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Who know what i be on That's what i be on She know what i be on I keep movin on We keep makin up I can't ...
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Who know what i be on That's what i be on She know what i be on I keep movin on We keep makin up I can't make it up Somebody wake me up Who know what i be on
That's what i be on
She know what i be on
I keep movin on
We keep makin up
I can't make it up
Somebody wake me up
To my first real roommate. The man that would run into my bedroom and wake me up begging me to make him ...
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To my first real roommate. The man that would run into my bedroom and wake me up begging me to make him mashed potatoes when he was drunk. JOHN DERN HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Thanks for being my friend the past 10 years! #birthday #love To my first real roommate. The man that would run into my bedroom and wake me up begging me to make him mashed potatoes when he was drunk. JOHN DERN HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Thanks for being my friend the past 10 years! 💛 #birthday #love
Chapter 1 ~Kylie's point of view~ Coarse Language "Wake up loser." My sister Khloe says, " it's ...
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Chapter 1 ~Kylie's point of view~ Coarse Language "Wake up loser." My sister Khloe says, " it's time for school." And of course there is cameras in the room to see me wake up. Unlike Beyonce I do not wake up flawless. "Well I'll get up if these cameras get out of my face and stop filming in my room." ... Chapter 1
~Kylie's point of view~
Coarse Language "Wake up loser." My sister Khloe says, " it's time for school." And of course there is cameras in the room to see me wake up. Unlike Beyonce I do not wake up flawless. "Well I'll get up if these cameras get out of my face and stop filming in my room." I say sassily. "Okay stupid." She says while walking away. I LOVE KHLOE note sarcasm jk I love her. Anyways I get up and walk to my own bathroom and take a shower. I wash my face with my products and then my body. Not one piece of dirt was on me how hard I was scrubbing. Next, I put on clothes(which is the image at the top). Then, my personal "dentist" brush my teeth with a special type of whitener. Lastly, my make up artist give me a natural look and pulled my brown hair (A/N she stills have brown hair right now not teal.) into a high pony tail. I walk downstairs grab a banana and cereal bar and walk out the door. I hop inside our limo. Ohh I forgot to mention I go to private school I know what your thinking I thought you had to were uniforms well not our private school. Cool right? More down below 🔽🔽🔽🔽
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This runs through my head every now and then when I go to sit down and take a deep breath and realize ...
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This runs through my head every now and then when I go to sit down and take a deep breath and realize how busy life truly is. I wake up, make food, make a mess, clean the mess, clean the house again, make sure my baby is fed and happy, play with her, start to budget for bills coming up by the end of the ... This runs through my head every now and then when I go to sit down and take a deep breath and realize how busy life truly is.
I wake up, make food, make a mess, clean the mess, clean the house again, make sure my baby is fed and happy, play with her, start to budget for bills coming up by the end of the week, lunch time, clean again, realize we need to get groceries and household items, plan my appointments for the week, give my attention to friends who stop by to visit every other day, give my attention to my daughter some more, possibly do laundry but then end up giving up because it’s too much after everything I’ve done today... yeah. But not only what you do daily but in life so much needs to be maintained. I always have to make sure the dog 💩 is picked up outside, the lawn mowed, garbage and cardboard taken out, cat box cleaned, cat and dogs need fed, plan what to make for dinner, run to the store, cook again and clean again and the list goes on.
There is always so much to worry about keeping up on.
For instance, if I don’t deep clean the floorboards every other week at least, hair and filth will start to form so fast. Or if I don’t keep up on dusting the house will have hair and particles floating around. It’s so hard for me to organize life and keep a good routine going. And then trying to fit self care like working out and getting a shower in for myself.. All of my routines fail 🤔 but I still keep a good flow even when sometimes I want to literally do absolutely nothing. 😂🤷🏼‍♀️
Existing is hard, it can be stressful, it can be a lot of anxiety & stress, But in the end what makes it worth it is moments when my daughter comes up to me and gives me a hug and kiss and I look into those big blue eyes and realize I do it not just because I have too for her but because I want to for her. I want her to have the most comfortable and clean environment. I mean, of course I like that as well but I want my baby girl to grow up in a place that feels like home knowing her mom does all she can to make sure everyone is healthy and happy. And that, to me, makes this exhausting, busy and hectic, yet amazing life worth it 😉✨💕
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#supermom #momlife #stayathomemom
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PICK! <span class="emoji emoji1f449"></span>🏻Are you a MORNING person <span class="emoji emoji2600"></span>️ or a NIGHT owl 🦉?? ~ Fave morning Quote <span class="emoji emoji27a1"></span>️ Ever morning you have ...
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PICK! 🏻Are you a MORNING person ️ or a NIGHT owl 🦉?? ~ Fave morning Quote ️ Ever morning you have two choices: Continue to sleep with your dreams, or wake up and chase them. ~ ~ Woah! 🏼 Fricken love that. How real is that? 🧐 Finding it difficult to get up because the day seems to much to handle? ... PICK! 👉🏻Are you a MORNING person ☀️ or a NIGHT owl 🦉??
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Fave morning Quote ➡️ Ever morning you have two choices: Continue to sleep with your dreams, or wake up and chase them. ~
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Woah! 🙌🏼 Fricken love that. How real is that? 🧐 Finding it difficult to get up because the day seems to much to handle? 😕 It's so easy to hit SNOOZE just a few more times! 🛌 ~
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You need to find something to LOOK FORWARD to. If you don't have a reason to get up, make one, find it, repurpose it. You are here for a reason. 💞 What reason is that?! ~
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I wake up because NO ONE will make my career happen for me. 📽 I wake up because I want to PUSH my husband, not PULL him down. 💪🏼 THOSE are just a few of my reasons!~
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What gets YOU out of bed?? 🙋🏼‍♀️ What is YOUR purpose? ~
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#morningperson #getup #mormonblogger #modestfashionblogger #actress #headshots #laactor #inspirationalquotes
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Here I am, in New York. Every morning I wake up, I wake up a little cold lol, but grateful to see the light ...
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Here I am, in New York. Every morning I wake up, I wake up a little cold lol, but grateful to see the light once more. I took a train thinking I was going to the Brooklyn Bridge...I ended up in 9/11 Memorial & Museum. My mood changed when inside the museum. I heard one particular voice through a recording. ... Here I am, in New York. Every morning I wake up, I wake up a little cold lol, but grateful to see the light once more. I took a train thinking I was going to the Brooklyn Bridge...I ended up in 9/11 Memorial & Museum. My mood changed when inside the museum. I heard one particular voice through a recording. He was wishing his girls greatness, and that they would grow up to be the best version of themselves; to take care of their mother; to make their father proud. The last thing he said was “I love you babe,” referring to his wife. It only made me think about how the future is not guaranteed. This persons voice was someone on the flight that crashed into The North Tower in the Trace Center. He is now deceased. Listening to his voice without worry, even though he knew the place was hijacked, made me realize that we should always let those that we love, KNOW that we love them. Show them you love them. He was able to leave this world happy because he left with such a clean conscience. Do you have one? Have you told your loved ones you love them? I am firsthand guilty of this. Made me call my parents (which I never do unless it’s asking if there’s food at home lol) and let them know that I am safe and that I miss them. We are not here forever. We cannot guaranteed we will see tomorrow’s light. When I came out of the museum it was snowing. Not to mention, I am from Houston, TX. Seeing snow, REAL snow made me happy. I wandered, this time through Brooklyn Bridge not knowing how happy this weather would make me feel. How happy it truly made me feel. Cherishing what God brings to us, even in the slightest way. There I was, standing in front of the bridge. Not knowing whether I would fall from the slippery snow; not knowing whether a bicyclist was going to lose control and run over me lol. But there I was. Admiring the beauty of snow. So delicate. So white. So pure. But so misleading. Here I am now, writing this in a coffee shop looking out the window at Christmas lights and snow. Oh how happy and thankful I am...to be alive. 🙏🏽
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My mom came into my bedroom to wake me up for school, and had a ghost white face as she told me and my brothers ...
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My mom came into my bedroom to wake me up for school, and had a ghost white face as she told me and my brothers to come downstairs... there had been an attack on our country. - We didn’t have any idea what to envision, or to expect as we wandered into the living room. We saw one of the world trade centers ... My mom came into my bedroom to wake me up for school, and had a ghost white face as she told me and my brothers to come downstairs... there had been an attack on our country.
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We didn’t have any idea what to envision, or to expect as we wandered into the living room. We saw one of the world trade centers burning, with massive plumes of black smoke...as a second plane hit the second building right before our eyes.
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My dad (a firefighter his whole life) sat in disbelief, eyes welling with tears..my mom IN tears, and us boys just lost on What this was all happening for or what was to come of it.
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We had to go to school, and once we were dropped off I remember walking into my 7th grade classroom and seeing some kids crying, upset, some straight faced and oblivious much like I was to the full extent of how bad this truly TRULY was going to be. We had no idea that this day was going to be something we never forgot for as long as we all lived.
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Our teacher didn’t make us do an ounce of work that day, instead we were able to watch the events unfold from a tv mounted in our classroom.
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To begin seeing the people who were literally jumping to their own deaths in hopes of being identified vs burned to ashes. To see the firefighters gasping for air and holding each other and everyone around them, distraught and covered in soot and ash. To see the police officers trying to maintain some peace and order amidst all of the chaos, not to mention helping wherever they could be it paramedics, or even rushing into the towers trying to help recover or rescue bodies and people. It will forever be engrained in my mind.
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On this day, EVERYONE was an American. Everyone hurt together. Everyone suffered. Some sacrificed a little, and some sacrificed it all.
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We promised we would never forget.
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And we promise we never will. 🇺🇸
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- Guide to: Waking up early - <span class="emoji emoji1f495"></span>Intro Hey guys! Ilysm<span class="emoji emoji1f618"></span>!! We haven't started school yet, but some ...
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- Guide to: Waking up early - Intro Hey guys! Ilysm!! We haven't started school yet, but some people have soo. To try and help with the early mornings, here are some steps to help get you woken up in the morning enjoy - Step #1 Before you fall alseep... Keep saying the time you want ... -
Guide to:
Waking up early
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💕Intro
Hey guys! Ilysm😘!! We haven't started school yet, but some people have soo. To try and help with the early mornings, here are some steps to help get you woken up in the morning😘 enjoy
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🍄Step #1
Before you fall alseep... Keep saying the time you want to wake up at in your mind over and over again. That does help tell your body that this is the time you want to get up at.
🍄Step #2
Before you go to bed (the night before) make about 5 different alarms about 5 minutes apart. This will make you body want to stay wake to turn off the next alarm, and before you know it, 5 alarms have gone off as your body is almost fully awake. 🍄Step #3
In the morning after your 5 alarms think of a reason to get up, some happy reason to get you excited for the day. That will cause you to think and wake up a but more. 🍄Step #4
this may be hard the first few times, but at this point you want to pretty much jump out of your bed. That will move your brain a bit, just in case it's not fully awake yet. ☀️Tip of the day: Wake me up early is never easy. But once your body gets used to it you can't even notice the difference between sleeping in and well not. 🍄 Follower of the day: @aryn_abubakar 🍄Qotd: read the hole thing, once you finished comment a flower Emoji.
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Psalm 37:4 -Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. ||||| What I love ...
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Psalm 37:4 -Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. ||||| What I love to do as I ride my #wakeboard is converse with God and tell Him what He is to me, from A-Z. He is Amazing, He is the source of my Blessings, He is the Cure to all my hurts, my Deliverer.... etc. I learned ... Psalm 37:4 -Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. ||||| What I love to do as I ride my #wakeboard is converse with God and tell Him what He is to me, from A-Z. He is Amazing, He is the source of my Blessings, He is the Cure to all my hurts, my Deliverer.... etc. I learned that from @ccfmain a couple of years ago and it's been my usual habit. You're a baller? Instead of counting how many shots, go through this worship exercise as you make your baskets. Golfer? Well, try it at the driving range, putting green or on the course. Do it while you're in the car, stuck in traffic, walking from your car, about to go to sleep, when you wake up, etc. Keeps me connected to Him apart from reading the word. #happysunday
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Derek Rinaldi and Legendary NJ Photographer, Ken Salerno @kenzof11, with the @derekrinaldi x ...
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Derek Rinaldi and Legendary NJ Photographer, Ken Salerno @kenzof11, with the @derekrinaldi x @streetplantbrand State Of Adventure Board on the Seaside Heights Boardwalk, in Seaside Heights, NJ. Ken is Featured in the Art By @squindo, on the Tail of the Board, driving the van. 8.75″ ... Derek Rinaldi and Legendary NJ Photographer, Ken Salerno @kenzof11, with the @derekrinaldi x @streetplantbrand State Of Adventure Board on the Seaside Heights Boardwalk, in Seaside Heights, NJ. Ken is Featured in the Art By @squindo, on the Tail of the Board, driving the van.

8.75″ x 32.25″
Wheelbase: 14.25″
Nose: 7″
Tail: 6.625″

About The Board: “When Mike first presented me with the idea of the board, we both knew we wanted it to represent our history skating in New Jersey. We wanted it to be more than just art, but wanted it to tell a story.
The shape was a no brainer. I wanted a modern take on Mark Gonzales’ original Vision board. It was a board that was almost standard issue back then.

As far as the graphics, I wanted them to document a point in time but still be fun. There were no skate parks back then and yet there was always somewhere to skate. We didn’t recognize boundaries of pool skaters, or ramp skaters, or street skaters. For us, we just wanted to skate and wherever skating brought us, we’d skate it.

In a way, the state of New Jersey was our skate park. We’d get on the phone on the weekends, coordinate our crew, our rides and hit the Parkway.
I thought the idea of a theme park concept for the graphics would be great. I immediately knew I wanted Tony Squindo @squindo, to do the graphics. I have always admired his art and his unique characters have been showcased with @metallica.

