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Grocery shopping after leg day got me like️ Thank god the grocery store has leg day carts #legday #legdayproblems #gains #fitspo #fitness #fitfam #mealplan #macros #instafood #gym #gymlife #gymrat #workout #fitlife #bodybuilding #physique #crippled #rascals Grocery shopping after leg day got me like♿️ Thank god the grocery store has leg day carts 😂
#legday #legdayproblems #gains #fitspo #fitness #fitfam #mealplan #macros #instafood #gym #gymlife #gymrat #workout #fitlife #bodybuilding #physique #crippled #rascals
I hate having leg problems. I look crippled and I walk awfully weird. #beforeyouexit #rileymcdonough
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I hate having leg problems. I look crippled and I walk awfully weird. #beforeyouexit #rileymcdonough I hate having leg problems. I look crippled and I walk awfully weird. #beforeyouexit #rileymcdonough
Dear blue baby Krishna. I think I’m crippled from Monday’s leg workout. With a side of a fever. #funtimes ...
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Dear blue baby Krishna. I think I’m crippled from Monday’s leg workout. With a side of a fever. #funtimes #legs 🏋🏽‍♀️ #TNKSGD️ #whatsmynamebaby! #milliondollarsmile #TeamPatel #BodyBuilder #momstrong #fitmom #love #MomLife #Sons #MyMen #RaisingGentlemen #Protan #BreakTheStatusQuo #QualityOverQuantity #Fit ... Dear blue baby Krishna.
I think I’m crippled from Monday’s leg workout.
With a side of a fever.
#funtimes #legs 🏋🏽‍♀️💰💋 #TNKSGD💯📱☕️
#whatsmynamebaby!
#milliondollarsmile #TeamPatel #BodyBuilder #momstrong #fitmom #love
#MomLife #Sons #MyMen
#RaisingGentlemen #Protan
#BreakTheStatusQuo
#QualityOverQuantity
#Fit #SprayTanning #Winning #GlamIsLife #GymIsLife #SkinCareIsLife
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#BodyBuilder4Life
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This is the last photo I took of them both, I know I said I’d take some time off Instagram but the amazing ...
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This is the last photo I took of them both, I know I said I’d take some time off Instagram but the amazing comments and messages I’ve been receiving are somewhat comforting me through the most heartbreaking time in my life. However I don’t appreciate the comments and messages I’ve been getting ... This is the last photo I took of them both, I know I said I’d take some time off Instagram but the amazing comments and messages I’ve been receiving are somewhat comforting me through the most heartbreaking time in my life. However I don’t appreciate the comments and messages I’ve been getting saying it’s terrible that I got George put to sleep. I haven’t taken offence but that’s besides the point. I realise I’ve shared so much of my life on here and have a lot of people watching and whilst that opens me up for both negative and positive comments I don’t think that gives someone the right to message me abuse at a time like this. I’ve always been open and honest on Instagram and through my blog when I had it. So many have you have followed mine, George’s and Tilly’s journey over the last 5 years and because of that I’ve been able to give them both such a good life. Even though I shared a photo of me crying and holding George in his final moments yesterday there are things I’ve held back from sharing like George being crippled over in discomfort, his leg turning black where his skin was dying and his skin turning yellow from jaundice. So no I’m not a terrible person for making the decision I’ve made, only me and the closest people to me saw George in the state he was in yesterday and even though I did feel guilty at first I know deep down in my heart it’s what George would have wanted and I was only keeping him alive for my own selfish reasons. He was the most fun loving, crazy dog and to see him lifeless broke me. I couldn’t carry on his final days watching him deteriorate even further just because I wanted extra time with him. I still wanted him to have some of his lovely personality when he died and he did. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make but he had cancer and his life wasn’t going to get any better. I am really struggling with it all but the support I’ve received has blown me away and now I just wanna give tilly even more of an amazing life because the last week of George’s life just shows anything can happen. Hold your fur babies even tighter today and cherish every second with them 💘
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Sixty years ago, when beautiful, lightweight racing cars were in vogue, even Skoda had a go. - My ...
