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Day 3 of recovery following knee arthroscopy and open patella relocation and stabilization. Let ...
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Day 3 of recovery following knee arthroscopy and open patella relocation and stabilization. Let me just say this surgery has been the most trying thing I have ever experienced. My knee is in an immobilizer that is locked at a 90 degree angle. Each movement to sitting, standing or laying down ... Day 3 of recovery following knee arthroscopy and open patella relocation and stabilization. Let me just say this surgery has been the most trying thing I have ever experienced.
My knee is in an immobilizer that is locked at a 90 degree angle. Each movement to sitting, standing or laying down produces tears, screaming, crying, or nausea/vomiting pain response. I have had moments of almost fainting from pain. Thank the Lord for my dad being here. I don’t know what I’d do without him. I’ve had to either sleep in a recliner or in my bed flat on my back with my foot propped to ease pressure on my knee. Each awkward movement feels as if someone is ripping my knee apart by hand 😩
I definitely underestimated this surgery and its recovery. Trying to stay on top of pain medications, liquids, and making myself eat when I don’t feel like it has been a challenge. I’ve found myself craving slurpees, ice cream....anything cold. It’s so odd.
Thank goodness for Netflix, YouTube, and games to play. Please continue to pray as many more rough days are ahead. First post-op visit is the 21st. Hoping he says things are healing well! 💪🏻❤️ #kneecaprealignment #kneesurgery #iwilldothis
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Exactly 1 year ago today I collapsed on my tiled bathroom floor and broke my jaw in three places. I ...
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Exactly 1 year ago today I collapsed on my tiled bathroom floor and broke my jaw in three places. I also knocked one of my front teeth lose and badly chipped 3 more. I sliced through my chin and lower lip, and woke up alone with blood in my mouth and shards of my broken teeth feeling like sand on my ... Exactly 1 year ago today I collapsed on my tiled bathroom floor and broke my jaw in three places. I also knocked one of my front teeth lose and badly chipped 3 more. I sliced through my chin and lower lip, and woke up alone with blood in my mouth and shards of my broken teeth feeling like sand on my lips. I had to have emergency surgery and have my jaw wired shut for a month, during which time I moved in with my mom so she could keep tabs on my pain meds and liquify all my food.
1 year later I am 95% recovered, with the exception of a numb spot on my lower lip. It took months but eventually I was able to eat all my favorite foods again without pain and soreness. I sleep with a special splint (like a hard mouth guard) and that helps a lot with muscle tightness in my jaw. My surgeon told me I was definitely going to have arthritis in my jaw down the road, but I am trying to keep a positive outlook.
The reason behind my injury is the real thing I want to discuss though. I collapsed because I wasn’t taking good care of myself. I wasn’t eating enough, was perpetually dehydrated, was running myself ragged and taking my youth and health for granted. If this injury taught me anything, it’s to pay more attention to what my body needs from me. I need to be kind to it, aware of it in a way I haven’t been historically. We only get the one vessel in this life, so let’s love it the best we can ❤️ #1yearlater #anniversary #brokenjaw #recovery #healingjourney #selflove #mystory #lifelessons #lookforward #bathroomselfie #patience #1yearwiser #memyselfandi #alwayslearning #alwaysgrowing
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eleven months post op today... but sure doesn’t feel like it. the past two months have been a nightmare. ...
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eleven months post op today... but sure doesn’t feel like it. the past two months have been a nightmare. most days the pain is just as bad or worse than before surgery, and with a labral tear in my other hip the pain is never ending. i actually have no idea what it feels like to walk, sit, stand or ... eleven months post op today... but sure doesn’t feel like it. the past two months have been a nightmare. most days the pain is just as bad or worse than before surgery, and with a labral tear in my other hip the pain is never ending. i actually have no idea what it feels like to walk, sit, stand or basically live without being in pain. after an urgent appointment with my surgeon last week, I will be getting an MRI-A to find out what is going on with my post surgical hip. still going to PT 1-2x per week and trying to focus on glute strengthening. so recovery is definitely not going as planned, but i am staying positive and remain optimistic that this will all be sorted out over time. definitely not how i anticipated entering my 30’s, but as my grandmother always said... things will get better. •


#femoralacetabularimpingement #hiparthroscopy #hiparthroscopyrecovery #labraltear #labralrepair #hipsurgery #hipster #hipsisters #rehab #prehab #brokenhips
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1+ Years in pain and suffering from a torn biceps tendon and torn labrum trying to avoid surgery. ...
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1+ Years in pain and suffering from a torn biceps tendon and torn labrum trying to avoid surgery. Today is 4 days post surgery and a big beautiful fucking milestone - stitches are out!! I am on the other side, ready to get back to the things that make me happy; more than ready to live life healthy ... 1+ Years in pain and suffering from a torn biceps tendon and torn labrum trying to avoid surgery. Today is 4 days post surgery and a big beautiful fucking milestone - stitches are out!! I am on the other side, ready to get back to the things that make me happy; more than ready to live life healthy again. #recovery #beastmode #nevergiveup .... #naptime
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Trying my best to get back in shape after my last 2 surgeries. One in February and one in March to correct a broken screw in my back. The screw broke immediately after surgery and recovery room. The nurse told me to just rollover so that she could see my bandages. As soon as I rolled over I heard a ... Trying my best to get back in shape after my last 2 surgeries. One in February and one in March to correct a broken screw in my back. The screw broke immediately after surgery and recovery room. The nurse told me to just rollover so that she could see my bandages. As soon as I rolled over I heard a loud pop. So loud that Susan my wife heard it clear across the room, it also popped again when I rolled back over onto my back. Now the screw that was fixed in March has broken again and I now need another surgery to fix it because there is so much pain again in my back. Of course this all happened before I came back to the gym. Working out had nothing to do with either screw breaking. These screws are just not made for an eight time Mr Olympia’s back or maybe not just my back
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Skip to the bottom to read this caption from Ronnie Coleman. Is getting momentary glory really worth the hassle? It seems as though people in our culture are programmed to create certain moments of personal glory so they can nostalgically reflect on that glory for the rest of their life. ... Skip to the bottom to read this caption from Ronnie Coleman.

Is getting momentary glory really worth the hassle? It seems as though people in our culture are programmed to create certain moments of personal glory so they can nostalgically reflect on that glory for the rest of their life. Right now, many weightlifters are putting forth a great deal of effort to lift heavy weight while they smash their spine.
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Is the glory of squatting 4X your own weight really that satisfying? Do you really think anyone will care to hear your uncle rico stories when you're 40 and your body is completely destroyed? Most importantly, have you ever contemplated that time will eventually have you approaching 50 years old?
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Our culture teaches us that getting wasted in our teens is acceptable. This results in poor development of our prefrontal cortex. .
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I myself never partook in the smoking of weed or the drinking of alcohol before I was 25. It's why my decisions seem so alien to a culture so hellbent on destroying themselves for a few moments of glory. Not me. My high is being healthy and sustainable. I personally would think it the worst thing imaginable to be an uncle rico. .