I imaged combining one of those “not to scale” maps you’d get at amusement parks (for us it was Six Flags Great Adventure) and the art of Squindo.
The rides are replaced by our most frequented skate spots complete with key legend at the bottom.
This board, to me, represents a point in time that everyone can relate to. As kids, we didn’t have many worries. Wake up, make some calls, and meet at the first skate spot of the day. For us it could be street skating in the morning, a pool mid-afternoon, and then a vert session before dinner. I was lucky to be surrounded by some very energetic skaters. Even though there were no skateparks in our area, we always had a variety of places to skate.” — Derek Rinaldi
Photo: Ellen Fischer.
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Some of y'all Negros have such a strong aversion to money, it explains why you never have any... "NIKE ...
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Some of y'all Negros have such a strong aversion to money, it explains why you never have any... "NIKE is only doing this to make money".... SO FUCKING WHAT! You expect a corporation to do shit out of the "Goodness of their heart"??? Grow the fuck up and wake the fuck up! It takes money to fight ... Some of y'all Negros have such a strong aversion to money, it explains why you never have any... "NIKE is only doing this to make money".... SO FUCKING WHAT! You expect a corporation to do shit out of the "Goodness of their heart"??? Grow the fuck up and wake the fuck up! It takes money to fight white supremacy! Dollars, pesos, coins!!!! If Nike wants the Bet on Black, I say kudos to them. If it's a quid pro quo thing, I'm cool with that. Keeping cutting check to our soldiers on the frontlines, I'll keep buying ya shit. Seems like a fair deal to me 🤷🏿‍♂️. We should be encouraging more compacompanies to follow suit instead of complaining.
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He came into my life 8 months ago and he is turning one today. People said having a puppy is like having ...
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He came into my life 8 months ago and he is turning one today. People said having a puppy is like having a kid, truly it is. There are a lot of responsibilities! But there was nothing I wanted to change or regret of having him. He may wake me up every night just to potty and pee. He may chew my papers ... He came into my life 8 months ago and he is turning one today. People said having a puppy is like having a kid, truly it is. There are a lot of responsibilities! But there was nothing I wanted to change or regret of having him.
He may wake me up every night just to potty and pee. He may chew my papers and projects. But I believe in his little mind, he just wanted to do things with me.
Every day, seeing his cheerful face and puppy’s eyes, does make my stresses go away. He loves people, he loves all kinds of dogs and he is not afraid of a big one~ He is also learning new tricks and things every day, I’m so proud of him.
Happy Birthday, my little Sunny Bee ~ ☀️🐝🐶💙🎈.
#samjunior #juniorjunior #havanese #puppylife #oneyearold #happybirthday #happiness #thankful
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This morning around 6 am, I woke up suddenly with tears on my face gasping for air. Not because I wasn't ...
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This morning around 6 am, I woke up suddenly with tears on my face gasping for air. Not because I wasn't able to breath in my dream, more like a silent scream. This feeling is a familiar one I like to wish away. I wanted to make my dream stop and I remember in my dream telling myself to, "Wake up Lisa, ... This morning around 6 am, I woke up suddenly with tears on my face gasping for air. Not because I wasn't able to breath in my dream, more like a silent scream. This feeling is a familiar one I like to wish away. I wanted to make my dream stop and I remember in my dream telling myself to, "Wake up Lisa, wake up. You can make this stop!" The feeling of helplessness in my dream was relentless. Its like my subconscious was fighting for me, it was the strangest feeling. When I did get myself to open my eyes, I knew my baby was safe in her bed and I immediately felt relief. But the fear was still there. I quickly began to pour my heart into prayer per routine of my growing up years. Only through prayer are my fears calmed and I can feel grounded again. 
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Dreams are weird. I don't understand them. I just know it taught me that life is short and oh so precious. Hold onto the ones you love tight. Do your best to keep them safe and have faith and trust in yourself and your Savior. The love of a mother is fierce. So incredibly fierce. Deep to a degree that is indescribable.
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So, to bring things full circle. I wanted to post these photos of my daughter and I in the beautiful flower fields of ranunculus. They bring me so much joy. Running through flower fields is a much better dreamy situation anyway haha. Mothers day is on the horizon and I was so blessed to have these photos taken in honor of that special day. Thank you @hannah_claire_photography for sharing your amazing talent with us! I will forever cherish these images. You can book a session just like this as well by checking out her profile 😘!
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More thoughts and photos on the blog today (link in profile).
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Wake up in the mornin' feelin' like P-Diddy (hey what's up girl) Grab my glasses I'm out the door ...
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Wake up in the mornin' feelin' like P-Diddy (hey what's up girl) Grab my glasses I'm out the door I'm gonna hit the city (let's go) Before I leave brush ma teeth with a bottle of Jack 'Cause when I leave for the night I ain't comin' back I'm talking pedicure on our toes toes Trying on all our ... Wake up in the mornin' feelin' like P-Diddy (hey what's up girl)
Grab my glasses I'm out the door I'm gonna hit the city (let's go)
Before I leave brush ma teeth with a bottle of Jack
'Cause when I leave for the night I ain't comin' back

I'm talking pedicure on our toes toes
Trying on all our clothes clothes
Boys blowin' up our phones phones

Drop top and playin' our favorite CD's
Pullin' up to the parties
Tryna get a little bit tipsy [CHORUS]
Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Ain't got a care in world, but got plenty of beer
Ain't got no money in my pocket, but I'm already here
Now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger

I'm talkin' bout - everybody getting crunk, crunk
Boys tryna touch my junk, junk
Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk
Now, now - we goin' 'til they kick us out, out
Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us - (down)-man [CHORUS]
Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh [BRIDGE]
DJ, You build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
You got me now
You got that sound
Yeah, you got me

You build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
Put your hands up
Put your hands up

Now, the party don't start 'til I walk in [CHORUS]
Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma
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Wake up in the mornin' feelin' like P-Diddy, Grab my glasses I'm out the door I'm gonna hit the city, ...
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Wake up in the mornin' feelin' like P-Diddy, Grab my glasses I'm out the door I'm gonna hit the city, Before I leave brush ma teeth with a bottle of Jack, 'Cause when I leave for the night I ain't comin' back I'm talking pedicure on our toes toes Trying on all our clothes clothes Boys blowin' ... Wake up in the mornin' feelin' like P-Diddy,
Grab my glasses I'm out the door I'm gonna hit the city,
Before I leave brush ma teeth with a bottle of Jack,
'Cause when I leave for the night I ain't comin' back

I'm talking pedicure on our toes toes
Trying on all our clothes clothes
Boys blowin' up our phones phones

Drop top and playin' our favorite CD's
Pullin' up to the parties
Tryna get a little bit tipsy [CHORUS]
Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Ain't got a care in world, but got plenty of beer
Ain't got no money in my pocket, but I'm already here
Now, the dudes are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Mick Jagger

I'm talkin' bout - everybody getting crunk, crunk
Boys tryna touch my junk, junk
Gonna smack him if he getting too drunk, drunk
Now, now - we goin' 'til they kick us out, out
Or the police shut us down, down
Police shut us down, down
Po-po shut us - (down)-man [CHORUS]
Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh [BRIDGE]
DJ, You build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
You got me now
You got that sound
Yeah, you got me

You build me up
You break me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my hands up
Put your hands up
Put your hands up

Now, the party don't start 'til I walk in [CHORUS]
Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunlight
TiK ToK, on the clock
But the party don't stop no
Whoa-oh oh oh
Whoa-oh oh oh

Don't stop, make it pop
DJ, blow my speakers up
Tonight, Imma fight
'Til we see the sunligh
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Last year I had a burn out, it was a wake up call for me to set rest and recovery as important on my list ...
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Last year I had a burn out, it was a wake up call for me to set rest and recovery as important on my list of priorities as goals and making things happen ️..maybe women’s bodies are different from men(I’m not sure about men’s bodies) but I do feel setting time to rest, get time out from the world, ... Last year I had a burn out, it was a wake up call for me to set rest and recovery as important on my list of priorities as goals and making things happen🌟 ✨☀️..maybe women’s bodies are different from men(I’m not sure about men’s bodies) but I do feel setting time to rest, get time out from the world, get time for stillness should be a priority especially for the nervous system so that the parasympathetic nervous system(the one which is responsible for the relaxation response in the body) can give the body a signal that it’s all good and it’s fine to totally calm down, if not in today’s world of over stimulation the body is constantly working on the sympathetic nervous system and without even realising most people are functioning on the fight or flight mode, or the stress response which is one of the reasons for anxiety and depression(check out this book,’The Calm brain’ for more on this topic)
Let’s make rest, recovery and stillness as much of a priority to reset as goals and getting ahead.
Make time to Be as much as to Do.💜🌸☮️☯️
P.s: After taking this picture I took time out to meditate with my eyes open gazing at the ocean at one point and listening to the sound of the waves(its one of my fav. Meditations when I’m in nature.☀️✨🙏🏻)
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Without my family I wouldnâ€<span class="emoji emoji2122"></span>t be able to be what I am today with my mom prayers every single day and ...
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Without my family I wouldnâ€t be able to be what I am today with my mom prayers every single day and how she stay awake to wake me up to school everyday and everything they done with me Iâ€m so happy to be the first graduate and make my family happy and Without my family I wouldn’t be able to be what I am today with my mom prayers every single day and how she stay awake to wake me up to school everyday and everything they done with me I’m so happy to be the first graduate and make my family happy and
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#Repost @jaya.prada.radhika ・・・ Your relationship to the surpreme divine is yours and yours alone. He knows your heart, knowone else. The more I grow the less I could give a flying f$&& what ppl think of me. By the grace of God I had some really shitty experiences these past years to wake me ... #Repost @jaya.prada.radhika
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Your relationship to the surpreme divine is yours and yours alone. He knows your heart, knowone else. The more I grow the less I could give a flying f$&& what ppl think of me. By the grace of God I had some really shitty experiences these past years to wake me up to this reality. And how freeing this is compared to the way I would once let the ideas of how I thought ppl perceived me have a crippling effect. F$&& that!
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Everyone’s got their own fair ammount of screwedupness (otherwise we simply wouldn’t be here) and the moment we can deeply realise this profound realisation 😆, we see that regardless of who “we think we are“ knowone Is in any way actually in a position to judge... we aren’t God.. we don’t know all.. 👽
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Happy day everyone & be the unique awesome loving soul you were born to be, there will never be anyone like you!! ! Ever. Connect to source. Daily. Moment to moment ultimately. It’s all that really matters and all we take with us after this very temporary soujorn through this material sphere. Make this a spiritual sorjourn, a love affair between you and the divine surpreme and your life is a success.
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Connect to source and you’ll ALWAYS be EXACTLY where your meant to be for life’s experiences to be for your ultimate benefit.
#tobehuman #tobehumane #sacredbirthrite #loveyourself #freeyourself #sanatanadharma
Featured, my one and only gorgeous horse Mr. Jacob 😍
Photo: @briancrawfordphotography // Personal edit ✧
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We join WDC!! . All battle were exiting!!!! . Day1 we battle with young generations! They were ...
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We join WDC!! . All battle were exiting!!!! . Day1 we battle with young generations! They were great! I felt much power!!! . DAY2 1st battle with ATZO & ZOOM. They are my crew members!! We had so much fun on the stage!!! I was so happy!!! Thank you my brothers!!! . Then We went to the final... . Against ... We join WDC!!
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All battle were exiting!!!! .
Day1 we battle with young generations! They were great! I felt much power!!!
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DAY2 1st battle with ATZO & ZOOM. They are my crew members!! We had so much fun on the stage!!! I was so happy!!! Thank you my brothers!!!
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Then We went to the final...
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Against with Nelson & Greenteck !!!
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Madoka was on fire!!!!! I proud of him!!!
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I did my best!!! But yes I need practice more... I was not strong...
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We lost...
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So sorry everyone who support us and cheer for us...
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We practice more then we come back stronger!!!
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So Nelson and Greenteck congrats!!! You guys so strong!!!! Always punch me kick me!!! Hahaha thanks for wake me up!!!
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Much respect!
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I go back practice hard!!!
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On the stage we fight!! Sometime looks disrespect but after the battle we respect each other!! We talk shake hands hug... We respect for sure!
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The game is game!
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And thanks for the most hard job! MC USK and DJs and ALL JUDGES!!! Thank you so much everything.
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Keep on fire in my Heart with my friends...
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Always leaning! Never stop!
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And last thing... thanks for make this amazing event for WDC STUFF MEMBERS! Much respect for you guys!
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Really thank you...
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And All dancer who came to Japan from other country have safe trip!!!! Hope see you guys soon!!! .
Love u all... Peace...
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KEIさん、GUCCHONさんありがとうございました。一緒に出れた事、応援してもらえた事本当に嬉しかったです。でもスパイ一緒に行きたかったです(笑)
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そしてマドカ!最高だな♫共に戦ってくれてありがとう!楽しかったぁ!また楽しもうぜ!フォーマーアクションの物語はまだまだ続く♫
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#フォーマーアクション
#ultimatecrew
#wdc
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I can’t believe these beautiful girls are two years old! They make me “aww” and outrageously overuse ...
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I can’t believe these beautiful girls are two years old! They make me “aww” and outrageously overuse the word “cute”, they melt my heart into a puddle and are the only ones who could wake me up at 6am and put a smile on my face instead of sending me into a fit of rage. Spending time with these cherubs ... I can’t believe these beautiful girls are two years old! They make me “aww” and outrageously overuse the word “cute”, they melt my heart into a puddle and are the only ones who could wake me up at 6am and put a smile on my face instead of sending me into a fit of rage. Spending time with these cherubs last year was magical and I can’t wait to do it all again soon 🧚‍♀️❤️ happy happy birthday @taytumandoakley xx
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Don't wake me up 'cause I'm in love with all that you are You make me see the Truth in things, I think ...
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Don't wake me up 'cause I'm in love with all that you are You make me see the Truth in things, I think that you are the remedy for everything, it seems that you are The Truth itself, because nothing else can take me so far....🏽 Don't wake me up 'cause I'm in love with all that you are

You make me see the Truth in things, I think that you are the remedy for everything, it seems that you are

The Truth itself, because nothing else can take me so far....👶🏽
How many of you wake up and check your phone first thing in the morning ???? If you are one of those ...
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How many of you wake up and check your phone first thing in the morning ???? If you are one of those people, I want to encourage you to start your day in a different way- WITHOUT YOUR PHONE📵 for at least 20 min! 🏼 I know that might should crazy and inconvenient because you might use your phone as ... How many of you wake up and check your phone first thing in the morning ????
If you are one of those people, I want to encourage you to start your day in a different way- WITHOUT YOUR PHONE📵 for at least 20 min! 👍🏼 I know that might should crazy and inconvenient because you might use your phone as your alarm ( which is almost everyone’s major excuse) but why not go old school, buy an alarm and help set yourself up for success. So instead of being half asleep and waking up to pictures of others -cause I know you will troll social media - and subconsciously starting your day in a mindset of comparison, RECLAIM YOUR DAY🙌🏼 and trying to do one of the following for 21 days instead. Let the NO PHONE IN THE MORNING challenge begin. 😜

1️⃣ Get an alarm clock and leave your phone charging out of the bedroom ( I do this and use a Panasonic wake up light ) *** this might be the hardest thing, it was for me, BUT personally I think it’s the most beneficial *** 2️⃣Wake up but lay in bed for a few mins and feel your body there, in your bed on your sheets and set an intention for the day and affirm what you’re grateful for.
3️⃣Meditate (I do this daily ☺️) 4️⃣Write ( an option instead of classic journaling is to try writing out your dreams, if you can recall them... )
5️⃣Make a great meal or coffee or tea ( I always make a warm cup of lemon and turmeric water to start my day ☕️) 6️⃣Physical Movement:
Go for a walk around your block ( or do a full on workout, yoga or just trying to touch your toes is great too, keep it simple and listen to what your body needs, each day is different)
7️⃣Tidy up, make your bed. ( sometimes I even leave laundry from the night unfolded so I have that task to do. ) 💕Give the above a try and keep me posted. And always have a great day!💕
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@thecakeballers pop up!! THIS Saturday only from 11am-1pm at @shopshiftboutique. (Seriously, ...
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@thecakeballers pop up!! THIS Saturday only from 11am-1pm at @shopshiftboutique. (Seriously, they are getting some ADORABLE fall stuff in. ‘Get it while the gettin’ is good!’) We’re offering up a sampler from our new “dirt balls” line! ‘What the hell is a dirt ball?!’ you ask? We’ve dipped ... @thecakeballers pop up!! THIS Saturday only from 11am-1pm at @shopshiftboutique. (Seriously, they are getting some ADORABLE fall stuff in. ‘Get it while the gettin’ is good!’) We’re offering up a sampler from our new “dirt balls” line! ‘What the hell is a dirt ball?!’ you ask? We’ve dipped the ball in a ground topping specifically designed to compliment the cake flavor and to make EVERY bite extra flavorful and delicious! You. Are. Going. To. DIE. The School Days sampler will include:.
-Wake Me Up Before You Cocoa
Dark chocolate espresso cake topped with coffee chocolate dirt crush.
-Cinnamon S’mores
Cinnamon cake topped with toasty cinnamon dirt crush.
-Cereal and Milk
Vanilla Party cake topped with fruity cereal dirt crush.
-Peanut Butter Jelly Time
Strawberry cake topped with a strawberry and peanut-y dirt crush.
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Email [email protected]com to pre reserve, and we can’t wait to see your faces this weekend. Really. Like REALLY. Come say hi. We miss you.
*while supplies last 😬
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HELP! Theatre, come to my rescue! I am asleep. Wake me I am lost in the dark, guide me, at least ...
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HELP! Theatre, come to my rescue! I am asleep. Wake me I am lost in the dark, guide me, at least towards a candle I am lazy, shame me I am tired, raise me up I am indifferent, strike me I remain indifferent, beat me up I am afraid, encourage me I am ignorant, teach me I am monstrous, make ... HELP!