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Sixty years ago, when beautiful, lightweight racing cars were in vogue, even Skoda had a go. - My left jean leg is sodden. My palms are blistered, my backside is crippled with cramp, and the fingers I can still feel are riddled with chilblains. And yet, despite a list of uncomfortable injuries ... Sixty years ago, when beautiful, lightweight racing cars were in vogue, even Skoda had a go.
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My left jean leg is sodden. My palms are blistered, my backside is crippled with cramp, and the fingers I can still feel are riddled with chilblains. And yet, despite a list of uncomfortable injuries that’d have Anastasia Steele on the phone to HR, I’m having the time of my life. Great cars can do that for you. If they’re making an indelible mark on your memories in addition to ruining your hands and trousers, they’re pretty much forgiven.
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Driving Skoda’s rare 1958 prototype racer | Read the full story at #TopGear.com
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Leg less crippled bird fantasy dragging trough space
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Master Sergeant (then Staff Sergeant) Roy P. Benavidez United States Army, who distinguished ...
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Master Sergeant (then Staff Sergeant) Roy P. Benavidez United States Army, who distinguished himself by a series of daring and extremely valorous actions on 2 May 1968 while assigned to Detachment B56, 5th Special Forces Group (Airborne), 1st Special Forces, Republic of Vietnam. On the ... Master Sergeant (then Staff Sergeant) Roy P. Benavidez United States Army, who distinguished himself by a series of daring and extremely valorous actions on 2 May 1968 while assigned to Detachment B56, 5th Special Forces Group (Airborne), 1st Special Forces, Republic of Vietnam. On the morning of 2 May 1968, a 12-man Special Forces Reconnaissance Team was inserted by helicopters in a dense jungle area west of Loc Ninh, Vietnam to gather intelligence information about confirmed large-scale enemy activity. This area was controlled and routinely patrolled by the North Vietnamese Army. After a short period of time on the ground, the team met heavy enemy resistance, and requested emergency extraction. Three helicopters attempted extraction, but were unable to land due to intense enemy small arms and anti-aircraft fire. Sergeant Benavidez was at the Forward Operating Base in Loc Ninh monitoring the operation by radio when these helicopters returned to off-load wounded crewmembers and to assess aircraft damage. Sergeant Benavidez voluntarily boarded a returning aircraft to assist in another extraction attempt. Realizing that all the team members were either dead or wounded and unable to move to the pickup zone, he directed the aircraft to a nearby clearing where he jumped from the hovering helicopter, and ran approximately 75 meters under withering small arms fire to the crippled team. Prior to reaching the team's position he was wounded in his right leg, face, and head. Despite these painful injuries, he took charge, repositioning the team members and directing their fire to facilitate the landing of an extraction aircraft, and the loading of wounded and dead team members. He then threw smoke canisters to direct the aircraft to the team's position. Despite his severe wounds and under intense enemy fire, he carried and dragged half of the wounded team members to the awaiting aircraft. He then provided protective fire by running alongside the aircraft as it moved to pick up the remaining team members. As the enemy's fire intensified, he hurried to recover the body and classified documents on the dead team leader.
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120kg across the floor for shits and giggles my posterior chain is one of my weak spots, so am building it up alongside the single leg rehab I’m doing for my hip (AGAIN. Who else feels old and crippled?) 120kg across the floor for shits and giggles 💪 my posterior chain is one of my weak spots, so am building it up alongside the single leg rehab I’m doing for my hip (AGAIN. Who else feels old and crippled?)
I don't skip leg day, but I also will be crippled for the next few days #1080lbs #24plates #dead I don't skip leg day, but I also will be crippled for the next few days 😭 #1080lbs #24plates #dead
I wrote on my inabilities to drive any kinda vehicle a long while ago. I knew eventually the day would ...
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I wrote on my inabilities to drive any kinda vehicle a long while ago. I knew eventually the day would come when I would prove everyone (the hard way) that this is actually very true. And that day was a gorgeous sunny day in Ubud when I graciously kissed the asphalt after my very first try on a scooter. Ubud ... I wrote on my inabilities to drive any kinda vehicle a long while ago. I knew eventually the day would come when I would prove everyone (the hard way) that this is actually very true. And that day was a gorgeous sunny day in Ubud when I graciously kissed the asphalt after my very first try on a scooter.