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"Trying my best to get back in shape after my last 2 surgeries. One in February and one in March to correct a broken screw in my back. The screw broke immediately after surgery and recovery room. The nurse told me to just rollover so that she could see my bandages. As soon as I rolled over I heard a loud pop. So loud that Susan my wife heard it clear across the room, it also popped again when I rolled back over onto my back. Now the screw that was fixed in March has broken again and I now need another surgery to fix it because there is so much pain again in my back. Of course this all happened before I came back to the gym. Working out had nothing to do with either screw breaking. These screws are just not made for an eight time Mr Olympia’s back or maybe not just my back"

#functionalpatterns #biomechanicsculture #functionalculture #biomechanics
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Prepare for an awkward video.🤪 A brief update on my recovery and physique 7 months post serious back surgery, almost 1 month back in the gym lifting 4 days/wk: Today was lower body (hence the focus on my legs lol). Surprisingly, have some muscle/shape which is nice, but you can see cellulite ... Prepare for an awkward video.🤪 A brief update on my recovery and physique 7 months post serious back surgery, almost 1 month back in the gym lifting 4 days/wk: Today was lower body (hence the focus on my legs lol). Surprisingly, have some muscle/shape which is nice, but you can see cellulite through my leggings, so my body fat is pretty high. Trying to focus on the positive of my how well my nerves are healing, not how I look or how heavy I can lift, is challenging. My pain is much better, but it’s still there and it can still be aggravated, but not as easily or frequently and I can relieve it faster, which is great! I’m able to do leg exercises like curls/extensions, front squats, sissy squats, even some stiff leg dead lifts, but SUPER light. I’m talking 30lbs😅. I can’t wait to see how my training is in 1 year. Also, posing (twisting) for this did aggravate my back. You can see I attempted a front pose and my sciatic nerve was immediately screaming at me. Still a work in progress, but if you care, this is how I’m doing. Tried to keep this short but detailed. 🤷🏼‍♀️ #fitness #recovery #npcbikini #bodybuilding #iifym #planetfitness #squats #legday #sciatica #progress #physiqueupdate #flexfriday #fbf #flashback #flashbackfriday #friyay #booty #squatbooty #bootybuilding #bootybuilder #onlinecoach #fitnesscoach #athlete #girlswithmuscle
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I am beyond moved & grateful for each message. It’s nice to feel like I matter. The last 3months have ...
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I am beyond moved & grateful for each message. It’s nice to feel like I matter. The last 3months have been hell. Thank you to those people who keep up with me via any or all my Instagram pages ( @sarahsbellavita @service_dog_flo @bellavitaphotowv @nikki_zitkala ) If you haven’t followed those ... I am beyond moved & grateful for each message. It’s nice to feel like I matter. The last 3months have been hell. Thank you to those people who keep up with me via any or all my Instagram pages ( @sarahsbellavita @service_dog_flo @bellavitaphotowv @nikki_zitkala ) If you haven’t followed those accounts feel free to do so.
Supportive, kind, loving messages of concern, well wishes, encouraging quotes, funny memes, sharing new music & so much more. I’ve been told y’all are missing my Social Media Presence. I’ve been struggling emotionally with a several HUGE heartbreaking issues. I’m trying to navigate the energy in my home. Be the best Mom, Friend, Daughter, Business Owner, & Lover I can possibly be is exhausting. So here’s a short recap: Dec26 my fallopian tubes were surgically removed. Due to complications of that surgery & finding very active endometriosis I had a partial hysterectomy on Feb16. My recovery has been SLOW! I’ve not been allowed to workout or take my immune suppressant meds. Several of my diseases are out of remission. While others are in worst flares possible! My Pain is high. Mobility a challenge. Emotions at war. Work extremely busy. Change coming but so many great things I’m looking forward to.
I’m sorry I haven’t been vlogging. I needed some time off. However, a Vlog will be posted this Monday to my YouTube Channel (link is in my bio) Please watch & subscribe. My goal is short vids sharing my daily life & sharing what I learned in that day. Posts will be 2-4 times a week. It’s what is realistic for me at this time. To my #spoonies and #assultsurvivors as you know even if I’m not posting Doesn’t mean I’m not keeping up w/what you’re posting. I can ALWAYS be reached! Simply make a phone call, send a text/iMessage, Instagram DM, Facebook Messenger, email, Snapchat, smoke signals or carrier pigeons. All work just fine. I use Snapchat for 90% of all communication so comment below with your Snap Name & I’ll add you.
#spoonie #warrior #wonderwoman #autoimmunedisease #chronicillness #chronicpain #maccosmetics #hottopic #gothicgirl #raredisease #psoriaticarthritis #psoriaticcolitis #seizures #tachycardia #ptsd #anxiety #treatment #recovery
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Hello my friends I’m writing today because I’ve lost my battle with my foot and my leg tomorrow morning ...
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Hello my friends I’m writing today because I’ve lost my battle with my foot and my leg tomorrow morning they’re going to do an above the knee amputation and then I’ll be a bilateral a.k.a. I’m just tired of fighting the pain I’m just tired and I know it’s gonna be hard being a double amputee but ... Hello my friends I’m writing today because I’ve lost my battle with my foot and my leg tomorrow morning they’re going to do an above the knee amputation and then I’ll be a bilateral a.k.a. I’m just tired of fighting the pain I’m just tired and I know it’s gonna be hard being a double amputee but I just have to do it I just can’t keep going through the pain and the chance the infection and going septic and just everything. I’m trying to get my North Carolina Medicaid but still waiting on it and after the surgery they’re going to put me in a nursing home for the recovery and for the rehab. I get Social Security disability but after they take out for the insurance I only get 675 a month that’s not even enough to pay my phone bill once I’m in the nursing home, nursing home gets to keep your entire disability check less $30 that you get to keep. My best friend in South Carolina has already been so helpful he sent me $50 to put on my card which I greatly greatly appreciate. With this code for this app https://cash.me/app/NJJRRBT anybody who uses it they get five dollars and I get five dollars so it’s no money out of your pocket and it’s a huge help for me also if anybody’s won the lottery they’re more than welcome to help me at cash.me/$stumpy, but if y’all just put this app on their phone we both get five dollars if just 10 people do that I can pay my phone if 20 people do it I can pay my phone and have a little bit of money in my pocket I’m not asking for much just a hand up not a handout I love you guys and I want to start being able to post again and just get on with my life my mom passed away last week and my sister is all I have left. She had to deal with my mom’s wake which I couldn’t be at because I’m here in the hospital in Charlotte so I don’t want to bother her either. Please please if anybody can help and put it on their phone remember we both get five dollars so it’s no money out of your pocket thank you and God bless you.
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At the moment I'm trying to be grateful for the small things! Close friends who check in on me, a wonderful ...
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At the moment I'm trying to be grateful for the small things! Close friends who check in on me, a wonderful loving man who is sooooo understanding of my illness, a beautiful puppy, I have my mind (at the moment- I have lost it to brain fog in the past & severe memory loss), & despite my body being ... At the moment I'm trying to be grateful for the small things! Close friends who check in on me, a wonderful loving man who is sooooo understanding of my illness, a beautiful puppy, I have my mind (at the moment- I have lost it to brain fog in the past & severe memory loss), & despite my body being an issue- I'm eating healthier then ever & resting & my symptoms are about 50x less then what they could be ☺️☺️ yes there is no cure & im sooooooo frustrated that im not getting EVERYTHING I want/ have/ can accomplish done! But I'm still slowly working towards my goals ☺️ & I can still be grateful for all the little things! Just had laparoscopy & cystoscopy surgery & im recovering slowly! But being in bed all the time drives me insane! Today, despite not being fully recovered I left the house! Which of course leads to pain & dizzy nausea spells haha but I am happy to get out & sometimes we just need to be happy for little things ☺️☺️ #begratefulforthelittlethings #staystrong #recovery
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The 1-year mark of my journey w/ endometriosis & fibroids came & went last month. 2 surgeries, dozens ...