Theatre, come to my rescue!
I am asleep. Wake me
I am lost in the dark, guide me,
at least towards a candle
I am lazy, shame me
I am tired, raise me up
I am indifferent, strike me
I remain indifferent, beat me up
I am afraid, encourage me
I am ignorant, teach me
I am monstrous, make me human
I am pretentious, make me die of laughter
I am cynical, take me down a peg
I am foolish, transform me
I am wicked, punish me.
I am dominating and cruel, fight against me
I am pedantic, make fun of me
I am vulgar, elevate me
I am mute, untie my tongue
I no longer dream, call me a coward or a fool
I have forgotten, throw Memory in my face
I feel old and stale, make the Child in me leap up
I am heavy, give me Music
I am sad, bring me Joy
I am deaf, make Pain shriek like a storm
I am agitated, let Wisdom rise within me
I am weak, kindle Friendship
I am blind, summon all the Lights
I am dominated by Ugliness,
bring in conquering Beauty
I have been recruited by Hatred,
unleash all the forces of Love.

Arianne Mnouchkine
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The poem I learnt in my first theater class. It still touches me today.

Happy Theater Day 🎭

#theater #مسرح
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 #twdfanficscontest The Prisoner Its cold. The floor and wall send chills up my spine. I huddle ...
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#twdfanficscontest The Prisoner Its cold. The floor and wall send chills up my spine. I huddle in a corner with my head in my lap. Three months. Three months of being alone, cold, and abused. There have been other prisoners here, but I always find them on my dinner plate the same night. I don't ... #twdfanficscontest The Prisoner
Its cold. The floor and wall send chills up my spine. I huddle in a corner with my head in my lap. Three months. Three months of being alone, cold, and abused. There have been other prisoners here, but I always find them on my dinner plate the same night. I don't want to eat them,but I don't want to die either. That's survival...you're on your own. I have accepted my life now. I'm their prisoner now. I wake up, they take me for a couple hours, and they throw me back into my cart. They bring me dinner, thats my everyday life now. I hear the clanging of the metal door. I look up and press my body against the wall. "You already used me today! Please not again!" I plead. "Shut up (y/n). We have a few new guests. This kid will room with you for a while." The dark figure threw a young boy on the others side of the cart. The small beem of light barely hits him. All i see is the figure of boy in a cowboy hat And sharp blue eyes that shine the light. He lightly moans as he gets up. I watch him as he tries to get the people's attention by yelling and banging on the door. I giggle a little in my corner. He turns to me "what?" He shouted. I get up and walk towards him. "You really think making some loud noises is going to get you out of here? Ha! You are stuck here. They will either make you into their dinner ir make you a prisoner like me. So sut down and shut up because you're gunna be here for a while." I exclaim. "My group and I will escape. You can join us if you want. But we will get out of here." The boy proceeded to examine the cart for a place to escape. "Its hopeless. believe me I tried." I tried to calm him《more in comments》
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Wake me up when it’s Friday 😴 This picture perfectly sums up how I feel every morning 😬 and Tuesday’s ...
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Wake me up when it’s Friday 😴 This picture perfectly sums up how I feel every morning 😬 and Tuesday’s are especially terrible! How are you guys feeling this week? . Also, due to popular demand, (and to cheer you guys up on this Tuesday) I’m back with another fun fact! I have a feeling I’m the only ... Wake me up when it’s Friday 😴 This picture perfectly sums up how I feel every morning 😬 and Tuesday’s are especially terrible! How are you guys feeling this week?
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Also, due to popular demand, (and to cheer you guys up on this Tuesday) I’m back with another fun fact! I have a feeling I’m the only one on this and if you’re eating anything I would suggest stopping at this point... here we go...
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SO up until about fourth grade, I had a serious pooping problem. Like ~real~ serious. I could never make it to the bathroom so I would always just..well..poop my pants. UNTIL FOURTH GRADE! My poor mother had to deal with this on a daily basis, and she basically became best friends with the school receptionist cause she would call every.single.time I had an “accident.” There are too many stories to fit in one caption but the best was when I tried to flush my underwear down the toilet and (you guessed it) the bathroom flooded! Woo! That was the day everyone found out I had a pooping problem. 💩 Did you ever do anything as embarrassing as that? Asking for a friend 🙋🏻‍♂️😂
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We all face tragedy, death, heartache or some kind of trauma at some point in our lives. This kind ...
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We all face tragedy, death, heartache or some kind of trauma at some point in our lives. This kind of pain is always a great reminder to appreciate and practice gratitude for what you still have. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Unfortunately, rather than consciously showing gratitude for no reason, we usually ... We all face tragedy, death, heartache or some kind of trauma at some point in our lives. This kind of pain is always a great reminder to appreciate and practice gratitude for what you still have.
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Unfortunately, rather than consciously showing gratitude for no reason, we usually remember to tell everyone how much we love them in a time of sorrow or despair.
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If you focus on the good things in life, you will have long-lasting benefits. 🙏
It's even backed by research. Practice gratitude daily and have "a conscious focus on blessings" so you can live a happier life.
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I know it may seem easier to complain than appreciate... because complaining seems to give significance. But don't let complaining become your identity, don't let yourself live in a consistent "victim" state.
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Today I'm grateful for: children to wake me up in the morning (after hours of trying to get them to sleep at night,) w​​​​​​eeds to pull in my little garden, a never-ending pile of toys & clothes, plus a kitchen that always has dishes to be done. I am grateful for this because I have 2 hands, a brain to serve, help with homework & create beautiful work as an artist, writer and spiritual teacher.
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Never let the things you want make you forget the things you have. Tag someone who needs this today. 👇
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#transformyourlife #positivemindset #mindfulness #spiritualjourney #lightworkers #universe #gratitudequotes #empoweringquotes #personalgrowth #selfworth #selflove #youareloved #youareworthy #createyourlife #artofyou #lawofattractionquotes #createyourreality #positivenergy #positivemindset #positiveaffirmation #positivethinkingonly #successmindset #abundancemindset #successquotes #gratitude #goodvibesonly #artistsoninsta #writersoninstagram #writerslifeforme #writerscommunityofinstagram
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Macy u r the best sister Ily I couldn't ask for anything else. Remember how grandma used to always ...
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Macy u r the best sister Ily I couldn't ask for anything else. Remember how grandma used to always nag and rag about Tom. Remember how people at school in 5th grade used to bother me u were there. Remember how mom and dad always used to get in fights when we were young. Remember how I said I am going ... Macy u r the best sister Ily I couldn't ask for anything else. Remember how grandma used to always nag and rag about Tom. Remember how people at school in 5th grade used to bother me u were there. Remember how mom and dad always used to get in fights when we were young. Remember how I said I am going to live to live with u bcuz u would be a good guardian u still r. Remember how I said no one could take u out bcuz ur mine. Remember how u me Fransisco Gabby an pooky always used to play around in Berea. Remember how I use to cry bcuz mom or dad always used to yell. Remember when I said "can u adopt me". Remember how I said u were the best sister even tho we get into some arguments. Remember u used to always tickle me. Remember when I couldn't wake up and I had sleep paralysis u were next to me trying to wake me up. And I was crying bcuz every thing and every one was dead in that nightmare and I was crying bcuz mom and dad died so I told u to call them to make sure they were OK. Remember when we used to play on the trampoline and marky always used to push me off the edge and I always landed in PRICKERS. U r not only my sister ur my mom u treated me like ur own child ily sissy. @taken_11914
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A good way to make me not like you is to wake me up and the clinger have it be for some complete nonsense... ...
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A good way to make me not like you is to wake me up and the clinger have it be for some complete nonsense... there is a list of “things i dont like” and getting woke up is number fucking 1 ... take note dont wake me up unless you know for a fact the shit your waking me up for is important or Ill be pissed ... A good way to make me not like you is to wake me up and the clinger have it be for some complete nonsense... there is a list of “things i dont like” and getting woke up is number fucking 1 ... take note dont wake me up unless you know for a fact the shit your waking me up for is important or Ill be pissed 😡 Im going back to bed
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That moment you wake your lol niece up to make the most of our temporary apartment haha. 🤣<span class="emoji emoji1f495"></span> A lot of ...
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That moment you wake your lol niece up to make the most of our temporary apartment haha. 🤣 A lot of whinging and "nooo it's too earlyyyyy whyyy?!" Hehe I have some adorable nieces and nephews and I love annoying them especially with early morning wake ups. This particular niece used to wake ... That moment you wake your lol niece up to make the most of our temporary apartment haha. 🤣💕 A lot of whinging and "nooo it's too earlyyyyy whyyy?!" Hehe I have some adorable nieces and nephews and I love annoying them especially with early morning wake ups. 😉👌 This particular niece used to wake me up crazy early when me and her sister had stayed up all night gossiping about nonsense that seemed like such a big deal drama at the time haha ... pay back is so good!! 😈🤘 Haha anyways that's it for this throwback pic. Anyways more very soon guys!! 🌹✌ #Family #Sparkpeople #SpiritedSunnySlimdown
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My Friday mornings used to be consumed with the feeling of RUSH <span class="emoji emoji1f3c3"></span>🏻‍♀️<span class="emoji emoji1f4a8"></span> rush to get up on time, to grab ...
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I would head out to work, sitting in TRAFFIC...literally a 40+ minute commute that would make me dread the day. 🤦🏻‍♀️ It’s almost as if I was frustrated before the day ever began. But I remember thinking...
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I now wake up, make a healthy breakfast, enjoy my coffee, spend an hour in quiet time with the man upstairs, followed by an hour working my coaching business. I then wake up my son, spend time with him for two hours…no rush, no traffic, just pure JOY!
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This is what I always dreamed my Friday mornings would look like...and this #CoachLife gave me this and I will always be oh so grateful! 🙌🏼💓
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#boymomlife #boymomma #fitmomlife #mommabear #mommylove #mommyhood #momslife #mumandson #orlandomom #orlandomoms
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They deleted my innocent pic, bad hombres bad guys. <span class="emoji emoji1f612"></span> or they don’t like #Goethe. Yes he talks so much, ...
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They deleted my innocent pic, bad hombres bad guys. or they don’t like #Goethe. Yes he talks so much, I don’t like people who think like him either. I like people that just repeat and obey, don’t think so much and live through others lives, wake up and sleep caring about what pic someone rich ... They deleted my innocent pic, bad hombres bad guys. 😒 or they don’t like #Goethe. Yes he talks so much, I don’t like people who think like him either. I like people that just repeat and obey, don’t think so much and live through others lives, wake up and sleep caring about what pic someone rich and famous will put for me to give them a like, to help them get more and more.( idiocracy world, the Matrix) Meanwhile they just share things that make you forget the real important things like our system of monetary fraud. They are making everybody slave -- work for me for a very low wage and don’t think or have knowledge about rights or what’s really going wrong. Yes I don’t like this guy either. #Instagram I think is better for showing tits than talk about secrets things (that will make people wake up), so leave me alone. 😉😌 #Imnotyourcustomerkind
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sometimes i’ll just be sitting in my room
and this wave of sadness will hit me like an ocean tide
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sometimes i’ll just be sitting in my room
and this wave of sadness will hit me like an ocean tide
and suddenly, i’m drowning in my thoughts but they are moving too fast for me to catch them -
i only catch a couple words and mostly they’re words
like “useless” and “divorce” and “love is pain” ... sometimes i’ll just be sitting in my room
and this wave of sadness will hit me like an ocean tide
and suddenly, i’m drowning in my thoughts

but they are moving too fast for me to catch them -
i only catch a couple words and mostly they’re words
like “useless” and “divorce” and “love is pain” and “nobody stays”
and

i don’t mean to push you away
when this happens but nothing you could ever say
could make it better because nobody can wake me up
from this nightmare but my own brain
and i know what you’ll say, you’ll say you’re gonna be okay,

you’re gonna make a difference, i’m gonna stay
and i’ll end up screaming at you, saying you won’t
and you’ll run out of things to say
to convince me that life is worth living because
i’ll argue every point you make and
we’ll just end up staring at our phones with nothing to say
and

i’ll cry myself to sleep when i realize
that not only am i destroying myself, but everyone around me
and i’m sorry if i push you away.
i don’t mean to.
it’s just that i’m so tired of ending up alone,
it’s easier to blame it on my actions
than to think it was just because i wasn’t enough.
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— i wish i could leave this as easily as you could. 🖤 #afterbreakup
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Today is traditionally a hard day for me. 12 years ago on this day my dad made a choice to leave this world. The word "suicide" is very hard for me to say or even type. If somebody ever asks me how he died I usually say "he took his own life". Which is just as hard to say now that I think about it. It is so ... Today is traditionally a hard day for me. 12 years ago on this day my dad made a choice to leave this world. The word "suicide" is very hard for me to say or even type. If somebody ever asks me how he died I usually say "he took his own life". Which is just as hard to say now that I think about it. It is so devastatingly heart breaking to think he, or anyone else, believes this life is so unbearable they couldn't possibly live another day.
When somebody is ripped from your life it leaves a hole. The hole might get a little smaller over time, but it never truly goes away and certain things tear at that hole. Some good, some bad. Death anniversary days, their birthday, songs that they love, certain smells, the sound of a gunshot, seeing or holding a gun etc. .
I think what makes me the most sad is he just isn't here.
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A couple weeks ago Roman asked me so innocently and sweetly if my dad was dead. I've told him before that he is and I don't know what made him think to ask me, but I asked Roman if he'd like to hear a little bit about my Dad. I told Roman my dad was the best cook! He used to wake up really early in the morning to go to work and his boots upstairs on the kitchen floor would wake me up. I knew that if I hurried up stairs before he went to work he would make me pancakes for breakfast. He liked to drink Country Time Lemonade and he was so funny, always making jokes and I loved his laugh. Except for when he teased me. He could fix or build anything. He would work on things in our garage and blast his 80's rock music so loud and sing and whistle. He was happiest staying busy and doing or fixing something.
If you knew my dad and you have a memory of him please leave it in the comments I would love to hear it. Today I don't want to remember his death I want to remember his life.
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Yeah, yeah Don’t wake me up if I’m sleeping this life away Tell me that I’ll never be good enough Sometimes ...
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Yeah, yeah Don’t wake me up if I’m sleeping this life away Tell me that I’ll never be good enough Sometimes it hurts to think it could really be that way It won’t be that way I’m tired and I’m lost I don’t wanna be found I put my heart and my soul And strength in this now So forgive me ‘cause ... Yeah, yeah