Ubud was a beautiful, tranquil oasis - quite the opposite to my comic fall and bloody aftermath of it. Funnily I fell on the same leg which got plunged into a sewer in KL, and think my left side is now officially my "bad" side, or at least the crippled one (all tips on how to keep yourself in one piece are encouraged) .

I guess the days of a clumsy person never get boring ♿

#expecttheunexpected #thuglife #instatravel #scenery #ubud #unescoworldheritage #lifeontheroad #backpacking #bali #traveling #indonesia #solonista #culture #riceandtemples #asia
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Pretty much sums up my tgif with a malfunction leg <span class="emoji emoji1f62d"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f62d"></span> #crippled #pigtrotter <span class="emoji emoji1f4e3"></span> DISCLAIMER: Please ...
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Pretty much sums up my tgif with a malfunction leg #crippled #pigtrotter DISCLAIMER: Please do take note that recently theres’ multiple factitious comments on my post(s). I would like to state that these comments were not a result of me buying comments to increase the stats of my profile. ... Pretty much sums up my tgif with a malfunction leg 😭😭 #crippled #pigtrotter
📣 DISCLAIMER: Please do take note that recently theres’ multiple factitious comments on my post(s). I would like to state that these comments were not a result of me buying comments to increase the stats of my profile. If anyone has a solution to resolve this problem please DM me as I’m unable to delete the comments because once I’ve deleted them, they will keep resurfacing.
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-GRADUATION- Woohoo this guy has graduated! Well done for finishing up 4 years of uni with a Distinction ...
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-GRADUATION- Woohoo this guy has graduated! Well done for finishing up 4 years of uni with a Distinction and smashing through your new job! Also, good job for not tripping on stage with your crippled leg 🙃 #getinstagram #pls #taggingnoone #graduation -GRADUATION-
Woohoo this guy has graduated! Well done for finishing up 4 years of uni with a Distinction and smashing through your new job! 😊🎓
Also, good job for not tripping on stage with your crippled leg 🙃😅 #getinstagram #pls #taggingnoone #graduation
Just two bros training glutes together, no big deal. @mattogus and I had a stellar training session ...
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Just two bros training glutes together, no big deal. @mattogus and I had a stellar training session the other day that left both of us fairly crippled. I believe Matt is pound for pound the strongest hip thruster on the planet. We warmed up then he ended up hitting 725 lbs for 5 reps (I only got ... Just two bros training glutes together, no big deal.
@mattogus and I had a stellar training session the other day that left both of us fairly crippled.
I believe Matt is pound for pound the strongest hip thruster on the planet. We warmed up then he ended up hitting 725 lbs for 5 reps (I only got it once 🙁) with a loop around his knees which is 4X bodyweight for him as he weighs 180 lbs!
Then we did band shoulder and feet elevated hip thrusts with 2 strong bands for 2 sets of 25 reps off the Glute Builder, 2 sets of 10 lever reverse lunges, 2 sets of you 10 lever single leg RDLs, and a burnout set of 40-50 reps off the seated hip abduction machine. Swipe left to see all vids.
#glutelab #gluteguy #mattogus
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Floor is finally done in Mini Me's room. On a side note, today was leg day at the gym. This was a workout ...
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Floor is finally done in Mini Me's room. On a side note, today was leg day at the gym. This was a workout in itself. I am crippled....so glad it's done. #CANADA #IAMCANADIAN #IAMAROOSTER #WETHENORTH #TOOLTIMEGIRL Floor is finally done in Mini Me's room. On a side note, today was leg day at the gym. This was a workout in itself. I am crippled....so glad it's done. #CANADA #IAMCANADIAN #IAMAROOSTER #WETHENORTH #TOOLTIMEGIRL
I realized today my overall quality of life is directly connected to how hard I work. Sounds like an obvious statement but I’ll tell you what I mean. Because I’m a little older and my body can’t take the same abuse I used to put it thru in my 20’s, I’ve had to scale back to avoid injury. Ive found ... I realized today my overall quality of life is directly connected to how hard I work.
Sounds like an obvious statement but I’ll tell you what I mean.
Because I’m a little older and my body can’t take the same abuse I used to put it thru in my 20’s, I’ve had to scale back to avoid injury.
