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It was nearly three years ago that Laren and I moved back to California, after having lived in Uganda ...
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It was nearly three years ago that Laren and I moved back to California, after having lived in Uganda for three years. Realizing that I’ve spent the same amount of time back here, as I did living there, feels sad. It’s an experience that is slowly slipping away from me, but I never want it to. ⁣ ⁣⁣⁣ Those ... It was nearly three years ago that Laren and I moved back to California, after having lived in Uganda for three years. Realizing that I’ve spent the same amount of time back here, as I did living there, feels sad. It’s an experience that is slowly slipping away from me, but I never want it to. ⁣
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Those three years were some of the hardest of my life. I leaned into my internal strength, spending much of my time alone while Laren traveled for work. A sense of overwhelming foreignness, frustration, and constant sickness was all part of life. But I became stronger, wiser, and more resilient in the process, and was fully present like never before.⁣
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And the rewards received in the midst of those struggles were tenfold. I fed the adventurous part of my soul (which happens to be a really big part!) in ways I never imagined I would. I repelled down a waterfall, rode horses at sunset, and swam in a deep crater lake in Uganda. I hiked to the top of an active volcano in Congo and slept at its rim. I witnessed a chimp fight in the trees above me. I was feet from a lion in the Serengeti and trekked deep into a jungle in Rwanda to spend an hour with a family of mountain gorillas. I snorkeled off the coast of Zanzibar and laid on its untouched white beaches. I wandered through ancient churches in Ethiopia and ate and drank things that I didn’t know the names of. I spent hours and hours driving an old Land Cruiser on dusty, pothole-ridden roads. Nothing I did felt necessarily safe, but then, safe felt boring. I marveled at awe-inspiring beauty countless times, and most importantly, I fell in love with nature, the planet, and the people around me. ⁣⁣

Thank you, Africa. For embracing me, for toughening me up, for showing me all of your complexities, and for teaching me. No matter how many years go by, you’ll always be such a huge part of my story.⁣
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“When you have acquired a taste for the dust, and the scent of our first rain, you’re hooked for life on Africa, and you’ll not be right again. Until you can watch the setting moon and hear the jackals bark, and know they are around you waiting in the dark.”
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Bio: Name: Ally Darmitian Age: 15 S/O: Straight Personality: lonely, mysterious, dark, secretive, ...
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Bio: Name: Ally Darmitian Age: 15 S/O: Straight Personality: lonely, mysterious, dark, secretive, funny, kind. Likes: the dark, rain, thunderstorms, horror movies, corners, being alone, sad music. Dislikes: parties, crowded areas, pink, school, populars, jocks, sports, ... Bio:
Name: Ally Darmitian
Age: 15
S/O: Straight
Personality: lonely, mysterious, dark, secretive, funny, kind.
Likes: the dark, rain, thunderstorms, horror movies, corners, being alone, sad music.
Dislikes: parties, crowded areas, pink, school, populars, jocks, sports, players.
Powers: can talk to ghost, telepathy.
BackStory: Ally had been alone her whole life, she never had a friend or a pet, she stayed in her room all day. Her parents didn't care about her and worked twenty four seven. She always goes to school only to be tortured by the populars and jocks because she is always alone bad very different than them.
#animerp #animeroleplay #anime #roleplay #animeroleplayforgirls #rp
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Maybe it's a little bit sad, sorry. Just some Hobbit stuff I wrote yesterday evening, pls tell me ...