Don’t wake me up if I’m sleeping this life away
Tell me that I’ll never be good enough
Sometimes it hurts to think it could really be that way
It won’t be that way

I’m tired and I’m lost
I don’t wanna be found
I put my heart and my soul
And strength in this now

So forgive me ‘cause I won’t forget that
Yeah, this world has changed me
So you know when you ask me

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don’t go back to the start
I’m asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won’t you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
We’re gonna work it out

Yeah, yeah

Don’t, don’t, don’t wake me up
‘Cause I hate who I am today
So come on, come on
And just take, take, take what you want
Is it now what we’re living for?
We’re always wanting more
(Always take take take take take!) You made me hate my own reflection
Question every choice I make
So I could try to be perfect
But I will try to be fake

So forgive me ‘cause I really could care less that
This world has changed me
So you know when you ask me

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don’t go back to the start
I’m asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won’t you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
And sometimes you really live, you’ve gotta try
We can change it all together, in the end you’re gonna find
That what we felt in our hearts was real the whole time
When you open up your eyes, I hope that you find
Who you are, who you are

Who are you now?
Who are you now?

Who are you now?
Did you say what you want?
Don’t go back to the start
I’m asking, who are you now?
Did they break you apart?
Won’t you fight back for what you want?

Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly
We’re gonna work it out
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God is so so so GOOD. I’m gonna keep it real for a minute. I fell short, I became comfortable with my ...
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God is so so so GOOD. I’m gonna keep it real for a minute. I fell short, I became comfortable with my walk with the Lord. When I say that I mean, I wasn’t seeking him everyday like I should have. I would attend church maybe once a month. I would listen to praise and worship and in my head felt like that ... God is so so so GOOD. I’m gonna keep it real for a minute. I fell short, I became comfortable with my walk with the Lord. When I say that I mean, I wasn’t seeking him everyday like I should have. I would attend church maybe once a month. I would listen to praise and worship and in my head felt like that was “good enough”. I kept trying to justify the fact that I couldn’t go because I was “too busy or too tired” from running the kids to and from their sports. That’s an EXCUSE! I allowed the enemy to come in my home and he used those close to me, to hurt me. (Not physically bc obviously I can hold my own, but I’m not about that life anymore) I see NOW! God has revealed himself to me every single day!!!! He is my breath of fresh air! He is my strength! He is my JOY! He is my defender! He is my TRUE LOVE!!! I am a daughter of a KING 👑 See, God used these past events to wake me up! He’s like alright Jess, it’s time. It’s TIME to step up and DO as I called you to do. I have to be accountable for my actions. I failed but you know what because we serve an amazing GOD he forgave. ME!!! It is only because of his grace and mercy that Im here. As a family we wake up at 6am, we open up in prayer and start reading Psalms of the day. We try to talk about what we just read, you know bc were half asleep. Now that we’re awake and alert we read our daily bread. I have a question for our lucky seven everyday, and we share our answers at dinner. We all can feel the difference and it’s AMAZING. Now I’m not saying we walk around with smiles all big 24/7. Do my kids make me want to pull out my hair and scream ABSOLUTELY. I fail daily, I’m FAR FROM PERFECT! I was broken BUT he’s putting me back together little by little. God wants a relationship with you, YES YOU! DONT EVER THINK THAT bc of your sins that your not worthy BECAUSE THAT IS A LIE FROM THE PIT OF HELL!!! Your precious and God wants that relationship with you ♥️ I’m here if you need someone to pray alongside you, I’m here. God bless 😘😘😘
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Day 20: Tears #kidneymonthchallenge I’ve been working hard to get reactive on the transplant ...
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Day 20: Tears #kidneymonthchallenge I’ve been working hard to get reactive on the transplant list and felt I was making good progress but we changed up the #dialysis schedule to be more frequent & more aggressive with pulling extra fluid that stays in my tummy. Between that and physical ... Day 20: Tears #kidneymonthchallenge
I’ve been working hard to get reactive on the transplant list and felt I was making good progress but we changed up the #dialysis schedule to be more frequent & more aggressive with pulling extra fluid that stays in my tummy. Between that and physical therapy I started to have muscle spasms to the point I couldn’t move and it would literally feel like I was having a contraction. The kind of pain that brings you to tears. So thought it was a good time to share my last hospitalization that brought me to the I.C.U. I already had #Paracentesis scheduled in a few days and tried to make it to that day but I guess my body was telling me to deal with it right away. After speaking to an advice nurse I made my way to the E.R. Since I was in so much pain they wanted to drain my tummy and give me what I call la-d-daudy (dilauded). Though it made me nauseous I picked nausea over the pain I was feeling. Unfortunately after the drain I was still in a lot of pain so they admitted me to the hospital. Test began and unfortunately after my M.R.I. scan I went into a deep sleep. Thank God Daniel was by my side because he kept watching my blood pressure plumit. As it got lower he called the nurses. They kept trying to wake me up but I became non responsive & they called the medical response team. All I could hear from a far distance is wake up they’re getting the crash cart & to focus on him. That woke me up knowing what that meant & suddenly came back. I had a lot of people already working me up; literally had #defibrillater stickers on my chest. I was admitted to the I.C.U. as my B.P. remained low and they needed to treat it with medication. This really should be a whole blog post but thought to share with the #kidneychallenge as I relate the tears I’ve shed going through all this. The pain of all the procedures... The thought of this could’ve been the end of my story. That quick... It hurts to not have control. I know every tear shed is not because I’m weak it’s because I know how important it is to feel everything I’m going through so I can lift that heavy burden and be able to move on....
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whenever people make green day jokes about Wake Me Up When September Ends... i want to YELL....
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GM, wake up & Make a move(s) that will inspire another...even if you don’t know if you are...who with ...
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GM, wake up & Make a move(s) that will inspire another...even if you don’t know if you are...who with me? #makemovesnotexcuses #mentors #motivators #inspirers #savingouryouth GM, wake up & Make a move(s) that will inspire another...even if you don’t know if you are...who with me? #makemovesnotexcuses #mentors #motivators #inspirers #savingouryouth
Last nights pic ... gorgeous wine & huge fillet steak that I’d craved for all week . Thanks @hutchinsonhobbs ...
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Last nights pic ... gorgeous wine & huge fillet steak that I’d craved for all week . Thanks @hutchinsonhobbs BEST Farm shop by far . Just waiting for @emmo.one to wake up & make me a delicious bacon bun Last nights pic ... gorgeous wine & huge fillet steak that I’d craved for all week . Thanks @hutchinsonhobbs BEST Farm shop by far .
Just waiting for @emmo.one to wake up & make me a delicious bacon bun 😋
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🐉 x GRIND OR DIE x 🥁🌤 Music Is My LIFE Not Just My Occupation. But Musicians & Entrepreneurs Know It Can Be A Struggle Out Here When You’re Trying To Get Your Talents / Business Noticed & Out There. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Trust Me When I Tell You Anything Is Possible Baby. If You Want It You ... 🌊🎹🐉 x GRIND OR DIE x 🥁👾🌤
Music Is My LIFE Not Just My Occupation.
But Musicians & Entrepreneurs Know It Can Be A Struggle Out Here When You’re Trying To Get Your Talents / Business Noticed & Out There. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Trust Me When I Tell You Anything Is Possible Baby.
If You Want It You Gotta REALLY Shoot For It.
If You Half Step You’ll Get Half Stepped Results,
If All You Do Is TALK About The Dream & Not Take ACTION All You Have There Is A DREAM. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Grind Or Die! Shoot The Shot! Wake Up & Make That Dream Reality & Hop On That Rocket Ship. 🚀🧠 #YouCanDoIt
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Wake me up when the bedroom looks like this. <span class="emoji emoji261d"></span>️ Shop new arrivals and make the dream a reality. #mywestelm ...
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Happy 1st birthday to this lil one. So happy I was finally able to make her laugh for the first time ...
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Happy 1st birthday to this lil one. So happy I was finally able to make her laugh for the first time at her birthday party. (It was the classic pretend you’re sleeping and she would wake me up bit.) I have so many more classic comedy routines like that one to share with her. Happy birthday!!! Also, ... Happy 1st birthday to this lil one. So happy I was finally able to make her laugh for the first time at her birthday party. (It was the classic pretend you’re sleeping and she would wake me up bit.) I have so many more classic comedy routines like that one to share with her. Happy birthday!!! Also, happy I was able to sneak this photo of just the 2 of us.
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Happy 1st year anniversary to that LEFT HAND that leave us! It's time to wake up monster, took me a year to find you and putting back all the pieces together. You've been sleeping too long, way too long. Left hand, if you wanna leave us again this time, you better damn well make sure you are leaving ... Happy 1st year anniversary to that LEFT HAND that leave us! It's time to wake up monster, took me a year to find you and putting back all the pieces together. You've been sleeping too long, way too long.
Left hand, if you wanna leave us again this time, you better damn well make sure you are leaving for good and not coming back! cuz we're not stopping.
#TeamMerican #mma 🦇
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There's something about cooking that I've come to love. I hate the dishes that pile up in the aftermath ...
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There's something about cooking that I've come to love. I hate the dishes that pile up in the aftermath but I love the process of it all. The slicing, dicing, peeling, boiling, baking, and sizzling sounds are what would wake me from my slumber while growing up. (Of course, these were the noises ... There's something about cooking that I've come to love. I hate the dishes that pile up in the aftermath but I love the process of it all. The slicing, dicing, peeling, boiling, baking, and sizzling sounds are what would wake me from my slumber while growing up. (Of course, these were the noises I heard moments before my mother would yell at me to wake up.) To be quite honest, once I came to college I cooked solely to eat something. You see, I quickly came to find that cooking was annoying and that too much time was wasted just to make one meal. And that the piles of dishes were not worth all the labor. But lately, I don't think like that anymore. I'm actually enjoying the whole cooking process. The kitchen becomes my little stage where I do my one-woman play. A stage where I sweat and glide across in order to get the required spices in hopes that what results will be nothing short but a work of art. Of course, I'm not making some sort of fancy-ass, three-course meal, but to me, whenever I make myself a home-cooked meal, it's like a way of loving myself. I know, I know, it's weird to say it like that, but that's the only way I can explain it. Anyways, my point is, try and cook a meal for yourself. Present it like a gift and maybe have a nice film or music playing in the background. Take yourself out on a date. Oh, and screw the dishes, that's for future you to worry about. 😉

Referenced picture is from Shutterstock.

#art #artist #drawing #sketch #ink #realism #doodle #pen #illustration #sketchbook #sketchdaily #sketchaday #sketching #drawdaily #pencil #graphite #pencildrawing #pencilsketch #lineart #pendrawing #inkdrawing #blackandwhite #blackpen #doodles #micron #reference #shading #cooking #cook #food
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[ scroll for some of the gorgeous ladies I’ve photographed ] I’m not going to lie, the past week was really hard for me, but it also helped me wake up to some very important realisations. I’ve been feeling lost lately that I have been set on one career path for so long that, now that I’m out of Uni, ... [ scroll for some of the gorgeous ladies I’ve photographed ]

I’m not going to lie, the past week was really hard for me, but it also helped me wake up to some very important realisations. I’ve been feeling lost lately that I have been set on one career path for so long that, now that I’m out of Uni, really isn’t taking off - while the thing I’ve always considered a hobby is opening doors for me left and right. I’ve suddenly realised and accepted who I really am as a person and who I want to be. •

I don’t just want to be successful and have an amazing career; I want to make people happy, build them up, make them feel better about themselves. This has always been a battle for me because it’s not a goal that intersects with my career ambitions, but it’s something that is at the core of my identity and how I lead my life. •

Photography, however, allows me to do that.
This year, I am finally ready to take myself seriously. I’m still applying for jobs, I’m not giving up on my original plan, but I’m not going to shrug off what destiny throws at me. I want to make women feel beautiful. I want them to look at a photograph of themselves and smile. I don’t want us to believe we can’t be gorgeous or photogenic because we don’t have an 8-person glam squad surrounding us. It’s time to start building myself up as a photographer, and use that to build up all of the amazing women around me. This year it’s all about me, and all about you - the women who push and support each other to be better, happier. •

