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There is a moment of clarity when I am still. I’ve been lied to all this time and I’ve slowly made my ...
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There is a moment of clarity when I am still. I’ve been lied to all this time and I’ve slowly made my Best Friend my greatest enemy. I am in need of saving, but when there is stillness, there is a knowing; a knowing that I’m seen, held, safe, okay, and loved. I am fighting everyday to recalibrate ... There is a moment of clarity when I am still.
I’ve been lied to all this time and I’ve slowly made my Best Friend my greatest enemy. I am in need of saving, but when there is stillness, there is a knowing; a knowing that I’m seen, held, safe, okay, and loved. I am fighting everyday to recalibrate because time and time again,
You prove to me that You are not my enemy.
You are not against me.
You are not hurting me— in fact protecting me.
You are hurting when I am hurting.
You are smiling when I am laughing.
You are hugging me when I am in need.
My hands have callouses, but my heart still feels You.
My head is all over the place, but my feet remember their way Home.
My eyes are in a blur, but my vision becomes clear when I close them.
I remember now— You’re the one who carried me and my loved ones when there was a fire.
You’re the one who warred for me and my loved ones when we were getting robbed.
You’re the one who still loves me despite pushing You away.
I remember now— my Best Friend.
I remember now— my Father.
I remember now— my confidence.
I remember now— my joy.
I remember now— my help.
I remember now— my satisfaction.
I remember now— my clarity.
How is it that You’d still listen when I’ve only made You an enemy?
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Shout out to the big boss and one of my best friends @coach.pmac.limitless on the endless pursuit ...
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Shout out to the big boss and one of my best friends @coach.pmac.limitless on the endless pursuit of his dreams! Congratulations on the opening of your new performance facility brother! I still remember the conversations we had a year and a half ago, and now it's come to fruition! #Repost ... Shout out to the big boss and one of my best friends @coach.pmac.limitless on the endless pursuit of his dreams! Congratulations on the opening of your new performance facility brother! I still remember the conversations we had a year and a half ago, and now it's come to fruition! #Repost @limitlesstraining (@get_repost)
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ANNOUNCEMENT: I will finally be opening my own gym this fall. When I was 17 I had already decided that this day would come. I thought the journey had ended after my injury, but it was literally just the beginning. LIMITLESS Training Centre will be a live representation of everything I have ever worked on, from Mady's Karate, to training for football with @glenn_mackay and @luisgabrielmendez , then my years of therapy and rehab training at various rehab hospitals and Physio clinics (literally too many to mention besides CSCIR at RIM and Julie at Physio-Logic especially 🙏🏽🐐). Training with @frankjeney was a blessing I never thought would happen after my injury. I always wanted to help people do the things I worked so hard for; injury recovery and off-season sports training. Even after I became a trainer though, I didn't think a high-level athlete would listen to a cripple... it was the paradigm I lived in. Then @joeiatzko and my lifelong friend Tarrence Crawford asked me to train them after the 2015 OUA season. My paradigm was forced to change, and @frankjeney came back for blessing round 2 and hired me as a strength coach for @uwlancerfb . The rest is history! Thank you so much to all those above, who shaped me as an athlete and a trainer, and to the dozens upon dozens of trainers and physiotherapists who also have contributed to my experiences 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽. And thanks to all my clients and employers over the last few years for all the opportunities you've afforded me! MOSTLY though, thank you to my mother, whom I wouldn't have ever ever ever recovered at all without. It was her relentless hard work and passion to see me heal that drove me in my darkest hours. I love you mom ❤️ I will not let you down, I never have 💪🏽💪🏽🙏🏽
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Be thankful for closed doors, detours and roadblocks. They protect you from paths and places not ...
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Be thankful for closed doors, detours and roadblocks. They protect you from paths and places not meant for you. ️ When I graduated from school, I struggled to find a job in my industry. I felt like I was doing all the right things, but I wasn't getting ahead. I worked hard to save enough money ... Be thankful for closed doors, detours and roadblocks. They protect you from paths and places not meant for you. ❤️ When I graduated from school, I struggled to find a job in my industry. I felt like I was doing all the right things, but I wasn't getting ahead.
I worked hard to save enough money and paid for my education in cash. This meant I graduated with no debt. But after months of trying to find a job (and having no income), my money was quickly running out.
I was broke.
I wasn't sure what to do. I went to a few recruiting agencies to help me find a job in my industry. But this lead to another dead end.
I remember feeling so defeated. I felt like a failure. I didn't realize it at the time, but God was telling me that he had bigger plans for me.
So, I decided to book a weekend getaway with my boyfriend. This was at the beginning of 2016. I know it sounds silly, but sometimes a simple weekend getaway can do wonders for helping you clear your mind, find your priorities, and regain focus.
When I got back from my mini-trip, I decided to start my own business. I took a HUGE risk.
I had a hobby blog at the time, and I started learning how to monetize a blog. Everything was new to me. And let me tell you, it wasn't easy. Nothing worth doing will ever be easy.
But within a few months, I hit my first $1K month. I was over the moon! Then within a year, I hit my first $10K month.

For the first time in a long time, I felt like this was my purpose. Helping others was so rewarding.
It's funny where life takes you. I never would have imagined that I'd be working from home doing what I love.
2018 has been my best year so far for my business. I'm so excited to launch new products and continue growing my platform in 2019!
If one door closes, find another. What's coming is better than what's gone. 👌
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It’s been a year since I lost you my best friend my everything you stuck by my side for 9 years strong ...
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It’s been a year since I lost you my best friend my everything you stuck by my side for 9 years strong I first met you when I was 7 years old you I still remember the day I met you like if it was yesterday it was a rainy day and I remember hearing puppies crying outside my house you and 8 other of your siblings ... It’s been a year since I lost you my best friend my everything you stuck by my side for 9 years strong I first met you when I was 7 years old you I still remember the day I met you like if it was yesterday it was a rainy day and I remember hearing puppies crying outside my house you and 8 other of your siblings were out in the rain and I met you I picked you up fell in love with the cutest and chubbiest puppy out of all ya since that day we were inseparable you were there with me threw my rough times and helped me with comfort and love growing up you were always by my side always I just wish I could of seen you one more last time before you left me it’s crazy how sometimes I still see you standing by the gate waiting for me to open it up so you could run to me and give me love but then I realize you aren’t there anymore I always think of you And miss you and wish you were still here but I know you’re looking down at me from dog heaven and I’m so glad you made those 9 years with us the best ones I miss you and there isn’t a day that I don’t think of you or speak of you i love my little baby boy ❤️🐶
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Loveth Loveth, my very own, the sister destiny forgot to give me, shout out to you because you turned ...
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Loveth Loveth, my very own, the sister destiny forgot to give me, shout out to you because you turned a family, a sister....dear @king_luveth plz stay in my life, cos you’re one of the best things that happened to me in Uniport. Hope you know I love you?️ I don’t have to tell you cos you should ... Loveth Loveth, my very own, the sister destiny forgot to give me, shout out to you because you turned a family, a sister....dear @king_luveth plz stay in my life, cos you’re one of the best things that happened to me in Uniport. Hope you know I love you?❤️ I don’t have to tell you cos you should have seen it in my eyes when I do things and whenever I’m around you. You know I’m always ready to fight, I always have the shovel ready to bury anyone that made you vex. I hope we’re friends until me die, then I hope we’re ghost friends and walk through walls and scare the hell out of people😬. My little Loveth, the only girl I can die for her egusi soup, my hommie, my ride or die, only girl I no fit wash lol. Baby you’re the major key, you know your problems are my problems, you know if there’s any1 who would always see you happy it’s Thomas Grace, baby promise me that you’ll always remember our laughs, our jokes, smiles, conversations, plans, tears, memories, our experiences and our gossips🤣🤣. I’m writing all this not cos it’s your birthday but cos if I don’t write it I know you will kill me. My nigga nigga, my talkative, I promise I’ll always be there for you, through ups & downs, thick & thin, even when you start a fight, I will finish it for you cos I know you don’t have strength😂. On this day baby, I wish you what you wish yourself, I wish you money, money, money money, cos the last time I checked dats the only thing you ever wished. I wish you long life, this semester your GP will be distinction(amen o)....I love you baby and I will always do❤️❤️❤️❤️ thanks for having me as your crazy cute big sister😘😘
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Long time no see. Warning, this is gonna get emotional. I remember the first bratayley video I ever ...
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Long time no see. Warning, this is gonna get emotional. I remember the first bratayley video I ever watched, Christmas 2012. At the time I was watching Christmas hauls to try and decide what to put on my list. I remember seeing three smiling faces sitting around a Christmas tree, and I’m not ... Long time no see. Warning, this is gonna get emotional. I remember the first bratayley video I ever watched, Christmas 2012. At the time I was watching Christmas hauls to try and decide what to put on my list. I remember seeing three smiling faces sitting around a Christmas tree, and I’m not gonna lie. I thought to myself “this is so weird” why would someone put so much of their life out in the open like this? I turned my phone off with no plans of watching them again. But over time their videos continued to pop into my suggested, and I began to watch them everyday. I can honestly say I felt like they were my brother and sisters, I know that sounds weird, but I’m a way I grew up with them. Not a day goes by that I’m not proud of what they’re doing and who they’ve become, I will always love this family like my own. Another good thing bratayley brought into my life was this fandom. It’s different now, so different. But every now and then you meet people who were in the andom long ago just like you, and you get to reminiscing. It was so different then, sure there was a lot of drama, but everyone knew eachother and no one criticized the family for what they did or how they looked. I remember meeting my first best friend, I don’t even remember her name but we talked for like two weeks and then never spoke again. I know that sounds stupid but it’s something I will never forget. Then I met my other half, sumz. @hxyleynoelle she was my first real best friend, I cherish the memories we made and I still care so deeply about her. She left the fandom many years ago and we lost contact, but recently she’s come back and we’ve been talking again. She still remembers a lot of stuff about my life, as I do with hers. But it truly touched my heart to get to talk with her again after all this time, we picked up right where we left off. This fandom has brought some of the closest friend ships I have ever had, including my soulmate @brahtaylie she is truly my best friend and she means the world to me. To get to the point, this account has been five years of my life, five years! And it’s something I will never forget, nor regret. My life has been changing immensely lately (more below)
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 #nophoneforayear #contest @vitaminwater wants to pay someone to go without a smartphone for ...
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#nophoneforayear #contest @vitaminwater wants to pay someone to go without a smartphone for one year. I think it would be a blast if an adventure!....except my sense of direction would fail me without being able to use Siri and maps to get me where I need to go! Does mapquest still exist? I ... #nophoneforayear #contest
@vitaminwater wants to pay someone to go without a smartphone for one year. I think it would be a blast if an adventure!....except my sense of direction would fail me without being able to use Siri and maps to get me where I need to go! Does mapquest still exist? I have a feeling it would become my best friend...and gas stations from driving around for hours lost from not being able to follow print-out map directions! 😜
What would I do while I go to the bathroom?
What would I do before bed?
What would I do when I’m bored at work? (if I get chosen, we just won’t show my employer this section of my entry)

No smartphone for 365 days sounds refreshing and relaxing. Caring more about every little sound, smell, sight around me rather than photographing everything. Being forced to commit it all to memory rather than knowing I’ll be able to see it all again on my phone later. Caring more about experiences and the feeling it gives me, than the likes.
I’d spend my time running (outside or on a treadmill) listening to my thoughts, my breathing, my surroundings, rather than having pump up music blasting through my brain.
I bet my family and friends would appreciate me being more present when we are together. But would I be harder to reach?
Would I feel that I missed something if I wasn’t able to quickly pull out my phone for a picture or video? Would I regret missing that easy access to have a picture of my favorite memory of the year? Or appreciate and cherish more knowing I have to remember every second of it?
Let’s spend a year seeing my world through a clear mind instead of a phone filter.
Last thought....if chosen, would I need to buy a landline for this? ☎️hahaha
Cheers, Vitamin Water. 🤘🏼 Let’s see what you got for me!
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I never shared this.... The day before my mother’s funeral all of my best and closest friends came ...
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I never shared this.... The day before my mother’s funeral all of my best and closest friends came up to NY and took me out. Lol we got wasted. We got back to my grandmothers house literally 2 hours before the funeral. My grandmother was fuming lol but she didn’t judge me, she understood that we ... I never shared this.... The day before my mother’s funeral all of my best and closest friends came up to NY and took me out. Lol we got wasted. We got back to my grandmothers house literally 2 hours before the funeral. My grandmother was fuming lol but she didn’t judge me, she understood that we all mourn in different ways , and to begin a chapter of your life where you no longer have a mother of this earth can be the most unsettling occurrence of your life. We cleaned ourselves up put on our garb and climbed into the limousines and because my friends made sure that when I thought back to my mothers funeral I wouldn’t just remember the solemnity of the funeral itself I would also remember how we celebrated her the night before until we couldn’t keep our eyes open on the train ride home, I could smile. If I’ve never thanked you or showed my appreciation.... I do so now.
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I moved to Manhattan after graduating in 2000. I would often drive down to Maryland to visit college ...
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I moved to Manhattan after graduating in 2000. I would often drive down to Maryland to visit college friends. I’d drive back to New York on a Sunday night to this view of the World Trade Center as I approached the Holland Tunnel. It was so big and beautiful. I thought it was the coolest thing that ... I moved to Manhattan after graduating in 2000. I would often drive down to Maryland to visit college friends. I’d drive back to New York on a Sunday night to this view of the World Trade Center as I approached the Holland Tunnel. It was so big and beautiful. I thought it was the coolest thing that I worked on the 102nd floor of One World Trade.
In Winter 2001, I remember staring down from my office to World Financial Center (buildings in front) at the snow on the tops of the buildings as I gazed out to the Jersey City across the Hudson. I remember thinking I was on top of the world.

17 years later, 9/11 is still a blur to me. It was so surreal and horrifying that the weeks and months after were just a blur. I vaguely remember attending funerals, Union Square vigils and baseball.
People always talk about the buildings reverentially and the truly heroic first responders. But I vividly remember individual people.

Real people. Friends, colleagues, acquaintances, security guards, cafeteria workers, a guy who would strangely always pee at the same time as me who I never spoke to-just nodded, a guy from another office who shadily sold me Yankees/Mets World Series tickets in 2000, the pregnant secretary who was always humming, and so many more.

I see faces, I hear voices, I remember hanging out with coworkers at the epic Cantor Christmas Party or nights drinking at Windows on the World or at Moran’s.

I remember one of my best friends, Andrew Stergiopoulos. I just turned 40 and he’ll be 23 forever. I only knew him for a year and he made such an impression on me to this day. I was so happy to hear he had a hockey rink named after him on Great Neck, Long Island.

I remember Monique DeJesus, an executive assistant, whom I had a crush on. She used to hook my friends and I up with the corporate Knicks and Rangers box seats at the Garden.

I remember my boss, Jonathan Uman, who hired me and taught me a lot. Man was he smart, successful, nice and humble.

I remember so many people who were murdered that day and those that are still alive. I don’t need to be reminded. It’s a pain that never goes away. I remember every single day. I will never forget. Ever.
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If you know then you know. The king. This guy was my best friend worst enemy everything. He took me ...
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If you know then you know. The king. This guy was my best friend worst enemy everything. He took me under his wing and we did damage lol. He taught me a lot. There’s a lot of people that might not like him but this man had a heart bigger than anyone’s he would do anything for you, and if he snapped on ... If you know then you know. The king. This guy was my best friend worst enemy everything. He took me under his wing and we did damage lol. He taught me a lot. There’s a lot of people that might not like him but this man had a heart bigger than anyone’s he would do anything for you, and if he snapped on you you deserved it. Trust me I’ve been ragdolled bear hugged cared for and everything in between. True fucking legend. I’m just so thankful he came to maui to see me and meet my kids. Of course he was telling the girls the most inappropriate story’s about me and shit we did the loved him. My oldest asked. Him “well why do you drive so slow in the fast lane with traffic backing up behind you on the freeway”. And with out missing a beat eyes got super wide and said cause I’m always in front, what. They thought it was the funniest thing ever. We had choke drinks bbq in the pouring rain. And I mean pouring. He of course loved it. I have always loved thin man and will always remember and never let his spirit die. RIP VC. ONE OF THE BEST THERE EVER WAS. Your presence will be missed.
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Dear Tyler, I only knew you for a short while but I know for a fact that aquatic science wouldn’t have ...
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Dear Tyler, I only knew you for a short while but I know for a fact that aquatic science wouldn’t have been even half as much fun without you. It’s where I met you and Destina, and together, the three of us became TaD. I couldn’t have been partnered up with any better science partners, so I guess ... Dear Tyler,
I only knew you for a short while but I know for a fact that aquatic science wouldn’t have been even half as much fun without you. It’s where I met you and Destina, and together, the three of us became TaD. I couldn’t have been partnered up with any better science partners, so I guess we have Mrs. Tucker to thank for that. I still remember when you and David pulled that prank in aquatic science where y’all Saran wrapped each other together after you had Mrs. Tucker called down to the office and the whole classroom was going crazy and how Mr. Tucker came in to check on us and found out what we were doing but didn’t even try to stop us and let us continue on with it anyways and that’s still hands down one of the funniest and best memories I have of that class. I also remember the time when I got really sick with pneumonia and was gone from school for over a week while we were doing that ecosystem project and y’all forgot to feed my fish and it died but you guys replaced it with a new fish so that I wouldn’t find out. And I remember when Des and I had a falling out and how you continued being my science partner and reassured me that everything would be okay. So, yes, we may have only known each other for a year but my best memories come from senior year and the friendship that we built as TaD. We may have lost touch and never really talked after high school but I still saw you from time to time around Saginaw when I worked at Albertsons and you would always stop to talk and say hello. I haven’t see you in years and I keep trying to remember the last time I saw you and picture the last memory I have of you and it’s probably you waving back at me as I smiled and waved at you from across the parking lot. You died seven days ago in January and it’s February now. It’ll be Valentine’s Day in just under a week and half and all I want to do is go back and relive the best two semesters and months of my life. Thank you for everything Tyler, for all the memories and the laughs. You may be gone, but I promise you will never be forgotten. Rest in Peace, Tyler. We love you forever and we will all miss you so, so much. 😔😔💔
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2 months without our little Bosco already and its still hard to believe you won't be trying to run ...
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2 months without our little Bosco already and its still hard to believe you won't be trying to run out the door when we get home or sleeping on the couch. We miss you every day, and on this #thanksgiving are so thankful for all of our memories with you. . .. ... .. . Thank you to the instagram ... 2 months without our little Bosco already and its still hard to believe you won't be trying to run out the door when we get home or sleeping on the couch. We miss you every day, and on this #thanksgiving are so thankful for all of our memories with you.
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Thank you to the instagram community for all of your generous thoughts you sent to us, it was greatly appreciated by our family to have everyone share the love and pain for losing a special furry loved one.
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"Dear Lord, please open your gates
and call St. Francis
to come escort this beloved companion
across the Rainbow Bridge.

Assign him to a place of honor,
for he has been a faithful servant
and has always done his best to please me.

Bless the hands that send him to you,
for they are doing so in love and compassion,
freeing him from pain and suffering.

Grant me the strength not to dwell on my loss.
Help me remember the details of his life
with the love he has shown me.
And grant me the courage to honor him
by sharing those memories with others.

Let him remember me as well
and let him know that I will always love him.
And when it's my time to pass over into your paradise,
please allow him to accompany those
who will bring me home.

Thank you, Lord,
for the gift of his companionship
and for the time we've had together.

And thank you, Lord,
for granting me the strength
to give him to you now.