Ive found that the last month or so I’m just in a shit mood all the time and have a pent up negative energy.
Today I realized why.
The gym is my release. When I get there I buckle up, close my eyes and torment the fuck out of myself until I’m almost crippled.
I know overtraining, blah, blah, blah. It’s not something I do because it’s necessarily better.
I do it because that’s what I love about lifting. I love going in and seeing how far I can push that limit.
Today instead of being careful I said “fuck it, I’m gonna go banana’s but with some level of thought”. So I did. I didn’t go crazy heavy but the intensity was off the charts and when I was done, that feeling had come back to me.
It’s a feeling of peace. Of accomplishment. Of putting an anxious mind to rest.
I know I sound mental right now, but I’m positive SOME of you know exactly what I’m talking about.
Not many will ever push themselves to that point because it hurts. But if you ever have the courage to, trust me you WILL NOT regret it.
Best feeling on earth.
Below is the workout, doesn’t look like much on paper but my legs were trembling by the time I was done.
LEG DAY.
Lying Leg Curl (occluded)
10 sets x 12-15 reps (30 sec rest)
Leg Press (feet close together)
10 sets x 15 reps (30-45sec rest)
Leg Extension (heavy)
10 sets x 15 reps (30-45sec rest)
Hack Squat (banded, feet close)
10 sets x 10 reps
Seated Leg Curl (occluded)
10 sets x 12-15 reps (30sec rest)
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If you finish. Pat yourself on the fuckin back! Then wobble home and eat some fish and green beans 😬
#hoss
#real
#sacrificewithoutregret
#kagedmuscle
#ironrebel
#dyingbreed
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 #HEALINGANIMALS⠀ ⠀ In 2009 while participating in a #diving contest in #China, Yang Yun's leg ...
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#HEALINGANIMALS⠀ ⠀ In 2009 while participating in a #diving contest in #China, Yang Yun's leg developed debilitating cramps within the freezing #water. She said that the cramps crippled her leg and she sank deep into the water. She was on the verge of death when she felt a strong force pushing ... #HEALINGANIMALS⠀

In 2009 while participating in a #diving contest in #China, Yang Yun's leg developed debilitating cramps within the freezing #water. She said that the cramps crippled her leg and she sank deep into the water. She was on the verge of death when she felt a strong force pushing her to the surface. She later discovered that the incredible force was from a #BelugaWhale, named #Mila. Mila used her nose to push her to the surface and #saved the 26 year olds life. What a good friend! #animalfriend #earth #saveourskins #ecolog #education #inspiration #conservation #sentient
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tip: if you're crippled, wear a really cute dress to distract from the giant knee immobilizer on ...
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tip: if you're crippled, wear a really cute dress to distract from the giant knee immobilizer on your leg 😎 tip: if you're crippled, wear a really cute dress to distract from the giant knee immobilizer on your leg 😎
When your commitment to the gains is on another level 🤣 #thestruggleisREAL . Barely walked in the gym today.....because I could barely walk thanks to my quad pain from leg day wth coach on Wednesday LOL. Figured I better even it out so I went to town on glutes and hams. SOS SEND HELP! . Who ... When your commitment to the gains is on another level 🤣 #thestruggleisREAL
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Barely walked in the gym today.....because I could barely walk thanks to my quad pain from leg day wth coach on Wednesday LOL. Figured I better even it out so I went to town on glutes and hams. SOS SEND HELP!
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Who else liked to feel crippled 24/7 🙆🏻‍♀️
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Prob about time I finish this set o three, huh? My apologies... was on lots of drugs and therefore ...
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Prob about time I finish this set o three, huh? My apologies... was on lots of drugs and therefore sleeping ALL THE TIMES and then miserable and in pain and then mopey and now... Im doing ok. This whole healing from my first super intense surgery is quite the experience. I’ve finally run out of ... Prob about time I finish this set o three, huh? My apologies... was on lots of drugs and therefore sleeping ALL THE TIMES and then miserable and in pain and then mopey and now... Im doing ok. This whole healing from my first super intense surgery is quite the experience. I’ve finally run out of pizza and I’m finally eating the healthy stuff in my fridge I spent WEEKS prepping AND my mom comes back tomorrow and I’m SO EXCITED! We’re going to go get the crippled parking pass from the Disco Park Discovery Center so I can hobble around the beach and scramble up rocks on my crutches. Maybe I’ll try some one legged hopping around on this now mighty right leg or climb trees w my now superwoman strength arms thanks to all this walker draggin. What could possibly go wrong?! 😜 •




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Confessions of a Cripple 1️⃣1️⃣ weight bearing cast • I had my dr appt today where I got a new “walking” ...