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The 1-year mark of my journey w/ endometriosis & fibroids came & went last month. 2 surgeries, dozens of drs. visits, 3 ER visits, gobs of meds, 3 heating pads, countless wasted days & thousands of tears later, i’m only about 40% better. The recovery from my last surgery (a 5-hour myomectomy) ... The 1-year mark of my journey w/ endometriosis & fibroids came & went last month. 2 surgeries, dozens of drs. visits, 3 ER visits, gobs of meds, 3 heating pads, countless wasted days & thousands of tears later, i’m only about 40% better. The recovery from my last surgery (a 5-hour myomectomy) was taking longer than i’d expected. I’m coming up on 6 mos. post-op & my daily pain levels are only increasing again. The quality of drs & healthcare here have been so incredibly disappointing & the only solutions i’ve been given are: pregnancy, surgery every year or a hysterectomy. The search for the root of my illness hasn’t ever been the priority. My drs. have only attempted to band-aid my issues while trying to convince me that living my life w/ pain 60% of the time is acceptable. But tomorrow is a new day & I’ve decided to seek alternative medicinal guidance. I’ve found a wonderful dr. in Austin, thanks to a referral by a friend. She’s a Harvard graduate & known for seeking cures & not bandaids. Her unique approach involves breaking everything down to a basic cellular level. In addition to the science, she addresses ALL aspects of your life; the physical, mental, emotional & spiritual balance of the body. She uses both western practices like pharmaceuticals but in moderation & in combo w/ lifestyle adjustments. I’m excited for her to figure me out as I’ve completely lost hope in the western system to do so, especially w/ doctors who’ve become slaves to the insurance overlords that pay them. Their time, attention & scope of care are all limited despite the patient still paying for & expecting the best. They’re restricted to RX’s & procedures; prognoses that make money & will continue to do so—never ever a solution. Problem-solving is no longer a fair expectation. They’re robots & i am another item on an assembly line of hundreds of items that pass thru their exam rooms each day. The unique dynamics of my life & the individual set of forces that make my situation what it is haven’t mattered. But, I’ve found hope & optimism again. Please send healing thoughts as i move forward on this new path. Life is too short to feel anything less than 100% yourself. #canigetanamen
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RIP Yoda -- On Friday, December 16, 2016, our world came crashing down when we received the worst ...
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RIP Yoda -- On Friday, December 16, 2016, our world came crashing down when we received the worst news from Yoda's vet. "EUTHANIZE him tonight or pay $10,000 for a surgery that would only give him a 20% chance of recovery". Yoda had been paralyzed from the waist down due to a slipped disc that ... RIP Yoda --
On Friday, December 16, 2016, our world came crashing down when we received the worst news from Yoda's vet. "EUTHANIZE him tonight or pay $10,000 for a surgery that would only give him a 20% chance of recovery". Yoda had been paralyzed from the waist down due to a slipped disc that had herniated into his spinal cord. His vet said this could have happened due to several reasons; the most common ones were from jumping from a high surface or running up and down the stairs. I was shocked, heartbroken as a couple of days before, Yoda was happily running around our house trying to play fetch with his papa. He had back pains about 7 months ago, but his vet just gave him medicine and he was completely fine afterwards so we thought nothing of it. IVDD was never brought up, so we were completely clueless when the vet mentioned it. "Why did this have to happen to Yoda?" was all I kept on thinking. He was so young, so full of life. All he ever wanted to do was love us. We didn't want to put him down just yet because we refused to give up so easily on him, so we got a second opinion from another vet which gave us a little bit of hope. We got the right medication to relieve him of some of his pain, helped him use the restroom, massaged him, etc, but nothing had worked because by day 6, he became paralyzed all over. We had no other choice but to put him down today, December 21st. I have never been so heartbroken in my entire life. Yoda was the best dog anyone could ask for. He was so sweet, so loving, so playful, so clumsy, and so funny. He wasn't just a dog to us, but apart of our family. He was truly our best friend, our son. I love you to the moon and back Yoda. I hope you are doing well in doggie heaven because you deserve it and more. You brought happiness into our lives for the 2.5 short years that you were apart of it. Thank you so much. No dog could ever compare to you. RIP Yoda 04/11/2014 - 12/21/2016. #ivdd #ripyoda #iloveyou #frenchie #frenchbulldog
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I mean, it's gonna be a good day when your #avocado looks like this. <span class="emoji emoji1f60d"></span> fricken' perfect <span class="emoji emoji1f64c"></span>. Froze it ...
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I mean, it's gonna be a good day when your #avocado looks like this. fricken' perfect . Froze it and will be putting it into a smoothie! Lately, I've been navigating some pretty big bouts of post-surgery exhaustion and pain, so I'm remembering to (and trying to make a habit of) incorporating ... I mean, it's gonna be a good day when your #avocado looks like this. 😍 fricken' perfect 🙌. Froze it and will be putting it into a smoothie! Lately, I've been navigating some pretty big bouts of post-surgery exhaustion and pain, so I'm remembering to (and trying to make a habit of) incorporating a smoothie or two into my day. Smoothies are a way to pack in more nutrients without overwhelming your digestive system ✌️👌. So when the body is sick or in a state of dis-ease, try to do one or two of these a day (with chewable food, too) to make sure the body can heal quickly and properly. 🤓 Basically: Love on that body with real, good food!! 💃😋
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#healthyfood #healthyeating #fats #protein #food #foodphoto #digestion #endo #recovery #balance #listentoyourbody #thursday #smoothie #greens #rest #heal #bepatient #begrateful #justbe
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Day 1 post surgery : On his way to recovery! Just trying to control the pain and as you can see, the swelling!
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Day 1 post surgery : On his way to recovery! Just trying to control the pain and as you can see, the swelling! Day 1 post surgery : On his way to recovery! Just trying to control the pain and as you can see, the swelling!
Although battling through a couple knee injuries the last year has provided some of the more difficult ...
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Although battling through a couple knee injuries the last year has provided some of the more difficult times of my life, it’s also been one of the most beneficial things to ever happen to me. After the second surgery, I spent a lot of time trying to decide if I really wanted to race again, my patience ... Although battling through a couple knee injuries the last year has provided some of the more difficult times of my life, it’s also been one of the most beneficial things to ever happen to me. After the second surgery, I spent a lot of time trying to decide if I really wanted to race again, my patience has been tested as I’ve dealt with a few setbacks during the recovery process of both surgeries, and I’ve been pushed harder physically than at any other point of my life from a pain perspective. However, through that adversity, I’ve had a lot of time to discover who I am outside of racing dirt bikes. I’ve always maintained that racing has been something I do, not who I am, but the last twelve months have given me the opportunity to more deeply reflect on what parts of life inspire me to be a better father, son, friend, etc. The time it takes to do that can get pushed to the back burner when you’re in the middle of a full racing and training schedule, so a forced break from that routine freed up a lot of time for introspection. Although the last year has been hell in some ways, when I take the time to look back on it, I’m pretty damn thankful I had the opportunity to take a step back and catch up on the more important things in life. That being said, is it April yet? I really want to ride my bike 😂 📷 @lettersforneverland
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This day was comically bad. One for the books, indeed. Eli has a major fear of the dentist..cried ...
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This day was comically bad. One for the books, indeed. Eli has a major fear of the dentist..cried throughout his whole checkup today (so fun). I got my wisdom teeth out this afternoon and..it hurts. And our sweet 15 year old pup got a major surgery done today, has a gnarly recovery and had all ... This day was comically bad. One for the books, indeed. Eli has a major fear of the dentist..cried throughout his whole checkup today (😩so fun). I got my wisdom teeth out this afternoon and..it hurts. And our sweet 15 year old pup got a major surgery done today, has a gnarly recovery and had all of us crying today watching her in so much pain. The night ended with Eli and Lucas playing with my razor in the shower, and subsequently trying to shave some of Lucas’s hair AND nipple off. 👍🏻👏🏼🤬😳 #laughingsoidontcry
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March 1st, 2018. My last full ski day of this season. After returning from a successful two week trip in Russia, I entered into the training program for the highest degree an instructor can receive in America. I haven't skied in appropriate American technique in over 5 years but I'm happy ... March 1st, 2018. My last full ski day of this season.
After returning from a successful two week trip in Russia, I entered into the training program for the highest degree an instructor can receive in America. I haven't skied in appropriate American technique in over 5 years but I'm happy to say things went well through the first 4 days. Unfortunately, day 5 was the day when the giant snowstorm came that put parts of NY and PA out of power for over a week. The ski resort even lost power and was trying to run lifts off the diesel generator.
What you see here is me skiing a run that normally wouldn't be too covered in bumps (moguls) but after days of continuous skiing they formed and we're counted as our technical section. After the close to 2 feet of snow, did things become more difficult and that last day my knee couldn't keep up and I fell over it the way that I have repeatedly before.