Amen." #rip #catsofinstagram
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Letter To Ma Numero-Uno:- It’s A Year Today You Left Us But It Still Feels Like Yesterday I Still ...
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Letter To Ma Numero-Uno:- It’s A Year Today You Left Us But It Still Feels Like Yesterday I Still Can’t Get Ova The Fact That You Are No More In My Life How Do I Live Without U Daddy? Wen You Were The Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me My Growing Up Would Have Been Hell Without You I Remember All ... Letter To Ma Numero-Uno:-
It’s A Year Today You Left Us But It Still Feels Like Yesterday
I Still Can’t Get Ova The Fact That You Are No More In My Life
How Do I Live Without U Daddy? Wen You Were The Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me
My Growing Up Would Have Been Hell Without You
I Remember All Ma Visiting Days You Neva Missed Back Then In Command
You Would Even Come Check On Your Baby Gyal Even When It’s Not My Visiting Day
U Neva Raised A Finger On Me Till You Died So I Always Pray I Marry A Man Like U
I Miss U Everyday Of Ma Life Daddy
I Promise Not To Cry But Celebrate You Instead Because U Always Hate To See Me Cry
Even When I Was Been Childish And Won’t Eat Cos I Was Been Scolded, You Would Still Come Beg Me To Come Eat
I Remember How I Always Waited On U To Get Back From Work So I Can Eat Wit You Cos You Would Practically Give Me All The Meat
I Could Go On And On Cos Without You In Ma Life I Would Have Gone Astray
I Was Your Favorite, I Didn’t Need A Prophet To Tell Me That
I Didn’t Even Get To Buy U Your Dream Car💔Nd Build U De Mansion I Always Wanted To😭
I Could Remember How We Fought So Hard For Me To Serve (NYSC) By Fire By Force
You Even Did A Portrait For Me On Ma Khaki Cos U Were So Proud Of Your Baby Gyal After I Got Back From Orientation Camp
And You Died Two Weeks After I Got My Certificate
You Didn’t Even Get To See Ma Certificate
Every1 Keep Saying You Were A Good Man, So I Ask My Self Why Do Good People Die?
You Didn’t Even Get To See Any Of Ma Pretty Kids😭😭😭
I Know You Are In A Better Place Daddy
So Keep Resting Peacefully In The Bosom Of The Lord🙏🏼
May My Daddys Soul And The Souls Of All The Faithful Departed Through The Mercy Of God Rest In Peace Amen🙏🏼
I Still Love You Silly Dad Even In Death And In Ma Next World I Still Want To Be Your Daughter
We All Miss U Dadddy, Every1 Misses You,But You Know I Miss U More
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2018. 2018 has been the toughest year of my life filled with unimaginable pain, grief, anger and ...
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2018. 2018 has been the toughest year of my life filled with unimaginable pain, grief, anger and depression. To say this year has broken me into millions of tiny pieces would be an understatement. At the beginning of the year, the only thing I was looking forward to was starting my new chapter ... 2018.

2018 has been the toughest year of my life filled with unimaginable pain, grief, anger and depression. To say this year has broken me into millions of tiny pieces would be an understatement.
At the beginning of the year, the only thing I was looking forward to was starting my new chapter in Preston - anyone who knows me knows how excited I was to move city, start University and finally embark on a journey that made me truly happy. My brother dropped me off at University in March, and two weeks into my degree, he unexpectedly passed away. I honestly felt there was no way in hell I could stay at uni while dealing with so many emotions all while being 4 hours away from everyone I loved and having to fight my hardest battle.

On my darkest days, where I would succumb to self-doubt, I’d remember conversations Victor & I had on our 4 hour road trip to Preston, where he told me how proud he was of me for always picking up my pieces and persevering and how I will fly through uni if I believed in myself and worked really hard. So that’s what I did, I worked really hard. Really really really hard and sometimes I don’t know how but I’ve managed to pass every exam and assignment so far knowing that Vic would be so proud of me for sticking at it.

Victor was EVERYTHING to me, he was more than a big brother, he was my second dad, my protector, my best friend, my biggest supporter and now, my angel. There won’t be a man who loves me the way Vic did and I’m so grateful he showed me what pure, effortless, selfless love was in his love for @misstt_ and Vienna-Grace. Although I’m starting this new year still with a broken heart and broken soul, I am also starting it knowing that I have an angel guiding me through 2019 every step of the way. I’m reminded daily, in songs, in photos, in nature, and especially in Vienna-Grace that Victor is never too far from us and I’m certain that, in a few months, when I’ve passed my first year at uni, Vic will be, as he has been, grinning his cheeky smile down at me, giving me hope that although the hole in my heart will never go away, it heart will heal, and so will I. 💜

#ForVictor2018 #VictorAdebodun
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Video taken 2h before I hit the stage at @ifbbproitaly 4 weeks ago. This was hands down my favourite PACKAGE to date. Body felt so good, I felt so fresh. I was super full, but not too full :) I was tight, but not too tight. @bodybyo Was just super happy for me- telling me- just show them what you ... Video taken 2h before I hit the stage at @ifbbproitaly 4 weeks ago.
This was hands down my favourite PACKAGE to date.
Body felt so good, I felt so fresh.
I was super full, but not too full :) I was tight, but not too tight. @bodybyo Was just super happy for me- telling me- just show them what you can do! 🖤
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I don't remember much from that show. I really don't... My first Pro win 🤩 I don't remember much as this was VERY emotional moment for me. I have been working on it so hard 🖤
I've competed 6 times this year- making total of 27 points for 2019 @mrolympiallc °
This was the hardest I've ever pushed my body. I have really pushed it, my dream about stepping on O stage.. It was 6 shows almost back to back- with 2 weeks or less break in between.
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Now time to focus on 2019- as my best is yet to come🖤🖤 @bodybyo
@protan_europe
@sparklebikini
@scitecuk
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My own peace of mind is just in one piece of mind. I’m a scattered diagram of chaos. Always wanting ...
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My own peace of mind is just in one piece of mind. I’m a scattered diagram of chaos. Always wanting all things and wanting all things now and wanting all things to want me back this instant. Hard work pays off but with me it has to piss me off first. All of my firsts are agonizing and ... My own peace of mind
is just in one piece of mind.
I’m a scattered diagram
of chaos.
Always wanting all things
and wanting all things now
and wanting all things to want me
back this instant.
Hard work pays off
but with me
it has to piss me off
first.
All of my firsts are agonizing
and every last I encounter
is somehow a defeat.
I love so deeply
that I feel my own blood
pressure streaming
Inside of my veins
screaming for more
of flow.
When I cry
I sob
and it’s for a good reason
like why the world is giving me
much more less than I deserve
and why do I think I deserve more
with nothing in my hand
but a very superior
self image that only I have created.
I save my own damage
in a box that it’s safe and away.
No one’s allowed to see it,
Because the smell of the old
me is so strong no one would
Ever forget how ‘I’ felt like
and that would torture me pleasantly at night.
My best friend is anxiety
But she leaves without me telling her to just as she visits
Without me inviting.
I don’t like the smell of the past
Events, they make me feel old
like I don’t have time.
like everything that is supposed to happen has already happened and my only salvation is staying still.
The past leaves me naked,
No more sunlight,
no more good movies,
No more feverishly good songs,
No more true love stories.
All the romances have died,
buried with Shakespeare.
Come what may.
Everything is a May
or a May not.
27 suns in May,
16 moons in July
And the first thread of light
got me crying
like a newborn.
Again, here,
the sun will never stop rising,
and I—
I’m a forgetful seashell,
I can remember nothing
but the sound of sea waves
hitting my surface
and saying goodbye
Forever. – Salma Abouzeid

#BreakYourOwnHeartSeries

#Writer #writing #artsy #art #balck #feelings #poet #poetess #poetryofinstagram #igwriting #igwriters #igartists #love #living #vsco #vscocam #recoverysayings #writersofinstagram #instagram #passion #novalist #dream #books #reader #quotes #blackandwhite #black #paperback
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<span class="emoji emoji203c"></span>️PSA: EVERYONE LISTEN UP!!!<span class="emoji emoji203c"></span>️ This girl right here is my ride or die, my main bitch, my best friend, ...
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️PSA: EVERYONE LISTEN UP!!!️ This girl right here is my ride or die, my main bitch, my best friend, my travel buddy, but most important my sister. We’ve known each other for 10-12 years so far and I’m beyond thankful for her. You’ve inspired me to strive for what I believe in and that’s becoming ... ‼️PSA: EVERYONE LISTEN UP!!!‼️ This girl right here is my ride or die, my main bitch, my best friend, my travel buddy, but most important my sister. We’ve known each other for 10-12 years so far and I’m beyond thankful for her. You’ve inspired me to strive for what I believe in and that’s becoming a better me☺️. I remember spending endless weeks at your house during the summer and doing the craziest shit when we were little🤪. I remember the stupid little fights we had about boys or school or anything😒. But in the end, we’ve always been there for each other. She has helped me through the hard, stressful days to the days where I wonder can’t live without you. I can’t wait to travel around the world with you one day✈️🌍! I wanna wish you a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!🎉 I hope the big 18 treats you right😌❤️ I LOVE YOU ELLA LEE WIEGMAN🌻💘!!!
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I lost the one I love most to death, He took her away and left me distressed, Angels came by my side, Reminding ...
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I lost the one I love most to death, He took her away and left me distressed, Angels came by my side, Reminding me, God willing, someday we’ll reunite, They kept me breathing telling me it’ll be okay, What they gave me is not something I can ever repay. //angels As many of you will know, ... I lost the one I love most to death,
He took her away and left me distressed,
Angels came by my side,
Reminding me, God willing, someday we’ll reunite,
They kept me breathing telling me it’ll be okay,
What they gave me is not something I can ever repay.
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As many of you will know, earlier this year my grandmother passed away. She was undoubtedly the one person I loved the most in this world, my best friend and biggest supporter. I grew up coming home to her (my dad’s mum) and nanima (my mums mum). I lay here now on her bed trying to sleep but not being able to. Remembering those who gave me hope during the time of her death and those who continue to let me lean on them when the pain gets too much. Remembering the little things my friends did and still do to keep me going and stopping me from letting my grief ruin my life. It’s almost been four months since that day we had known was coming yet it still feels like yesterday. I’ll forever be grateful to my well wishers and to everyone who checked up on me and sent prayers during that time.
To everyone else trying to cope with the death of a loved one, accept the pain when it comes and don’t lie to yourself by saying you’re okay when you’re not. Remember in shaa Allah you’ll be reunited someday in Jannah. This world is temporary and death is only a temporary separation for those who are righteous. You will be with those you love, so spend this life trying to the best human you can, trying to become of the righteous by doing lots of good deeds and in shaa Allah someday you’ll reunite with your loved ones in Jannah, where there will be no separation.
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I took this last summer when we were on one of the rivers in Banff national park I think? Or Canmore? Somewhere in the Canadian rockies area basically. It’s the first summer I’ve actually spent at home and not travelled somewhere for as long as I can remember and ngl being in this house full of memories is suffocating. Not long left until #RimzysTravelDiary posts are back though in shaa Allah
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And I’m sharing this because I promised myself I’d be as open as I can when it comes to how I’m dealing with this loss.
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|| @bethanynoelm #happybirthdaybeth !! bethany noel freaking mota. happy happy birthday. I ...
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|| @bethanynoelm #happybirthdaybeth !! bethany noel freaking mota. happy happy birthday. I honestly can't believe you're 21 and I don't think anyone can. we've watched you grow up & accomplish so many things. I'm incredibly proud of everything you've accomplished. I can't even imagine ... || @bethanynoelm #happybirthdaybeth !!
bethany noel freaking mota. happy happy birthday. I honestly can't believe you're 21 and I don't think anyone can. we've watched you grow up & accomplish so many things. I'm incredibly proud of everything you've accomplished. I can't even imagine my life without you (lol that sounds so cliche, but I really can't) you're such a big part in my life and there's no day that I don't think ab u. you're my little ray of sunshine and my baby beth. I watched you ever since you were 16-17 and I'm still so in love with you. I'll always have this FANPAGE and you have taught me so many things. without you I wouldn't have made all the friendships I've had now and I wouldn't have had my best closest friends ever. All thanks to you babe. you inspire me every day and you're so beautiful. to you having a clothing line, bus tour, your own bOOk (pre-order now😏😏) , going on DWTS, going on Ellen, modeling+ so much more.ive had this fanpage for so many years and I've grown up with you. I remember when I first got my first ever notice and I seriously didn't know how to react. i screamed on the floor dying texting all my friends. so many of my friends know you because of me. and I remember winning your giveaway and that was honestly one of the best days of my life. I cried tears watching you cry. I laughed when you laughed. I smiled when you smiled. I feel like you are my best friend& someday I wish I can meet you lil cute smol bOO. I'm more than happy to call you my idol and I'll always always support you. thank you for being a role model, a best friend, a loving idol, and more then anything thank you for being YOU. and happy happy birthday babe. —chloe💗💗🎂🍾📽 (thank you for clicking that record button.) btw, I'm in the middle!! , I was too lazy to hold a piece of paper ahah (TAG BETH?)
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Wow... I’ve been thinking about this day since I arrived at Punxsy on July 5th, of 2014... The day ...
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Wow... I’ve been thinking about this day since I arrived at Punxsy on July 5th, of 2014... The day I’m finished with undergrad and leaving IUP ! It has been a awesome 4.5 years here, I’ve made a ton of friends, learned so much about myself, and pushed my self hard everyday to achieve my goals!it ... Wow... I’ve been thinking about this day since I arrived at Punxsy on July 5th, of 2014... The day I’m finished with undergrad and leaving IUP ! It has been a awesome 4.5 years here, I’ve made a ton of friends, learned so much about myself, and pushed my self hard everyday to achieve my goals!it seems like yesterday when my whole family dropped me off at my dorm! These undergrad years I’ve had here I built bridges with people at this university so I could go out a legend... I am proud to say that I am completely done with undergrad classes and will be taking a internship in the Spring for graduate school next fall since I couldn’t change my major. This is all Gods plan and I’ve trusted him every second ! Thank you for everybody who helped me out throughout this journey, everybody who I even had a simple conversation with, all the Bruhz that set me owt, uplifted me, and fellowshipped with me, and to all the professors, administrators and staff that let me have the best college experience ever! My GPA will be a 3.12 and I remember in High-school one of teachers told me that I shouldn’t even be thinking about college because of my work ethic and I might flunk out, I want to give a huge thank you to her as well because she motivated me to beat the odds and stereo types that these teachers have..... Last but not least thank you to my parents, if it wasn’t for them looking out for me, my dad in my ear all the time, randomly blessing me with cash app drops, and guiding me throughout this whole journey on everything I love I would not be where I am today ! But all jokes aside I’m just glad I can make the people who made me proud, because a lot of people doubted me! Okay I’m done venting on here lol #DegreeLoading ➡️🎓 #SpringCantGetHereAnyFaster #IKnowYallGonaMissMe #IllBeBack 😁
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Hellooo...It’s Friday and I want to invite trust the process on your fitness and healthy goals. ...
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Hellooo...It’s Friday and I want to invite trust the process on your fitness and healthy goals. . I was telling one of my clients this morning that the process doesn’t get easier, but we get stronger. If we train the same way over and over your body adapts and then you won’t see any progress. ... Hellooo...It’s Friday and I want to invite trust the process on your fitness and healthy goals. .
I was telling one of my clients this morning that the process doesn’t get easier, but we get stronger. If we train the same way over and over your body adapts and then you won’t see any progress. Now, you have to differentiate that to being patience because progress takes time. -
If you’ve followed me for long time you know that I had worked on getting my back leaner but it took quick a few time. Why? Because I took the healthy way to do it. I could had done in a very short period of time but that would’ve been taking to the extreme way, and I don’t preach that. If you train with me, I will make up workout hard and give out your best but I will also help you do it the best and healthy way. No shortcuts. Sorry, you will have to give me your best. .
So I am now offering a free fitness assessment [new members only] if you join our gym @snapfitnesscypresstx + $120 for four sessions to help you get started. I have been here since we opened and this is the place where I workout most the time. It is a small gym with the right basic equipment anybody needs to workout. It is clean, not crowed and open 24. You can bring a friend to your free assessment. Come and meet us at:

#SnapFitnessCypress
16341 Mueschke Rd
Cypress, TX 77433 .
Jorge will be happy to sign you up. 💪🏼
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Also remember to keep watching my stories and post as I get ready for my 2nd NPC Bikini Competition.
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Happy Birthday to the best big brother ever. If you know me or him then you know this bond we share is ...
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Happy Birthday to the best big brother ever. If you know me or him then you know this bond we share is something special. It’s crazy how I reminisce on the past and can now Thank God for the future. I can remember being 6 months pregnant with Reagan and you calling me saying you had to go back to jail ... Happy Birthday to the best big brother ever. If you know me or him then you know this bond we share is something special. It’s crazy how I reminisce on the past and can now Thank God for the future. I can remember being 6 months pregnant with Reagan and you calling me saying you had to go back to jail for 6 months. I cried so bad. I remember telling you that every time I experienced a major accomplishment, you were incarcerated. When I graduated from high school you were gone. College...gone. When I opened the Family Day home you were gone. And now I was about to have my first baby & you won’t be here to witness it. I heard the sadness in your voice. That day you went on the run to try and be here for the birth of my daughter. You were able to make the baby shower but was locked up right before I gave birth. See now I know God had it all planned out. He was allowing you to get all of the bad shit out of your system because he knew I would need you so much more a little later in life. When I opened my childcare center you were there. Almost Rich..there. When I lost my best friends and favorite cousin you were there. When my dad passed you came off the road to be there with me. When I was wrongly accused and had to fight the legal system, you never left my side. I began school and got pregnant, you pushed me the whole way. When I gave birth to my only son, you were there. Lord knows I don’t know how I would’ve made it through these situations if I didn’t have you as a best friend walking through it all with me. You are the first person to put hundreds of thousands of dollars in my possession and never thought twice about it. Your loyalty and your love are the best of it all. Last but not least a couple months ago I went to a nightclub with you and as soon as we stepped through the door, gunshots lit up the entire room. This was the scariest shit I had ever encountered. Over the crowd screaming and scrambling, I look up to you not dodging or ducking but standing tall yelling “Where is my sister?” In that moment, I loved you all over again. @bigjookcmg thanks for keeping your promise and never going back to prison. Me and my 2 love u
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<span class="emoji emoji2728"></span>;; sad princess anna modern aesthetic.<span class="emoji emoji2744"></span> ・✧ ・ here it is my second modern aesthetic about elsa ...
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;; sad princess anna modern aesthetic. ・✧ ・ here it is my second modern aesthetic about elsa and anna. this is particularly dedicated to anna but basically the main reason of this sad aesthetic is elsa and you will know why reading the AU i made. ・✧ ・ “a year. it's already one year that ... ✨;; sad princess anna modern aesthetic.❄
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here it is my second modern aesthetic about elsa and anna.🌸☕ this is particularly dedicated to anna but basically the main reason of this sad aesthetic is elsa and you will know why reading the AU i made.🙊
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“a year. it's already one year that you are not here with me.” Anna started to think while some tears started to fall over her cheeks. exactly one year ago due to cancer, the most important person of her life, her big sister Elsa, died. “I was there when it happened. I remember everything about that moment, the worst moment of my whole life...” the young brunette whispered crying, letting all her pain go “I was next to your bed and I was holding your hand tightly when you said your last words, you said that you loved me more than anything... and then your beautiful and pure eyes, blue as the ocean, closed forever. in that moment, when I realized that you were gone, when I realized that cancer won and took you away from me forever, I swear I could feel my heart broken, I felt empty as I never felt before. suddenly tears ran of my face and from that terrible day I've never been the same. you were the best sister I could ever ask for because you weren't just a sister for me, you were my best friend, you were my other half, you were the main reason of my happiness... and now that you are gone you can't imagine how much I miss you, Elsa... sometimes I need one of your warm hugs, sometimes I need you to wipe my tears, sometimes I need to see your smile, that beautiful smile I've always loved... and speaking of it, I hope you are smiling and you are happy now in Heaven with mom and dad, I'm sure they are proud to have a wonderful daughter as you. you've always been and you still are the most important person of my life, the most precious gift I ever had and the best thing that happened to me and I'm living hoping one day I'll see you again and I'll give you all the hugs I can't give you now. remember that even if you are no longer in this world, you will always be in my heart and that I will never love someone as much as I love you, it's a promise.”
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I'M NOT CRYING YOU ARE CRYING.💧
hope you like it.💫💎
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Volunteer - "l hope one day you read this and understand it to the fullest degree. l hope l am seated ...
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Volunteer - "l hope one day you read this and understand it to the fullest degree. l hope l am seated beside you, slightly wrinklier or grayer than you remember me and as happy and healthy as you are. Whether it has been five or ten or twenty years, l hope you know that you still hold the enormous part ... Volunteer - "l hope one day you read this and understand it to the fullest degree. l hope l am seated beside you, slightly wrinklier or grayer than you remember me and as happy and healthy as you are. Whether it has been five or ten or twenty years, l hope you know that you still hold the enormous part of my heart you once stole, regardless of the distance that has perhaps come between us. l hope you see this photograph and remember the days we used to lay under the mango tree and laugh until our stomachs hurt, both dirty, smelly, and carefree. And that you remember our workouts, card games, and not-so magic tricks. I hope that your two front teeth have fully emerged by now and that maybe, just maybe, you have had a growth spurt. lf not, you'll always be the toughest boy I know even if you can still sit on my shoulders and pretend that we are Timone and Pumba. l hope you know how much you saved me, Danny. How you showed me the human spirit, genuine and filled with love, acceptance, and forgiveness no matter the age, race, gender, or size. You showed me love when all l wanted to do was hate and you provoked laughter when all l wanted to do was cry. You listened to me, you stayed with me, and you taught me more than lcould ever teach you. You gave me family and afriend. You made me be mature and yet, you let me be a kid. You are loved by people, strangers, all over this vast world that l hope you will see someday. You are strong and you are wise. You are loving and you are loved. Thank you for being my neighbor, my sidekick, my best bud, and one of my little brothers during my time in Uganda. And no matter where we are right now, may we always have this mango tree filled with memories to look back on. Ale emi saaru, little man." #B4Children #B4Impact #B4Support #B4Love #HashtagB4 (Credits to: @sabe_oh )
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My son Roman The Lion, turned 9 years old yesterday! Its hard to articulate how much I love him, but ...
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My son Roman The Lion, turned 9 years old yesterday! Its hard to articulate how much I love him, but I can say the bond we have is supernatural.. I was asked by a friend what Ive learned so far about being his dad and my first answer was “WELL, i have no idea what im doing!” And that’s the truth.. but ... My son Roman The Lion, turned 9 years old yesterday! Its hard to articulate how much I love him, but I can say the bond we have is supernatural.. I was asked by a friend what Ive learned so far about being his dad and my first answer was “WELL, i have no idea what im doing!” And that’s the truth.. but I do lean on what my dad told me. The best thing I can do for my son? Is to love and honor God and love and honor HIS MOTHER. And it remains very true. I don’t remember everything about my childhood...But I remember vividly the times my dad led our family. To church, to dinner, to movies, to conversations..by example... and I remember him ALWAYS honoring my mother. Respecting her. Choosing “her over us” at all times. It made me feel peaceful and safe, that my parents were such a tight knit unit. I learned about what a real man looked like, through that prism. That’s my goal raising this boy. That he can not just do “what I say”. But actually “do what I do.” I can’t do it all as a dad and I don’t feel the pressure to try. I CAN love his mama, and serve Jesus with my whole life. My prayer is that it impacts his little soul daily. I can’t believe I have a 9 year old boy! But im so grateful that I do.. I asked him the other day “what’s your job when Im outta town?” He said “other than protect mom?” Well said...ROMAN THE LION: I LOVE YOU MY SON! You are my best friend and there is no close second. #videogamesforlife #skippingschoolforlife #matchourshoeswithourshirtsatalltimesforlife #occupyallstreets #wegonbealRIGHT @markherzlich thanks for epic football photos!
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*Long Post Alert* Today is @mr_lawson_87 Birthday! <span class="emoji emoji1f389"></span>For those of you that know me, know “Cashe” ...
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*Long Post Alert* Today is @mr_lawson_87 Birthday! For those of you that know me, know “Cashe” as my BEST FRIEND! Though I question if he is (really) my best friend because he always, blatantly sides with my husband, he really is my brother - trust me, we go back and forth like we are Brother ... *Long Post Alert* Today is @mr_lawson_87 Birthday! 🎉For those of you that know me, know “Cashe” as my BEST FRIEND! Though I question if he is (really) my best friend because he always, blatantly sides with my husband, he really is my brother - trust me, we go back and forth like we are Brother and Sister regularly! I can remember when I was a college mom, he was there - Baby-sitting and telling me how to be a parent when he had ZERO children. When I thought someone broke into me and Apples’ apartment in #Tallahsseee but the alarm went off because @ibonitamanzanas hit ‘away’ instead ‘home’, how Cashe came over in the middle of the night (like a RoboCop 🚔) to make sure me and LA were ok! From high school days riding in the #CrownVic to riding in the #Lexus, to my breakups, to filling orders when Nicki Minaj Work my swimsuit, to my proposal, engagement party, traveling the world, deaths in my family, my best friend has been there... Every step of the way! I can look up and see that Tank Head right there! At times, cursing me out, being inpatient with me and brutally honest my best friend, turn-up partner, went viral on the Shaderoom because he was doing the #FroggyHop, Hype man, negative Nathan, best friend, grandpa 👴🏾 (because he act likes like an old man) ex-roommate, #Surrogate parent to #JaxCarter (yes that’s my baby @mrs_e_law ), and #DirectorOfTheYear is right there for me, my boys, my sisters, my other best friends, sorority sisters and my entire family #CasheLawson has been and still is there! I love my best friend I can’t imagine what he would do without me! Lol I pray that Jax comes by 11:59pm! #ThatsMyBestFriend #ShadeRoomKilla #HeThinkHeCanDance #DomeHead #TankHead #BestFren #UncleCashe #AlwaysCursingMeOut but then he #preached at my wedding with the speech #PastorCashe #PleaseWatchAllTheSlides #YesHeSnatchedMyPhone #MyBestieIsLIT #IfYouBestFriendNotLikeCashe #ThrowTheWholePersonAway #JustKidding #TheCussingPastor
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I remember a time, when I got plenty of sleep. When I didn’t want to wake up and face my reality! • I ...
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I remember a time, when I got plenty of sleep. When I didn’t want to wake up and face my reality! • I remember a time when I was mentally and emotionally exhausted because I wasn’t working on my dreams. I wasn’t even working on me! • I remember a time, when I didn’t have the money opportunities ... I remember a time, when I got plenty of sleep. When I didn’t want to wake up and face my reality!

I remember a time when I was mentally and emotionally exhausted because I wasn’t working on my dreams. I wasn’t even working on me!

I remember a time, when I didn’t have the money opportunities and resources to go out and do what I believed in the most! Or so I told myself...

Then one day. I got tired of being uncertain. I got tired of feeling drained, because I had chased everything I never wanted. I got tired of living in fear, constantly doubting myself and doing less than my best.

That was it! I made a decision to throw everything out! Everything that no longer served me was removed in an instant. I became committed to one thing and one thing alone. My vision and my purpose.

I gave everything up. I removed myself from the known world and went to work to rebuild my life from the ground up. Built solely on the foundation of my dream and my vision for humanity.

I woke up at 4:00am every morning and I went to bed after 11pm every night for 4 years. I didn’t need to sleep. I needed to prove to myself that I wasn’t crazy. That I was blessed with a gift that no one else had and a message that few would ever be able to share. I didn’t care about money or return on investment. I woke up with the sole purpose to create, share and to help & heal others.

I became one with my mission and nothing else would do, other than the full realisation of my potential and my dreams.

My dream became my reality. I out worked my fears. I learnt how to maximise my spiritual, emotional and physical energy levels and I knew exactly how to use the most powerful energy source of all to my advantage. Absolute belief and faith.

I haven’t finished my job yet. I haven’t completed my life purpose and that is what keeps me up at night and gets me up before the sun every day!

Go chase your dreams. Your dreams matter and once you find your purpose and become committed, you will find the energy you need to make your dreams come to life.

Back yourself, Believe in yourself and go make it happen. Be relentless and never ever stop believing!
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Happy birthday my joyful testimony ...it hardly seems possible a year has gone when they told me ...
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Happy birthday my joyful testimony ...it hardly seems possible a year has gone when they told me I was moving around with a blighted ovum putting us in a very confused and sad mood after wedding not knowing u were growing gracefully inside me.....hmmmm what should I call this if not a JOYFUL ... Happy birthday my joyful testimony ...it hardly seems possible a year has gone when they told me I was moving around with a blighted ovum putting us in a very confused and sad mood after wedding not knowing u were growing gracefully inside me.....hmmmm what should I call this if not a JOYFUL TESTIMONY 😿😿🙏🏻🙏🏻
You’re the best meaning of my happiness after so many challenges and heartbreak...Faheemah u came into my life and brighten up my fate...lightened up my life and kicked so many impossibilities out of my life and turned me to a stronger woman 😿I can even remember when my so called family said ‘shey president lo fe bi ni’ when they refused to gv me visa😿but ever since u came to this world u wipe my tears away and you came out to be the best version of me, best and rare blessed gift from God
You’re just like a diamond when I was asking God to just gv me any clean stone 😿😿..Lookatuu😫😬😬My pride😩🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻from this moment and forever you will never bring Shame to my name , you will stand out amongst your peers🙏🏻🙏🏻you will live longer in good health ...I will not see any reason to weep over you ...you will forever be my source of happiness...my reason for living and my everlasting gift from God🙏🏻
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Happy 21st Birthday to my best friend in the whole entire universe!! @toria_anna I still remember ...
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Happy 21st Birthday to my best friend in the whole entire universe!! @toria_anna I still remember the first time we hung out and made cookies together in my kitchen, and I remember how happy I was that I decided to invite you over. Eight years later, and I still wouldn't trade the friendship ... Happy 21st Birthday to my best friend in the whole entire universe!! @toria_anna I still remember the first time we hung out and made cookies together in my kitchen, and I remember how happy I was that I decided to invite you over. Eight years later, and I still wouldn't trade the friendship I have with you for anything. You're such a kind, beautiful, funny, strong, artistic, and understanding person, and even all of these words aren't enough to describe how much you mean to me and how truly amazing you are. You've accomplished so much and you continue to grow more and more every day, and I couldn't be more proud of you. I feel so thankful that I get to call you my best friend. I hope you have a wonderful birthday, and I can't wait to come home and give you the biggest hug of your life! ❤️
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Story time. # Over the next few posts I am going to take you through a bit of my story. Reason being ...
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Story time. # Over the next few posts I am going to take you through a bit of my story. Reason being is I have been told it's helped others with their own journeys & so I hope to provide some insight & value. # I first got into the gym at 16 years old, I noticed my friends were going & I wanted to join. ... Story time.
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Over the next few posts I am going to take you through a bit of my story. Reason being is I have been told it's helped others with their own journeys & so I hope to provide some insight & value.
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I first got into the gym at 16 years old, I noticed my friends were going & I wanted to join. Literally not a clue in the world, we would just jump on any old piece of equipment & always try & beat our past performance.
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My nutritional approach was also pretty non-existent, I just knew protein was good. I can still remember my first protein shake, it was unflavoured, from Boots (a pharmacy in the UK). I then convinced my mum to buy me Maxi Muscle protein & would actually hide I was taking it from my friends.
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Obviously there was a large degree of competition between me & my friends. I'd go when they weren't & always try to up them. This just shows you my competitive nature, but also my immaturity. Funny as I remember my best friend @cameronstables90 would still outperform me & was way less consistent. I always wonder how jacked he'd be if he really wanted to be.
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This picture is after about 3 years of lifting, first year at Uni. I guess I looked like I lifted a little, but I'd not progressed for a long time. I actually remember regressing quite often & just trying to go harder & harder. It was utterly frustrating.
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OK so there is stage 1 I guess you could call it of my lifting career so far. The next stage contained ultimately the biggest event of my life to date. To be continued....
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Please let me know your thoughts in the comments, if this is of interest, thanks!
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<span class="emoji emoji1f49c"></span> Say it with me, “I AM FABULOUS”<span class="emoji emoji1f49c"></span> #Day257DaysOfPositiveAffirmation #StrengthByDay ———————————————————————— I ...
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Say it with me, “I AM FABULOUS” #Day257DaysOfPositiveAffirmation #StrengthByDay ———————————————————————— I remember the photo on the left ... going shopping for my very first beach photo shoot as a @shinemodels. A part of me was excited but another part of me was SO anxious. I remember ... 💜 Say it with me, “I AM FABULOUS”💜
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I remember the photo on the left ... going shopping for my very first beach photo shoot as a @shinemodels. A part of me was excited but another part of me was SO anxious. I remember how I felt about my body ... I picked at every little aspect. I saw myself as a tiny, skinny rail. I never went out in public in short shorts, let alone in a bikini. ・・・
When it came to training & nutrition, especially around a photo shoot, I literally took a complete 180. Training was based around cardio and high reps and nutrition went from eating like a normal human to restricting my intake just because I knew I was going to be in a bikini. In my mind, cardio and eating the least amount of calories was the right way to go. I remember eating only 12-1,300 calories (during this time I averaged 1,600 ... even still low for me), all good sources coming from protein and veggies. Carbs were off limits, fats were a last thought, and hunger was constantly there. .
Lets fast forward to the right ... if I have a photo shoot coming up, I don’t bangs my training ... if anything I reduce the intensity. Nutrition I keep the same or even eat a bit more of I need to fill out more. I won’t say I no longer stress about what I’m going to wear or how I’m going to look ... cause hello, I’m a girl 😏😝 But I do my best to keep the mindset as, “Hey, this is me, this is how I am looking, and I feel amazing.”
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My message to you guys is this: when we have an event coming up, or something that may expose more of our physique, don’t be an extremist ... I see to many times on social media of people taking such extreme approaches to things when in reality, there is no need to. .
Don’t suddenly move from a balanced diet to keto, don’t move from lifting weights only to doing hours of cardio, don’t restrict your food to a point of starvation, don’t go from training 3 days a week to 7 days a week .... you get my point. .
✨Honour yourself, honour where you are at this point in time. ⬇️⬇️ CONTINUED ⬇️⬇️
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How old are my followers??? <span class="emoji emoji2935"></span>️<span class="emoji emoji2935"></span>️<span class="emoji emoji2935"></span>️ #IWannaKnow . __ I WILL be in the best shape of my LIFE by 43 ...
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How old are my followers??? ️ #IWannaKnow . __ I WILL be in the best shape of my LIFE by 43 years old in 6 months! I'm never done! Starting week 4 of my program! #MotivationalMondat 🏻🏻 . __ In the mean time here's a friendly reminder.....you were not put on this earth to just pay ... How old are my followers??? ⤵️⤵️⤵️
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I WILL be in the best shape of my LIFE by 43 years old in 6 months! I'm never done! Starting week 4 of my program! #MotivationalMondat 💪🏻❤️💪🏻 .
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In the mean time here's a friendly reminder.....you were not put on this earth to just pay bills & die. You were created to kick A$$ & repeat every damn day! .
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Repeat after me ✅✅✅✅ .
I am important.....END of story!
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✔️In order to be the BEST mom possible it takes putting myself first! .

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✔️In order to be the BEST wife possible it takes putting myself first! .