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Maybe it's a little bit sad, sorry. Just some Hobbit stuff I wrote yesterday evening, pls tell me what you think /////// She stands in front oh his grave. It's cold and the sky is dark. Slowly it starts to rain. A cold wind comes over the land. There are voices in the air. They tell about darkness, ... Maybe it's a little bit sad, sorry. Just some Hobbit stuff I wrote yesterday evening, pls tell me what you think ///////
She stands in front oh his grave. It's cold and the sky is dark. Slowly it starts to rain. A cold wind comes over the land. There are voices in the air. They tell about darkness, about hopelessness and death. Then everything gets quiet again. And suddenly she starts to speak. „It's long ago that I saw you the last time but it seems like it was yesterday. Since you died the world became more dark. The darkness has returned. And now we have to fight a fight we can't win.“ A tear runs down her face and falls on his grave. „I miss you“ she whispers. „And I miss them.“ She looks to their graves and tears fill her eyes. „They were like brothers. And you were like a father to them. You didn't know, but you were like a father to me, too. You showed me the world. And I'm grateful for everything. I'm sorry, I didn't tell you this earlier, but I didn't see it. I wish you were here right now. I'm alone. But I hope, where ever you are, you are happy there. And I hope one day I will see you again.“ Then she walks to their graves. And now she starts crying again. „Thank you for giving me a childhood I will never forget. You made me smile every day. And you will always be my brothers. I miss you.“ Then she just stands in front of their graves and let the memories pass throgh her mind. And suddenly she feels something. She feels hope. The pain disappears and she feels like she felt every time they were around. She feels happiness. And now she knows they never left her. And she is sure they will never leave her. She walks back to the mountain. In front of the gate she stops and looks back to their graves. She will never stop missing them, but she knows they are with her every time and remind her of happiness and hope. She remembers the moments she spend with them and keeps the memories in her heart. And now she smiles. „Thank you, for everything. I love you. And Thorin, please take care of Fili and Kili.“
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The only time I feel less alone is when I’m sleeping. • • • • #glasses #empty #anxiety #lonely ...
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The only time I feel less alone is when I’m sleeping. • • • • #glasses #empty #anxiety #lonely #alone #pain #sad #photography #heartbreak #emo #art #grunge #softgrunge #pastelgrunge #tumblrgrunge #quotes #dark #sadquotes #rain #poem #edited #blue #sky #aesthetic #l4l #tired The only time I feel less alone is when I’m sleeping. •



#glasses #empty #anxiety #lonely #alone #pain #sad #photography #heartbreak #emo #art #grunge #softgrunge #pastelgrunge #tumblrgrunge #quotes #dark #sadquotes #rain #poem #edited #blue #sky #aesthetic #l4l #tired
Everything feels so fake around me. The car. The music that’s playing. The road. The trees. The rain ...
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Everything feels so fake around me. The car. The music that’s playing. The road. The trees. The rain puddles. The traffic lights. The person beside me. The grey sky. It all feels so fake. Fake... or maybe it’s all real. Maybe I’m dissonant. Distant. Aloof. Maybe, I’m the one who’s fake. • • • • #depressed ... Everything feels so fake around me. The car. The music that’s playing. The road. The trees. The rain puddles. The traffic lights. The person beside me. The grey sky. It all feels so fake. Fake... or maybe it’s all real. Maybe I’m dissonant. Distant. Aloof. Maybe, I’m the one who’s fake. •



#depressed #depressedgirl #anxiety #lonely #alone #pain #sad #suicide #heartbreak #emo #art #grunge #softgrunge #pastelgrunge #tumblrgrunge #quotes #dark #sadquotes #rain #poem #ana #blue #sky #aesthetic #l4l #tired
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— “Every day you play with the light of the universe. Subtle visitor, you arrive in the flower and ...
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— “Every day you play with the light of the universe. Subtle visitor, you arrive in the flower and the water, You are more than this white head that I hold tightly as a bunch of flowers, every day, between my hands. - - You are like nobody since I love you. Let me spread you out among yellow ...
“Every day you play with the light of the universe.
Subtle visitor, you arrive in the flower and the water,
You are more than this white head that I hold tightly
as a bunch of flowers, every day, between my hands. -
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You are like nobody since I love you.
Let me spread you out among yellow garlands.
Who writes your name in letters of smoke among the stars of the south?