After an MRI and a few doctor visits did I learn I had torn part of my Meniscus free from the bone; this was as a result of not having an ACL. I had chronically torn my ACL through anywhere from 16 months or longer ago. I never really thought of my knee pain as much before the incident. I had been skiing for 2 years with a piece of my knee missing.
As of yesterday, I had a new ACL made from my Hamstring and my Meniscus re-stitched to the bone. Today is the first day of recovery and forward motion towards the next day I can be back up on skis 👍🏻. Thanks to those I've talked to, and who have helped me get as far as I have. Hope to be out there ready for next season.
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#ACL #Meniscus #repair #surgery #operation #ski #skiing #snow #snowboard #snowboarding #mountain #hill #mogul #bump #bumps #outdoors #backcountry #backpack #travel #work #Hunter #HunterMountain #NewYork #New #York #NYC #America #Austria #Ischgl #injury
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Leia’s PAPPY is on the road to supernatural recovery ! Open Heart Surgery ️ Ribs were cracked open ️ Two grafts done ️ Every other blood vessel was healthy and strong ️ No more internal bleeding ️ Ate his meals already ️ No Visitors allowed ️ (Leia had her ears pierced and she is ... Leia’s PAPPY is on the road to supernatural recovery !
Open Heart Surgery ✔️
Ribs were cracked open ✔️
Two grafts done ✔️
Every other blood vessel was healthy and strong ✔️
No more internal bleeding ✔️
Ate his meals already ✔️
No Visitors allowed ✔️ (Leia had her ears pierced and she is his happy pill so she was “allowed”) Tubes being taken out faster than speedy Gonzalez ✔️
Pain management implemented ✔️
A bit masungit ✔️
Cardio said “Pards you will walk tomorrow okay?” ✔️
in other words Gary V is backkkk !!!! Trying to make things light so you guys don’t cry ( #notetoself) and praise God because it was a successful operation! Let us pray against infection, hypoglycemia episodes and any other complications. If God is for us who can be against us ?!!! Thank you Jesus ! ✝️
#leiaspappy #garyvalenciano #doublebypass #thevalencianos #leiavalenciano #[email protected] @paolovalenciano @yosameti @kianavee @gabvalenciano @mamita_11_ @gina_tabuena (check the tilt of her head)
Timeline: The day after the angiogram May 5, 2018.
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For five years, I’ve woken up on this date and remembered the pain of falling off a rock route and breaking ...
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For five years, I’ve woken up on this date and remembered the pain of falling off a rock route and breaking my leg in two places. I’d recall the terror when my sweaty fingers lost their grip, the split second of trying to figure out how to land and how I hit the ground upright 20 feet below. How I crumpled ... For five years, I’ve woken up on this date and remembered the pain of falling off a rock route and breaking my leg in two places. I’d recall the terror when my sweaty fingers lost their grip, the split second of trying to figure out how to land and how I hit the ground upright 20 feet below. How I crumpled to the ground, how I cussed instead of cried, how the bone was sticking out of my leg and how I bemoaned ruining our day of climbing. There was at least an hour of lying alone in the sun, alone with the fear and frustration, and a rescue team to carry me out. Then morphine, surgery, metal inserted in my left leg and a never-ending recovery. Now, two months after again fracturing my leg and finally getting the metal from the first break removed, I woke up for the first time on June 15 and the fall wasn’t my first thought.
Because there’s something else associated with this date, and it’s a story that matters more.
On the first anniversary of breaking my leg, I insisted on climbing and went to Banks Lake. There I led my hardest route to date (12b) and met a group of climbers, one of whom was severely hung over but super sweet. I liked his kind eyes, his sarcasm, his genuineness, the way we’d lose track of time and talk until 2 a.m. @jwabbott03 became my best friend, and he’s now nearly my everything.
This date is full of memories and emotions and it changed my life in more ways than I count. It challenged me with something I didn’t think I’d ever recover from, it forced me to find strength and a will to overcome, it proved climbing is my greatest passion and it gave me the person I need (and want) to get through every day with.
June 15, you're something else.
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Note to self: I am NOT damaged, I am NOT broken, I am NOT merely a shadow of who I used to be...I Am HEALING, ...
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Note to self: I am NOT damaged, I am NOT broken, I am NOT merely a shadow of who I used to be...I Am HEALING, I am rediscovering myself...I am growing STRONGER. Recovery is hard...the healing process takes time, and effort, and it happens on so many levels. Physically, emotionally...spiritually. ... Note to self: I am NOT damaged, I am NOT broken, I am NOT merely a shadow of who I used to be...I Am HEALING, I am rediscovering myself...I am growing STRONGER. 💛

Recovery is hard...the healing process takes time, and effort, and it happens on so many levels. Physically, emotionally...spiritually. Physically there’s the pain (obviously)...exhaustion from lack of sleep since it’s impossible to get comfortable. Feeling weak and frail while trying desperately to regain strength and range of motion, and even basic structural stability. I struggle daily with the most mundane of daily activities as they seem to take so much effort and wear me out. Emotionally I’m still finding it difficult process the enormity of what I’ve been through...trying to accept the scope of that reality, and the lasting effect it will have on my life...even after the healing process has run its course. Spiritually, I find myself questioning my faith, as I can’t help but wonder WHY? Why did this have to happen to me? So many people feel compelled to tell me how lucky I am...lucky that I found it in time, before it caused any more severe complications, lucky that I was in the hands of the most qualified surgeons in the country. Perhaps on some level they’re right. But I don’t necessarily feel “lucky.” Lucky would be winning the lottery...or a trip to Disney World. Having open heart surgery at the age of 34 doesn’t really fall into my definition of lucky...especially since there was nothing I could have done to avoid it. I was simply “born this way.” It’s no wonder I’m having a hard time staying positive through it all. It’s easier to feel sorry for myself, to give into the darkness and negativity...it takes a lot more effort to keep the self love flowing, but I can’t allow myself to give in. I am beautifully broken...but I won’t be broken forever. My scars will heal, I will regain my strength, my soul will shine brightly once again. All I need is time ✨

#selflove #healing #reflections #iambeautiful #iamstrong #pain #suffering #trials #life #lessons #change #positivevibes #love #innerdialogue #growth
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Some of you may know that I have lived with endometriosis for more than half of my life. Instead of ...
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Some of you may know that I have lived with endometriosis for more than half of my life. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I’m trying to learn life lessons from the pain, sometimes I can do this and sometimes I fail and have a meltdown about it. Today I had surgery to remove one of my ovaries ... Some of you may know that I have lived with endometriosis for more than half of my life. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I’m trying to learn life lessons from the pain, sometimes I can do this and sometimes I fail and have a meltdown about it.
Today I had surgery to remove one of my ovaries and both Fallopian tubes in the hope that some of my daily pain will be resolved. Surgery went well however there were some complications in recovery that have led to me staying the night here at the hospital. So far the staff has been amazing, I’ve had many naps (a mum’s dream, am I right?) and the view from my window is spectacular.
I’m excited to go home tomorrow, I hope, and just riding a pretty big wave of gratefulness. ❤️💕❤️
#endometriosis #fuckyouendometriosis #youdontgettowin #sickgirlsclub
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Words can't express how painful this was. I'm been living with a torn ACL for over a year now. It happened ...
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Words can't express how painful this was. I'm been living with a torn ACL for over a year now. It happened in volleyball by making a quick movement to the left and I blacked out. The pain from it and trying to walk was at that time the worst pain ever. Then I had to go threw an ovarian cyst popping that ... Words can't express how painful this was. I'm been living with a torn ACL for over a year now. It happened in volleyball by making a quick movement to the left and I blacked out. The pain from it and trying to walk was at that time the worst pain ever. Then I had to go threw an ovarian cyst popping that was soooo much worse. But this shit here was horrible. First they gave me a block, which is a 3 and a half inch needle they typically put when yours getting surgery. They had to do it in my pelvis because they couldn't fine my vein that was pretty bad. My surgery was 2 hrs long. They drilled 2 holes and put screws in and checked my meniscus incase that tore too. It took me an hour after surgery to wake up. And when I started to walk up it was only brief moments. I remember not being able to move anything. I remember the nurse saying she's not breathing! And they had to put me on oxygen. Eventually I woke up more just had tears running down my face, the block didn't work and I could feel all the pain from the surgery. I had to struggle to breath for the next 30 minutes. They had to give me so much pain killers at once I couldn't take any pain killers at home. Now that I'm home I feel a litter better. I think the worse part is how degrading it is. My husband has to help me to the bathroom. I can't do anything for myself. The doctor said I already need to start walking other wise I will get blood clots. Road to recovery is going to be a long long time
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This is Angela posting on behalf of Chris. He was one of the poor few who had complications with a routine ...