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✔️In order to run a successful business I LOVE I have to be my BEST!.
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I don't care what others think....they either support me or they don't! I'm doing this for ME....for my FAMILY and for my TEAM! BUT it ALL starts with ME! .
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As I get pumped to start a new week I think of all of you that are NOT putting yourself first because people said you'd fail or never be successful! All of you that are over whelmed today Monday and you need a plan. Remember you can have a plan AND others don't pay your bills and they sure the heck DON'T lay their head on your pillow and live between your own ears each day! .
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Put yourself first!!!! That's how you LOVE the ones you LOVE harder and BLOW through this week with GOBS of energy & drive! #startsWithU 💪🏻❤️💪🏻 Returning my in box like a mad woman this week....let me know here if your ready to work with me and I'll in box you! 💌.
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Now go out an make dirt fly! #YourWorthIt .
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Losing Buster has not been like losing a pet, but like losing my dearest friend. Even more so, he was ...
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Losing Buster has not been like losing a pet, but like losing my dearest friend. Even more so, he was my best friend. He made every day more special. Bad days became good, and good days became amazing just from being in his presence. His big doggy smile and perky 'yoda' ears always left a smile ... Losing Buster has not been like losing a pet, but like losing my dearest friend. Even more so, he was my best friend. He made every day more special. Bad days became good, and good days became amazing just from being in his presence. His big doggy smile and perky 'yoda' ears always left a smile on my face. He supported me through 18 years of my life including being my biggest rugby supporter. He even helped me during times of grieving, such as when I lost my dad. I would have not have been as strong if it wasn't for him. It's still a shock not to have him here with me. I still find myself feeling excited to come home after a long day, only to then remember that he will not be there to great me at the door. It's the simple things I miss as well, like hearing his little foot steps on the hardwood floor and hearing him trying to pull his bag of treats out of his treat jar. I will forever miss his furry snuggles and doggy kisses 💕 Buster, I will meet you one day at the rainbow bridge 🌈until then, I know you will be at peace, having endless amounts of treats and playing tug-of-war (he never really learned the true concept of fetch 🤣) with daddy 💕 I love you forever and always my sweet boy 🐶💕 #sappypost #dogsareagirlsbestfriend
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Jesus it's been another year already. Well then, HAPPY ESCAPE THE WOMB TO MY BEAUTIFUL BEST FRIEND! ...
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Jesus it's been another year already. Well then, HAPPY ESCAPE THE WOMB TO MY BEAUTIFUL BEST FRIEND! I have no idea where I would be or who I would be if I did not have you in my life, I truly love you Jocy. I am so happy that you have put up with my annoying, complaining, stupid-shit-saying ass. I'm ... Jesus it's been another year already. Well then, HAPPY ESCAPE THE WOMB TO MY BEAUTIFUL BEST FRIEND! I have no idea where I would be or who I would be if I did not have you in my life, I truly love you Jocy. I am so happy that you have put up with my annoying, complaining, stupid-shit-saying ass. I'm glad to say that you are my best friend and Idgaf that you're younger than me, bc if anything it made you like a sister to me. I love how mature but still kick-ass you are. I hope you stay in my life forever bc hell, I want to stay in yours.
I love you Jocy and I hope you had an awesome birthday party yesterday. Remember, you're mine tomorrow! Love, your Esteban Julio Ricardo Montoya de la Rosa Ramírez
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I wanna share a story for how I met these 2 girls 3 years ago. I was back from America and started to work ...
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I wanna share a story for how I met these 2 girls 3 years ago. I was back from America and started to work at the company which I signed up for participating summer work and travel program in U.S. 2015 also the year I just got graduated and I got the chance to go back to my university and gave a speech ... I wanna share a story for how I met these 2 girls 3 years ago. I was back from America and started to work at the company which I signed up for participating summer work and travel program in U.S. 2015 also the year I just got graduated and I got the chance to go back to my university and gave a speech to share my experience in U.S. Thanks for letting me know that you girls thought I was sweet and pretty even when we first met hahahha and I still remember after my speech you girls ran to me that you both wanna sign up for the trip lol. More important is I’m so happy that helping you girls for your first trip to America and I’m so grateful what this experience has brought to your lives. What’s more, also the start our friendship and continue to now and many mores for sure. Because we both have similar experiences, I feel so comfortable being around with you girls and thanks for loving me, caring me and always telling me that I’m so brave to trace for the dreams to make them come true. I love you girls from the button of my heart and truly treasure for having you girls who can call two of my “BFFs” in my life. Merry Christmas and may 2019 be the year for you to glow, the best is yet to come.🥰
Love Crystal
#bff #friendsgiving #sisterfromanothermother #lovethemboth #❤️ #merrychristmas #toallmyloves
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alice; i really don’t want to break character integrity but i know imma be on the border of crossing ...
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alice; i really don’t want to break character integrity but i know imma be on the border of crossing into it with this but ... i honestly owe this account and all my friends to this gorgeous little gingersnap of a girl - if it wasn’t for all those alice videos i watched when i was ill like five years ... alice;
i really don’t want to break character integrity but i know imma be on the border of crossing into it with this but ... i honestly owe this account and all my friends to this gorgeous little gingersnap of a girl - if it wasn’t for all those alice videos i watched when i was ill like five years ago (and some FoF, but that’s not the point now-) i’d have never created this account - throwback to when i was a parks account - or gained my best friends, so i guess this is a small thank you to alice because this entire account has shaped my life in massive ways and without it i would be a completely different person🥰
but seriously, this account brought me my disney friends, introduced me to ouat and brought me friends from there AND introduced me to graphic design which is allowing me to finally pursue illustration as well; i owe this account so much!!!
also, me rewatching a load of alice videos inspired me to annoy han into doing this collab with me too 🥳
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i can’t remember whose photo this is, but if it’s yours PLEASE let me know and i’ll credit you straight away!
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hashtags: #disney #walt #disneyworld #disneyland #eurodisney #paris #florida #orlando #california #magic #kingdom #magickingdom #animalkingdom #epcot #hollywoodstudios #MGM #downtowndisney #festivaloffantasy #disneymagic #wdw #facecharacter #waltdisney #disneyedit #waltdisneyworld #disneygram #disnerd #meghanparkscollab #alice #gingersnap #aliceinwonderland
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🖤Durham, NC🖤 We’re here celebrating the full moon in Virgo and popping up at the amazing @everyday__magic ...
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🖤Durham, NC🖤 We’re here celebrating the full moon in Virgo and popping up at the amazing @everyday__magic from 4-7pm. The lovely & best @id_bryce turned me on to Bakara’s book on tarot earlier this year and once I found her shop on IG, I fell for her & team { @christiantberry }’s relatable way ... 🖤Durham, NC🖤 We’re here celebrating the full moon in Virgo and popping up at the amazing @everyday__magic from 4-7pm.
The lovely & best @id_bryce turned me on to Bakara’s book on tarot earlier this year and once I found her shop on IG, I fell for her & team { @christiantberry }’s relatable way of talking about crystals & began exploring them again with more intention.
My father used to take me to science shops as a kid, there was one in Bethpage where he lived that I remember distinctly, it had glow in the dark star stickers and small holographic galaxy lidded boxes I held some of my favorite treasures in as a child which included an olde silver dollar coin, a carefully folded two dollar bill and a barrette I wore as a baby. He gave me my first crystal and made me feel magic was real.These are the better parts I remember of him and the ones I choose to hold more closely as he had more intense qualities and behaviors that also left their marks. Circling back to crystals as a adult has been profound for me, we’ve always had crystals as a part of the line but these days my studies feel deeper & I look forward to sharing these insights with our new and upcoming jewel work.
We’re honored to be hosted at this space and amongst the team of Everyday Magic and look forward to seeing you there if you are local or are traveling to be there.
A few words about the event: there is no admission fee, and we’ll be accepting all forms of payment if your choose to bring something home with you. We also hold these events as a way for people to view the pieces in real life and to ask questions or share stories; there is never any pressure to purchase. I wanted a way to have more 1:1 connections off of screens and also to get to travel a bit & this has been one of the aspects of the ‘job’ I love best, getting to meet you despite my social anxiety & getting to connect with you. Our pop up is within Everyday Magic which is filled with crystals and other metaphysical objects that will be available through them as well. See you soon ! #bloodmilk #fullmoonfeels #teambloodmilk
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They say you are the average of the five people you spend the most time with. I also realize that makes ...
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They say you are the average of the five people you spend the most time with. I also realize that makes me an influence to those who count me in their top five. I also know I have four kids. So I’m one of their five. That’s a heavy weight to hold...but I try my best to teach them and lead them with my best ... They say you are the average of the five people you spend the most time with. I also realize that makes me an influence to those who count me in their top five. I also know I have four kids. So I’m one of their five. That’s a heavy weight to hold...but I try my best to teach them and lead them with my best heart. I’m lucky enough to have far more than a handful of amazing, talented, hard working,genuine, real friends who influence me. Push me to be better. To reach for my wildest dreams. To show me even when it’s not pretty progress is progress. I hope that I offer the same for them ...I even believe it’s true for what we consume our minds with each day. So friends, remember who you follow, what you read, the podcast you listen to...fill your mind and heart with people who push you to be the best YOU! Photo taken at a retreat with some of the most amazing people in my industry, surrounding myself with greatness. 📷: @timothyeyrich or @jaycassario I don’t remember. 😂
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If you ever get on my bad side or upset me, best believe all the screen shots are sent and delivered ...
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If you ever get on my bad side or upset me, best believe all the screen shots are sent and delivered to my sister. She’s the one I rant to, she’s the one that gets me and I love her because we are each other’s equivalents and since we’ve been friends we have never got into any fights or disagreements... ... If you ever get on my bad side or upset me, best believe all the screen shots are sent and delivered to my sister. She’s the one I rant to, she’s the one that gets me and I love her because we are each other’s equivalents and since we’ve been friends we have never got into any fights or disagreements... if you or anyone you know that’s coming for my girl Kairi, better believe I have your funeral arrangements already planned out. She’s my ride or die. .
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Dear Best Friend @xoxo_kairidreme , today we celebrate you! Words cannot explain how blessed I am to have you as my sister in life. I look back at all the memories we shared together... when I was in the hospital and was recovering you fed me soup and gave me my pills and made sure I got better... (my own ex boyfriend bailed on me and left me to recover on my own) but not you... you never left my side since the first day we became friends. I remember when we first clicked we shared our memories of my Grandpa and your Mother (our guardian angels) and I was convinced that they paved the way for our friendship. Your well being means so much to me. You know that I’m always down for you and if it’s anything my crazy ass will try my best to go out of the way to fix things for you. I love you babe. Happy Birthday to you sis. Can’t wait to build more memories with you. You’re stuck with me for life 😘
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Whytne, I remember when i first saw you I wasn’t a fan of you. But then we had Spanish together and our ...
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Whytne, I remember when i first saw you I wasn’t a fan of you. But then we had Spanish together and our friendship blossomed. You have been my best friend since my 10th grade year at Faith and I’m glad that you still are my best friend. You are my go to girl, my partner in crime, the little sister I’ve ... Whytne, I remember when i first saw you I wasn’t a fan of you. But then we had Spanish together and our friendship blossomed. You have been my best friend since my 10th grade year at Faith and I’m glad that you still are my best friend. You are my go to girl, my partner in crime, the little sister I’ve never had. I am going to miss those crazy car rides together, our trips to Numinous, to your house or to go get food. You are my true blue friend at Faith. You are always there for me and I’m always there for you. @whyt._ I love you and will miss you so freaking much. No one can replace you and no one better replace me boo.💋❤️
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@brahtaylie Today is quite possibly the best day ever. 1096 days ago. 156 weeks ago. 26,304 hours ago. 1,578,240 minutes ago. 94,694,400 seconds ago, I met my best friend. 3 years, what??? It’s doesn’t seem that long at all, but I guess time flies when your having fun right? Three years ago ... @brahtaylie Today is quite possibly the best day ever. 1096 days ago. 156 weeks ago. 26,304 hours ago. 1,578,240 minutes ago. 94,694,400 seconds ago, I met my best friend. 3 years, what??? It’s doesn’t seem that long at all, but I guess time flies when your having fun right? Three years ago today I met my other half, my soulmate, my everything. Sky, we’ve been through a lot, but somehow we’ve gotten through it all. The day we met we barely talked, and then my phone broke and we couldn’t talk for months. But, when it finally got fixed we became so close. You are the only person I can tell absolutely everything to. Some people might not understand, how could we have never met, our still be so close? If I’m being honest, i don’t know, but I’ve never been this close with any of my irl friends before. To be honest, I don’t know how our accounts have made it so long. We’ve been here for ages, and we’ve been through so so so much together and sometimes I feel like I’ve been in the fandom forever. If I’m honest, I probably would have left by now if it weren’t for you. We’ve had so many memories. like egg twins, your the raw egg and Im the hard boiled, Bsun home slice and hmm, #tracie, and how we can always talk about our boy problems with eachother. I love you so much, you have never left me even when things got hard and people tried to come between us. even when I was a mess and wasn't there for you, you always stayed. you understand me better than anyone else, know me better than anyone else and that’s why your my soulmate. I know we haven’t talked as much lately and I really regret that because you mean so so so much to me. But it doesn’t change that your my other half. It doesn’t feel like we’re internet friends, it feels like we’ve met a thousand times, even thought we haven’t. But we will, even if we’re 73!!!! Ok now let’s get funny, remember cheater boyfriend?? I do ahahah. I also remember all your other boyfriends. (Dang your a hoeeee) but I love you anyways😉 the funniest thing ever was when we pulled the foot fettish prank on Isaac. (More below) #bratayley #annieleblanc #hayleyleblanc #sfs #followforfollow #hannie #kannie #kanniebase
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This photo was taken just a week after I found out that I was HIV positive. I was at the doctors office ...
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This photo was taken just a week after I found out that I was HIV positive. I was at the doctors office + I remember feeling like my life was over. Sht, I wanted to end it faster. I was at my best physically, emotionally + mentally until I had this brick thrown at me. I was exhausted with the infectious ... This photo was taken just a week after I found out that I was HIV positive.
I was at the doctors office + I remember feeling like my life was over. Sht, I wanted to end it faster. I was at my best physically, emotionally + mentally until I had this brick thrown at me. I was exhausted with the infectious disease physicians harassing me for the names of people i’d slept with + pressuring me to get on medication. I was overwhelmed as I had started a new job the day after I found out + continued teaching my classes. I never stopped to deal with it, until I moved to Texas.
This morning I woke emotional thinking about my weight gain, my family not being here with me + my diagnosis. BUT GOD reminded me of how far i’ve come because I KEPT MOVING. How far i’ve come because I trusted him + how blessed I am to have the support from each of you. As I sit before I meditate in the space for my event today, I feel empowered + in control of my life again. I believe that no matter what happens to us, we can overcome. We can be powerful again + confident in our future.
It’s ok to stop + deal with death, sickness, lay offs, stress, tragedy + disappointment but it’s never ok to stay there. Keep moving, keep pushing + keep believing in yourself.
xo- estelle
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I am at a loss for words! I met you at the begnning of this year and it seems like only yesterday. I remember ...
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I am at a loss for words! I met you at the begnning of this year and it seems like only yesterday. I remember how aggravating you were! So agg, but a really great and honest person. You cared for me as everyone around us did, you were like a sister to me! I still don't know what's going on. And another ... I am at a loss for words! I met you at the begnning of this year and it seems like only yesterday. I remember how aggravating you were! So agg, but a really great and honest person. You cared for me as everyone around us did, you were like a sister to me! I still don't know what's going on. 😭😭 And another tear drops every time I think about it. New Orleans was my paradise, and sure enough, so many other "p" words that just strike me consistently. All the pauses at Liberty's kitchen. My problems you talked with me about! That city became my pain. Seeing you were okay by Trina's as I walked through the door with her daughter, Dom. When Ms. Trina passed I had already began to regret leaving the city as I could not be there for my best friend's mother's funeral. When the fire thing happened, I should have known that things didn't seem right. That could've been a near death experience, and I know that Death hates when you cheat him! You may have not been the nicest friend to me, but you were my friend, and I truly miss you now that I know I will never see you again. I'm losing people I thought would always be so close to me left and right, and it hurts more knowing that we will not share any future with one another. So many plans I had for you and everyone in my circle. Is this really life? I never got to say, "Goodbye." 💔 #RipDante #RipTrina #RipBrittany @brittanyward2484 I didn't want to post, because I never do this, but I've had enough. Somebody, talk to me! If I can't have any words with her, I should at least know what's going on. I really feel more for her than any of you would think. She was hurting, and her illness was destroying her. I'd feel more comfortable to know it was her time. Please tell me it was all natural. 😢
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This is the most definition that I’ve had in my belly in a LONG time. I usually don’t post my “body” ...
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This is the most definition that I’ve had in my belly in a LONG time. I usually don’t post my “body” very often because compared to what I see in regards to fitness “goals” I am no where close. Today, after my workout, I felt comfortable taking a picture where my belly is showing and that is something ... This is the most definition that I’ve had in my belly in a LONG time. I usually don’t post my “body” very often because compared to what I see in regards to fitness “goals” I am no where close.
Today, after my workout, I felt comfortable taking a picture where my belly is showing and that is something I never do.
I do my best to eat healthy, meal prep, be mindful of what I put in my body but I also love wine and I love fries and I love an occasional midnight run to Taco Bell.
But when I step into the weight room I push myself. I push myself hard because it makes me feel good. It makes me feel strong. It makes me feel confident.
Fitness goals are differ for everyone. Mine is just to be comfortable within my own skin, whatever that would mean for my body to look like.
While you all are looking at other fitness models and want their body (don’t worry I do too), remember that you can look good and feel good with being fit in your own way.
So here is me, vulnerable and confident, on my own fitness journey, wherever that may lead me.
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#bodygoals #fitness #fitfam #girlswholift #lifting #gym #gymlife #fitnessjourney #selflove #bodylove #confident #loveyourself #loveyourbody
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I am not a perfect mom but I am doing my best to be all that Emy needs me to be. Yesterday we attended ...
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I am not a perfect mom but I am doing my best to be all that Emy needs me to be. Yesterday we attended a family reunion where she was held by countless family members. I enforced hand sanitizer as much as I could when people would take her from me. But then, family started taking her from others without ... I am not a perfect mom but I am doing my best to be all that Emy needs me to be.
Yesterday we attended a family reunion where she was held by countless family members. I enforced hand sanitizer as much as I could when people would take her from me. But then, family started taking her from others without cleaning their hands and by the time I noticed the “damage” had already been done. I felt like I should have thought that through & done more to keep her germ-free. (Attach a bottle of hand sanitizer to her foot? A big bold sign on her back?) Yesterday in the rush to get out the door and to the event on time, we also left her blanket at home. It was a chilly day & although we spent 98% of our time inside, I felt terrible! So she used my nursing cover as a blanket instead.. Today she had her first ever poop blowout on our way to Ikea. We didn’t have a change of clothes for her in our bag & we couldn’t go all the way back home just to go back out to Ikea. So we put her in a clean diaper, swaddled her in a blanket, and pushed her in the bassinet around the store... naked under the swaddle.
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel a little #momguilt for all of these mishaps. But then I remember this is new to me. I am still learning and growing as a mother everyday. I’m only 6 weeks into this new journey & no one human can get it “right” 100% of the time.
My mantra today was “I’m not perfect, but neither is ‘she’”.✨
I invite you all to share a time you didn’t get this “mom thing right” in the comments below so we can all remember we aren’t alone in our little imperfect moments, possibly take a small burden off our hearts, & hopefully have a good little laugh of two!❤️
#perfectlyimperfect #newmom #learningeveryday #mygirl #motheranddaughter #newborn #momtalk #momssupportingmoms #postpartum #fourthtrimester #motherhood
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I feel like there’s some kind of strange irony that the last time I saw you was the best day of my life. ...
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I feel like there’s some kind of strange irony that the last time I saw you was the best day of my life. It’s almost like the universe was making sure you stuck around for this moment. I remember walking off the stage with my parchments into a lobby where you were there waiting for me with open ... I feel like there’s some kind of strange irony that the last time I saw you was the best day of my life. It’s almost like the universe was making sure you stuck around for this moment.

I remember walking off the stage with my parchments into a lobby where you were there waiting for me with open arms and a huge smile on your face. You were so proud of me and you always made sure I knew it. I wish I had more time and I wish I didn’t waste so much of it. I wish I called you more and I wish I didn’t argue with you so often. I wish I could have one more laugh over how many people we convinced into thinking we were twins and I wish I could hear your voice or see that cheeky smile again. There are so many things I wish I could say to you but I’ll be eternally grateful that you didn’t leave me wondering how you felt. You always made sure I knew how much you loved me and how proud you were, so I’m going to do my best to keep living a life that’ll make you proud until I see you again.

Thanks for suiting up, you looked sharp as hell.