Oh let me remember you as you were before you existed. -
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Suddenly the wind howls and bangs at my shut window.
The sky is a net crammed with shadowy fish.
Here all the winds let go sooner or later, all of them.
The rain takes off her clothes. -
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The birds go by, fleeing.
The wind. The wind.
I alone can contend against the power of men.
The storm whirls dark leaves
and turns loose all the boats that were moored last night to the sky. -
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You are here. Oh, you do not run away.
You will answer me to the last cry.
Curl round me as though you were frightened.
Even so, a strange shadow once ran through your eyes. -
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Now, now too, little one, you bring me honeysuckle,
and even your breasts smell of it.
While the sad wind goes slaughtering butterflies
I love you, and my happiness bites the plum of your mouth. -
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How you must have suffered getting accustomed to me,
my savage, solitary soul, my name that sends them all running.
So many times we have seen the morning star burn, kissing our eyes,
and over our heads the grey light unwinds in turning fans. -
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My words rained over you, stroking you.
A long time I have loved the sunned mother-of-pearl of your body.
Until I even believe that you own the universe.
I will bring you happy flowers from the mountains, bluebells, dark hazels, and rustic baskets of kisses.
I want to do with you what spring does with the cherry trees.” -
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- PABLO NERUDA, ‘Every Day You Play’ -
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HENRI ROUSSEAU, ‘Le lion, ayant faim, se jette sur l'antilope’, 1898-1905. Fondation Beyeler, Basel. @fondationbeyeler -
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Welcome to the jungle #welcometothejungle -
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#animalmagic #junglefever #henrirousseau #pabloneruda #heatwave #poemfortheday 🔥🌳🦁🐆🦌🦍🌳
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 #AstralProjectionByJaimeChan x one of favey musey boos Lauren: "Mother (Nature) knows best." ...
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#AstralProjectionByJaimeChan x one of favey musey boos Lauren: "Mother (Nature) knows best." — JC 📽 I was really sad to not see a superbloom season this past spring, nor a late one into summer. Sighs... As they say, no rain, no flowers. The same could be said about our daily lives. In sad ... #AstralProjectionByJaimeChan x one of favey musey boos Lauren: "Mother (Nature) knows best." — JC 📽🌌🌾 I was really sad to not see a superbloom season this past spring, nor a late one into summer. Sighs... As they say, no rain, no flowers. The same could be said about our daily lives.
In sad times of our lives, we go through pain but in exchange we see light being shed on the illusions around us. These are illusions hidden by the darkness, telling us that we're alone or that nobody cares.
In these dark times, I'm able to clearly see that so many people are so kind (even more than I deserve TBH) to offer their condolences, comforts, and supporting words. Some go beyond and offer their time and company.
Thank you all so much. My Grandmother's funeral is on August 18th. I have about 2 more weeks before I say my final goodbyes to her physical form.
A lot of people have been saying "If there's anything you or your family need, let me know." I wasn't sure what I needed but then I realized that I haven't been able to work much since my grandma had her stroke and since before that with my Dad being terribly ill with his kidney failure & heart failure - so this funeral is definitely going to be financially tough for me & my family.
If you guys have anything you can spare (even a buck) or if you guys would be kind enough to book me, or refer people to me (or vice versa) for me to have some gigs for shooting, I would be incredibly grateful as that would help me cover/offset the expenses of her funeral.
I have Venmo, PayPal, Zelle or we can meet in person if you'd like to donate to help.🙏😭💐🖤
• PHOTOGRAPHER + CREATIVE DIRECTOR + PROJECTED IMAGE PHOTOGRAPHER:
Jaime Chan (@jaimechanphoto), yielding the Sony Alpha a7s (@sonyalpha) x Zeiss (@zeisscameralenses)
• MODEL + MUSE + BOO TANG:
Lauren Rebecca Roth (@laurenrebeccaroth)
• LOCATION:
Los Angeles, CA
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" #brokeup" <span class="emoji emoji1f494"></span> I'm barely breathing,with a broken heart,that is still beating. There is no more ...
