!” 💃🏻
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I look at her with the same excitement and exclaim, “Oh my goodness, Birdie, your OUTSIDES match your INSIDES!  Isn’t that just wonderful?” .
For decades, my outsides matched my insides when I looked in the mirror, and because my insides were full of self-hatred, shame, and inadequacy, when I looked at myself, that’s all I saw.  My eyes saw through feelings of a wounded past that I didn’t know how to let go of. I saw through feelings of insecurity still lingering from middle school. I saw through feelings that I was the talented girl, but not the pretty one.  Every time I looked in the mirror, I saw through feelings of inadequacy, of sexual shame, of the fear of being unloved. .
I saw what I felt about myself, and so do you, friend. 🤟🏻So how do you feel?
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Every day, instead of slaving to fix my body or my bank account, I FIRST must change my inner world before I do one, single thing to my outer world. I wake up early, moving into my heart with meditation, and I have learned to FEEL the truth about myself before I look in the mirror. I FEEL the love that’s always inside of me. I FEEL the joy, the peace, the contentment, the purpose. I feel my union with the Spirit that sources me with everything I need for life. I go inside my heart through meditation, and I FEEL the grace, the forgiveness, the compassion--all the fruits of the Spirit that I contain. I feel the way the TRUTH makes me feel, and then I look at myself.
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And these days, I feel so good that I can’t help but twirl around with Birdie. .
Want to twirl with us?  You gotta prioritize the inner work OVER the outer work.  I’ll teach you how. (:
Xx, Christa
#MasterHeart #HeartMasters #HeartMadeWhole
(photo: @tifforelie @ @urbancowboybnb
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I had a massive breakthrough earlier this year. I decided to let my house be what it needed to be as ...
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I had a massive breakthrough earlier this year. I decided to let my house be what it needed to be as a working mom with three small children. No more frantic pick-ups before guests came over, pretending life didn’t tend to sometimes resemble an explosion. No more frustrated rants storming ... I had a massive breakthrough earlier this year. I decided to let my house be what it needed to be as a working mom with three small children. No more frantic pick-ups before guests came over, pretending life didn’t tend to sometimes resemble an explosion. No more frustrated rants storming through the house at the end of the day if I was too tired to move. Instead of living in an internal swirl of anxiety, trying to control my external world in a horrible attempt to feel peace, I chose to start CREATING peace within.  And how did I do that? .
I started taking responsibility for my heart---and all the thoughts, emotions, words, and actions that came out of it. ❤️
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As a recovered control freak (I say recovered not because I’m perfect, but because its a personal declaration over my life), there are a few practices I’ve begun to implement in order to take control (or responsibility) over my inner world. .
And my most important DAILY practice has become meditation. 🙌🏻♥️
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Meditation doesn’t change you into someone you’re not---it stops the crazy you’ve piled on top of your TRUEST heart to get you back to who you REALLY are—an always loved, always connected child of God. It’s a practice where you choose to push the brakes on your fearful, neurotic, insecure thinking (that comes from old trauma & beliefs stored inside your heart), and relaxes you back into your core---your essence---the part of you created in the image and likeness of God who is always connected.  Always free.  Always at peace.  Always in joy. .
The more you practice heaven, the more you bring it into your earth.  The more you practice peace, the more it calms your inner storms.  The more you practice love, the more you live loved.
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Want to learn how? 🙋🏻🙌🏻 Head over to my website and subscribe to my email list, getting a free teaching on ‘5 Days to Stop the Crazy’ to get you started. (Link in profile!) If you’re already a subscriber, I’ll be sending out ‘Meditative Moments’ to practice getting your heart and mind into a place of stillness, where in the present moment, you can experience the Presence of God. 🙌🏻 #MasterHeart #HeartMaster #Meditation (photo: @tifforelie ❤️)
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