#eternallymissingyou
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tw: self harm, suicide It’s been a pretty bad week so I forgot about Monday. It has been 5 years since ...
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tw: self harm, suicide It’s been a pretty bad week so I forgot about Monday. It has been 5 years since my fairly traumatic hold at Bellevue. I went in for self harm and suicidality looking for help from their crisis center. Due to some miscommunication I was instead locked in the prison ward ... tw: self harm, suicide
It’s been a pretty bad week so I forgot about Monday. It has been 5 years since my fairly traumatic hold at Bellevue. I went in for self harm and suicidality looking for help from their crisis center. Due to some miscommunication I was instead locked in the prison ward for nearly two days with no way to reach the outside world. I remember staring up at the fluorescent lights from my gurney in the hall. The nurses wouldn’t make eye contact with me. I had to walk through piss to use a bathroom with no door on it. A towering man growling what he wanted to do to me. I cried for hours while a line of NYPD officers just stared at me. I don’t tell this story to many people because of the intense shame I carry. I still see my mental illness as a personal failings and weakness. I worry people will only ever see me as crazy and sick, one setback away from a relapse. But for the first time I’m really working to take care of myself. I go to therapy twice a week despite the fact it means I have no savings. I'll admit my greatest fear: that despite my best efforts, my medication, personal success and love I would still meet my inevitable end - slipping away into madness in a hospital ward, alone. I still struggle every day but I’m finally starting to think that maybe I don’t have to live under this self imposed dark cloud. Maybe my days of self harm and self sabotage are over. Maybe I can make real plans for the future. Maybe I don’t have to be afraid of myself anymore. I’m learning to forgive myself and have empathy for the sad, scared girl I was when I was younger. Staying alive has not been easy for me. I hope you will all bear with me while I keep working at it. Here’s to another 5 years.
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So… ummm… today was grandparents day at Ellie’s school. . First off, I’m so glad I was in town to ...
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So… ummm… today was grandparents day at Ellie’s school. . First off, I’m so glad I was in town to attend. Second… I’m not gonna lie. I walked in thinking…what in the name of forever-twenty-seven am I doing here? I was just here 7 years ago with my own kid! . I looked around the room thinking… ... So… ummm… today was grandparents day at Ellie’s school.
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First off, I’m so glad I was in town to attend. Second… I’m not gonna lie. I walked in thinking…what in the name of forever-twenty-seven am I doing here? I was just here 7 years ago with my own kid!
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I looked around the room thinking… do I LOOK like a grandparent? — because I don’t think I do but maybe I’m not seeing clearly.
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Surreal. Truly surreal.
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So I sat in the baby chairs and listened to the wheels on the bus for the gazillionth time and gave all the “wows” and “yeahs” and hugs and kisses and responded to all the “look-at-me’s” because… well… I’m a grandmother.
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But YA’LL… as the other 2yos called out “Granny”, and “Nana”, and “Mimi”… my Ellie got my full attention by calling out Q-U-I-T-O — the 2yo version of my full-on-first name.
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I need to stop this nonsense and settle on a grandmother name.
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And while I’m at it…stop living in denial.
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But I JUST got rid of my baby stuff. I STILL have a handful of my best toddler toys because they were too awesome to sell or give away. I have NOT yet gotten rid of my kindergarten curriculum even though I’m four years upstream from that grade level.
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I might be a grandmother but I’m still young enough for denial to be thing. I’m living one season of life while I’m simultaneously full on in another. Cause I don’t just have one child from my child. I have TWO.
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Certified. Bonafide. Grandmother.
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Today was another step in my awakening towards a new season in my life and another wonderful opportunity to be reminded that time does not stand still.
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The best thing about this walk through the realization of the change of seasons though? I GET to see my grandchildren. I GET to experience legacy. I GET to be young enough to play, have fun, and be silly. And after a few more years, I GET to have my grandchildren remember me as the fun, lively, YOUNG grandmother who was maybe a little more “with it” than their friend’s grannies.
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Daughter, I remember you telling me that you always loved me being the young, fun mom. Today I smiled thinking that being the young, fun grandmother will be a good thing too.
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#mmc
#nameforthcoming
#EllieandIwilldecidesoon
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I can’t shut the eyes of my heart. Pretend people aren’t sad. I know sad. She was my best friend for ...
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I can’t shut the eyes of my heart. Pretend people aren’t sad. I know sad. She was my best friend for the longest time. Till I broke up with her one day. And while I’m sad today because I miss my kids, grandkids (swipe left to see them) and family in Missouri now that i live in Tennessee - I acknowledge ... I can’t shut the eyes of my heart. Pretend people aren’t sad. I know sad. She was my best friend for the longest time. Till I broke up with her one day. And while I’m sad today because I miss my kids, grandkids (swipe left to see them😘) and family in Missouri now that i live in Tennessee - I acknowledge sad. Let her stay awhile. I don’t pretend. These days, I am learning to hold sadness + JOY but most of all HOPE, simultaneously. And the little hope I want to give you today friend is this little song (me + my granddaughter @helloettajoy ) and a prayer that our hearts hear THE SONG - the gospel is set to music and if you listen with your heart, you’ll hear it. God told me over and over, still tells me he is WITH me. He STAYS. NEVER leaves. I also know what it’s like living without “people” Let’s remember people are hurting. Even people who hurt people, hurt. WE can be tangible relief to others chronic pain. -
And for a smile 😊 I haven’t showered today, went to target with no bra, beanie covering unwashed, unbrushed hair, old slippers stained with coffee, wood stain and Haven’t bought but one gift, moved house on Saturday, cancelled dinner with good friends today😞, skipped Christmas Eve service choosing to stay home and do nothing for one day except eat anything I want today (I’m making homemade chicken and noodles, mashed potatoes, brownies) watching Elf, then The Holiday. I’m not dreaming of a white Christmas. And I am OK with stepping out of the hurry and into holy. I’m delighting in being loved by God knowing while life can be like walking through the valley of the shadow of death so I choose to #remember WE HAVE A GOOD SHEPHERD. Maybe we can just be a little lamb today? Nothing can take away our #hallelujah (love My Hallalujah by @katietorwalt 🔥🙌🏻🎄🕯🖤🌱🍞
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<span class="emoji emoji1f384"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f470"></span>🏽🤵🏾<span class="emoji emoji1f48d"></span> @keda_baby Remember when @jamaljosef would always find away to make us be around each other ...
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🏽🤵🏾 @keda_baby Remember when @jamaljosef would always find away to make us be around each other and get along, because you are his best friend and I’m one of his closest cousins?! Only Jamal knew that we would be a great match once we got over ourselves and stop getting on each others nerves ... 🎄👰🏽🤵🏾💍 @keda_baby Remember when @jamaljosef would always find away to make us be around each other and get along, because you are his best friend and I’m one of his closest cousins?! Only Jamal knew that we would be a great match once we got over ourselves and stop getting on each others nerves being petty lol. It’s still crazy to me that you were best friends with my cousin years before we met and you were already practically family, but now you Are Family! You’ve been here for me as a friend so many times that “thank you” and “I appreciate you” still doesn’t justify my gratitude towards how patient and understanding you are towards me. 📖 Proverbs 30:10-12 (10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.) I never found you or love, but God sent you and love my way. Even when I tried to reject it and find excuses not to receive it. He knew I had to go through certain things to fully receive this blessing that He has been preparing you and I for through this course of this thing called Life.
One major 🔑 that I’ve learned from you throughout the years of being together, is how to Love. We’ve accomplished a lot of incredible goals in our career but I am mostly proud of how far we’ve come together working on love. So many levels to that word alone and God has taught us the different dynamics through one another. So excited to experience this journey of Life through Love with my best friend, with the foundation that we’ve set our relationship on. I pray that we both will continue to have fun, do what feels right, take it one day at a time and Keep God first in everything we do.
Without further do, I’m proud to make you my Fiancé and soon to be Wife! I love you❤️
Shoutouts to @1natalienicole @just.c0urt @zoreeyc @monica.warren My Mom in law, Aunty Amy and the family for making this happen!! (Btw I was nervous as 💩 😂) #proposal #melanin #blacklove #TheEskridges #love #family #FromBeyonceToFiance #engaged #shesaidyes #mrandmrs #bestfriends #christmas
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Në kujtim te bashkeshortit tim Xhuljan Tiko <span class="emoji emoji2764"></span>️😇<span class="emoji emoji2764"></span>️😇 You will always be missed Always in our heart ...
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Në kujtim te bashkeshortit tim Xhuljan Tiko ️😇️😇 You will always be missed Always in our heart and your memory will live with Me Nick & Alex forever Until I meet you again my love I can’t never say goodbye to you I can’t never say goodbye to you my love “When I come to the end of my journey And ... Në kujtim te bashkeshortit tim
Xhuljan Tiko ❤️😇❤️😇
You will always be missed
Always in our heart and
your memory will live
with Me Nick & Alex forever
Until I meet you again my love
I can’t never say goodbye to you
I can’t never say goodbye to you my love “When I come to the end of my journey
And I travel my last weary mile
Just forget if you can, that I ever frowned
And remember only the smile
Forget unkind words I have spoken
Remember some good I have done
Forget that I ever had heartache
And remember I've had loads of fun
Forget that I've stumbled and blundered
And sometimes fell by the way
Remember I have fought some hard battles
And won, ere the close of the day
Then forget to grieve for my going
I would not have you sad for a day
But in summer just gather some flowers
And remember the place where I lay
And come in the shade of evening
When the sun paints the sky in the west
Stand for a few moments beside me
And remember only my best”

Kur të vij në fund të udhëtimit tim
dhe unë udhëtoj miljet e fundit I lodhur,
vetëm harroni, nëse mundeni, ne qofte se unë ndonjëherë Ju lendova
dhe mos harroni vetëm buzëqeshjen.
Harro fjalët e këqija që kam thënë;
mbani mend disa të mira që kam bërë.
Harrojeni se unë kam ngecur dhe gabuar
dhe nganjëherë rash nga rruga.
Mos harroni se kam luftuar disa beteja të vështira
dhe fitova, deri në fund të ditës.
Pastaj harroni brengosjen për të shkuaren time;
Unë nuk do të ju trishtoj asnjehere me
por në verë vetëm mblidhni disa lule
dhe mos harroni vendin ku unë shtrihem,
dhe të vini në hijen e mbrëmjes
kur dielli perqafon qiellin në perëndim.
Qëndroni për disa momente pranë meje
dhe mos harroni vetëm të mirën time!

The link is in my page watch it is some of the photos since he was a little boy up to the very last days
Linkun e keni në faqen time, shikojeni ka foto qe kur ka qene djale i vogel e deri në ditet e fundit

#dorinatiko #new #photos #albanian #american #singer #shqipetare #ingers #photooftheday #picoftheday #mua #motd #lotd #fotd #mybeautifulhusband #rip #youwillalwaysbeinmyheart #foreverandever #myheartislost #mylove #imissyousomuch #maygodhelpme #andmakemestrog #forourkids #mybaby #XhuljanTiko #ripxhuljan👼🏻🐼
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Miraj un Nabi s.a.w Mubarak to all <span class="emoji emoji1f496"></span> Remember me, my family & whole ummah in duas <span class="emoji emoji1f60a"></span> Send salutations ...
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Miraj un Nabi s.a.w Mubarak to all Remember me, my family & whole ummah in duas Send salutations on Prophet s.a.w. Please forgive me if for any reason intentionally or unintentionally I have hurt you or back bitten. Miraj un Nabi s.a.w, When the Creator met the One for whom HE created the ... Miraj un Nabi s.a.w Mubarak to all 💖 Remember me, my family & whole ummah in duas 😊 Send salutations on Prophet s.a.w. Please forgive me if for any reason intentionally or unintentionally I have hurt you or back bitten.
Miraj un Nabi s.a.w, When the Creator met the One for whom HE created the world.
When ALLAH'S noor's shadow ascent on the mount of toor the mountain turned into ash and Prophet Musa a.s became unconscious, yet Our Prophet s.a.w went on the sky level which Allah possess and even after seeing Allah so closely he s.a.w wasn't unconscious. SUBHAN ALLAH MASHAALLAH Prophet s.a.w is special one like no other human. He s.a.w is seal of prophets. He s.a.w is the purest and with the best of character and imaan. He s.a.w has best manners. He s.a.w is with justice even when it was with his biggest enemy. He s.a.w has biggest of heart for he even forgave his bitterest enemies and gave invitation of islam. He s.a.w is most kindest and merciful for he had option to crush people of Taif between mountains when they made him bleed yet he prayed for their guidance. He s.a.w is the most honest and trustworthy that even his enemies couldn't lie about his sincerity. He s.a.w has been sent to this world being Mercy for every living thing which includes human, jins, plants, animals, birds, and everything. His way is road to jannah. One who holds to his s.a.w sunnah is saved and one who let's it go or doesn't follows completely is in great error then no matter how much mommeen they try to become. So believers He s.a.w has said: If a believer performs obligatory prayers, fasts in Ramadan, treat as lawful that which is lawful and treat as forbidden that which is forbidden, and do nothing further then he shall enter paradise" When Prophet s.a.w has said it then it's a guarantee. #islam #muslim #allah #thank #seekforgiveness #changeyourlife #fearallah #loveallah #dua #truelove #healer #guide #provider #rajab #shabemiraj #prophetsaw #muslimah #hibaji
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This day last year, my hospital room was lined up with my immediate family, my oncology team, and ...
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This day last year, my hospital room was lined up with my immediate family, my oncology team, and the high risk maternal team. They confirmed I was between a Stage II and Stage III Nodular sclerosis Hodgkins Lymphoma. ••• The day before, I had gone through a lymph node biopsy (that I laughed ... This day last year, my hospital room was lined up with my immediate family, my oncology team, and the high risk maternal team. They confirmed I was between a Stage II and Stage III Nodular sclerosis Hodgkins Lymphoma. •••
The day before, I had gone through a lymph node biopsy (that I laughed through because my sister was busy interacting with the doctor while he was digging into my neck), and a bone marrow biopsy that followed shortly after (which I also laughed through because my doctor was THEE best). I received my first cycle of Chemo that night and my nurses were amazing.
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Sammy and my sisters were beside me everyday in the hospital. I was 34 weeks pregnant, exhausted, and hadn’t seen Mel in 3 days. If you know me, you know my mom was my best friend and I had attachment issues with her in fear of losing her before I was ready. I lost my mom to breast cancer, so when I was diagnosed, all I could think about was how scared I was for Sammy and my kids. How devastated I would be if I couldn’t see my kids grow up. But I also remember the day we got my mom’s diagnosis in the hospital with her- she stared at me and kept asking if I was okay. The moment I was diagnosed, I felt the tiniest bit closer to my mom because I could understand a little more of where her fears were: maybe not necessarily being scared of dying because you don’t know what’s supposed to happen anyway when it comes, but knowing that everything will be happening in life for the people you love and not being there for any of it- feeling like you’re being taken from them, feeling punished. ••• I feel guilty every time I have an ounce of a bad mood because I know so much of life is lost to negativity and I remember praying to God I would do so much better if he let me get through this.
••• Today last year changed my life. It was hard, hectic and making me go insane at home. But I’m here now, and try to remember to keep perspective everyday that I get to wake up and celebrate life.
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I couldn't break down, he taught me how to be strong, remember? About a year or two later, I interviewed ...
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I couldn't break down, he taught me how to be strong, remember? About a year or two later, I interviewed to be the Sports Head Girl of my school. I didn't want to even run for the school team but my friends forced me into it. However, in my interview process, my teachers and my principal alike kept ... I couldn't break down, he taught me how to be strong, remember?
About a year or two later, I interviewed to be the Sports Head Girl of my school. I didn't want to even run for the school team but my friends forced me into it. However, in my interview process, my teachers and my principal alike kept asking me about my mental health and if I was strong enough, since my grandfather died. I broke down, my grandfather wasn't around anymore. I forgot how to be strong. The position went to a well-deserved candidate. She was my best friend, who later on went to become best friends with my high school enemy. Hilarious.
I remember when I was in high school, when teachers got to know I was my grandfather's granddaughter, they looked down at me because I wasn't even half of the man he was. I wasn't gentle, I was rebellious, I was not studious. All my teachers and classmates alike thought I was a dumb person who would never make it in life. And maybe they were right. I haven't made much out of my life, but I've still done what most of them could never have dreamt of. I'm somewhat independent, going to school and trying to make my old man around.
Each year since my grandfather passed away, I celebrate his anniversary. I remember our moments together, our fun times, our last moments together, the way he clenched my hand thinking I could save him one more time, and I couldn't. Ironically, in the same bed he died in, I had saved his life before.
I never realized what I had lost until years went by and all the things he talked about back them started to make sense in my now. I wish he was alive now, just so we could understand what both of us were trying to say, rather than me just brushing away all the knowledge he had to share with me. Whenever I feel upset or hurt, the first person I think about is him and how I wish I had him now, so that I could ask him about life, a subject he had always been passionate about.
Eight years ago, my grandfather passed away in my arms. Each year since then, feels like it happened just now.
R.I.P Nana,
Love,
Bandariya.
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Happy 31st Birthday son. 31 years ago i thought i was giving birth to a son, God gave me my best friend, ...
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Happy 31st Birthday son. 31 years ago i thought i was giving birth to a son, God gave me my best friend, and a King. Were so proud of you. Keep fighting for justice, keep being the example of change u want to see, and always remember NEVER 3/5 ALWAYS A MAN. #MySonIsBeingTheChangeHeWantsToSeeInThisWorld ... Happy 31st Birthday son. 31 years ago i thought i was giving birth to a son, God gave me my best friend, and a King. Were so proud of you. Keep fighting for justice, keep being the example of change u want to see, and always remember NEVER 3/5 ALWAYS A MAN. #MySonIsBeingTheChangeHeWantsToSeeInThisWorld #MyDaddyWouldBeProud #beinganactivistisinyourdna, #keepfighting
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This weekend has been one to remember because my best friend traveled across the country to check ...
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This weekend has been one to remember because my best friend traveled across the country to check on me. She switched up her plans, packed up her baby, and made the journey all to see for herself if I really am "okay." A few months back I made a last minute, game-time decision to relocate to Cali ... This weekend has been one to remember because my best friend traveled across the country to check on me. She switched up her plans, packed up her baby, and made the journey all to see for herself if I really am "okay." A few months back I made a last minute, game-time decision to relocate to Cali instead of the intended Philly for a myriad of reasons...I had 2 weeks to figure stuff out and while I've managed to come out on top, she has refused to have peace about any of it until seeing/experiencing it for herself. I feel so loved. Thank you. ❤️😭💯
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There are two reasons why I chose Hult for my Masters Degree: 1) Rotation 2) Internship. The combination ...
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There are two reasons why I chose Hult for my Masters Degree: 1) Rotation 2) Internship. The combination of these two was hard, but compromising with rotating only once was the 🗝 for me. My best tips if you want to get an Internship when you’re rotating is to start your job hunt in early, January ... There are two reasons why I chose Hult for my Masters Degree: 1) Rotation 2) Internship. The combination of these two was hard, but compromising with rotating only once was the 🗝 for me. My best tips if you want to get an Internship when you’re rotating is to start your job hunt in early, January latest. Hard work pays off and remember to use Hult’s career service for all it’s worth 💁🏻‍♀ Catch a preview of my workplace on instastory ☝🏻. - @heidivestvik
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You are blessed with a Second chance, the chance you’ve Knelt down and Prayed for, for almost 10 years! What do you do ??? ——————————————————————————— Prison once offered me Peace, and more opportunities than than Society. The Era I grew up in has long gone. I knew well before I came home that ... You are blessed with a Second chance, the chance you’ve Knelt down and Prayed for, for almost 10 years! What do you do ??? ———————————————————————————
Prison once offered me Peace, and more opportunities than than Society. The Era I grew up in has long gone. I knew well before I came home that I would have 3 choices evolved or get left behind or spend the rest of my life behind bars!.....
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There had to be an alternative route to the madness and negativity. I remember telling my best mate that if things don’t work out In 2 years I Gonna jump back on the road, I was asked to release a Documentary “How Fitness Changed my life” When I realised how many People I motivated i thought 💭 ffs now I have to keep going. I suppose we all grow up eventually but if I known what I know now things would have been very different. Look out for my Fitness & Crime Documentaries 🎥 this month on @unilad
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Happy Birthday L-Train! Thank you for always being there for me when I needed you most. I’ll always ...
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Happy Birthday L-Train! Thank you for always being there for me when I needed you most. I’ll always remember on my best day, that you were here for me on any of my worst days. Love you dude. @lsgranby7 #HappyBirthday Happy Birthday L-Train! Thank you for always being there for me when I needed you most. I’ll always remember on my best day, that you were here for me on any of my worst days. Love you dude. @lsgranby7 #HappyBirthday
Remember when my best friends got engaged? Remember when I actually cried? Well, you do now. ----- So ...
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Remember when my best friends got engaged? Remember when I actually cried? Well, you do now. ----- So genuinely proud of you @nick_artz and your proposal was incredible. Thank you for letting me tag along. @samanthalorraineruiz I love you sissy and I'm so happy for the two of you! Remember when my best friends got engaged? Remember when I actually cried? Well, you do now. -----
So genuinely proud of you @nick_artz and your proposal was incredible. Thank you for letting me tag along.
@samanthalorraineruiz I love you sissy and I'm so happy for the two of you! 💍⛪️💕👨‍👩‍👧‍👦
Join Me In Wishing The Living Legend @biggarankin00 The Happiest Of Birthdays. More than a friend...Closer ...
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Join Me In Wishing The Living Legend @biggarankin00 The Happiest Of Birthdays. More than a friend...Closer than blood.... We’ve seen more and done more than most will ever know , see or do. You’ve remained TRUE to your family, your team , your cause and me! My best friend, My mentor, My business ... Join Me In Wishing The Living Legend @biggarankin00 The Happiest Of Birthdays. More than a friend...Closer than blood.... We’ve seen more and done more than most will ever know , see or do. You’ve remained TRUE to your family, your team , your cause and me! My best friend, My mentor, My business Partner..... I remember looking you in your eyes and telling you we were gonna change the world..... we are on that path OG!!!! #promovatican
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Remember that one time two years ago TODAY we got MARRIED @backcountry_rogue ??? Love him so much. ...
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Remember that one time two years ago TODAY we got MARRIED @backcountry_rogue ??? Love him so much. Best decision I ever made. My life is better with him by my side. He makes me my best self. I love you Alan. Happy Anniversary. Remember that one time two years ago TODAY we got MARRIED @backcountry_rogue ??? Love him so much. Best decision I ever made. My life is better with him by my side. He makes me my best self. I love you Alan. Happy Anniversary.
I don’t typically do this sort of thing. I’m not the type to post some big sappy paragraph on social ...
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I don’t typically do this sort of thing. I’m not the type to post some big sappy paragraph on social media but this feels like a fitting time. Two years ago I was introduced to this new wonderful group of friends while hanging out at an Applebee’s. I remember being kinda shy and nervous at first ... I don’t typically do this sort of thing. I’m not the type to post some big sappy paragraph on social media but this feels like a fitting time. Two years ago I was introduced to this new wonderful group of friends while hanging out at an Applebee’s. I remember being kinda shy and nervous at first and not really talking much. But this one boy with curly hair at the end of the table just wouldn’t stop trying to talk with me and kept cracking jokes until I was more comfortable. The night was fun and it was greatly due to him. Over the course of the next year I had a lot happen in my life, but my friends consistently stayed with me, making me laugh and helping me through. As time went on, I found myself growing closer and closer to the curly haired boy from the end of the table. And in that time we talked about everything, showed each other things that we loved, talked until late, and hung out regularly. He always made me laugh and always was there for me when I needed someone. And in time, this lovely boy, Corey, became someone I would consider one of my best friends. Then that feeling turned to something more. As we talked about our families, our fears, our dreams, and just opened up completely, I found that I wanted to spend more and more time with him. There was an excitement that bubbled up every time we hung out or talked. And one night, after what was supposed to be just another night hanging out but had slowly developed into a date, I found that my feelings were reciprocated. Then a year ago today Corey, my best friend and closest confidant, asked me to officially date him and I agreed. This past year with Corey has been one of the most beautiful years I can remember. Every up and down we faced, we knew we could turn to each other and find comfort and understanding and support. There has been so much laughter and joy. When times have been tough, he was there at my side. When I was sick he cared for me. We never run out of things to say. I have never felt so happy in my own skin, being exactly who I am and knowing he loves who that is. So I just wanted to say I love you, Corey. Thank you for always loving me as I am. I can’t wait to see what our futures hold.
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recently, I had the privilege to meet MaryV and Chellaman to discuss topics ranging from transitioning ...
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recently, I had the privilege to meet MaryV and Chellaman to discuss topics ranging from transitioning to dysphoria. As a person who is best friends with someone going through major dysphoria, I asked MaryV on how to support the person going through dysphoria because I wanted to support ... recently, I had the privilege to meet MaryV and Chellaman to discuss topics ranging from transitioning to dysphoria. As a person who is best friends with someone going through major dysphoria, I asked MaryV on how to support the person going through dysphoria because I wanted to support my best friend in the best way possible. MaryV said that the best way is communication. She really made me think about how every little detail in our lives can really be hard on people going through dysphoria. It can be from bathroom signs, clothing, saying the wrong pronouns, etc. Talking to the person going through dysphoria helps a lot, and helping them navigate through life is crucial in moments when people seem to turn on them and refuse to empathize their situation. I wanted to share what I learned for anyone out there who has a friend who is going through a form of dysphoria and don’t know how to be there. I remember when my best friend was going through dysphoria and I wasn’t sure how to help because I didn’t have any resources to read from. Thank you @maryvbenoit and @chellaman for the wonderful discussion and the meet up 🖤
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Happy 21st Birthday to one of best friends! Thanks for listening to my rants and being there to make ...
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Happy 21st Birthday to one of best friends! Thanks for listening to my rants and being there to make fun of me when I'm being stupid! Thanks for being the person who makes me push myself to be better! Thanks for going with me for food whenever I ask! I'll always be your bad influence! Take some shots ... Happy 21st Birthday to one of best friends! Thanks for listening to my rants and being there to make fun of me when I'm being stupid! Thanks for being the person who makes me push myself to be better! Thanks for going with me for food whenever I ask! I'll always be your bad influence! Take some shots for me! "I remember when my best friend was shy and quiet, I created a monster" Have a spectacular day you deserve it!
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WARNING-Long post ahead LOL 2017 has been by far the busiest year of my young adult life. I got engaged ...
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WARNING-Long post ahead LOL 2017 has been by far the busiest year of my young adult life. I got engaged on December 19th of 2016, I then planned a Wedding for the following June... And then a few months ago (August to be exact) I found out I was expecting my own little peanut! All of this going ... WARNING-Long post ahead LOL