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" #brokeup" I'm barely breathing,with a broken heart,that is still beating. There is no more us. No more kisses. No more hugs. No more stupid fights. No more "I'm sorry" No more "I love u" No more "I miss u" No more chances. "I loved and i loved and i lost you. I'm sorry,my last apologize ... " #brokeup" 💔
I'm barely breathing,with a broken heart,that is still beating.
There is no more us.
No more kisses.
No more hugs.
No more stupid fights.
No more "I'm sorry"
No more "I love u"
No more "I miss u"
No more chances.
"I loved and i loved and i lost you.
I'm sorry,my last apologize to you,the best one in my dark world. I hurted you and I'll never forgive myself, I'll be just a memory under the sand.I wasn't good enough and I apologize for that. I'll always love you,wishing you the best days with your new life.please never remember me...goodbye."

/After having an accident before the last fight with saori, when arata found that he had HIV,he made up a stupid fight and left her. In the way heading to korea from japen, when he was coughing badly,wearing all black, the driver couldn't see him and hit him with his car. He got a lot injured, but was badly hurt in his head. After waking up in a hospital,telling him he was a year in coma,he remembered saori. He wanted to protect her from far,but his injure didn't let him.he searched all over the places she may be,finding her with a new guy,child & life. Being happy that saori lived happily after him, he went to say goodbye and live the end of his life alone without hurting anyone./Arata stared at his ex- wife,for the last time. Red hair, blue eyes,white skin. Staring at the only one he had. Standing in a street,fall season,in a rainy evening,staring at sb that was his all. He stood far,watching her from back..asked with a sad smile and his pale skin with a low voice:
"How long before I'm just a memory?"
A tear rolled on his face down and get lost in the rain's drops. 💔
#brokeup
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5 months since i haven’t felt depressed, lonely, or sad!! Mental Health is SUCH a huge thing right ...
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5 months since i haven’t felt depressed, lonely, or sad!! Mental Health is SUCH a huge thing right now. It’s a problem and i can’t say that i haven’t had to check myself and convince myself to get out of bed in the morning after crying myself to sleep the night before! It’s easier to look at all ... 5 months since i haven’t felt depressed, lonely, or sad!! Mental Health is SUCH a huge thing right now. It’s a problem and i can’t say that i haven’t had to check myself and convince myself to get out of bed in the morning after crying myself to sleep the night before!
It’s easier to look at all we don’t have instead of focusing on what we DO have. It’s easy to feel alone, unloved, and that you just don’t measure up because you aren’t the most fit, have the newest fashions, designer purses, lip injections, biggest butt, coolest car, most followers, and don’t have the best pictures to post on social media.
Dude..... this is a REAL thing and it fucks with our perception of our WORTH. I was stuck in that! If a guy dumped me, ignored my text messages, or strung me along it would allow me to see myself as unworthy of love and that i wasn’t good enough.
So if that’s you.... i feel you! ❤️ this world of social media high light reels always on blast and online dating apps with just a swipe you have new competition is NO JOKE.
But i will tell you that it’s been 5 months since i felt anything but love for myself! It’s been 5 months since i allowed someone ghosting me, not pursuing me, or the amount of friends that contacted me to make me feel bad about myself and than spiral into a dark hole of depression. It was a MF roller coaster ride of emotions. I would be really good and happy. Finally feel like i was healthy and happy. Then someone would upset me, make me feel unworthy, or make me feel like i wasn’t good enough and i would be right back where i started. Insecurities would be SCREAMING and it effected every single relationship in my life.
I am in awe of what drinking this amazing fruity drink daily has done for my life and my brain.
I’m FREE!! I’m happy! And my mind is finally open to this big beautiful world and all i have to be grateful for. It’s like a switch was turned on and i can finally see clearly now .... the rain is gone!! ❤️
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