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Confessions of a Cripple 1️⃣1️⃣ weight bearing cast • I had my dr appt today where I got a new “walking” cast I can finally start trying to stand on my left leg, and even trying to take some steps. I did try, for a couple hours today, and it so so so saddens me to say I can not do it yet. I can not put my ... Confessions of a Cripple 1️⃣1️⃣ weight bearing cast • I had my dr appt today where I got a new “walking” cast 🏥 I can finally start trying to stand on my left leg, and even trying to take some steps. I did try, for a couple hours today, and it so so so saddens 😔 me to say I can not do it yet. I can not put my full weight on it yet. But I AM TRYING. 💪🏽 my poor leg was naked today at the drs office for like 30 minutes, and oh my god how little and pathetic it looks! But how free it felt! I can’t wait to get back muscle and tone and COLOR and a naked leg without the weight of a cast on it! 💕 I knew this process wouldn’t be easy, but i never imagined it being THIS HARD. 80% of this journey is mental, and 20% is physical. 🧠 Trying to get my brain and body to communicate how to walk, is more frustrating than I ever thought it could be. I mean really, how hard is it to walk or take a step? I’ve been doing it for 20+ years. Welp, it’s hard. 🤬 So hard I cry just trying to lock my knee long enough to support myself. As it turns out, I have nerve damage so I do not even have full motion of my toes, and I might not ever again. 👣 My body will let me walk again is what I keep repeating to myself. But I swear, its not as easy as you might think. This is what I have to work with. I’ve accepted right now it’s not that I can’t, it’s that I cant YET. BUT I WILL. One very slow long feels like forever day at a time. Countdown 3 weeks till my next appt! • #confessionsofacripple #crippled #brokenleg #fibula #brokenfibula #cast #castlife #crutches #walkingcast #Injury #injuriessuck #learningtowalkagain #itssohard #mentalstate #physical
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Since it is my last full day having a peg leg thought it was appropriate to share a video of my crippled self working out. Song -- the notorious big ft ha rule old thing back #crippled #fulllegcast #peglegpirate #parachutepantsononesideofmypants #wheredidileavemycrutches #fitfam ... Since it is my last full day having a peg leg thought it was appropriate to share a video of my crippled self working out.
Song -- the notorious big ft ha rule old thing back
#crippled #fulllegcast #peglegpirate #parachutepantsononesideofmypants #wheredidileavemycrutches #fitfam #crippleswholift #fitness #fitnessmotivation #fitgirls #fitspo #mylegisatwizzler
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Yesterday’s leg session absolutely crippled me, was fun flying home today after cardio and now back on cardio soon as I landed 🤦🏽‍♂️. Just 2 exercises here, leg press and stiff leg deadlifts. I feel I’ve made some good improvements all round to my physique, especially my legs due to these ... Yesterday’s leg session absolutely crippled me, was fun flying home today after cardio and now back on cardio soon as I landed 😩🤦🏽‍♂️. Just 2 exercises here, leg press and stiff leg deadlifts. I feel I’ve made some good improvements all round to my physique, especially my legs due to these brutal workouts. Check in tomorrow morning with the boss @trainedbyjp . Haven’t weighed myself all week in Marbella due to not having scales. So tomorrow’s first weigh in after around 10 days so I’m quite interested to see what’s happened as I’m definitely much tighter than last check in... 3 weeks tomorrow let’s go. #trainedbyjp #legday #legs #training #train #win #mensphysique #pca #pcaarmy #marbella #m13gym #m13marbella #marbs #nocarbsbeforemarbs #spain #holiday #shredded #tightasadrum #legpress #deadlift #stifflegs #hacksquat #squat #quads #improved #improvements #spaesthetics #doitwithpassion
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The last selfie i took that night we wrecked. 8 hours later we went air bound and rolled the car a couple ...