2017 has been by far the busiest year of my young adult life. I got engaged on December 19th of 2016, I then planned a Wedding for the following June... And then a few months ago (August to be exact) I found out I was expecting my own little peanut! All of this going on, while I was trying to keep up with my continuously BOOMING business! Which I was oh so thankful for! However.. it wasn't until my health was involved that I really had to do some soul searching. I truly realized how much pressure is on JUST ME...to be a mother, a business owner and a wife. To give my all 100% of the time or things WILL slip. And they did. Big time. and I let them. Unfortunately.
After the excitement of my new pregnancy settled, I began to feel about the worst I have ever felt in my life. I truly fell into a depression my doctor later diagnosed as Prenatal Depression which apparently is a very real thing and let me tell you it was miserable. I remember telling my best friend I wanted to close my business.. and she looked at me like I was slightly nuts. And at that point I think we both realized something was wrong. To be emotional is normal, but for me to go from absolutely loving my job to having zero confidence in my work... zero confidence in my ability to be a mother.. I was losing it. It was so abnormal and looking back it could have been life changing. And I had no real reason why.. I just felt all the bad feelings and it was awful. During all of this, I lost clients, I lost potential clients and when I tried to get back into the swing of things... I was looking at hundreds of emails.. tons of text messages and people wondering "Why the heck is this lady just now responding to me..weeks or months later?"... Which then of course only made me feel worse. It was an impossible task to go back through a month or two of inquiries and truly expect to get back to everyone. I had dug myself a hole and the only way I saw myself coming out of it was to start fresh. Respond to as many of you as I could and know that some would be missed unfortunately. Through all of this... the only thing I can honestly say kept me going and kept me from closing my doors
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When I’m Gone... When I COME to the END of my JOURNEY And I TRAVEL my last weary MILE, Just FORGET ...
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When I’m Gone... When I COME to the END of my JOURNEY And I TRAVEL my last weary MILE, Just FORGET if you can, that I ever frowned, And REMEMBER only my SMILE. Forget unkind WORDS I have spoken; REMEMBER all the GOOD I have DONE, Forget that I ever had heartaches, And REMEMBER all the MEMORIES ... When I’m Gone...
When I COME to the END of my JOURNEY
And I TRAVEL my last weary MILE,
Just FORGET if you can, that I ever frowned,
And REMEMBER only my SMILE.
Forget unkind WORDS I have spoken;
REMEMBER all the GOOD I have DONE,
Forget that I ever had heartaches,
And REMEMBER all the MEMORIES of FUN.
FORGET that I’ve stumbled and blundered
And sometimes fell by the WAY,
REMEMBER I have FOUGHT some HARD BATTLES
And WON, ere the CLOSE of the DAY.
Then FORGET to GRIEVE for my going;
I would not have you sad for a DAY
But just REMINISCE on the GOOD TIMES
And enjoy a BEAUTIFUL SUNSET where my spirit LAY
And come in the SHADE of the EVENING
When the SUN paints the SKY in the WEST
STAND for a few minutes BESIDE ME,
and REMEMBER only my BEST. #LOVE you DAD #HappyHeavenlyBirthday 💙😇🙏🏽
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When I come to the end of my journey and I travel my last weary smile just forget if you can, that I ever ...
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When I come to the end of my journey and I travel my last weary smile just forget if you can, that I ever frowned and remember only the smile Forget unkind words I have spoken remember some good I have done forget that I ever had a heartache and remember I had loads of fun. Forget that I’ve stumbled ... When I come to the end of my journey and I travel my last weary smile just forget if you can, that I ever frowned and remember only the smile Forget unkind words I have spoken remember some good I have done forget that I ever had a heartache and remember I had loads of fun. Forget that I’ve stumbled and blundered and sometimes fell by the way remember I have fought some hard battles and won, ere the close of the day. Then forget to grieve for my going I would not have you sad for a day but in summer just gather some flowers and remember the place where I lay And come in the shade of the evening when the sun paints the sky in the West stand for a few moments beside me and remember only my best. By Lyman Hancock
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I’ve been trying to sleep for ages now but I keep thinking about death. About what I would leave behind, ...
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I’ve been trying to sleep for ages now but I keep thinking about death. About what I would leave behind, who would pray for me, what I want my grave to look like, how I might pass and many, many other things. I then realised I have a message for you all. This page is a huge part of my life- I realise I ... I’ve been trying to sleep for ages now but I keep thinking about death. About what I would leave behind, who would pray for me, what I want my grave to look like, how I might pass and many, many other things. I then realised I have a message for you all. This page is a huge part of my life- I realise I haven’t posted in the last day or so but this page has a lot of importance, as do all of you. When I do pass, I want this page to stay up so that even when I’m long gone someone may read a post and feel a little better or decide to change for the better or do something good. I would want whoever can make it from here to go to my Janazah. I would ask you all to make dua for me at least once after. I would want you guys to sit and reflect on who you truly are and what impact you have on those around you and on the world, to re-evaluate your priorities and choices in life and to remember that at the end of the day it’s just you and your deeds six feet under within your grave. I’d want to be remembered as someone who always tried her best.
When this day does come, just pray for me. My best friends will let yous know.
I don’t know why I’m so comfortable talking about this, I suppose it’s because I’m so used to thinking about it and because of dadimas recent death. May Allah make her of the women of Jannah and have mercy upon her soul. She was truly a righteous woman. I do realise my family and loved ones would not want to think of such a thing. But I needed to let you guys know all of this and to remind you not to take this life for granted. We literally have a number of days until we all have to leave. Do something good with your lives, work to please Allah because at the end of the day-that’s all that’s going to matter. Work towards doing good and being the best human you can be. Just be good people man. This goes to me as well, I am genuinely trying to be even though I may not be, but I am trying my best. Stay blessed everyone, I just really needed to let these thoughts out and instas always been my place for that. May Allah bless yous and make you of the people of Jannah. May He reward you for your efforts and be pleased with yous 💖
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"You are my light for such a dark world" . . . . . Ben, I spend every day trying so hard to be okay. ...
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"You are my light for such a dark world" . . . . . Ben, I spend every day trying so hard to be okay. I know you didn't do this on purpose. I know it was an accident I know you meant to just do it and come see me right after but knowing all of that still doesn't help me. My best friend is gone. Do you remember ... "You are my light for such a dark world"
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Ben, I spend every day trying so hard to be okay. I know you didn't do this on purpose. I know it was an accident I know you meant to just do it and come see me right after but knowing all of that still doesn't help me. My best friend is gone. Do you remember listening to TDAGARIM over and over again every night while we'd sleep? And I'd have to get up every few minutes to flip the record because you were scared to scratch it because you knew how much it meant to me.. during Degausser, Jesse sings "When we were made we were set apart" and every time I hear that song I think about us. I know it took us four years to finally get it right, but I would gladly take that four years and do it over again for the rest of my life. I've never been happier than I was with you. And now I'm alone, again. I'm so afraid that there isn't anything more for us. Before you, I never believed in God, and before you, I never genuinely believed in true love. And now I spend every single day praying to God and to myself that somehow there truly is a God because that's the only way I'll ever be able to see you again. I would give anything in the entire universe for even another hour with you. I would give up everything I had to see you again because without you, I have nothing. My best friend is dead and he's never going to come back and I'll never get to see him again. I'll never get to hold his hand or give him a hug or have sleepovers with him again. I'll never get to call him when I have a bad day or watch movies with him or listen to him sing to me when I'm sad. I'll never get to do anything with him again. Every night while I'm sleeping, Ben, I either dream about finding you or I dream that you never left. Every single morning I wake up and look outside, just like we always did, and every single morning I see your truck outside and forget that you're gone. Every single morning i wake up and search the entire house before I remember that you're never coming home. Every single day I have to lose you all over again because no matter what I do I can't fucking remember. I'm so lost and I'm so alone and I'm so empty. I need you.
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This is how I Remember you. Remember only my best Now that I’ve come to the end of my journey and I’ve ...
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This is how I Remember you. Remember only my best Now that I’ve come to the end of my journey and I’ve travelled my last weary mile, just forget if you can any frowns- and remember only my smile. Forget any dark words spoken, but remember the good I have done. Forget that there ever was heartache, ... This is how I Remember you.
Remember only my best
Now that I’ve come to the end of my journey and I’ve travelled my last weary mile, just forget if you can any frowns- and remember only my smile.
Forget any dark words spoken, but remember the good I have done. Forget that there ever was heartache, just remember the laughter and the fun.
Forget that I stumbled and blundered and sometimes fell by the way;
Remember- I fought some hard battles, and won some, by the close of the day.
So do not grieve for my going, and don’t be sad for the day.
But in summer just gather some flowers and come to the place where I lay, and then in the shade of evening, when the sun paints the sky in the West; stand for a moment beside me - and remember only my best.
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Annyeong <span class="emoji emoji1f44b"></span> I've been off the beauty radar for a few months now, but it hasn't stopped me from knowing ...
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Annyeong I've been off the beauty radar for a few months now, but it hasn't stopped me from knowing of this current bestseller in Korea! I may not suffer from back acne, but I remember how my best friend in primary school used to complain about the pimples popping on her back, especially after ... Annyeong 👋 I've been off the beauty radar for a few months now, but it hasn't stopped me from knowing of this current bestseller in Korea! I may not suffer from back acne, but I remember how my best friend in primary school used to complain about the pimples popping on her back, especially after waking up most mornings and seeing her pajamas with little blood stains. If only this Bio-Piel Petit Ato Body Lotion existed back then so I could buy it and tell her, "I got your back" ...😬

Seriously though, check out the video posted on @biopiel_sg and you'll be amazed. I may not have back acne, but I'm extremely prone to getting rashes between my arms from medications / humidity / dust, so this product is perfect for me as well with the antiseptic, moisturising, calming and healing properties 👌 I've yet to try it as my rashes haven't been acting up, but I'll definitely put this by my bedside just in case!