Here’s to all of you - amazing, strong, smart and beautiful.
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My dad’s service the past weekend was emotionally difficult and trying but it was clear how much love was felt in that church. It was an honor to see how many people were affected by my father throughout his life. Even during his three year battle with cancer, he made such an impact on the students ... My dad’s service the past weekend was emotionally difficult and trying but it was clear how much love was felt in that church. It was an honor to see how many people were affected by my father throughout his life. Even during his three year battle with cancer, he made such an impact on the students he taught that I was able to meet them at the funeral, managed to teach me all his best moves for cribbage, and crack my family up with his jokes and songs. There will be both good and bad days ahead, but my memories of my dad will shine brightly through them all.
Below is my speech from his funeral that will never be good enough to describe the incredible father he was, but I hope it comes close. My favorite breakfast growing up was mickey mouse chocolate chip pancakes with whip cream and chocolate sauce. My dad would make enough on Sunday mornings that we then ate them through the rest of the week. So every morning before school my dad would wake me up, carry me downstairs, and make my breakfast while I fell back asleep on the couch. Then, he would brush my hair, equally traumatizing for the both of us, and I would go off to school. Once a week, I would take enough banana chocolate chip muffins for my class during snack time. Eventually, my dad taught me to make them and we would bake together every week. This was in between him helping me into my tights for dance class, driving me to soccer practice, and sitting front row for all my shows. That’s the thing about my dad. He was always there. I know it won’t be the same now that he can’t physically be with us anymore, but I know he will still be there. Because my dad taught me not just what family looks like, but how it made you feel.
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All that I want Is to wake up fine Tell me that I'm alright That I ain't gonna die All that I want Is ...
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All that I want Is to wake up fine Tell me that I'm alright That I ain't gonna die All that I want Is a hole in the ground You can tell me when it's alright For me to come out gonna make you wonder why you even try (Hard times) gonna take you down and laugh when you cry (These lives) and I still ... All that I want
Is to wake up fine
Tell me that I'm alright
That I ain't gonna die
All that I want
Is a hole in the ground
You can tell me when it's alright
For me to come out
gonna make you wonder why you even try
(Hard times) gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
(These lives) and I still don't know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom
Walking around
My little rain cloud
Hanging over my head
And it ain't coming down
Where do I go?
Gimme some sort of sign
You hit me with lightning!
Maybe I'll come alive
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When people hear that I wake up at 4:30am, I see their eyes glaze over as I share my reasons and some ...
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When people hear that I wake up at 4:30am, I see their eyes glaze over as I share my reasons and some tips. You don't have to wake up at 4:30am like me, but rising just a half hour before your usual wake up hr can give you more time to focus on #emotionalhealth, a #sidehustle, or a new skill. Becuase ... When people hear that I wake up at 4:30am, I see their eyes glaze over as I share my reasons and some tips. You don't have to wake up at 4:30am like me, but rising just a half hour before your usual wake up hr can give you more time to focus on #emotionalhealth, a #sidehustle, or a new skill. Becuase it's the first day after #daylightsavings I'm hoping you'll be more open to implementing some of these tips since you're tired anyway. 😉
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Get A Real Alarm Clock -There are so many reasons not to check your phone in the morning. (I'll save that for another post) I suggest getting a real alarm clock and setting it across the room. That way you have to get up to turn it off or snooze. You can use your phone as a back up, but set it across the room as well.
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Consider A Slower Wake UP - Y'ALL! For the past 2 years I've been waking up with this natural sunlight alarm. It slowly gets brighter 30 minutes before your wake up time. It makes it feel like you're waking up naturally to the sun! (Plus the actual alarm ranges from cows in the meadow to ocean sounds) It definitely makes a difference!
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Power Down Early - I try to avoid my phone and tv right before bed. Consider reading or a podcast. Also, autoset your phone to power to night mode an hour before bed.
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Prep The Night Before - Make a list, set out your clothes, and lay out all the things you're going to need to work during that extra time.
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Set Your Intentions For The Morning - I have a morning routine centered around #gratitude, #prayer, and #meditation. You don't have to do what I do, just sit up in bed and take a deep breath. It's a new day🤗
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Get Out The Bed - Sounds basic, but half of y'all are going to attempt to work surrounded by pillows and blankets. Uh Uh! Get up, make the bed, brush your teeth, drink a big glass of water and go sit on your couch or desk to get started with the first part of your day.
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Power Through - That first week is tough, but it gets better I promise! Just like daylight savings, you'll forget you even used to #wakeup an hour later!
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Today marks day 21 since I committed to becoming an early morning person! (Even weekends 🤩). I seriously ...
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Today marks day 21 since I committed to becoming an early morning person! (Even weekends 🤩). I seriously didn’t think it was possible you guys, I haven’t been able to get up early since my first trimester with Landon. But I’m loving it and it’s actually been the most transformative thing I’ve ... Today marks day 21 since I committed to becoming an early morning person! (Even weekends 🤩). I seriously didn’t think it was possible you guys, I haven’t been able to get up early since my first trimester with Landon. But I’m loving it and it’s actually been the most transformative thing I’ve done all year! I started with 6 am wake up and I then set my alarm 30 min earlier each week, so now I’m waking up at 5 am (my alarm is light music so doesn’t bother anyone). My *ideal* bedtime is 10 but more often than not it’s closer to 11. Even the days I get less sleep, I still feel way more energized because I sleep better and catch that “wave” of Vata energy by waking before 6 (I write more about this Ayurvedic perspective in my stories and last week’s email - this was the biggest driving factor in motivating me to make the decision to get up early.)
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The week or so Lily ended up waking up earlier than normal (she sleeps with us so maybe noticed I was gone), so since Justin wakes at 6-6:30 he would get her ready for the day while I finished my morning routine. She then went back to her regular 7ish am wake up and that’s been pretty consistent since.
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Surprisingly, I look forward to waking up because I know the earlier I’m up, the more “me” time I get (my motivation for not hitting snooze!), and I fall asleep easier because I’m not doing work/mindless screen time before bed anymore. Some other perks:
- I exercise everyday rather than only when I can “fit it in”. 30 min high intensity plyometrics/cardio/strength, 15-30 min yoga/meditation/self massage is my groove (check out my yoga classes on @oneOeight.tv !)
- I usually get to see the sunrise 🌅
- I don’t rely on anyone else to fill me up or make me happy
- Justin and I almost never argue about stupid stuff anymore (turns out it was me all along 😬)
- My wrists and lower back aren’t totally healed but are improving so much because I make sure I take care of them as part of my morning routine.
- I drink more water (a full glass when I wake up), eat better throughout the day and just generally make healthier choices
- I’m more productive
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Do you wake early? Why/why not?
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I been up all night thinking that someone should wake me up to this dream. I wasnt ready for this woman ...
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I been up all night thinking that someone should wake me up to this dream. I wasnt ready for this woman to leave me. Me and Shawn heart hurts so bad and were lost right now without you. She has been in every milestone of me and shawn life. She pushed me to be the woman that I am. She pushed shawn to be ... I been up all night thinking that someone should wake me up to this dream. I wasnt ready for this woman to leave me. Me and Shawn heart hurts so bad and were lost right now without you. She has been in every milestone of me and shawn life. She pushed me to be the woman that I am. She pushed shawn to be the man that he is. This woman was there for me when I wasn't there for myself. She prayed for me when I couldn't pray for myself. She made me laugh in the darkest time. She paved my way through college. She was at every play watching every show or screaming that Tyler Perry need to give me a chance. She was my cheerleader and she loved me so much. She did everything in her heart to make me happy. She watched me grow into a young lady. She gave to the world and to me. She was my rock and my mom. me and shawn ask ... "What are we going to do,Lord!!!?". She was our lives. She was my everything. I knew if so didn't have anyone...I had her..... I had her..... I can hear her voice now. I love you soooooooo much Grandma!!! I love you with every breath in my body! You will forever be in my heart and soul. You're not in pain anymore. Kiss Grandad for me. and Know that "You impacted, changed and blessed me and Shawn life forever".
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Flour-less chocolate cookies coming thru <span class="emoji emoji1f36a"></span> @mitchsbitchinkitchen . This morning I was mourning ...
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Flour-less chocolate cookies coming thru @mitchsbitchinkitchen . This morning I was mourning the loss of my sleep 😴 Yep, I am V dramatic. Every Thursday morning I wake up around 6 to make the half hr drive to my nanny job. I pick up an iced coffee at Starbs on my way, listen to my morning radio ... Flour-less chocolate cookies coming thru 🍪 @mitchsbitchinkitchen
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This morning I was mourning the loss of my sleep 😴 Yep, I am V dramatic. Every Thursday morning I wake up around 6 to make the half hr drive to my nanny job. I pick up an iced coffee at Starbs on my way, listen to my morning radio shows + slowly let the bitter-sweet aroma of coffee wake me up. Well today I felt like I needed something more. And by something more I mean something sweeter. So peep these flour-less, gluten-free chocolate cookies by @aseasyasapplepie!
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Words cannot describe how I’m feeling right now. If you ask I’ll just say all of the above. You are ...
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Words cannot describe how I’m feeling right now. If you ask I’ll just say all of the above. You are my strength. All my life, everything that I’ve been through, you were always the one who knew exactly what to say and when to say it. You didn’t make me get through it, you stood along side me and willed ... Words cannot describe how I’m feeling right now. If you ask I’ll just say all of the above. You are my strength. All my life, everything that I’ve been through, you were always the one who knew exactly what to say and when to say it. You didn’t make me get through it, you stood along side me and willed me through it. Every day seems so long now. Knowing that when I wake up you won’t be upstairs or down the hall. I’m not going to lie, it’s hard. Though you willed me through life and it’s my turn to will you through this. You had an amazing operation, one that saved your life. This is a marathon, not a sprint. It is going to take a long time to get you back to where you were, yet I’m ready. Even though i don’t feel like it, i know that i am. You made me strong enough to get through this. Along with dad, who picked me up and dusted me off. Life has so much more for you, so much more. The love and support from our friends has been absolutely amazing, humbling. There is no doubt in my mind that you are going to get through this and be better than ever. Not only because you want to be, but because you have to be. I can’t do life without you, without you it doesn’t seem possible. I love you more than anything in the world. I promise you i will try and stay as strong as possible for you and i will be there every step of the way. Thank you for the best 18 years of my life. We have so many more. ❤️
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3,285 Days. 9 Years. 2 kids. 1 unbelievable run. They didn’t tell us that marriage would be a ...
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3,285 Days. 9 Years. 2 kids. 1 unbelievable run. They didn’t tell us that marriage would be a friendship deeper than I’d ever imagined. They didn’t tell us that marriage would teach me loyalty I never knew existed. They didn’t tell us that marriage was about watching someone grow up ... 3,285 Days.
9 Years.
2 kids.
1 unbelievable run.
They didn’t tell us that marriage would be a friendship deeper than I’d ever imagined.
They didn’t tell us that marriage would teach me loyalty I never knew existed.
They didn’t tell us that marriage was about watching someone grow up and wake up and mature and fail and struggle and succeed and flourish and become more every day, right in front of your eyes.
They didn’t tell us that marriage was so widely complicated.
They didn’t tell us that marriage was so bizarrely simple.
They didn’t tell us that I’d wake up everyday not being sure if today was the complicated day or the simple one.
They didn’t tell us that watching you become a mother would be the greatest honor of my life.
They didn’t tell us that our kids would make being alive feel like the greatest gift of all.
Thank you for the last 9 years.
Thank you for being my wife.
Thank you for every single day.
Here’s to 100 more.
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If you wake me up at 6am you better be ready to make me a coffee ! #coffeetime
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If you wake me up at 6am you better be ready to make me a coffee ! #coffeetime If you wake me up at 6am you better be ready to make me a coffee ! #coffeetime
How can you see into my eyes Like open doors? Leading you down into my core, Where I've become so ...
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How can you see into my eyes Like open doors? Leading you down into my core, Where I've become so numb. Without a soul, My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold, Until you find it there and lead it back Home. (Wake me up) Wake me up inside. (I can’t wake up) Wake me up inside. (Save me) Call ... How can you see into my eyes
Like open doors?
Leading you down into my core,
Where I've become so numb.

Without a soul,
My spirit's sleeping somewhere cold,
Until you find it there and lead it back
Home. (Wake me up)
Wake me up inside.
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside.
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run.
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone.
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become.

Now that I know what I'm without,
You can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real.
Bring me to life. (Wake me up)
Wake me up inside.
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside.
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run.
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone.
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become.

Bring me to life.
(I've been living a lie.
There's nothing inside)
Bring me to life.

Frozen inside without your touch,
Without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead. (All of this sight,
I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark
but you were there in front of me)
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.
(Without a thought
Without a voice
Without a soul
Don't let me die here.
There must be something more).
Bring me to life. (Wake me up)
Wake me up inside.
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside.
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark.
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run.
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone.
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become.

Bring me to life.
(I've been living a lie. There's nothing inside)
Bring me to life
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My kids mood this morning They've been up since 6am waiting patiently to open their Christmas presents. They've been singing and dancing trying to wake me up.😴😴😴 I'm still in bed so I'll make them wait a little longer. (What a sad guy aye) Hey kids how about sing and dance while making ... My kids mood this morning😂😂😂 They've been up since 6am waiting patiently to open their Christmas presents. They've been singing and dancing trying to wake me up.😴😴😴
I'm still in bed so I'll make them wait a little longer.😂 (What a sad guy aye)
Hey kids how about sing and dance while making breakfast for mum and dad aye? 😂😂 Merry Christmas everybody from our family to you and yours. Alofa aku🤙🏽
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Where to Go , follow the flow! I went to this talk here in LA by a successful casting Director. Long ...
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Where to Go , follow the flow! I went to this talk here in LA by a successful casting Director. Long ago, when she was a struggling actress, she thought it would be a good idea to learn what casting directors looked for. In the process she learned that she was good at casting. Now she does the casting ... Where to Go , follow the flow! I went to this talk here in LA by a successful casting Director. Long ago, when she was a struggling actress, she thought it would be a good idea to learn what casting directors looked for. In the process she learned that she was good at casting. Now she does the casting for a lot of the major movies, and makes the dream come true for a few actors. She said that when actors come in and are desperate for the job, she doesn't want to give it to them. They're not in the flow, they've lost believe in faith. They have forgotten how to relax, how to believe in their own path. There is a reason for everything that happens. What is meant to be, will be. But not as you expect it. Dreams are rivers that make their own way if you belive in them. Don't force them. Have faith. Your path will take you to where you are supposed to be.
I think we are like water, life is earth. Dreams create us. Make your river, let it flow. Enjoy the process, not just a goal. Successful people actually miss the days of when they were struggling . Because obstacles wake us up, make us creative, they help us find an open door. Last month I was driving to a small village in Italy. I thought the direction was Milan, not Venice. I drove down the highway 3 times, the GPS told me to turn around 3 (!!) times. Because I kept following the signs to Milan, I kept going further the wrong direction. Stupid, right?But I believed that I was right, so I literaly chose to ignore the signs giving me the right direction.Now, when I go somewhere, I make the map smaller. I see the whole route and I understand it. I see where I am going, might even find a better route. As life in general: Get a better overlook, there are many paths to your dream! You have more talents than you know. Make sure you follow your flow. When it is right, you get 100 butterflies in your heart. Impossible to miss that turn! That moment when dreams turn into reality. #beliveinyou #followtheflow #itisgoingtobeokay
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* In Memory of George Michael (1963-2016) * به یاد جورج مایکل "Wake Me Up Before You Go Go" from the ...
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* In Memory of George Michael (1963-2016) * به یاد جورج مایکل "Wake Me Up Before You Go Go" from the album: Make It Big by: Wham! 1984 ... You put the boom boom into my heart, You send my soul sky high when your lovin' starts. Jitterbug into my brain, Goes bang bang bang till my feet do the ... * In Memory of George Michael (1963-2016) *
به یاد جورج مایکل "Wake Me Up Before You Go Go"
from the album: Make It Big
by: Wham! 1984
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You put the boom boom into my heart,
You send my soul sky high when your lovin' starts.
Jitterbug into my brain,
Goes bang bang bang till my feet do the same.
But something's bugging me
Something ain't right
My best friend told me
Where you were last night.
Left me sleeping
In my bed.
I was dreaming
But I should've been with you instead.
Wake me up before you go go,
Don't leave me hanging on like a yo-yo.
Wake me up before you go go,
I don't want to miss it when you hit that high
Wake me up before you go go,
'Cause I'm not planning on going solo.
Wake me up before you go go,
Take me dancing tonight.
I want to hit that high
You get the gray skies outta my way,
You make the sun shine brighter than Doris Day.
Turn a mere spark into a flame,
My beats per minute never been the same.
'Cause you're my lady,
I'm your fool.
Makes me crazy
When you act so cruel.
C'mon baby,
Let's not fight.
We'll go dancing
And everything will be alright.
Wake me up before you go go,
Don't leave me hanging on like a yo-yo.
Wake me up before you go go,
I don't want to miss it when you hit that high
Wake me up before you go go,
'Cause I'm not planning on going solo.
Wake me up before you go go,
Take me dancing tonight.
I want to hit that high
Cuddle up baby,
Move in tight.
We'll go dancing tomorrow night.
It's cold out there
But it's warm in bed.
They can dance,
We'll stay home instead.
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Dear Mom's Favourite, The truth is bitter, the truth hurts, but the truth is, I am terrified of leaving. Maybe ...
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Dear Mom's Favourite, The truth is bitter, the truth hurts, but the truth is, I am terrified of leaving. Maybe you are only eight, and you won't understand a word of this. Maybe all you will do is ask me the meaning of every fifth word you read. But the truth is, I will miss this. Yes, I shout ... Dear Mom's Favourite,
The truth is bitter, the truth hurts, but the truth is, I am terrified of leaving.