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This is Angela posting on behalf of Chris. He was one of the poor few who had complications with a routine procedure and is back in the hospital for surgery and is going to have a pretty good recovery ahead. If your trying to get ahold of him and having trouble, please have some patience while he ... This is Angela posting on behalf of Chris. He was one of the poor few who had complications with a routine procedure and is back in the hospital for surgery and is going to have a pretty good recovery ahead. If your trying to get ahold of him and having trouble, please have some patience while he recovers. Trust me when I say this...the man hasn’t stop talking about work since the pain meds kicked in. He even told the nurse he hopes to be getting a ton of computer work done while recovering. 🤦‍♀️ The man never stops. Please say a prayer he has a speedy recovery.
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Photo has nothing to do with my post.🤷🏽‍♀️🤪 ... 14 days post surgery. Not gonna lie- I’m miserable. ...
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Photo has nothing to do with my post.🤷🏽‍♀️🤪 ... 14 days post surgery. Not gonna lie- I’m miserable. This recovery is extremely difficult. Way more difficult than I expected. I’m trying to stay positive but I’m truly overwhelmed by the pain & the stress of not being able to do simple daily tasks. ... Photo has nothing to do with my post.🤷🏽‍♀️🤪 ...
14 days post surgery. Not gonna lie- I’m miserable. This recovery is extremely difficult. Way more difficult than I expected. I’m trying to stay positive but I’m truly overwhelmed by the pain & the stress of not being able to do simple daily tasks. I thought by now I’d be feeling a lot better.😞 .
My first augmentation I was 22yrs old, knew what I wanted, paid, got them. Didn’t give a thought to the danger of anesthesia, the lifelong commitment to the upkeep of implants, & the trauma to your body from surgery. Young and dumb.🙄 The morning of this surgery I was terrified. If it wasn’t a necessity (my pec muscle detaching) I would have backed out. NEVER again will I do an elective surgery. Never! I don’t consider this one elective but the first one was. And no I’m not against implants now or plastic surgery... but it’s been so hard on my body & my road to recovery is so long I just & it’s not worth it .😢 I had a ton of work done- basically 4 surgeries in one & I’m much older than before so this is a tough one. So sore. So draining.😭
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I can’t train obviously, can’t do cardio, can’t lift anything heavier than my small Yorkie. I can’t sleep bc of the pain. I’m uncomfortable & sore all day. All night. Bc of new narcotics laws I was only given a 3 day supply of pain pills so I just Advil & ice all day.😐 Not burning any calories & not dieting so I’ve gained weight. My boobs are much smaller than before & all cut up. It’s a lot to get used to. I look in the mirror & just hate my body right now. So my recovery is a mental struggle too. It’s just a lot in general to deal with.😕 I’M NOT LOOKING FOR SYMPATHY~ I know I’ll be ok eventually!🙏🏽 As always just being real & sharing my experiences in life. Maybe it helps someone. Maybe it doesn’t. But I sure feel better after venting a bit!😂 I appreciate everyone who reached out to check on me.🎀 Just a reminder- even though you may have a plan for your life~ life is typically going to do what it wants to do. Learn to roll with the punches or you’ll lose your mind.👊🏽✌🏽
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Finally feeling a bit more like myself than I have in nearly 4 months. <span class="emoji emoji1f605"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f1eb1f1f7"></span><span class="emoji emoji1f5fc"></span> For those that don’t know, ...
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Finally feeling a bit more like myself than I have in nearly 4 months. For those that don’t know, I had a herniated disc in my back (c5-c6) repaired 7 years ago after an accident, the recovery from that surgery was super quick (2 weeks and I was back to running), but unfortunately 4 months ... Finally feeling a bit more like myself than I have in nearly 4 months. 😅🇫🇷🗼 For those that don’t know, I had a herniated disc in my back (c5-c6) repaired 7 years ago after an accident, the recovery from that surgery was super quick (2 weeks and I was back to running), but unfortunately 4 months ago I pushed myself a little too hard at the gym and in life, the disc herniated on the other side and the battle to be pain free started all over again. After 2 months trying several conservative methods of treatment; 3 weeks of steroids (ate everything in sight and causes weird moods/weight gain), 1 visit to the ER, an MRI, X-rays, trigger point injections and physical therapy, etc. My doctors decided to operate and try to fix the new herniation. This time around, recovery has been hard, some days good but honestly many bad pain days, I’ve had to change my entire life around to heal slowly, too slow for my patience and willingness. I have missed my afternoons at the gym so much, I didn’t realize how 4 months of minimal movement and activity could drive me this insane. 🤣 I’ve never been this sedentary and I’m ready to push myself again. Hopefully the surgery worked long term, otherwise getting that machine implant of a artificial disc.💀🏨🚑🏋️‍♂️☠️ #recovery #backpain #c5c6 #struggle #broken #selfcare #healing #surgery #adulting #feelingold #pain #paris #france #beautiful #workremote #digitalnomad #secondhome
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Long post <span class="emoji emoji1f648"></span> . . Reflecting on the past year, it’s been one of the toughest and most painful in every ...
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Long post . . Reflecting on the past year, it’s been one of the toughest and most painful in every way possible. At the same time, it’s also been the happiest and most joyful. . On Christmas Eve, post-op day 6, after coming home from the hospital a few days earlier, we had a big family dinner ... Long post 🙈
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Reflecting on the past year, it’s been one of the toughest and most painful in every way possible. At the same time, it’s also been the happiest and most joyful.
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On Christmas Eve, post-op day 6, after coming home from the hospital a few days earlier, we had a big family dinner and watched a movie together. My parents headed off to bed. David and I stayed up for awhile longer with Kodi just the three of us. If you know David, you know he's one of the silliest people in the world and he gets up to some pretty hilarious antics. We were watching a tv show and some music came on. David got up and started doing the funniest little dance. It was so comical I started laughing uncontrollably.
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A note here about having major open abdominal surgery. During recovery, any increase in intra-abdominal pressure (e.g. coughing, hiccups), and especially, laughing, causes extreme pain. It feels like your belly is being split open. It's sharp, intense, and excruciating.
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I was laughing so hard, but also in the worst pain I've ever felt. It got so bad I reflexively starting crying. The crying turned into sobbing, interspersed with giggles, which then escalated to full on bawling while trying to stifle my laughter because of the pain. Anytime I would think of his ridiculous little dance I would just start laughing all over again. David was laughing so hard he couldn't breathe and I just kept saying "STOP! OHMYGOD STOP! IT HURTS SO BAD!" while fighting back tears and big belly laughs.
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This went on for so long and got so intense my mom woke up and came downstairs at one point. She was so alarmed and concerned "What's wrong? Is everything ok??" that it only made me laugh even more. The situation was so hilarious I just yelled "Mom, please leave. Everything is fine. Please just go back upstairs" while breathing through painful sobs and more laughter.