Get this 400ml skin saviour for S$59.90 at selected @sasasingapore stores or online from @beautycarousel (although already sold out, so you know it's good stuff!) 💙
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Coming home to the worst news . Not being able to say goodbye How things turned for the worst so quick I ...
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Coming home to the worst news . Not being able to say goodbye How things turned for the worst so quick I lost the best thing that had happened to me.My best friend.I know our time was short but I will always remember you.You will always be in my heart my little mate Koda. RIP I know your not suffering ... Coming home to the worst news .
Not being able to say goodbye
How things turned for the worst so quick
I lost the best thing that had happened to me.My best friend.I know our time was short but I will always remember you.You will always be in my heart my little mate Koda.
RIP I know your not suffering now
I love you😩
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She confirmed my reason on earth and he completed me! I will never forget the day she gave me butterfly ...
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She confirmed my reason on earth and he completed me! I will never forget the day she gave me butterfly kisses, she showed me what love is. I’ll never forget the moment I gave her my first auntie speech (she was only a couple of weeks). I’ll never forget being angry at her for this first time. I’ll ... She confirmed my reason on earth and he completed me!
I will never forget the day she gave me butterfly kisses, she showed me what love is. I’ll never forget the moment I gave her my first auntie speech (she was only a couple of weeks). I’ll never forget being angry at her for this first time. I’ll never forget the day I knew she is going to be my best friend, just like her mother.
I remember that coin toss, the one where it landed on my side, confirming I will always and forever have you as my own (my own godchild). I will forever remember quietly watch you sleep in my arms. I will forever remember hearing you tell me “je t’aime pour la vie”. Even now I will always remember how you still want to snuggle me and how you get excited to see as much as the last time. I will always remember making you cry on your first birthday, I took a bit out of your hand, it was your finger (oops). Somehow you still love me!
You both gave me reason why I am an aunt, you both taught me what love is, you both have me a purpose, and you both with forever and always be my true loves!
#niece #aunt #nephew #godson #family #love #blessed #myreasonwhy #instafamily #belle
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People don’t really talk about insecurities on social media that often, Instagram is a highlight ...
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People don’t really talk about insecurities on social media that often, Instagram is a highlight reel. Your best outfits, best friends, dates with the “best bf ever” even though they hate taking pictures anyway...(cough* dave) My biggest insecurities for as long as I can remember are being ... People don’t really talk about insecurities on social media that often, Instagram is a highlight reel. Your best outfits, best friends, dates with the “best bf ever” even though they hate taking pictures anyway...(cough* dave) My biggest insecurities for as long as I can remember are being shy, my lack of confidence, and my thin straight hair. People that know me on a personal level know me as outgoing.. but people I don’t know I have a hard time talking to, coming up with a conversation, & it’s very draining for me. All THREE of those insecurities are quickly shifting. This “hair thing” that’s blowing up has been the best thing that’s happened to me. It’s breaking me out of my shell, giving me confidence I didn’t know I could have, and giving my hair LIFE. Its not just about the hair products, that’s just a perk. These women I work with are also making me grow as a person, pushing me to be my best self, & giving me SO much confidence. Ugh just TGIF AND Thank god for this business •••••
#hair #philadelphia #philly
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[Caption: A picture from last year showing my best friend @bajs_before_guys smiling in an adidas ...
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[Caption: A picture from last year showing my best friend @bajs_before_guys smiling in an adidas hoodie sitting by a table with a pizza] // TDoR (Trans Day of Remembrance) is on November 20th and where we memorialize those who have been murdered as a result of transphobia and to draw attention ... [Caption: A picture from last year showing my best friend @bajs_before_guys smiling in an adidas hoodie sitting by a table with a pizza]
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TDoR (Trans Day of Remembrance) is on November 20th and where we memorialize those who have been murdered as a result of transphobia and to draw attention to the continued violence endured by the trans-community. //
It is important to spread awareness that transphobia is so deadly that it has killed so many in the past and is still ongoing. To remember and mourn our fallen siblings. Most of the victims are rarely reported. Transwomen and femmes of colour are the most vulnerable group since it’s often a hate-crime of racism and transphobia combined. There will be gatherings all over the world today to gather and mourn all these lives we’ve lost this year due to violence, mental or physical health. I’ve put in my bio the event for Gothenburg.
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But this is also the last time from a year ago I saw my best friend in person. He was outspoken and unapologetic intersectional trans activist. I looked up to him so much in our community, so today is hard for me on many levels
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Last year you weren’t able to see me on my birthday (November 25th), because you had taken the night shift at the hospital were you used to work for. So you celebrated me five days earlier and treated me with my favourite pizza and a couple of beers. You also apologised to me that you hadn’t brought me a ‘real’ gift.
But that we were able to talk, laugh and enjoy ourselves over this pizza was everything and more that I needed.
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I envy myself from a year ago, who were able to talk to and hug you. And it hurts to think about each year I’ll draw closer to age surpass you, and that you won’t age with me and everyone else that loves you.
I miss you so much. But I know that it’s not only me missing you or thinking extra about you today. Our community is less without you.
I send all my love and thoughts to those who’ve lost their loved one and feels this pain extra today.
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In the left photo (Dec. 2017), I was weighing around 221lbs, the highest I’ve ever weighed in my entire ...
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In the left photo (Dec. 2017), I was weighing around 221lbs, the highest I’ve ever weighed in my entire life. For the first time, my stomach was actually bigger than my chest. I was depressed, lazy, very temperamental, unmotivated and just not happy with myself at all. I remember nights when ... In the left photo (Dec. 2017), I was weighing around 221lbs, the highest I’ve ever weighed in my entire life. For the first time, my stomach was actually bigger than my chest. I was depressed, lazy, very temperamental, unmotivated and just not happy with myself at all. I remember nights when I would DEVOUR an entire family sz. bag of Hot Funyuns all to myself and in one sitting.
On a serious note, I was getting over something that I’ve felt held me down for years, but in all honesty, I was letting myself go along the process. I remember accepting the fact that I wasn’t gonna be happy again and that lead me to believe I wasn’t gonna change anytime soon. I clearly wasn’t in a stable mindset, but I’m sure you all can understand that feeling of not being complete with yourself. That feeling of discontentment and sadness. I’ve felt this way for about 2 years. Two years of feeling not myself.
January 2018 was the start of my journey to getting my life back.
In the right photo (Oct. 2018), I’m weighing around 184-185lbs. I’ve trained vigorously just working on myself and learning to be the person I’d like to think I am today; working to be happy, more confident, less angry, more empathetic, and to feel free of my past. Now, I’m not gonna sit here and say I didn’t slack off at all because we’re all human. I still have my bdubs boneless Thursdays every week since January, took some off-days, cheated on my diet, etc. I truly believe I’ve finally reached my breaking point and realize that I’m happy and perfectly content with the things I have, the family and friends I have, and just living my best life.
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As for future plans, I definitely got bigger goals for 2019 and it’s only gonna get better from here. You can look at this as a body transformation I guess, but to me, it was more than that and I’m proud of how far I came. To be honest, this is more for me than anything, so idc what others think because this was all me. I’ve went thru hell and back just focusing on doing me and being happy. But it’s true what they say; You can do anything u want in this life if u put your mind to it. You just gotta be willing to give it your everything 🙏🏽💪🏽
#stayhumble
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16 years ago I left my house excited about "girls night out" with my best friends. Only this time we ...
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16 years ago I left my house excited about "girls night out" with my best friends. Only this time we were celebrating our last night home together for the summer. We were leaving for college and had "big plans" for our future in Memphis. It's funny how God has a bigger plan. You can't fully understand ... 16 years ago I left my house excited about "girls night out" with my best friends. Only this time we were celebrating our last night home together for the summer. We were leaving for college and had "big plans" for our future in Memphis. It's funny how God has a bigger plan. You can't fully understand the phrase 'life changing experience' until you've survived one. 8/8/02 was the hardest day of my life. When I woke up, everything hurt. I had no vision in my right eye. I couldn't walk. My face literally couldn't smile. Nothing made sense. I remember looking at my friend. You know, that best friend who can't lie to you, and asking her how bad I looked. I'll never forget her face. She cried and said I'm just glad you're here. Damn, that bad!? lol I had no idea what was going on. I couldn't remember what happend or how I got there. At that point, I still didnt know my best friend didnt make it😭 😇 In the blink of an eye, my life as I knew it was over. I don't know how or why I survived that accident but I know there is a reason God left me on this earth. I chose to not let my pain and struggle make me a victim. I'm still here so everyday I  LIVE! I try not to take things for granted. I do my best to not stress the small stuff. I say I'm sorry when I'm wrong and I love with all my heart. Everyday I try to make someone else's day a little better. When life knocked me down, even on days I couldn't walk, I crawled. When life gave me a million reasons to cry,  even when my face couldn't smile, I smiled anyway! You either get bitter or you get better. It’s that simple. You can take the cards you've been delt and allow them to make you a better  person, or allow it to tear you down. The choice belongs to you. "I tell my story, not for the glory, but for others to feel my hope!" #08/08/02 #ImaSurvivor #CountryStrong #HardToBreak #ImSmilingInThisPic #WhatDoesntKillYouMakesYouStronger
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He’s going to kill me for posting this but oh well lol <span class="emoji emoji1f602"></span> * * * Happy Father’s Day to my man, my king, ...
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He’s going to kill me for posting this but oh well lol * * * Happy Father’s Day to my man, my king, my everything. Words can’t describe how much I love and appreciate you but I will do my best. I love you for the days that you go out and break your back for our family and then come home like your day ... He’s going to kill me for posting this but oh well lol 😂
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Happy Father’s Day to my man, my king, my everything. Words can’t describe how much I love and appreciate you but I will do my best. I love you for the days that you go out and break your back for our family and then come home like your day was easy. I love you for your ability to break down my wall and get me to forget I have an attitude simply by hugging and kissing me. I love you for knowing I can be a brat and sometimes selfish but you continue to spoil me rotten. I love you for biting your tongue when you know I should be cursed out for taking my bossiness overboard. I love you for being the best father and great example to our daughters. They can’t wait to see you walk through that door. I love you for taking me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually higher when it seems I am off track. But most importantly I love you for never giving up on me because I know how hard love can be and despite all my negative qualities you seem to remember all my positive qualities when times get the hardest. You have sacrificed so much to take me and our girls to another level and trust me not a day goes by that I don’t remember that. I love you so much Eric A. Guy Jr and I will make sure that everyday I do my best to remind you. So enjoy your Fathers’ day baby, you definitely deserve it. From your soulmate; us against the world ❤️
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All my life I’m at my best when my back again the wall.. 2018 the most productive year for me!! I’m focus ...
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All my life I’m at my best when my back again the wall.. 2018 the most productive year for me!! I’m focus of my time in all my businesses. surrounded by many of positive people!! 2019 will be challenging for me with new project coming up with my long time childhood brother/business partner️. ... All my life I’m at my best when my back again the wall.. 2018 the most productive year for me!! I’m focus 💯 of my time in all my businesses. surrounded by many of positive people!! 2019 will be challenging for me with new project coming up with my long time childhood brother/business partner❤️. Big Thanks 🙏 to all my customers for the love and support all of our shop. Especially my mom never give up on me and always believing in me to turn my life around.Thanks to my Trusted extended XTREME HID family. Remember when you run into problem do your best to hold on to your hairs only if you have any left 😜.... “Dream with out a Goal is just a dream”
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my mom is moving and this morning I woke up feeling that distance as though it were wedged in between ...
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my mom is moving and this morning I woke up feeling that distance as though it were wedged in between our smiling faces and tangled arms, grinning too. I tried my best to remember our closeness. I'm trying not to forget the way my mom would scratch my head when we watched tv together or her long ... my mom is moving and this morning I woke up feeling that distance as though it were wedged in between our smiling faces and tangled arms, grinning too. I tried my best to remember our closeness. I'm trying not to forget the way my mom would scratch my head when we watched tv together or her long perfectly painted nails and brown clinique lipstick, how my mom loves the same bad movies as me and that when I learned how to read and speak- she did too My mom was my first friend, the first person to ever want or love me She's never been more than an hour or so away, never tougher to get to than paying for a bergenline bus or trudging up the hill. Really, we grew up together- and for that I am the luckiest person in the world. I'm trying to remember we can be together even when we aren't side by side. I'm trying to remember times we were even further apart but closer in distance. Its painful and complicated to accept times we weren't speaking were still full of love. Its painful for her to go when we are closer than we have ever been. But I'm so grateful- grateful for all the trust and love we have cultivated on our own, through tough conversations and experiences. I love you Ma, siempre estamos juntos. Desde el principio. Hasta el final.
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I just want to take a moment to share this. I don’t typically do sappy posts so much anymore I always ...
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I just want to take a moment to share this. I don’t typically do sappy posts so much anymore I always felt that kind words should be said in person. But I know that we always forget these things and I know if I were to just text it to you it would get lost with all the work conversations and questions ... I just want to take a moment to share this. I don’t typically do sappy posts so much anymore I always felt that kind words should be said in person. But I know that we always forget these things and I know if I were to just text it to you it would get lost with all the work conversations and questions about who fed and walked our dog. You said some really sweet things to me in my sleep last night and I remember because I wanted to wake up and tell you so many things. I love you so much I know we argue a lot but so do Pam and Jim in season 9 and it’s only ever because of stress and fear of changes. When we do our mini vacations or watch a show together we are at our best . I find it way more important to enjoy your company when we are both relaxed because it could be so much different if we didn’t enjoy our time together while we are doing something that should be fun. Our Orlando trip was exhausting but I was just so happy to be with you and follow you on every ride cause I was too scared to be away from you. We had so much fun together and didn’t fight once no matter how stressful the trip got. I still think back to that one trip and it erases all the arguing and fights from my heart. I appreciate you so much and even though all these changes scare me I’m so happy to embark on them with you. It reminds me of how I road all those rides with you at the park, I wasn’t afraid because I was with you. Because of you I want to be my best self and I want what’s best for me, you taught me to care about myself. You give me strength to try and improve and help in any way you can. I’m so proud of you and happy to call you mine. ❤️
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Today is World Mental Health Day and this is your reminder to practice mindfulness and kindness. People who live seemingly normal lives fight battles you can’t even fathom. On paper my life is perfect — I’m a graduate student who is having my education financed by my school while working ... Today is World Mental Health Day and this is your reminder to practice mindfulness and kindness. People who live seemingly normal lives fight battles you can’t even fathom.
On paper my life is perfect — I’m a graduate student who is having my education financed by my school while working at a law firm. I have the world’s best family. I’m in a loving relationship. I love my friends. I go shopping, I travel, I’m “living my best life”. What you don’t see is my never-ending struggle with generalized anxiety disorder and depression.
What you don’t see are:
• my panic attacks - little ones, big ones, irritability, isolation and all the other ways it manifests • crying spells that last days
• lack of motivation • feeling like the world is better without me
• the pills (finding stuff that works, putting my body through all of it) • the doctors • the stress of trying to keep it all together
• the strain it puts on my family, relationship and friendships

To everyone that checks up on me and worries about me, thank you. You’ve all saved my live more than once. I appreciate you all never giving up on me.
To anyone that is struggling please know that it gets better. Keep trying. Go to therapy. Don’t be afraid to get on medication (it’s not a cure but it can help). The world is better because you exist. Remember to be kind and gentle with yourself. If you ever need a listening ear, I’m here.
To everyone else, your actions affect other people. Be mindful today and everyday on how your words and actions are received.
A little kindness goes a long way. 💛🌻 #WorldMentalHealthDay #BeKind
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I remember your fluffy head lay on my bed. I remember your little mouth I used to kiss. Your small ...
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I remember your fluffy head lay on my bed. I remember your little mouth I used to kiss. Your small bowls still on the floor, training pad. I remember your pinky eyes looking into mine. Like we had our own secret club. I remember you hopping before bedtime. Then jumping on me, waking me up. I ... I remember your fluffy head lay on my bed.
I remember your little mouth I used to kiss.
Your small bowls still on the floor, training pad.
I remember your pinky eyes looking into mine.
Like we had our own secret club.
I remember you hopping before bedtime.
Then jumping on me, waking me up.

I can still feel you in my arms, little man.
And even the moment I knew,
You fought it hard like an army guy.
Remember I leaned in and whispered to you.
“ You were my best eight years.”
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I love you to the moon and back, Kingking. #rip
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Thought Topic: Appreciation <span class="emoji emoji1f343"></span>Learn to appreciate what you have before time forces you to appreciate ...
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Thought Topic: Appreciation Learn to appreciate what you have before time forces you to appreciate what you had I didn't know that when I first met her, but the first dog that I ever had would be my best friend. She only lived two years, but she taught me so much about life and about love. She ... Thought Topic: Appreciation 🍃Learn to appreciate what you have before time forces you to appreciate what you had🍃 I didn't know that when I first met her, but the first dog that I ever had would be my best friend. She only lived two years, but she taught me so much about life and about love. She was the kind of best friend that was relentless when you were sad. She would stick her head in my lap and let me cry until I no longer felt the need to. I still remember the day that I came home to the words "BeBe's dead". If you're the kind of person that doesn't understand how someone could love an animal the way they love a person, I feel bad for you. She provided me with the best kind of friendship I've ever known. There were no conditions or ultimatums, and certainly no agendas. She loved me and I love her, and that's all there was to it. That's why when she left me in this great big world all alone without her, it really took a toll on my heart. But in losing her, she taught me her last and greatest lesson: that it is our job to love the people in our lives everyday and to show them with our actions and our words just that; that the greatest gift you can give to somebody is to appreciate them. #love #imissyou #bestfriend
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Speechless. I am truly at a loss for words, so I’ll do my best. On December 24th, 2018 I was offered ...
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Speechless. I am truly at a loss for words, so I’ll do my best. On December 24th, 2018 I was offered a full time job. On January 28th, 2019 I will begin my career as a PA for ESPN. It has been a long two months of countless preparation for interviews on interviews. During my onsite interview I ... Speechless. I am truly at a loss for words, so I’ll do my best.
On December 24th, 2018 I was offered a full time job. On January 28th, 2019 I will begin my career as a PA for ESPN.

It has been a long two months of countless preparation for interviews on interviews. During my onsite interview I knew that I belonged with ESPN and I had to work on that campus. A smile did not leave my face that entire day.
Ever since I was a 12 year old girl I knew that the love I had for sports was special. I decided then that one day I wanted to work for ESPN. I cannot thank God enough for instilling such a strong passion in me at such a young age.

Thank you to everyone who believed in me throughout my life, I couldn’t have made it here without you. & thank you to everyone who didn’t believe in me, I couldn’t have made it without you either.

One question I remember distinctly during an interview was, “over 1,000 people applied for this position, so why should we choose you?” I cannot thank you enough, ESPN, for believing in me and choosing me to be that one.
I, a small town girl from Alabama, get to live out my DREAM!!! I am so humbled, thankful, blessed, excited, nervous, and so much more.
ALL the glory goes to God. I did my best and let Him do the rest. God is so faithful, and I’m so thankful that I have always chosen to put my faith in Him.
Bristol, Connecticut.. I am so ready for you.

ESPN HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!! “All of our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.” - Walt Disney

swipe to see the video of the moment I got to share the news with my family ❣️
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A couple years back, I learned a priceless lesson from T.D. Jakes while at GLS: he said you can never ...
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A couple years back, I learned a priceless lesson from T.D. Jakes while at GLS: he said you can never simultaneously give more than one thing in your life 100%...you’ve only got 100% to give so it takes being intentional with your time and mind to ensure nothing falters. Interesting to hear ... A couple years back, I learned a priceless lesson from T.D. Jakes while at GLS: he said you can never simultaneously give more than one thing in your life 100%...you’ve only got 100% to give so it takes being intentional with your time and mind to ensure nothing falters.
Interesting to hear as an individual who was trying, at the time, to give everything and everyone in my life 100%. I was stretched so thin and it backfired as my ability to give myself dwindled quickly.

This season is a busy one but before December, I made a commitment to be intentional with my mind and time through the stretch of this month. The commitment has made for the most enjoyable weeks ever; despite how full the days may be, when everyone and everything receives my 100% focus, life is good!
This morning, I set aside an hour of intentional work time to help my newest partner get started and then dropped off Laurel, which freed up my afternoon to give 100% to these two. We laughed, conversed, held hands, and enjoyed special time with one another.
I hope these two remember me as someone who worked incredibly hard in her career to build a dream life for her children.

I hope they remember me as being immensely present (mentally and physically) in their childhoods.
I hope they remember that whatever I was focusing on, it was getting the very best version of me, my 100%.
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The minute we finalized our sabbatical, I started plotting how I could make the most of it (even in ...
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The minute we finalized our sabbatical, I started plotting how I could make the most of it (even in my quest for rest I am an overachiever 🙄). I booked a family trip to Tahoe, and a Southwest flight to visit my best friend. I scheduled a facial + a pedicure, splurged on date night concert tickets, ... The minute we finalized our sabbatical, I started plotting how I could make the most of it (even in my quest for rest I am an overachiever 🙄). I booked a family trip to Tahoe, and a Southwest flight to visit my best friend. I scheduled a facial + a pedicure, splurged on date night concert tickets, RSVP’d yes to book club at the movies and a fancy Pilates event with friends.⠀

I didn’t want to waste the month, you know? ⠀

In my head, I anticipated those Big Moments being the things I’d remember most from this time off, but in reality, the opposite was true. ⠀

What I will remember most is this: eating ice cream in my bed at 2pm on a Tuesday, reading a book in the backyard at 4pm on a Wednesday, going to yoga on a Monday morning and painting my nails on a Thursday night. I will remember doing barre in the park watching a butterfly soar over my head while I held myself in bridge pose. I will remember taking naps and wandering around a thrift store with my best friend and spending literal hours on a Friday afternoon pinning baby girl nursery ideas without an ounce of guilt. ⠀

I will remember choosing rest over hustle 100 times, choosing leisure over chores, stillness over productivity. I will remember sitting on the couch with a fiction book (fiction!) while dishes remained in the sink.⠀

But most of all: I will remember the notes of encouragement that flooded my inboxes during that time. I will remember the people—mostly strangers—who went out of their way last month to commend the break. I will remember the odd and unfamiliar feeling of being encouraged while I was doing … absolutely nothing. I will remember how many times God showed up over those 34 days with tiny affirmations that He has called me to this work, and equally called me to this rest. ⠀

I will remember how, for the first time in a long time, I felt truly cherished and loved for who I am, and not for what I do. ⠀

It is a ridiculous privilege to do work you love, and an even bigger one to be able to take a step back and remember who you are outside of it.⠀