Maybe you are only eight, and you won't understand a word of this. Maybe all you will do is ask me the meaning of every fifth word you read. But the truth is, I will miss this.

Yes, I shout at you when you annoy me. I get angry when you break my things. I get angry when you shout back. But trust me, I will miss being angry at you.

Whenever you argue with mom about having a room to yourself, I can't help but think: "Don't worry, once I'm gone, my room will be all yours." I can't help but wonder, every time you come and stand near my study table, staring at the things I have, that all of that will be yours too.

My wardrobe will be yours too, just the skirts and jewelry replaced with your shirts.

And every time I come home for a visit, I'll be sleeping in your room, not mine, anymore.

While I am away, I will miss going to school together. I will miss you entering my room now and then, irritating me when I am busy. I will miss how you were jealous of my comfy blanket, and used to snuggle up with me in the morning. I will miss you comparing your height with mine. I will miss watching pointless horror movies together, while you were scared to death, and I used to be laughing at the back. I will miss the most annoying way in which you wake me up in the morning. I swear, no one else can ever do that.

I will miss the over exaggerated happiness you exhibit when you get an unexpected gift. I will miss how you ask, "Didibhai er ta kothai?" whenever someone handed you only one chocolate, or how you make it a point to get two of all such things, when out to buy them.

I will miss spending winter afternoons lazing around doing nothing, yet not getting bored since just the two of us was enough. It is really weird, how a fifteen-year-old and an eight-year-old can bond that way. I will miss the way you never forget to say 'goodnight', before I go up to my room.

When I think of home, I will miss you, since home isn't much but walls without the people inside it.

You are that home, my home, and I will miss you. ~ Ahana Chatterjee
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Today we layed to rest one of the best men I have ever known, my grandpa. Distance kept us apart a lot ...
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Today we layed to rest one of the best men I have ever known, my grandpa. Distance kept us apart a lot and I always wished we could have spent more moments together. From roasting pigs in the back yard during summer, visits to Puerto Rico, games of tag through the blanket you always put on me to try ... Today we layed to rest one of the best men I have ever known, my grandpa. Distance kept us apart a lot and I always wished we could have spent more moments together. From roasting pigs in the back yard during summer, visits to Puerto Rico, games of tag through the blanket you always put on me to try and make me sleep, or then all the candy you used to wake me up with even though my mom always tried to stop it. You always made your grandchildren feel loved no matter what and all I really ever needed every time I saw you was one of those hugs only a grandpa can give and yours were the best. I'll miss those hugs and you more than anything. I'm glad I could give you one last hug to say goodbye. No distance can ever keep us apart now grandpa 🙏
R.I.P. Guillermo Martinez ("Mino")
January 10, 1927 - November 19, 2018

P.S. Thanks for the small blizzard, I guess you finally turned down the heater like we always asked, joke was on us this time
#bestgrandpa #pallbearerinsnow #onemoreangel
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You did it! @alifadril Saat namamu dipanggil kedepan aku masih gak percaya.. bulu kuduk ku merinding.. ...
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You did it! @alifadril Saat namamu dipanggil kedepan aku masih gak percaya.. bulu kuduk ku merinding.. hanya air mata yang bisa aku teteskan serta bisikan hati berkata "is this real? Is it a dream? If its a dream please dont wake me up" but.. i guess this is real:") i cant believe it.. after ... You did it! @alifadril
Saat namamu dipanggil kedepan aku masih gak percaya.. bulu kuduk ku merinding.. hanya air mata yang bisa aku teteskan serta bisikan hati berkata "is this real? Is it a dream? If its a dream please dont wake me up" but.. i guess this is real:") i cant believe it.. after 6-7 years you complete your degree, maybe not the best student in a whole campus, but you're the best in my eyes:") semaleman kerja lembur ngerjain skripsimu, banyak tugas/kesempatan yg harus aku tinggalin demi kamu.. dan benar ngelepasin itu semua gak ada apa2 nya sama rasa senang dan bangganya aku ketika mendengar & melihatmu didepan itu menerima ijazah kelulusan 😭.. .
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im very proud to call you my brother! Walaupun banyak yg meragukan kamu, you face all of that! You dont care what other people said about you! And i admire you for that😭 thank you ! You make me the happiest sister in this entire world! I love you! Lets walk on to the next journey together !!
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Confession: I went on an adventure in Bali one day with @wanderingdonut and we stopped by a few temples. ...
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Confession: I went on an adventure in Bali one day with @wanderingdonut and we stopped by a few temples. Once we arrived to this one, we must have walked over 1000 stairs in scorching heat to get to the top. Once we arrived in dripping sweat it seemed that what was left of the small square of land ... Confession: I went on an adventure in Bali one day with @wanderingdonut and we stopped by a few temples. Once we arrived to this one, we must have walked over 1000 stairs in scorching heat to get to the top. Once we arrived in dripping sweat it seemed that what was left of the small square of land which was supposed to be a temple was closed off and nothing was there. I saw a couple trying to make their way up so I thought I would do them the favour by letting them know nothing was on top of the mission.
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This couple seemed to not speak English too well but they gave me a look and said it’s fine and kept walking up. My ego felt hurt for a split second, ok fine for a few seconds maybe even a couple of minutes. They gave no smile and seemed to be frustrated with my comment. I noticed they got to the top and started hugging and talking to the trees. They were in deep connection with nature the whole way up those stairs. They were touching, feeling the plants, speaking to the trees and hugging and placing their hands on each one. If you weren’t used to this kind of thing, I would think majority of people would say these two people were out of their minds. Not for me though. I thought it was beautiful and I put my ego away and my body began to fill with love and light. It was that moment that was a huge wake up call for me.
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I wasn’t paying attention to the beauty all around and who was I to tell them there was nothing at the top. It takes moments of reflection to realize that we see things differently than others. At times we may think we’re helping someone by giving advice but in the end we’re all on our own journey wanting different things out of our experiences.
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I was too focused on the end goal which was to get to the top temple that I neglected what was around me. With every journey it’s not just about where you end up in the end, it’s how you react and appreciate everything, everyone and all the mistakes, challenges and reactions along the way. .
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PhotoCred: @wanderingdonut
#bali #indonesia #indotravel #treehugger #loveyourself #growth #selflove #selfcare #treeoflife #balibaby #girlswhowander #sheisnotlost #travel #travelgram
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First know @notryanhiga in WFP's videos. The first nigahiga video I watch is Draw My Life and that ...
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First know @notryanhiga in WFP's videos. The first nigahiga video I watch is Draw My Life and that make me decided to watch all his videos. Reasons: 1. This fella is really genius and kindhearted. The way he act to overcome bullies, the mindset of him itself impressed me a lot. He find the problem ... First know @notryanhiga in WFP's videos. The first nigahiga video I watch is Draw My Life and that make me decided to watch all his videos.
Reasons:
1. This fella is really genius and kindhearted. The way he act to overcome bullies, the mindset of him itself impressed me a lot. He find the problem on his own first and solve it rather than seeking problem on other people. This hit me real hard. That's what I always wrong at and that's why I always find myself suffering. Coz I always blame it on other and never see my own problem. He wake me up.

2. Sincerity and efforts. Needless to say, all nigahiga & higatv videos are not just merely "Youtube video". All of the efforts and time they put in to make it done are real touching. I am Advertising Design graduate, I know how exactly they make all things work just for the few minutes we can watch. It may look easily done but it actually not at all.
3. Contents. All his videos never fail to impress me either on how creative is it or how different of his view on those trends or stuffs happening. He change my perspective of seeing thing and personality a lot in good way. People always need mentor to lead their road ahead, and he probably the one for me. A lot of good vibe spreading after watching him. I don't think I should stop. ☺

Thanks @charleymint for tagged me this. Repost this picture and tag your other lamp friends. Keep the Teehee's vibe on. 🙌😉 #Mapoti
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RANT. I’m sick of hearing judgment about women wanting to “get their bodies back after baby.” ... Let ...
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RANT. I’m sick of hearing judgment about women wanting to “get their bodies back after baby.” ... Let me be 100% clear. Wanting to have your body back or CLOSE to back is not selfish or inappropriate. My favorite line is when someone says “losing the baby weight should be the last thing on your ... RANT. I’m sick of hearing judgment about women wanting to “get their bodies back after baby.”
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Let me be 100% clear. Wanting to have your body back or CLOSE to back is not selfish or inappropriate. My favorite line is when someone says “losing the baby weight should be the last thing on your mind.” 😡
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OH. Really? Let me fill you in on a secret. It IS the last thing on my mind!! SURPRISE. This love nugget of a baby is at the forefront of my mind and has been since she was born. Is she hungry? Is she angry? Is she hot? Cold? Was that a poop? Let’s snuggle together! I need food ... wait, but baby needs food first. I really have to pee, but I have a sleeping child on my chest. I can hold it. Laundry? Nope. Not right now with this cluster feeding kiddo. Wait, don’t cry! You’re gonna make my boobs leak. 😂 Is she gonna wake me up every 2 hours tonight or maybe let me sleep a little? OMG was that a smile? God, you’re so beautiful!! Kiss kiss kiss.
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Just because a woman wants to see her body in the mirror the way it used to be does not mean she’s not CONSTANTLY thinking of her baby. In fact, I guarantee you that a new mother can’t stop thinking of her baby. 24/7. It’s our new normal. And while it’s an incredible feeling, it’s also very foreign after being independent for so long before.
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So stop. Stop making women feel bad about thinking of themselves for 30 seconds of the day. Our worlds have been pleasantly and surprisingly turned UPSIDE DOWN and we’re still adjusting to the idea that life will never be the same ... and wanting to see and feel one familiar and personal sight in the mirror is just something some women look forward to.
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Also, let’s not qualify women’s weight loss ... whether you have 5 lbs of baby weight to lose or 50 lbs, we’re all just looking to find our definition of familiar.
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End rant. ✌🏼
#postpartumfitness #postpartumbody #postpartumhealth #diastasisrectirepair #bodyafterbaby #bodylove #veganfitness #veganlove #motherhoodrocks #postpartumweightloss
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Well, folks. I’m staying in Georgia. Kentucky is a nice place, but there are some opportunities ...
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Well, folks. I’m staying in Georgia. Kentucky is a nice place, but there are some opportunities in Georgia I can’t pass up. I spent the better part of June and July putting out applications for jobs. Marketing or otherwise. Then an old friend got wind I was looking for work, tracked me down ... Well, folks. I’m staying in Georgia. Kentucky is a nice place, but there are some opportunities in Georgia I can’t pass up.
I spent the better part of June and July putting out applications for jobs. Marketing or otherwise. Then an old friend got wind I was looking for work, tracked me down and asked how I felt about Georgia. The next week I came to Atlanta and got busy working with @perimeterroofing_ga
I came to try it out, but I’m really digging it so I am sticking around. I’ve been working nonstop learning the roofing business and riding in the evening. Strict. It’s all easy to do when you’re surrounded by good people 24/7. I still have some race winning to do, so that just means extra hard work. I start my days at 6 a.m. and end them when the sun goes down. I honestly never thought the roofing business would be for me, but I am enjoying the heck out of it.
My email and phone number are in my profile. So Georgia, when you need your roof inspected for free give me a call or email me to set up an appointment. (Let’s be honest who doesn’t need a free roof inspection? We are in Atlanta area, but we go everywhere so don’t be shy.) Anyway, I’m glad to have landed a job with these people at Perimeter Roofing. There are literally hundreds of positive reviews of this company on Facebook. They are all super positive, competitive and supportive individuals. It’s nice to be around a bunch of people who know the real meaning of commitment. I wake up every day for work excited and I’m not the only one. I’m literally setting multiple alarms to make sure I am up when these guys and girls are up and believe me it is a ridiculous hour for some of them to be out of bed. Anyway, can’t let my new team down.
Rise and grind, everyone.