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That feeling, which was the worst but BEST feeling I've ever felt, perfectly illustrates what this year has been for me. I've reached the lowest of lows and experienced so much pain, but I've also laughed the most and experienced the most incredibly wonderful moments with my friends and family. 💛✨
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Thank you all so much for your messages of support and encouraging words for Kota’s recovery after enucleation surgery. I’m PLEASED to say Kota is MUCH BETTER today! 🏼 Although, last night into this morning was the worst experience with him to date . He wouldn’t settle down until 9 am this ... Thank you all so much for your messages of support and encouraging words for Kota’s recovery after enucleation surgery. I’m PLEASED to say Kota is MUCH BETTER today! 🎉🙏🏼 Although, last night into this morning was the worst experience with him to date 😢. He wouldn’t settle down until 9 am this morning, he couldn’t stay still or sleep at all. He is on two pain medications and a sedative, but Kota was having an overwhelming negative reaction to the after effects of anesthesia. He had this super strength I’ve never felt from him when he tried to resist being held to try to calm him down, he couldn’t stand completely upright, he kept pacing and walking backwards, and crying worse than any of my dogs have before after surgery. It was non stop all night 😢. I do expect crying after anesthesia but this was not at all typical. Kota has had 4 other surgeries before and never had this intense reaction. The pain medications he is on he has been on before with no reactions. It is important to note though that Kota is a dog who does get adverse reactions to medications sometimes, he had anxiety with Gabapentin most recently and with steroids days after his cataract surgery he had hallucinations (trying to climb stairs that weren’t there, jumping, barking, and pawing at nothing). Kota’s entire glaucoma journey has always been to expect the unexpected, and that remains true. At 9 am he was able to sleep pretty consistently for a few hours and when he woke up he was an entirely new dog! He was so much more aware of his surrounds. He was navigating the house and outside much better. He ate without me tricking him (yesterday he wouldn’t swallow his food so I had to get him to reactively swallow which was difficult). He has been letting me do his cold compress for a couple minutes without much protest. He drank water 🎉🙏🏼! He is now acting more what you would expect a dog recovering from surgery would be like. I do think his surgery was/is painful, but like his vet, believe he had a hard time with the after effects of anesthesia. He is willingly resting now and that makes me so happy because I know that is what he needs most. Thanks for everyone’s prayers & positive vibes ❤️
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This is a TORNADO! Summer is tougher for me. More symptom flare ups, weaker muscles, more fatigue, ...
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This is a TORNADO! Summer is tougher for me. More symptom flare ups, weaker muscles, more fatigue, more pain, yet I’m trying to do all the things I was doing and more. I need to learn to manage my time better and not feel guilty for not achieving the same as my able bodied peers and friends. I’m falling ... This is a TORNADO! Summer is tougher for me. More symptom flare ups, weaker muscles, more fatigue, more pain, yet I’m trying to do all the things I was doing and more. I need to learn to manage my time better and not feel guilty for not achieving the same as my able bodied peers and friends. I’m falling behind on keeping in touch with friends again. This balance is always something I’ve struggled with, but now I lose 6-8 hours a day to being too fatigued/in pain to move and even sit up of my own accord it’s kind of harder than ever? Excuses, but if I owe you communication, I’m sorry. I 💙 all of you, all my friends who have always been patient and stuck with me despite my inability to stay in touch as often as I should. That treat me with love and kindness no matter what.

These days I’m also managing a whole community which comes with its own rewards and challenges but I need to learn to make time for old friends more. Somehow find a balance so when I’m done with my 8 hours of ‘work’ every day I’m not just an exhausted puddle that has to veg out until they toss and turn all night trying to fight relentless insomnia and broken sleep.
It’s not bad, I hope this doesn’t come across as complaining. This is just my lot in life now and actually I’m hugely improved this summer over last! This time last year I was in hospital with an organ infection that had spread to my liver after also undergoing a small heart surgery! I’ve been putting off dealing with my uterus this year BUT I am ACTUALLY ABLE to put it off so there’s that. Now to stop planning shit so I have time for surgery and recovery at some point 😅😅😅
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 #HappyHumpDay guys enjoy ;) xoxo I just would like to dedicate this Post to this amazing man @ChristianOwen1 ...
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#HappyHumpDay guys enjoy ;) xoxo I just would like to dedicate this Post to this amazing man @ChristianOwen1 that have been by my side for year and specially at this hard time We are both going thru together. Can’t thank you enough for everything you have done. LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! So... let me ... #HappyHumpDay guys enjoy ;) xoxo
I just would like to dedicate this Post to this amazing man @ChristianOwen1 that have been by my side for year and specially at this hard time We are both going thru together. Can’t thank you enough for everything you have done. LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! So... let me use this post and apologize to my friends and fans for not posting in a loooong time. I just have been in and out of doctor’s office and follow up appointments during recovery. I didn’t feel like posting negative or sad post about my situation and the pain and the stress. It’s not me. For those who know me personally know I always have been positive and have try to have a uplifting vibe. So, that’s why I have been off social media for a bit trying to focus on getting a 100% soon. And I can say that as today my pain is minimal and I feel good just in time for another surgery 🤕 yup, that’s right. My doctor finally scheduled it for this Friday 08/31. Heading back to the hospital for one more surgery. So I would love to thank each and every single one of you guys that send me “get well soon” messages, positive energy and/or kept me in your prayers. Will try to Keep u guys updated once I am feeling better after the surgery. Most likely next week after ICU. Fingers crossed this will be the last one. I know that there’s always a good side to all bad situations and I have faith things will get better soon. Plus I have an amazing Neurosurgeon so I’m calm and confident on him once again. And heading to a brand new beginning some how the more I look or think about it. 🙏🏼
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I wanted to post an update about @byhannahrose recovery. This Monday will be the first full month ...
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I wanted to post an update about @byhannahrose recovery. This Monday will be the first full month from her surgery. It’s been unspeakably difficult. The surgery took a huge toll on her memory, vision, communication and comprehension skills. Simple things like reading and texting haven’t ... I wanted to post an update about @byhannahrose recovery. This Monday will be the first full month from her surgery. It’s been unspeakably difficult. The surgery took a huge toll on her memory, vision, communication and comprehension skills. Simple things like reading and texting haven’t come back yet and she started therapy this week for it.
Brain surgery isn’t like a leg surgery where you have physical pain and then go through physical therapy. It affects everything. Mind, body, soul, emotions, relationships...nothing feels the same. It is all seriously affected.
One of the hardest things is that none of this was anticipated by us or the doctors. They warned her about the pain, but said the impact of the surgery on every aspect of her life was far more severe than they expected.

Feeling trapped, alone and frustrated fills Hannah’s day-to-day. She knows people will misunderstand and try to be helpful in all the wrong ways. That’s why she doesn’t feel safe around people right now. Well-meaning people can be really hurtful (I’ve been the worse offender) and so if you do see her, please don’t expect ‘normal’. It may me several more months before normality is even in sight.
Thank you everyone who has helped through giving, bringing meals, praying, and a huge thank you to @madewell for sending this sweater and a replacement sweater after I shrunk this one while trying to do her laundry.
We have a long road to full recovery ahead. Thank you for all your love.
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Hey everyone! Ahh I’ve been so bad with posting on Instagram! So sorry!! Picture unrelated but here ...
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Hey everyone! Ahh I’ve been so bad with posting on Instagram! So sorry!! Picture unrelated but here is a quick update! Things have been really hectic the past few weeks.. My dog Yuki had to go through surgery. She has a condition called Patella Luxation which is really common for Pomeranians. ... Hey everyone! Ahh I’ve been so bad with posting on Instagram! So sorry!! Picture unrelated but here is a quick update! Things have been really hectic the past few weeks.. 😥 My dog Yuki had to go through surgery. She has a condition called Patella Luxation which is really common for Pomeranians. It causes her knee caps to move and sometimes she limps/skips which may cause her a lot of pain in the future. Because she is still young we decided to go through with the surgery. It was successful but the recovery process is really important so we have to keep a very close eye on her. I’ve been trying to catch up with all the Japan vlogs 🇯🇵which are being uploaded into the vlog channel! Hopefully will get them all done within the next 2 weeks! I’m going back to Japan again mid September so I am currently planning out what videos to film whilst I’m there! I’m going to a new place I’ve never been before so I’m excited!! Things are getting busier towards the end of this year so let’s make the rest of 2018 a great one!! 👊👊
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Day 7 into recovery from colon surgery . I’m feeling a little bit stronger today . Less pain than yesterday ...