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The last selfie i took that night we wrecked. 8 hours later we went air bound and rolled the car a couple times. We waited 45 minutes for paramedics to show up and by that time i realized what true pain was. My leg was mangled and everytime i moved it i felt every bone crack and pop and the pain was excruciating. ... The last selfie i took that night we wrecked. 8 hours later we went air bound and rolled the car a couple times. We waited 45 minutes for paramedics to show up and by that time i realized what true pain was. My leg was mangled and everytime i moved it i felt every bone crack and pop and the pain was excruciating. I was then flew out to Tucson where they would tell me my back was broke and that i needed surgery on both my leg and back and that they would insert metal rods in my back and leg. It was a horrific tragedy that almost cost us our lifes. What saved me was my seat belt, without it i wouldnt be writing this right now. I know seat belts can be annoying and uncool but its better than being dead. I appreciate being alive and i miss walking more than anything. Thats my story and i would like everyone to take this into consideration next time they feel like seat belts aren't relevant because one day you can wake up and be crippled
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Today’s LEG DAY consisted of: 4 sets 10 reps of lying leg curls 4 sets 10 reps stiff leg dead lifts 8 sets 10 reps of squats 2 sets 100 reps of leg extensions!!! Currently crippled ... Thanks to the Punisher 🏼 @_roshanpatel1_ #MCM #warrior #barbarian #spartan #crazyeyes #brownman ... Today’s LEG DAY consisted of:

4 sets 10 reps of lying leg curls
4 sets 10 reps stiff leg dead lifts
8 sets 10 reps of squats
2 sets 100 reps of leg extensions!!! Currently crippled ... Thanks to the Punisher 💪🏼😏😍 @_roshanpatel1_ #MCM #warrior #barbarian #spartan #crazyeyes #brownman #strongaf #sexyass #buff #sculpted #punisher #traindirty #trainhard #weightlifting #legday #quadzilla #quads #hamstrings #fitcouple #couplegoals #fitness #trainingcentergym @therealsamir @trainingcentergym
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After the loss at Gettysburg, Confederate General James Longstreet would remark how they fought ...
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After the loss at Gettysburg, Confederate General James Longstreet would remark how they fought over land that was of no consequence. You couldn’t say that about Vicksburg, Mississippi, as it was the final stronghold on that great river with all its logistical and strategic value. Beginning ... After the loss at Gettysburg, Confederate General James Longstreet would remark how they fought over land that was of no consequence. You couldn’t say that about Vicksburg, Mississippi, as it was the final stronghold on that great river with all its logistical and strategic value. Beginning in May, Grant settled a siege around the city. Over 32,000 casualties would occur for the confederates (both civilian and military) by their surrender on July 4. The people could find no protection from the relentless barrage of artillery and mortar fire, you can see in this photo how they were digging caves to try and hide from the shelling. Dora Miller wrote this in her journal: “June 25th. - A horrible day. The most horrible yet to me, because I’ve lost my nerve. We were all in the cellar, when a shell came tearing through the roof, burst upstairs, tore up that room, and the pieces coming through both floors down into the cellar. One of them tore open the leg of H_’s pantaloons. This was tangible proof the cellar was no place of protection from them. On the heels of them came Mr. J_ , to tell us that the young Mrs. P_ had had her thigh-bone crushed. When Martha went for the milk she came back horror-stricken to tell us the black girl there had her arm taken off by a shell. For the first time I quailed. I do not think people who are physically brave deserve much credit for it; it is a matter of nerves. In this way I am constitutionally brave, and seldom think of danger till it is over; and death has not the terrors for me it has for some others. Every night I had lain down expecting death, and every morning rose to the same prospect, without being unnerved. It was for H_ I trembled. But now I first seemed to realize that something worse than death might come; I might be crippled, and not be killed. Life, without all one’s powers and limbs, was a thought that broke down my courage. I said to H_, “You must get me out of this horrible place; I cannot stay; I know I shall be crippled.” Now the regret comes that I lost control, because H_ is worried, and has lost his composure, because my coolness has broken down.”
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Visit grocery stores and playgrounds, we say. They’re two places to get a not-quite-as-touristy ...