P.S. I did not ride a bike today. Those 4 trips of Woody’s Gap yesterday killed me. I thought I might be sick, but I’m good. I’m back on the horse tomorrow. 🔥💯
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This morning a thunderstorm woke me up 20 minutes before my alarm and I wasn’t even mad about it! Because ...
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This morning a thunderstorm woke me up 20 minutes before my alarm and I wasn’t even mad about it! Because that’s my FAVORITE way to wake up! ⛈ Seriously, if a real life thunderstorm could wake me up at least 4/7 days of the week and stay rainy all day, that would be my ideal world! 🌧 It would be even ... This morning a thunderstorm woke me up 20 minutes before my alarm and I wasn’t even mad about it! Because that’s my FAVORITE way to wake up! ⛈ Seriously, if a real life thunderstorm could wake me up at least 4/7 days of the week and stay rainy all day, that would be my ideal world! 😍🌧 It would be even more ideal with 60 degree temperatures! And then the other 3 days could be sunny, with some fluffy clouds! ⛅️ Because I need pretty sunsets and sunrises too! 🌄 Is it weird that I actually dream up my perfect weather week? Cause I do that a lot! 🙈 The weather definitely affects my mood. But I try to not let it affect me in a negative way, like being angry when it’s hot, cause then I’d be angry a lot. Haha. But I definitely let it make me happy when it’s rainy and chilly and I’m glad that it’s at least been rainy sometimes! ☺️🙌🏻
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And apparently, I like looking to my right and laughing because I’m doing that in 3 out of the last 5 photos I’ve shared of myself. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂🙈
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Mommy I love you. I didn't believe it at first especially with the news coming from my sister and all ...
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Mommy I love you. I didn't believe it at first especially with the news coming from my sister and all the lies she tells but it's true you're gone. the last words you ever said to me where you asking me to leave the hospital because my sister decided to make a scene about absolutely nothing more ... Mommy I love you. I didn't believe it at first especially with the news coming from my sister and all the lies she tells but it's true you're gone. the last words you ever said to me where you asking me to leave the hospital because my sister decided to make a scene about absolutely nothing more then bullshit that she imagined in her head to post on Facebook to make me look bad. I don't blame you you're losing your memory you didn't even know how to use a cell phone I didn't never know what was going on with your sickness I never knew when you were really at the hospital or not for the most part why after lie after lie. I'll never ever ever get the chance to tell you I love you again and I'm sorry Mom. I feel the worst about imagining how you would feel when I wasn't there not knowing what my sister would tell you not knowing how much you could comprehend. I just hope that you know that it wasn't because I didn't care . I just wish I could hear you call me pumpkin one last time or could wake me up in the morning for school by tapping your fingers on the door saying wake up my little rosebud but no your youngest child would not get over the fact that I didn't want anything to do with her ever again and just let me see you or talk to you your youngest child is the reason that your last words to me were telling me to leave I'll never ever ever forgive her and the fact that I never have to talk to her again is the absolute only positive thing that came out of this other than I know that you're not hurting anymore. I'll see you again someday.
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"(Y/N) wake up" I heard a voice wisper in my ear as slight shakes on my shoulders and poking on my arm. ...
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"(Y/N) wake up" I heard a voice wisper in my ear as slight shakes on my shoulders and poking on my arm. My eyes opened slowly as small groans left my mouth, as my eyes opened fully I saw Calum stood up in front of me slightly awkward. "Calum is three in the morning what do you want" I said rubbing my ... "(Y/N) wake up" I heard a voice wisper in my ear as slight shakes on my shoulders and poking on my arm. My eyes opened slowly as small groans left my mouth, as my eyes opened fully I saw Calum stood up in front of me slightly awkward. "Calum is three in the morning what do you want" I said rubbing my eyes to make sure it was really him and I wasn't day dreaming. "I couldn't sleep" he said smiling slightly, I've never really seen his smile before because he has always had that 'resting bitch face'. "So why did you have to wake me up" I questioned looking up at him as I propped myself up onto my elbow. He just smirked and put his hand out for me to grab I took it almost instantly forgetting I was just in a bra and panties and I stood up Calum getting a full view of me as I blushed and sat back onto the bed but not letting go on Calum's hand so he fell straight on top of me because of the force of me basically yanking his arm out. I blushed a darker shade of red but thankfully for the dark room you couldn't see. "I um" I started to speak but not knowing what to say so I was just making weird noises. I felt Calum's chest move faster and before I knew what was happening his lips were pressed against mine. I didn't stop him as his hands touched every inch of my body as he braked the connection this lips then traveled down my jaw and down my neck and he then moved on to my sholder and moving down my stomach. He reached the hem of my panties hooking his long fingers over them pulling them down my legs but since they were just lace the ripped as he noticed this he gave me a slight smirk and carried on. My back was arched and my head had fallen back as small moans left my mouth as Calum worked, he picked up my slit slowly to tease me as he then kissed my clit and without warning pushed two fingers inside me making me moan. That night Calum stayed the night but left the next morning before I woke up so I got dressed and headed to Starbucks for a coffee leaving Michael a note for where I went. When I got there I ordered my coffee and was just waiting for it as I looked around the room when my eyes landed on Calum and a small red head sitting on his lap.
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Wake me up *wake me up inside* I can’t wake up *wake me up inside* SAVE ME (I make this whole l<span class="emoji emoji1f440"></span>k by myself, ...
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Wake me up *wake me up inside* I can’t wake up *wake me up inside* SAVE ME (I make this whole lk by myself, give me a prize) Wake me up *wake me up inside* I can’t wake up *wake me up inside* SAVE ME
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700 million years ago you were sent, To me from a queen bee, To wake me up and sting me, To make me ...
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700 million years ago you were sent, To me from a queen bee, To wake me up and sting me, To make me free and let me see, How much of life has your kind of beauty, That kind of beauty starts wars so I stay on duty I’ll fit 100 wars to make sure that’s my booty, Boot me up I’m ready to go I’ll always ... 700 million years ago you were sent,
To me from a queen bee,
To wake me up and sting me,
To make me free and let me see,
How much of life has your kind of beauty,
That kind of beauty starts wars so I stay on duty
I’ll fit 100 wars to make sure that’s my booty,
Boot me up I’m ready to go
I’ll always fight for you love
Just let me know
I’m all yours love
This is my tell and show
I love you love
From here to Forever ago #iloveyou #happy2ndanniversary
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On her Emirates flight from Tokyo to Dubai, @jessstanbridge stuck the wake-me-up-for-food sticker ...
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On her Emirates flight from Tokyo to Dubai, @jessstanbridge stuck the wake-me-up-for-food sticker on her head rest. When she woke, very hungry, hours and hours later, the airhost explained, "Trust us, we TRIED to wake you, many times". 5am sunrise missions, every damn day, will do that ... On her Emirates flight from Tokyo to Dubai, @jessstanbridge stuck the wake-me-up-for-food sticker on her head rest. When she woke, very hungry, hours and hours later, the airhost explained, "Trust us, we TRIED to wake you, many times". 5am sunrise missions, every damn day, will do that to you (the tranquilisers to ward off her fear of flying also contributed somewhat). In Japan, @clydeothomas and I took bobbing for apples to a new level on trains, buses, planes and boats.
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On Ishigaki, an Okinawa island, our captain handed a Tokyoite a sea-sickness pill just before we left the jetty. I put out my hand for one, too, to which Clyde said, "those make you really sleepy." Assessing the choppy water and wind and my history of vomiting on moving objects, I decided to take the meds.
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That evening, I mentioned to Clyde that the pill had worked wonders and didn't make me very sleepy at all.
🌊 "Then why were you sleeping on the way back?" he asked.
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Me: "Oh ya, I forgot about that, but I was half-awake."
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Clyde: "We were worried you were going to fall off the boat."
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Me: "I had it under control."
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Clyde: "You didn't look like you did."

Earlier in our trip - after a fairly long bus nap - I woke to this view, in Kamikochi, which sounds a lot like Tamigotchi (the digital pet) which is why @lorenapasq thinks I made the name up. I didn't. It's real. No filter, even.
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What is it that motivates you? #MotivationMonday 🤷‍♀️ . Im motivated by motivating others and ...
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What is it that motivates you? #MotivationMonday 🤷‍♀️ . Im motivated by motivating others and also by setting big goals and small goals as far as personal growth goes. . I believe that we have to always have something to strive for, whether it be a big or little goal. I like to set a big goal, ... What is it that motivates you? #MotivationMonday 🤷‍♀️
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Im motivated by motivating others and also by setting big goals and small goals as far as personal growth goes. 💯
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I believe that we have to always have something to strive for, whether it be a big or little goal. I like to set a big goal, let it go, and then take small steps (or little goals) to getting to that big one! 🙌🏼
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There is not one day that goes by, without me doing more to get to my big goal. With that said, the more people I can help, the more motivated I stay as well. 👌🏼
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I have come to find, that if you genuinely want to make others happy, if you want to help others succeed, there is no way you cant do that for yourself. Im always motivated by the fact that I can make a positive impact in this world, and that alone, is enough to keep me going, enough to wake me up in the morning and enough to bring me more happiness daily.😊
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Tell me, what motivates you?👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻
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If you’re looking for me to motivate you personally, click the link in my bio 🖤
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17 weeks today and you already so much bigger and more amazing. You laugh and giggle and squeeze my ...
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17 weeks today and you already so much bigger and more amazing. You laugh and giggle and squeeze my hand and every morning when you wake me up at the crack of dawn- you smile at me and make my heart skip a beat love you so much little squish! #roninwilder 17 weeks today and you already so much bigger and more amazing. You laugh and giggle and squeeze my hand and every morning when you wake me up at the crack of dawn- you smile at me and make my heart skip a beat 💙 love you so much little squish! #roninwilder
Don't wake me up 'cause I'm in love with all that you are You make me see the truth in things, I think ...
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Don't wake me up 'cause I'm in love with all that you are You make me see the truth in things, I think that you are The remedy for everything it seems that you are The truth itself because nothing else can take me so far… Don't wake me up 'cause I'm in love with all that you are
You make me see the truth in things, I think that you are
The remedy for everything it seems that you are
The truth itself because nothing else can take me so far…
I’ve Watched You Grind Hard All My Life To Make Sure Me & My Brothers Were Good. The Perfect Role Model ...
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I’ve Watched You Grind Hard All My Life To Make Sure Me & My Brothers Were Good. The Perfect Role Model & The True Definition Of A Hard Worker. Thanks For Everything & Passing Down That Work Ethic To Me & My Brothers. I Wake Up Everyday Trying To Make U Proud. Love Ya Pops. #proudblackDad #blessed ... I’ve Watched You Grind Hard All My Life To Make Sure Me & My Brothers Were Good. The Perfect Role Model & The True Definition Of A Hard Worker. Thanks For Everything & Passing Down That Work Ethic To Me & My Brothers. I Wake Up Everyday Trying To Make U Proud. Love Ya Pops. #proudblackDad #blessed #happyfathersday #abundantlife
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We are speechless at how beautiful this @angelcompetitionbikinis turned out on @jenn_the_trainer ...
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We are speechless at how beautiful this @angelcompetitionbikinis turned out on @jenn_the_trainer Search “699” at acbikinis.com for a replica of Jenn’s beautiful suit, this will be a top seller! #Repost @jenn_the_trainer ・・・ I brought my best package to PA but unfortunately ... We are speechless at how beautiful this @angelcompetitionbikinis turned out on @jenn_the_trainer 😱😱😱 💎💜 Search “699” at acbikinis.com for a replica of Jenn’s beautiful suit, this will be a top seller! 💎💜 #Repost @jenn_the_trainer
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I brought my best package to PA but unfortunately couldn’t carry that physique to pre judging! 😬😬
I still so very much love this look but cortisol control and water retention will continue to be an area for improvement. Figuring out exactly how to keep my body calm and relaxed before the stage is proving to be a pain in my glutes and waistline. Lol I’ve learned the SLIGHTEST amount of stress: on my feet too long, too hot, too cold, too hype, not enough sleep and even the weather will make my body hold water directly in those two areas. It’s so interesting and of course a little frustrating, but an easy fix! I’m just gonna show up ready the night before and bring a mattress with me backstage... someone wanna wake me up when they call my number? 😭😒😝 #alwayslearning #calmandcollected #ifbbpittsburghpro #refinements #motivated
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I’m reading The Artists Way for the 4 th time ( I need reminding what’s good for me ) and one of the things ...
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I’m reading The Artists Way for the 4 th time ( I need reminding what’s good for me ) and one of the things you have to do is take yourself off alone once a week and do something interesting all on your own. “The Artist Date” as it’s called does not need to be “artistic” —Apparently all that matters ... I’m reading The Artists Way for the 4 th time ( I need reminding what’s good for me ) and one of the things you have to do is take yourself off alone once a week and do something interesting all on your own. “The Artist Date” as it’s called does not need to be “artistic” —Apparently all that matters is to ask yourself, “does it sound fun?” — and then do it ! I’m all about fun. So today’s date is I’m driving on my own nearly 7 hours across the coastline of eastern Cape of Southern Africa. I’m driving to my meditation retreat while I’m listening to Jane Fonda’s most brilliant book, Prime Time ( for anyone over 50 .. and everyone who is 40 should read it as it as well as it will make you feel so happy about the next part of your life)I have some new Spotify music lined up for the next four hours to wake me up ..This photograph is of one of the beautiful gorges that I have passed on my trip this morning. I’ve just stopped in a city I pass through many times in a year and don’t know at all...and I’m going to give myself permission to go and look at something that’s fun and new. #artistdate #portelizabethartgallery #easterncape #gfiartgallery #touristinmyowncountry
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Somebody wake me up from this dream. I’m so happy to be featured for the first time in one of the most ...
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Somebody wake me up from this dream. I’m so happy to be featured for the first time in one of the most important jazz magazines in NY promoting the @trumpetfest with @davedouglas. I’ll be playing at Dizzy’s tomorrow with @rachel_therrien and @eltipo79 sets start at 7:30pm and 9:30pm come ... Somebody wake me up from this dream. I’m so happy to be featured for the first time in one of the most important jazz magazines in NY promoting the @trumpetfest with @davedouglas. I’ll be playing at Dizzy’s tomorrow with @rachel_therrien and @eltipo79 sets start at 7:30pm and 9:30pm come by
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This was exactly a month ago. I was very sick. This amazing person spent 5 days on my side at the hospital ...
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This was exactly a month ago. I was very sick. This amazing person spent 5 days on my side at the hospital taking care of me and making sure I was eating good food, of course. I couldn’t sleep at night because of the pain, the only way for me to rest was to be in his arms so he stayed on this hospital ... This was exactly a month ago.
I was very sick. This amazing person spent 5 days on my side at the hospital taking care of me and making sure I was eating good food, of course.
I couldn’t sleep at night because of the pain, the only way for me to rest was to be in his arms so he stayed on this hospital bed next to me and let me sleep on his chest.
He didn’t move for hours to not wake me up even though he had work to do.
This photo will always make me believe in love.
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I had to say goodbye to Dad this morning and now I feel like half a person. As he got ready for work I was ...
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I had to say goodbye to Dad this morning and now I feel like half a person. As he got ready for work I was lying on the couch with his chihuahua Stella and my boys. I watched the orange light from the early morning sun make little portals of warmth on the carpet in the living room and listened to the ... I had to say goodbye to Dad this morning and now I feel like half a person. As he got ready for work I was lying on the couch with his chihuahua Stella and my boys. I watched the orange light from the early morning sun make little portals of warmth on the carpet in the living room and listened to the jingle of his car keys as he put them in his pocket. He brought his six-foot-four frame down to my level on the couch and knelt beside me because he didn’t want me to get up and wake the dogs who were sleeping on top on me. My thoughtful giant. As he held out his arms to hug me he said, “I’ll see you soon.” Not soon enough, I thought. I’ve been trying to prepare myself to not see him for the rest of the year, but it hasn’t done any good. The time apart seems like a lifetime and it never gets any easier. As Perry drove on the highway toward home I realized we were by the exit to Dad’s work. He said he was taking me by there to say goodbye again. Dad was so surprised and I was so happy. Every moment counts. Take ‘em when you can and certainly don’t miss ‘em when they’re right in front of you.
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to be honest, when I first moved to California, I didn’t really know how to cook. Everything changed ...
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to be honest, when I first moved to California, I didn’t really know how to cook. Everything changed one day when we were at the grocery store and I noticed the woman in front of us was buying a plethora of vegetables, a few different kinds of raw meat, a bottle of red wine and some rice. In contrast, ... to be honest, when I first moved to California, I didn’t really know how to cook. Everything changed one day when we were at the grocery store and I noticed the woman in front of us was buying a plethora of vegetables, a few different kinds of raw meat, a bottle of red wine and some rice. In contrast, my groceries consisted of a lot of boxes, a lot of processed boxed food that contained ingredients I couldn’t pronounce. It was a big wake up call for me because I realized I wanted to be able to cook real food with real ingredients, and to know exactly what I was eating. It’s a surprisingly easy change to eating less processed food, and it’s a lot more enjoyable. We make pasta sauce with tomatoes and onions instead of jarred sauce, homemade bread is a weekly occurrence, and we eat more vegetables now than I have during any other part of my life. This year for thanksgiving, everything on our table was homemade and I can honestly say it was the most delicious holiday meal I’ve ever had 😍 I’ve learned to slow down and take time for even the simplest aspects of my life and I love it ✨
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Nah, nah, please don't wake me up, feel like I'm dreamin' Any given Sunday, you can get it, Willie ...
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Nah, nah, please don't wake me up, feel like I'm dreamin' Any given Sunday, you can get it, Willie Beamen I can make your Mondays even better like the weekend .. Nah, nah, please don't wake me up, feel like I'm dreamin'
Any given Sunday, you can get it, Willie Beamen
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A friend of mine once said that apple would make us not feel sleepy . so here is jimin with apples to ...
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A friend of mine once said that apple would make us not feel sleepy . so here is jimin with apples to wake me up lol .. And yeah i did eat apple just now #apple #jimin #bts #bangtanboys #kpop #life #sleepy #atwork #bulletproof A friend of mine once said that apple would make us not feel sleepy . so here is jimin with apples to wake me up lol .. And yeah i did eat apple just now #apple #jimin #bts #bangtanboys #kpop #life #sleepy #atwork #bulletproof
Sunday Morning Sunbathing 🐈<span class="emoji emoji1f497"></span> the calm after the 630am wake yo’ ass up and feed me moment. Lucky has ...
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Sunday Morning Sunbathing 🐈 the calm after the 630am wake yo’ ass up and feed me moment. Lucky has the innate ability to look really cute after he’s done something to make you want to kill him. . . . #catsareputos #godblesscoffee Sunday Morning Sunbathing 🐈💗 the calm after the 630am wake yo’ ass up and feed me moment. Lucky has the innate ability to look really cute after he’s done something to make you want to kill him. .
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Start my #Sunday with some yoga on my #yogawheel Today’s a rest day for me, but I like to make yoga ...
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Start my #Sunday with some yoga on my #yogawheel Today’s a rest day for me, but I like to make yoga a part of my morning routine, especially on rest days just to wake my body up, clear my mind, & start my day energized, feeling lose & limber 🤙🏻 • The way you start your day plays a huge roll on how your ... Start my #Sunday with some yoga on my #yogawheel
Today’s a rest day for me, but I like to make yoga a part of my morning routine, especially on rest days just to wake my body up, clear my mind, & start my day energized, feeling lose & limber 🤙🏻