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Day 7 into recovery from colon surgery . I’m feeling a little bit stronger today . Less pain than yesterday and I was able to eat some plain non fat Greek yogurt today woohoo . Basically all the things they recommend you have for a healthy diet I can’t eat for quite awhile . No veggies, fruits, ... Day 7 into recovery from colon surgery . I’m feeling a little bit stronger today . Less pain than yesterday and I was able to eat some plain non fat Greek yogurt today woohoo . Basically all the things they recommend you have for a healthy diet I can’t eat for quite awhile 🙈. No veggies, fruits, anything rich in fiber and no to all salads 😩 and I love salad. I’m making progress though . I’m trying to walk outside at least 20 mins a day to start and slowly I will increase it . I see my surgeon this coming week and he will give me the okay or not okay to start being able to at least do light cardio at the gym and in 4 weeks to 5 weeks I should be able to start lifting upper body . I’m not really super concerned about losing muscle as i know I have the ability to build it back fairly quickly . I am more focused on staying lean , keeping active, getting my bowel back to normal and staying healthy . There will be lots of time to hit it hard in the gym when I’m fully recovered . Right now my health is the most important thing. I hope everyone is having a great Sunday. It’s such a beautiful day out 😀🌸❤️☀️. Go enjoy the outdoors. I know I will a bit today on my walk . .
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So I did a thing 2 wks ago. It's been almost 3 years since my IVF miracles were born, and a year since ...
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So I did a thing 2 wks ago. It's been almost 3 years since my IVF miracles were born, and a year since delivering my best friend's baby via gestational surrogacy. That's 3 full term babies in 2 years + 4 rounds of IVF prior. 12lbs & 38" of twins & an 8lb 21" meatball. To say my body was pushed to the limits ... So I did a thing 2 wks ago. It's been almost 3 years since my IVF miracles were born, and a year since delivering my best friend's baby via gestational surrogacy. That's 3 full term babies in 2 years + 4 rounds of IVF prior. 12lbs & 38" of twins & an 8lb 21" meatball. To say my body was pushed to the limits is an understatement at a whopping 5 ft. tall. The twin pregnancy resulted in pretty bad diastasis (a 5" gap 😬), which I managed to decently close through at home therapy...but I wasn't so lucky closing the gap after surro baby a year later. I had a 3" gap that ran from my ribs all the way down to my pelvis. I also developed a severe umbilical hernia. Bad combo.
I had localized pain from the hernia & consistent back pain from lack of core support. My organs were literally falling out of the front of my body. After a few months of wallowing in self pity, having done what I could to repair some of the damage at home, I gave in and went to see a surgeon. BEST . DECISION . EVER . I'm 2 wks post-op from my umbilical hernia repair w/ plication of my muscles and already feeling such an improvement! My insides are back where they belong. 🙌

It BOGGLES my mind that diastasis recti repair is considered "cosmetic". It's as bad as infertility treatments being considered "elective". 🙄

Anywho, if y'all are interested in further gory details, have ?s on the procedure/recovery, and want more sharing on this journey, let me know.
Disclaimer: I recommend trying to repair diastasis w/ therapy before undergoing such a major surgery. I do believe the programs work & DR approved exercises help. However, sometimes the repair and gap is just beyond our control. Whatever your method, just know, you're a fucking warrior! ♥️ ...And if you've read this far, SURPRISE - I also took out my implants after 10 years. 😮 It was something I had been thinking about for a long time & I had many reasons for that decision. My health, inability to run w/o practically taping my chest down, not wanting to go under the knife anymore...just to name a few. Feels like a weight has been lifted physically, emotionally, mentally.
Whew... Ok that was a lot to take in. How's your weekend going? 😂
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Sorry I haven’t updated much since I got home, I just been having a really rough time with pain management, ...
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Sorry I haven’t updated much since I got home, I just been having a really rough time with pain management, as I got sent with injections (I had to give myself, which is my biggest fear) which I just finished and nearly 40 pills a day of painkillers and stomach protectors. One of the night pills ... Sorry I haven’t updated much since I got home, I just been having a really rough time with pain management, as I got sent with injections (I had to give myself, which is my biggest fear) which I just finished and nearly 40 pills a day of painkillers and stomach protectors. One of the night pills put me in agony the second day, the nurse can only describe it as going in a mini labour and to me it felt someone was burning me with a blow torch. I never thought recovery would be this bad, I thought with medicine it would be ok but I’m not great. Today I spent most of the day trying not to throw up as I felt nauseous and having abdominal surgery and all the stitches that wouldn’t be very pleasant 😰
I can’t wait to feel normal. Sorry if I haven’t been answering many messages lately. It’s all pain/sleep/nausea etc atm. Hopefully I will manage better soon! —- Ring by @toilwornjewellery
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I am very thankful for my instagram account. It’s a place where I can say what I want how I feel and never ...
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I am very thankful for my instagram account. It’s a place where I can say what I want how I feel and never feel judgement. If what I post isn’t what you want to see you can unfollow but people have appreciated my honesty and I have gained thousands of people who want to help me through weightloss, ... I am very thankful for my instagram account. It’s a place where I can say what I want how I feel and never feel judgement. If what I post isn’t what you want to see you can unfollow but people have appreciated my honesty and I have gained thousands of people who want to help me through weightloss, through divorce, through depression and now through a life changing emergency surgery. Many are asking what happened to me so here it is. I was suffering moderate back pain, gp thought it was sciatica and my physio thought it was a weak core issue. Last Sunday I woke up and it had worsened overnight dramatically I couldn’t bend couldn’t stand very long and pain was worse. Monday I woke up, back of my legs my groin hips were numb I got an ambulance and was given an mri scan. Next I knew I was being told I was moving my ambulance to a hospital where I would under go emergency spinal surgery asap! I was told I had cauda equina but when I went to surgery it was a much bigger problem. My biggest disc in my back had completely dispersed and was all over my spinal cord my nerves and my back was bone on bone something that I’ve been told since has never been seen before. This is very unique and I am in a place of fear because they can’t tell me anything they watch my recovery day by day. I have been told by a nurse someone is interested in a case study. Crazy to think I was at the gym working full time and able to ignore the pain the doctor can’t believe it the back was so bad it took 4 hours of surgery to remove it all! So now I’m in bed I have little mobility I need physio rehab I am having bladder and bowel issues and I’m scared. I have 2 children I am 29 and everyday I wake up I hope I can feel everywhere I’m numb again. Every morning so far it hasn’t happened. My pain is much better controlled now, finally. Life may never be the same for me but i am trying to be positive. I need a miracle! I have appreciated all your love and messages, at a time I feel very secluded and in my mind. I don’t want pity, I want prayer.
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True life capture: second baby has been a dream! He is a little old man of chill and loves his sleep. ...
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True life capture: second baby has been a dream! He is a little old man of chill and loves his sleep. My surgery was sort of planned in that I was getting one - just not the day I got it with the doctor I have intended. It had complications from 45 minutes of pincushioning for my spinal and really just ... True life capture: second baby has been a dream! He is a little old man of chill and loves his sleep. My surgery was sort of planned in that I was getting one - just not the day I got it with the doctor I have intended. It had complications from 45 minutes of pincushioning for my spinal and really just every step even until closing had things go wrong but turned out ok. Recovery was easier this time pain wise until I did too much at home and ended up in pain anyways. The Preeclampsia that started and ended me a day early for surgery for low platelets ( and a blood pressure that had occasional high readings) started a few days after surgery with a swelling something crazy and out of control blood pressure currently mildly controlled by meds. I had NO clue you could get it post birth since - they told me birth was the cure to my previous diagnosis two days before. Also? Breastfeeding has been SO much harder this time. My first little man had a severe tongue tie and couldn’t gain weight until fixed 👅 but my nipples never felt any pain and we nursed pretty much until I got pregnant. This time? Tongue tie baby didn’t have to wait 3 weeks to get it fixed but tore me up by day three and we still are working on latch and healing my sore sad bleeding nipples. It gets better every day but dang I know why people skip 🤱🏼 this experience. Oh and talking to a friend about my whole second time mom experiences - my life in a sentence is “I spend my day nursing 🤱🏼 and trying to get my toddler to stop throwing shit.” 🚗 🏀 ✈️ haha sleeping and eating are in there somewhere too.