Back to work today with a full and grateful heart.
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This whole year I kept saying “This is my worst year ever & I can’t wait until it ends” but looking back ...
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This whole year I kept saying “This is my worst year ever & I can’t wait until it ends” but looking back this was truly the best year of my life. YES it was painful. YES it was filled with so much darkness. YES it almost killed me. But it also was filled with so much light, some of the most magical moments ... This whole year I kept saying “This is my worst year ever & I can’t wait until it ends” but looking back this was truly the best year of my life. YES it was painful. YES it was filled with so much darkness. YES it almost killed me. But it also was filled with so much light, some of the most magical moments I’ve ever experienced, & it forced me to grow & transform into the person I’ve always wanted to be. I still have so much work to do but I will always remember this year as the year that pushed me to grow more than I ever thought possible. It was the year that I died so I could be reborn 💕I just wrote a blog post reflecting on 2018 and what it taught me (link in bio to read!) but here are some highlights -
1) Brought in the new year in Las Vegas with my best friend in the whole world 💖
2) Saw BEYONCÉ, Eminem, Daniel Ceaser, Kali Uchis & some other of my fav artists perform at Coachella
3)Graduated COLLEGE with my best friends and finally became a Nutritional Scientist!!
4) Created a healthy menu for a beautiful resort in Puerto Vallarta 💕
5) Traveled to 4 different countries including Budapest for the first time ✨
6) Traveled to Mexico with my big sis @dolife_la & had one of the best, most healing trips of my whole life 💖
7) Shared so many beautiful moments with my closest friends & beautiful high-vibe humans ❤️
8) Spent more than 200 hrs in my favorite yoga studio & finally became a certified yoga teach!! 9) Started working for @doterra, put together my first wellness events & started selling my own oil blends ✨
10) Found TRUE happiness, joy & love from within for the first time in my life 🙏🏻💖 This year was truly too wild & magical to explain in words but I can’t wait for what 2019 has in store 🙏🏻 I know it’ll be even better 😉 May 2019 be gentle & kind & fill you with more love, joy, laughter, health & happiness then ever before💖 Love you all so much & thank you for supporting me this year - it means the world!!!! #thefullifebyrachel 💕
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I wanted to share something that’s been really helping me recently. For all of my beautiful women ...
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I wanted to share something that’s been really helping me recently. For all of my beautiful women out there who suffer with anxiety or paranoia, or feel vulnerable when they’re alone, or just have issues with worrying about people harassing them (for whatever reason that may be - and as women ... I wanted to share something that’s been really helping me recently. For all of my beautiful women out there who suffer with anxiety or paranoia, or feel vulnerable when they’re alone, or just have issues with worrying about people harassing them (for whatever reason that may be - and as women we all know there can be A LOT of reasons for this!)
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This might sound crazy to some of you but im being a little vulnerable here!) A month or two ago, I had a meditation, where my spirit guide & an angel were speaking to me about my strength and power. At the time, I was working through my intentions for the upcoming month and trying to figure out how to best move myself forward to be more aligned with my higher self. This angel (archangel Michael) was telling me ‘You are so strong. And so powerful. You must always remember this. You control your reality. You are in charge. You are protected.’ It was made very clear to me that this was VERY important to remember. I must remember my power. No one can fuck with me. I have to remember that.
It’s hard because I’ll find myself feeling a little vulnerable, and it’s hard to remember this. But I’ve been working on this as much as possible.
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If someone makes me feel uncomfortable, I remember my strength and power. I tell myself ‘no one can touch you. No one can fuck with you!’ I REMEMBER MY POWER! As women we NEED to remember this! We are not powerless, even though we’re made to feel that way. I take a deep breath, I hold my chin higher, and I remember that. No one can fuck with me. My face relaxes. My confidence builds. I’m not vulnerable, im a beautiful strong powerful woman.
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Sisters- REMEMBER YOUR POWER! Remember your strength!
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#powerfulwomen #powerfulwoman #inspiration #healing #confidence #strength #strongwomen #empoweringwomen #rememberyourpower #rememberyourstrength #homewithwillow #beautiful #womenareamazing #selflove #selfcare
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2018 <span class="emoji emoji270c"></span>🏾 you wasn’t the worst year , you wasn’t the best year BUT you was a good year ( for me anyway) ...
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2018 🏾 you wasn’t the worst year , you wasn’t the best year BUT you was a good year ( for me anyway) . you started off rocky as hell. 2018 taught me a lot about myself. you taught me that i CAN do it no matter what was being thrown my way. i finally moved out of my parents house & man was that the best feeling ... 2018 ✌🏾
you wasn’t the worst year , you wasn’t the best year BUT you was a good year ( for me anyway) . you started off rocky as hell. 2018 taught me a lot about myself. you taught me that i CAN do it no matter what was being thrown my way. i finally moved out of my parents house & man was that the best feeling EVER, but also bitter sweet . i added a new addition to my family & she is everything & more. farewell 2018 can’t say i’m going to miss you but i will remember & cherish everything you taught & gave me . also DECEMBER was the rockiest month of my life. our car was stolen then two days later i had my daughter. not knowing how i was going to get to doctors appointments or how to get my baby to school but THIS year showed me my friends & showed me how my family will do any & everything to make sure i’m okay even with my mother popping up the other day asking me how are you going to get trinity to school & i said “mama i honestly don’t know” she took her car key off her ring & said “you can have my car until y’all get another car” 🙌🏾 LORD BLESS THAT WOMAN!
2018 was crazy but me & my crew finna show out 2019 🕺🏾💕 HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎆
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hi it me your best friend kelly!!! yet again with a lame paragraph for you! i was supposed to use flashlight for this edit but i just had to use this song #buymitamonitunes !! IM SUCH AN AMAZING FAN I KNOW. but anyway I LOVE YOU! how weird is it that i'm posting this on thanksgiving? ok it actually ... hi it me your best friend kelly!!! yet again with a lame paragraph for you! i was supposed to use flashlight for this edit but i just had to use this song 😩 #buymitamonitunes !! IM SUCH AN AMAZING FAN I KNOW. but anyway I LOVE YOU! how weird is it that i'm posting this on thanksgiving? ok it actually isn't that weird 🙄 i love making edits for you and writing these stupid lame but cute posts for you. it's a lot of work but they make u happy SO ITS ALL GOOD!! dude we need to meet like soon as possible because i've been waiting for this since march. why do we live so far away from each other? :( i hate distance. but distance means nothing when somebody means everything sooo(: i'm really glad i have you in my life and im sO sorry for being so annoying and needy. like that time i complained for the corner thing 😳 sORRY BRO but u know i hate it wyd!!! i'll try to be a better friend okay. you're the one person i like to stay up to talk to (remember that time u made me stay up so u can pee) and ur the one person that can make me laugh and snort like a pig when i'm sad. ur also so so adorable and i hate when u text me "i took selfies" ..LIKE SEND THEM WYD??? dumbass. but YEAH YOU'RE MY BEST FRIEND AND I CAN'T BELIEVE U HAVEN'T LEFT ME ALREADY!! we get into so many little silly fights and it sucks because when we do i basically just lay on my bed and cry. i never ever want to lose you. you mean so much to me. thank you for being here by my side whenever i need you. i feel bad for all the people you've dropped from your life:) they just lost possibly one of the best things that could ever happen to them! so that sucks for them(: you're my number one and no one could ever replace you so don't worry! im glad u put up with my bullshit :") i make mistakes but so does everyone! i've never been so close to someone before tbh and i feel like i could tell you anything without you judging me, which i really appreciate :)) you're such a kind hearted person and i fucking hate when you're sad or depressed because yOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AND SMILE OK! IF YOURE EVER SAD U BETTER TEXT ME ASAP SO I CAN CHEER U UP!! or attempt to 😳🤕
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 #Repost @twloha with @get_repost ・・・ "My depression tells me that nobody cares. It tells me that ...
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#Repost @twloha with @get_repost ・・・ "My depression tells me that nobody cares. It tells me that nobody understands my struggles. My depression tells me that it’s pointless to reach out. It tells me that I’m alone. My depression tells me that all my best friends have moved across the country ... #Repost @twloha with @get_repost
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"My depression tells me that nobody cares. It tells me that nobody understands my struggles. My depression tells me that it’s pointless to reach out. It tells me that I’m alone. My depression tells me that all my best friends have moved across the country and I’m in this city alone. It does not want me to remember that I have friends who’ve become family in this city. My depression does not want me to remember that I have people who deeply love me no matter where they are.
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Yet love sees me. Love sends texts messages. Love invites me for games when I say I’m going to spend the night alone. Love doesn’t let me isolate myself. Love reaches into the darkness and brings me into the light. Love stays even when it’s hard. Love cares. Love stays. Love. Stays.
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On the days when I feel alone and wonder if anyone cares, I have people reaching into my life, into my darkness, declaring that they care. On my darkest days, I have a hope that cannot be taken away." – Sam Bedford, "I'm Getting Bad Again" // Read the full blog now at the link in our profile.
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Hai Nina <span class="emoji emoji2764"></span>️<span class="emoji emoji2764"></span>️ hai my everything, my best friend, my happiness <span class="emoji emoji2728"></span> I know you've been having a hard ...
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Hai Nina ️ hai my everything, my best friend, my happiness I know you've been having a hard time and that you recently found out about some things you wouldn't wanna really know about :( and because of this shit happening to you, I'm going to write this long ass paragraph to ... Hai Nina ❤️❤️ hai my
everything, my best
friend, my happiness ✨
I know you've been
having a hard time and
that you recently found
out about some things
you wouldn't wanna
really know about :( and
because of this shit
happening to you, I'm
going to write this long
ass paragraph to try to
make you happy.
Remember the words "People my age are very
rare" & "how old are you" and so on and on.
8.14.15. The day we met
💗💗 the best fucking
day of my life. I met you
& literally my life changed to better. Like
A lot better. You make
me laugh, smile, cry,
and fucking jump
around my room. One
day we'll go to therapy
together because trust
me, we need it 🙂
ANYWHORE, hehe remember that word 🌚
but yeah anyway, I love
you so fucking much.
you're my happiness.
we haven't been talking
as much as we used to but I still love you and
you're still my bestfriend. Ilysm and I hope this made you happy or even give you a lil smile. Ilysm & you can always come to me when you're feeling down. ❤️❤️
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Happy 2019 #shaebutters<span class="emoji emoji2764"></span>️ Damn, my how we’ve grown this year. I know 2018 became real weird for ...
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Happy 2019 #shaebutters️ Damn, my how we’ve grown this year. I know 2018 became real weird for many of us. I know we all had many rocky roads this past year. We grew so very far. At the same time, I know so many of us learned real tough lessons this year. For me, I really learned a big part of personal ... Happy 2019 #shaebutters❤️
Damn, my how we’ve grown this year. I know 2018 became real weird for many of us. I know we all had many rocky roads this past year. We grew so very far.
At the same time, I know so many of us learned real tough lessons this year. For me, I really learned a big part of personal acceptance. When you grow up, having a social media based job.. It’s so easy to feel not good enough, not pretty enough, not fit enough, not esthetically pleasing enough. This year I’ve really had to remind myself, I’m actually a human.
I am not a Barbie Doll. I am not a character. I am a real, living breathing person. Some days I may not look the way I’m expected to look. What matters is I’m taking care of myself. That I’m being the best me, and the best friend I can be for you. I need to thank you all for being my biggest supporters. You are so much more than followers and views on my channel. You really are my best friends.
Thank you for allowing me to be my goofy self. Thank you for allowing me to have both weak and strong moments. Thank you for listening to me when I have something important to say.. and at the same time, letting me be silly and express myself in the only ways I know how. You have taught me so much this past year, and have truly made me a stronger person.
My job is such a gift and not for fame or for money, but for the life lessons you teach me everyday. If for nothing else, you have taught me to be unapologetically me. No matter who loves it or hates it. I could never repay you for what you do for me.
For 2019 please remember, you are who you are for a reason. You have an important duty to make this planet a better place for all. I know sometimes it’s easily to feel inadequate or irrelevant. But there’s a reason you are here and I believe in you so much. You are a gift both to me and this planet. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your beautiful life. I love you. ❤️
PS I am dripping in @colourpopcosmetics and @sigmabeauty in true Shae style.😉
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I'm so thankful I get to explore with you. . You level out my rough edges but stand with so much strength. ...
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I'm so thankful I get to explore with you. . You level out my rough edges but stand with so much strength. I look into your eyes and you remind me there's nothing to fear. Every cold and lonely night I laid in bed afraid to wake the next morning, your 4 paws were there to nudge my heart open. . Little ... I'm so thankful I get to explore with you.
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You level out my rough edges but stand with so much strength. I look into your eyes and you remind me there's nothing to fear.
Every cold and lonely night I laid in bed afraid to wake the next morning, your 4 paws were there to nudge my heart open.
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Little did I know one morning driving home with a wolf pup the size of my hand was about to change my life.
I remember the rush of joy that filled my heart when I first got to hold you.
I remember you laying in my lap that entire trip. You were the last left of your litter but I assure you that you're always number one to me.
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You've touched my soul in a way I never thought was possible from a 4 legged friend. You help to sooth the chaotic waves that my life tends to roll in ever so much.
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You've met some fantastic people in your life, and given me so many extraordinary reminders of what the word love means. I'm constantly learning how much I need you more than you need me. The patience brought by us both learning side by side. It has been an interesting journey to where we are today but it undoubtedly will be one I will never be able to match.
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I've protected you as much as I could and covered your life in love. Throughout the years you have shown me it was okay to be vulnerable and not know the next step because we will always find a way. When my fear starts to lock me down I know I've got your furry hugs to grab onto and come back to reality.
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We make a kick-ass team and you've helped to give me life and a purpose. Every day, every trip, every walk, every morning is an adventure with you. I promise I will never let anything happen to you as long as you promise to never change. Never get old on me, my sweet soul. Never forget I rely on your fearlessness to keep going forward, and your love to steady my heartbeat.
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You're truly something else and leave an impact on every eye set on you. Thank you for all the smiles you've brought me and my friends. Thank you for the strangers who's heart you've touched. Thank you for being my best friend and loving me unconditionally when I didn't know how to love myself or anyone else.
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I love you, Arya,
Just want you to know.
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Growing up I never felt “invited”. There are countless memories where I can vividly remember being LEFT OUT. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ There was this one time when I was 8 years old.. My 4 “Best friends” on the block decided to go to a Hockey game. When I called that evening to ask if one of them wanted to ... Growing up I never felt “invited”.
There are countless memories where I can vividly remember being LEFT OUT.
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There was this one time when I was 8 years old.. My 4 “Best friends” on the block decided to go to a Hockey game. When I called that evening to ask if one of them wanted to “play”, she said “I’m sorry, Michelle! I can’t tonight, we are going to a hockey game.” I remember asking “Fun! Who’s We?” & she listed the 3 other girls on the block. My heart sank & tears began to flow. I can still remember to this day I cried till there were no tears left to cry. I laid in bed asking my dad over & over “Why didn’t they want me to come?” I remember him laying w/ me, telling me he wished he could take the hurt away & how special I was. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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I remember the summer of my 7th grade year.. My “best friend” & I were getting ready to try out for the Football Cheer team. We both made a promise to each other that we would NOT throw our back hand springs… (we weren’t “ready”) One of those “If you don’t, then I won’t. I’ve got your back.” Kinda things. I was first up. I knew I could throw it, It wouldn’t be pretty but I COULD. However, I remember’d the promise we made to each other and I passed on the opportunity. She was up next, & she walked over to the mat & through it. I’ll just end by saying… That year she made the team, and I didn’t.
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Once again, devastated, and feeling betrayed.
It HURT. A. LOT.
Side Note: I’ll just throw in that that was one of the best things that NEVER happened to me!
I have never worked so hard for something. I came back the next season, made the basketball team & then every season after that!
My senior year I was named the MVP.
Hard work, works...
However - That feeling of being “uninvited” STILL was always there.
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You would think being a “cheerleader” would give you all the confidence in the world.
That’s the image it gives off at-least right?
Wrong.
I remember every day walking around the lunch room wondering If someone saved me a seat.
I would be standing in the lunch line w/ anxiety glancing over at the lunch room wondering If I saw a table w/ a ton of - REST IN COMMENTS
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My god how much we’ve been through since your last birthday, saving countless dogs from deaths doorstep, ...
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My god how much we’ve been through since your last birthday, saving countless dogs from deaths doorstep, including my first born - Lecrassius Milagro - from parvo , scary health issues, losing Kain, getting engaged, getting married, organizing a wedding while you were pregnant (poor me), ... My god how much we’ve been through since your last birthday, saving countless dogs from deaths doorstep, including my first born - Lecrassius Milagro - from parvo , scary health issues, losing Kain, getting engaged, getting married, organizing a wedding while you were pregnant (poor me), having a beautiful baby girl (you’re welcome), all of this with incredibly bad luck sprinkled in daily...and that’s just to name a few. And I thought I loved you then... Here’s to this year being the best one, my best friend, the best mom, and by far and beyond the best person...I’ve ever met in my life.(did i say hottest? I wanted to but it wouldn’t really work into that, ‘best looking’ just didn’t have the same ring to it...) On your birthday it really feels like it’s mine, another reminder to me that I...am the real winner here.
My biggest fear is that one day I will take you for granted, but my God as soon as I see you smile every day (because of my incredibly irresistible/charming personality and sense of humor) I remember instantly what a lucky human being i am.
I thought I wanted a wife that i could see myself still holding her hand when we were 90, but for us it’s more like me holding your but and you smacking my hand and smiling, so I got even more.

God made girls like you make guys like me wana Put it on your hand, grab a piece of land And raise a few...
More girls like you

Happy birthday beautiful!
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THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR 1K! ILYASM<span class="emoji emoji1f495"></span><span class="emoji emoji2728"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f60d"></span> AFBUJFDTYIKOIUHFRUIKJHRETUU Here comes a cringy cliche ...
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THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR 1K! ILYASM AFBUJFDTYIKOIUHFRUIKJHRETUU Here comes a cringy cliche speech First off for the 14 weeks on this account I've had I never expected to reach 1k! ITS CRAZY and through those 14 weeks I met so many nice and wonderful people that I want to thank: @its_the_frozen_life ... THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR 1K! ILYASM💕✨😍 AFBUJFDTYIKOIUHFRUIKJHRETUU
Here comes a cringy cliche speech😂 First off for the 14 weeks on this account I've had I never expected to reach 1k! ITS CRAZY💕 and through those 14 weeks I met so many nice and wonderful people that I want to thank:
@its_the_frozen_life - you were one of my first friends on Instagram - you were so sweet always commenting on my photos and making me feel welcome and loved 💕 ILY
@windpowers - ILYSM you are one of my best friends - we have had a few ups and downs but in the end we came through. I remember showing you my first oc, being part of your fanpage , and just all the good times that I love you for ✨😂💕
@overwhelmence_bae - ILY BBY. You helped me get through my darkest times and I could never repay for you that 💕✨❄️ Thank you for being there and caring for me 💕💞
@firehans - TBH I just love your account it's amazing and I guess I'm your stalker friend 😂 I'm surprised you put up with me and my ships 🌚 anyways ily and thanks for letting me ship you with people 😂💕✨
@icy.aura and @fiery.edana - I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH! INSPIRATION ! We are not exactly friend but ILY and your OCs and UGH. Thank you for being two of the best OCs on ig 💕
@windpowers.fanpage - ILY ALL SO MUCH - for real we all are like family sharing an account 💕 Thanks for the great time ✨😍
@disneymemer - I still remember when you where a small account and you use to comment and like all my pics and look at You now 😭 I feel so old 😂 ILY THO THANKS FOR BEING A AWESOME FRIEND!👏😍
AND TO YOU MY FOLLOWERS! THANK YOU SO MUCH! THIS ACCOUNT COULD OF NEVER HAPPENED WITHOUT YOU! 💕✨❄️
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No one can compare to you Dee........<span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f48b"></span>...Everyday you teach me that love is full of sacrifices ...
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No one can compare to you Dee...........Everyday you teach me that love is full of sacrifices and it takes two willing hearts to truly pass the test of love. I remember that day in december that you promised me the whole of you till eternity. To me it was one of you guys promises that holds ... No one can compare to you Dee........💋💋💋💋💋💋💋💋...Everyday you teach me that love is full of sacrifices and it takes two willing hearts to truly pass the test of love. I remember that day in december that you promised me the whole of you till eternity. To me it was one of you guys promises that holds no water. But My Sunshine you prooved me wrong.On bended knees you offered your shoulders for me to stand and see the world from a greater height. Who wouldnt be proud of you Obimm. Every moment we have spent together is full of wonders that will last forever. Our best days arent here yet but darling am glad you found me My Treasure.💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 Happy Valentines Day my wonder man,😍😍😍😍😍😍if I have to do it over and over again I will still do this with you through thick and thin.Look back and see how far we have come even though we aren't there yet, I’m glad to be with you as we grow older. Thank you for coming into my life. I love you DEE ONE.❤❤❤❤💍💍💍 #powercouple #strongereachday #mylover #myhusband #myval #mypeace #MrandMrsNdani😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
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