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Visit grocery stores and playgrounds, we say. They’re two places to get a not-quite-as-touristy perspective. Today we added a third. This morning Lo got a lesson on ropes course safety and then was trusted to go out and follow the rules. Take leaps but not be an idiot. This afternoon we ... Visit grocery stores and playgrounds, we say. They’re two places to get a not-quite-as-touristy perspective. Today we added a third.

This morning Lo got a lesson on ropes course safety and then was trusted to go out and follow the rules. Take leaps but not be an idiot.

This afternoon we went back to the BMX course. She went hard. Then she wiped out hard. I got her home with piggyback rides and lollipop bribes. After an hour of not being able to put weight on her leg, we headed to the ER.
At home, this would’ve been agonizing. A hurt child is the worst. Our first job, we tell her, is to keep her safe. But our friend Paul also said you gotta let them do stuff, even if they break stuff. So we embrace hanging from high things and leaping from high things and doing things that make my mom knees buckle.

The agony at home would’ve been, also in a gross part, financial. What if she needed a cast? Or god, surgery? What would we do? Beyond having nearly a month left far from home, that would’ve been a burden at home that would’ve crippled us as self-employed people. We know the stats of medical financial hardships and we still fall in the lucky camp.

Tonight? We spent under two hours with incredibly friendly, smart people at the local ER. They were kind to Loie, patient with us, thoughtful and deliberate. X-rays and a check revealed a painful deep bruise but no break. All in all, it was around $200 dollars. That’s it. We stood there and asked about the future bills we’d surely get. No, no, take your daughter home. She’ll be fine and you’re all set.

There’s got to be an easy lesson here somewhere. That countries that embolden their young people to stretch and try and grow also support them when they fall and don’t bankrupt their parents. That surely builds resiliency in families and in kids. We’re so off in the US. We bubble wrap kids and then ruin the parents anyway when the kids do get a busted bone.

At the end of the day Lo said “Well, if I have to walk slow, at least I’ll see more at the art museum.” Here’s to a kid who can see the bright side. And to systems that help them (and their parents) take good care of what matters.
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The past couple of weeks health has been the main theme. I went to the ob for the first time since my ...
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The past couple of weeks health has been the main theme. I went to the ob for the first time since my miscarriages, bringing up every feeling that I felt two and a half years ago. Someone I love more than anything was diagnosed with bladder cancer and I went home for the surgery, Millie woke up not ... The past couple of weeks health has been the main theme. I went to the ob for the first time since my miscarriages, bringing up every feeling that I felt two and a half years ago. Someone I love more than anything was diagnosed with bladder cancer and I went home for the surgery, Millie woke up not able to walk on one leg so we rushed her in to get x-rays in fear of some crazy infection, and to top it all off last night I basically saved Bogie’s (our dog) life because a treat was jammed in the back of his throat and he was choking. Dealing with all of this has put me in a state of shock. Every time I go to process one thing something else happens. Everything has ended well. Everything in this story has had a good ending. But I can’t help but feel dread. Yesterday at church we sang the song “Good Good Father” and the preacher told me that God can do anything. He is good. He is for us. We can ask Him anything and He wants to provide for us. The last time I faced bad health, the last time I faced death I was told that God chose this for me. That God created my miscarriages to teach me something. I had a finger pointed at me and told repeatedly “God CHOSE these miscarriages for you! Created them for YOU!” My faith has honestly never been the same since. I have been crippled and trying to understand God. Understand that if He is who those who hurt me so badly say He is, then I have no hope. The God that I have always believed in is all of a sudden a murderer. A murderer that chooses to send his kids to hell. Thankfully for two and a half years I haven’t faced sickness or death. I haven’t had to cry out to God and beg Him for someone’s life that I love. But all of a sudden, in a two week period I’ve had to grapple with why I feel such complete fear and anger around everything that’s happening. I honestly think that I let those lies creep back in. Maybe they never really left me, hanging over me like a constant cloud. I forgot that He is a good good Father. Forgot that He is the dad of redemption. Forgot that He didn’t choose my miscarriages. He allowed them, yes. Forgot that the good God that I follow is not a God of death, but He is a God of Life.
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