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I haven't known how to write this update, because it's just not the update I wanted to. In a perfect ...
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I haven't known how to write this update, because it's just not the update I wanted to. In a perfect world my surgery would of gone perfectly, id be completely recovered, and nothing would of been found. But as we all painfully know, life is far from perfect. Things usually don't go to plan. And ... I haven't known how to write this update, because it's just not the update I wanted to. In a perfect world my surgery would of gone perfectly, id be completely recovered, and nothing would of been found. But as we all painfully know, life is far from perfect. Things usually don't go to plan. And well...sometimes things just suck. My recovery has been slow and a few days ago it was determined that I suffered from trauma during the surgery, which has led to some very intense pain which hasn't gone away. I will require another surgery to fix what happened a month ago and to further look inside to see what's going on. And while the tumor pathology came back normal, unfortunately some of the pathology from the polyps did not. On top of that, I've had continued abnormal labs that warrant a lumbar puncture and PET. A week later, my head still hasn't wrapped around it. I was told that while things could be okay for a while, ultimately the only completely curative solution is to remove my entire uterus. Therefore removing any chance of ever carrying a child of my own. While I've known for a while that kids of my own would be so very difficult because of my blood disorder and diseases, to hear it so plainly and clearly broke a part of me I didn't know existed. Little by little the life I saw myself living continues to be ripped away. I want to me a mom, and even though there are many ways to be one that doesn't involve giving birth, it doesn't make the news any easier. Is it possible to grieve before a loss has even happened? Is it possible to grieve for a life you realize you’ll never have? I close my eyes and see a world and a time where I can wake up with no fear, go a day without pain, and not have to worry about my next treatment or surgery. I don’t know what to do, or how to even start to process this unbelievable decision. I’m praying that my heart will guide me and that somehow I’ll find some peace. And while these days continue to be extremely trying, I still find ways to smile. As the sun sets and rises, so do I. I’m still here, and for as long as I can, I’ll still fight. ❤️✨ #nevergiveup #nevergivein #tomorrowisanewday
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Finally heading into surgery this morning. Definitely nervous but hopefully this will be the starting ...
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Finally heading into surgery this morning. Definitely nervous but hopefully this will be the starting point for recovery. The past week has been one of the most grueling weeks of my life between the pain and trying to work as much as my body will allow. They will be keeping me over night but I ... Finally heading into surgery this morning. Definitely nervous but hopefully this will be the starting point for recovery. The past week has been one of the most grueling weeks of my life between the pain and trying to work as much as my body will allow. They will be keeping me over night but I am hoping to be back at my desk tomorrow so I can continue to get caught up with @limiteddecal orders. I appreciate how patient everyone has been and thanks for the well wishes.
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It is impossible to heal something we repress. Whatever we suppress grows a shadow that then looms ...
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It is impossible to heal something we repress. Whatever we suppress grows a shadow that then looms over our lives, trying to make itself seen or known. ... People often think (consciously or unconsciously) some variation of: "But if I say out loud what I'm feeling it'll make things worse" ... It is impossible to heal something we repress. Whatever we suppress grows a shadow that then looms over our lives, trying to make itself seen or known.
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People often think (consciously or unconsciously) some variation of:
"But if I say out loud what I'm feeling it'll make things worse" "maybe I'll hurt myself or someone else by bringing it up" "if I don't talk about it it'll just go away on its own"
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But all of that is just plain wrong.
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Running, hiding, numbing, suppressing, repressing, bypassing, & escaping only leads to further pain.
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It's kind of like this-
Imagine you have a broken piece of glass inside your body
You know you need to get it out
But you're afraid of the pain of surgery and you're tired and you don't want to do it.
You hope maybe it'll be expelled on its own.
So you continue moving around and the glass moves deeper into your tissue, it infects more and more parts of you, maybe it even lodges itself into an organ, and you grow in more and more pain
One day you collapse
Finally, because you can't possibly go on, you do surgery to remove the glass,
When you wake up : The doctor says to you:
"You know, if you would have just come in to remove this when you first noticed it, we would have gotten it out quickly, safely, more cost efficient, less recovery time, and we wouldn't have to give you all sorts of other antibiotics for the other infections it caused."
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Too often people ignore the signs and symptoms, use some form of escapism, and make things worse- for themselves and for the people who love them.
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We cannot heal anything we repress
We cannot grow from something we deny
We cannot learn from something we suppress
The only thing that happens is a wound that festers and gets worse.
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Remember that We, Humans can handle so much
You don't have to be afraid
But if you are ~invite fear to come on the ride
Bring up what is begging to be seen
Air it out
Let it heal
Let it out
Let it be known
Let it be shown
Let it be seen
For all it has ever been
Then you will see, just how free, you will be
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How convenient that I happen to be having my second belly birth/cesarean section during c-section ...
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How convenient that I happen to be having my second belly birth/cesarean section during c-section awareness month. My first with baby greazzer was an emergency section after several hours of induction without pain relief and trying to push large baby through my small pelvis. He didn't ... How convenient that I happen to be having my second belly birth/cesarean section during c-section awareness month.
My first with baby greazzer was an emergency section after several hours of induction without pain relief and trying to push large baby through my small pelvis. He didn't fit. So surgery it was.
I get asked if I was disappointed with how it ended. And in all honesty the answer is No. I kept an open mind throughout my pregnancy and labour and didn't have my mind set in a certain mode of birth.
My little man is here and he's healthy and I can't wait for his brother.

I am proud to say that I am one of those mama's who BIRTHED a baby out of the sunroof. Yes he was birthed, he came from within my body and brought earth side. It was a hard and painful road but worth every second. I have been quite lucky and my recovery from my first birth was relatively quick.

Keep in mind that every woman recovers differently and at her own pace. I don't necessarily expect my next section in 2 weeks to go quite as well as I'm adding a tubal ligation to the mix and also have a very active toddler to maneuver around. But I do feel it is necessary for me as he looks to be tracking bigger than baby greazzer. I'd rather not put my body and my unborn son through any more stress than is needed if we are to ultimately end up in theatre anyway. (Large head)
So before making a backhanded comment or offering your opinion of c-sections and section mama's (especially if you havent been through one) remember it is not an easy way out. ☆It's hard not being able to move until your spinal wears off.
☆It's hard not being able to lift anything heavier than your newborn. That means your extra snuggly toddler. Making you feel helpless. Basically take all the help you can because you will be confined to the couch or bed under a baby for at least 2 weeks.
☆just had major abdominal surgery and can't forget that or recovery will be longer.
☆you can't just go home after birth - which is going to be hard with the toddler at home.

There is so much more I could go into detail about but this post is already super long. Just be mindful.
Empower others, support each other and be kind.
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I decided to see what I could do with my limited abilities today. Not the type of inking video you’d prefer, but I thought this short black filler episode could at least highlight a few spot illustrations I’ll be putting up in my shop, probably Friday. From what I could gauge today, I’m still ... I decided to see what I could do with my limited abilities today. Not the type of inking video you’d prefer, but I thought this short black filler episode could at least highlight a few spot illustrations I’ll be putting up in my shop, probably Friday. From what I could gauge today, I’m still a few weeks out from making anything finished the way I used to. I’m not experiencing pain but there is a lot of energy expended and thus it tires me pretty quickly. And I get sweaty when I do anything. If anyone finds it troubling that I’d already be trying my hand one week after surgery, all I can say is, Hey this is what I live for and lounging and marathoning TV isn’t all there is to recovery. I still rest plenty. I also got books to read. Later MO
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