The way you start your day plays a huge roll on how your day goes. If you wake up stressed, in a rush & running late, your day will Likely continue to feel like a constant chore.
But if you wake up with a smile, calm, not rushed, make some time for YOU, your day will likely be productive & smooth. ☀️

Here’s my morning routine.
Wake up & make my bed. ( complete a small task first thing in the am serves a purpose)
Get my espresso & while that brews I take my ACV shot🥃 & drink some cold water with my morning supplements.
Let the pups out & find a stick to toss around for them to play while I drink my coffee ☕️
Then Yoga to a chill playlist.
Journal a bit. & also write down my top 3 priorities for my work day. ( top 3 Because narrowing it down, keeps me from burning out trying to do it all. This keeps me organized based on priorities, what’s MOST important is not necessarily most URGENT....bc what’s most urgent isn’t always most important. 💭 as humans we naturally tend to do what’s most urgent bc it’s the easiest task to do right then, leaving the more important/ “I’ll get to it later stuff” for later, which maybe never comes.
Does that make sense?
Anyways, Then I take a cold shower, stole this idea from @timferriss & then I eat my breakfast 🥞🍳


#morningroutine
#Whatsyours
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Today is my cousin Kenton’s birthday and I miss him so very much. He died from his battle with mental ...
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Today is my cousin Kenton’s birthday and I miss him so very much. He died from his battle with mental illness which ended in suicide. Kenton inspired me to go all in on cannabis, since he dropped out of school and moved out to Humboldt to be a trimmigrant and ended up growing cannabis. His story ... Today is my cousin Kenton’s birthday and I miss him so very much. He died from his battle with mental illness which ended in suicide. Kenton inspired me to go all in on cannabis, since he dropped out of school and moved out to Humboldt to be a trimmigrant and ended up growing cannabis. His story is unfortunately like so many others, humboldt and Mendocino county are home to thousands of young adults who have ran away from bad situations at home to make some money and live in freedom in the humboldt hills. However, with so many young adults suffering from traumatic experiences, drug addiction and mental illness, I was shocked at the lack of mental health and rehab facilities in the humboldt area. My cousin’s tragic loss was a huge wake up call for me and has lit a fire inside me that will never go out to fight for mental health services for those who need it most and for cannabis growers, extractors, and consumers who have been discriminated against by local, state, and federal laws for too long! I see cannabis as a vehicle for social change and a way to give money to help our education and mental health facilities around our country. I will never stop fighting, if you would like to get involved, shoot us a dm and follow @cannabis_cares, a new platform we are launching with the goal of ending the stigma of cannabis and using the money generated from sales to solve social issues. Love you Kenton!! #fuckmentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #love #cannabiscommunity #dabbersdaily #weshouldsmoke #coupleofstoners
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Starting 2019 dehydrated and with last night's make up still on 🤦🏻‍♀️... not sure what that means ...
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Starting 2019 dehydrated and with last night's make up still on 🤦🏻‍♀️... not sure what that means for the whole year?🤔🤣 (the cat is baby Saud trying to wake me up! Lol) #OffWithAGoodStart #NewYearHangover #Jan1 #2019 #AudreyHepburn #BreakfastAtTiffanys #Hangover #NewYearsEve بديت ... Starting 2019 dehydrated and with last night's make up still on 🤦🏻‍♀️... not sure what that means for the whole year?🤔🤣 (the cat is baby Saud trying to wake me up! Lol)
#OffWithAGoodStart #NewYearHangover #Jan1 #2019 #AudreyHepburn #BreakfastAtTiffanys #Hangover #NewYearsEve
بديت ٢٠١٩ بجفاف و بقايا مكياج امس 🤦🏻‍♀️ مو متأكدة ايش يعني هذا الشي لباقي السنة؟ 🤔🤣 #سنة_جديدة #٢٠١٩ #عام_جديد
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Let's have an extremely real discussion. This is me, raw me,every morning I wake up and look like ...
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Let's have an extremely real discussion. This is me, raw me,every morning I wake up and look like this. I'm pale, I have been burdened with almost black under eyes since I was baby and my face is uneven asf. I have textured skin and a widows peak that decided to not finish growing fully. I. Am. ... Let's have an extremely real discussion.
This is me, raw me,every morning I wake up and look like this. I'm pale, I have been burdened with almost black under eyes since I was baby and my face is uneven asf.
I have textured skin and a widows peak that decided to not finish growing fully.
I. Am. Not. Perfect.
Nor do I want to be.
Middle school me wasn't allowed to touch make up and I've looked like this my entire life. Dear god was I bullied, do you have any idea how it feels to be called a "pot head" or "the girl from the grudge" just because of something I couldn't change.
The first time I wore make up I hated it/ loved it, it kind of helped my problem areas but I didn't know what I was doing.
It's taken 10 years to get to here, lots of trial and error.
Don't give up just because you aren't good at it, keep trying until you're one of the best at it.
The real point of this post is, that unless you're an extremely rich celebrity you're gonna wake up looking like me, a hot ass mess.
All those Instagram make up gurus and models. That's a ton of make up and photo shop.
There's nothing wrong with make up, but there's something very wrong with hating who you are underneath it.
I look like an absolute mess without it but I've learned "hey that's me", my fiancé, friends and toddler don't run from me without it and that's all that matters, and that's all that should matter to you 💕💕 "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." -Dr. Seuss

Also thanks for hanging on through my run on sentences, it's a problem. 😂
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Where do I even begin. You taught me so much through out my life that I still go by. You were the toughest ...
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Where do I even begin. You taught me so much through out my life that I still go by. You were the toughest woman I know. You had to be with a family like ours. I had the privilege of living with you up until 5th grade. Every morning yelling to wake me up, calling me out on not being sick when I didn’t want ... Where do I even begin. You taught me so much through out my life that I still go by. You were the toughest woman I know. You had to be with a family like ours. I had the privilege of living with you up until 5th grade. Every morning yelling to wake me up, calling me out on not being sick when I didn’t want to go to school. You were such a big part of my life. I love you so much grandma and i am going to miss you every day. Make sure to say hi to grandpa for me and to fill him in on the crazy family you and him helped create. You were our backbone and we all love you. Rest easy grandma. I love you ❤️
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Today was a wake up call for me. Not in a bad way, but in a really really positive way. I’m back home ...
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Today was a wake up call for me. Not in a bad way, but in a really really positive way. I’m back home in CO. One of my weekly workouts used to be hitting the track for repeats, but it has been years since I’ve done it consistently (pre-CrossFit). So, today I decided was the day to start again. Why ... Today was a wake up call for me. Not in a bad way, but in a really really positive way.
I’m back home in CO. One of my weekly workouts used to be hitting the track for repeats, but it has been years since I’ve done it consistently (pre-CrossFit). So, today I decided was the day to start again. Why not today, right?

I almost died! I felt so out of shape. My splits were incredibly slower than they used to be. My legs felt like lead. My running form was crap. My lungs were burning. I know I’m not “out of shape”, but relatively speaking I am... for where I want to be.

When I was cooling down I had time to think. 💜First off... Somethings gotta give. Being gentle with yourself is good within reason, but tough love is needed. I’m not upset with where I am, because it’s where I’m supposed to be. My fitness/health has been sacrificed as of late for other things that have been holding higher priority in my life (work, school, friends). My stress has been at an all time high the last several months. This is where tough love comes in.. something’s gotta give if I want to get back to where I want to be. 💜Second of all... Make Space. Make space for where you are but also for where you want to be. You are the ONLY person who can make that happen. I need to start making myself more of a priority (just like I preach to others). There has been a great imbalance here as of late. 💜And third... just frickin do it. If you want to be in better shape, eat better, start your own business, relocate, or whatever your goal is. Just do it. It may not happen immediately, but the first step can happen today. That’s what my old high school track brought to me... the first step in gaining back control of my life again, taking steps toward what I truly want, and finding my mental and physically well being in the process.

#Fitness #Change #JenesisFitness @the.wild.women #trackrepeats #gettingbackinshape #itsallrelative #chooseyou
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“I see You there hanging on a tree. You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me. Now You ...
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“I see You there hanging on a tree. You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me. Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne. Soon we will be coming home. You're beautiful. [You're Beautiful — Phil Wickham] - I miss my desire for Him. I wish I had that on fire feeling again. I desire ... “I see You there hanging on a tree. You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me. Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne. Soon we will be coming home. You're beautiful. [You're Beautiful — Phil Wickham] 💙
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I miss my desire for Him. I wish I had that on fire feeling again. I desire so much to want Him more and take Him in more and do more for Him and show more of Him and give more to Him and be more like Him. I want Him to set a fire in me again and wake me up and push me out of this rut because I feel so stuck in this place of average effort and lukewarm Christianity. I want to be crazy about Him. I want to emit His love. I want to know Him better than I know my best friends. I want to be so bold that others know me as His follower. I want to live a life that brings Him glory and builds His Kingdom. I ask God everyday to help me live a life that does just that. Because I've been doing this and yet still find myself in this rut, I must have considered the idea that God doesn't answer prayers, but no. What this has caused me to realize is that He can't do everything for me. He can't make me be on fire for Him if I won't allow Him to, He can't just have me desire Him like no other if I won't let Him in, He can't force me to live my life to bring Him glory if I won't go along with it. That's on me. It's my job to desire, my job to want, my job to live according to His will and build His Kingdom. I am lazy. I am weak. I am stubborn. That's why I'm in this low place. But I still want Him. I still really, really, really want Him. Listening to worship music always gives me that spark and this song, my all time favourite worship song, reminds me that no matter how I feel, He is so worthy of my praise. He's done more for me than I'll ever deserve and for that I need to get that spark ignited into a blazing flame of love and desire for Him and His Word. The One sitting on that heavenly throne is the most beautiful part of my life and when I meet Him face to face, I want my fire to be the biggest, most raging, most beautiful flame it's ever been. 🔥
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⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❝ Wake Me Up ❞ Ed Sheeran ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #dawnpoketraineredit #7 ⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❁ ⠀ I should ink my skin with your name And take my passport out again And just replace it See I could do without a tan On my left hand, Where my fourth finger meets my knuckle And I should run you a hot bath And ...
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❝ Wake Me Up ❞ Ed Sheeran
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #dawnpoketraineredit #7

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I should ink my skin with your name
And take my passport out again
And just replace it
See I could do without a tan
On my left hand,
Where my fourth finger meets my knuckle
And I should run you a hot bath
And fill it up with bubbles

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'Cause maybe you're loveable
And maybe you're my snowflake
And your eyes turn from green to gray
In the winter I'll hold you in a cold place
And you should never cut your hair
'Cause I love the way you flick it off your shoulder

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And you will never know
Just how beautiful you are to me
But maybe I'm just in love
When you wake me up

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And would you ever feel guilty if you did the same to me?
Could you make me a cup of tea to open my eyes in the right way?
And I know you love Shrek
‘Cause we've watched it 12 times
But maybe you're hoping for a fairy tale too
And if your DVD breaks today
You should've got a VCR
Because I've never owned a Blue ray, true say

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And now I always been shit at computer games
And your brother always beats me
And if I lost, I’d go across and chuck all the controllers at the TV
And then you’d laugh at me
And be asking me
If I'm gonna be home next week
And then you'd lie with me 'til I fall asleep
And flutter eye lash on my cheek between the sheets

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And you will never know
Just how beautiful you are to me
But maybe I'm just in love
When you wake me up

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And I think you hate the smell of smoke
You always try to get me to stop
But you drink as much as me
And I get drunk a lot
So I'll take you to the beach
And walk along the sand
And I'll make you a heart pendant
With a pebble held in my hand
And I'll carve it like a necklace
So the heart falls where your chest is
And now a piece of me is a piece of the beach
And it falls just where it needs to be
And rests peacefully
So you just need to breathe
To feel my heart against yours now, against yours now

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‘Cause maybe I'm just in love when you wake me up
Or maybe I'm just in love when you wake me up
Maybe I fell in love when you woke me up
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 #MondayMotivation Weight loss isn't always easy but with enough willpower, you can do anything! ...
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#MondayMotivation Weight loss isn't always easy but with enough willpower, you can do anything! Tanya has lost over 100lbs!Check out her story below! • "My journey began in January 2014 my weight was 300 lbs. My Mom was hospitalized with blood clots several times. I had known I wanted ... #MondayMotivation Weight loss isn't always easy but with enough willpower, you can do anything! Tanya has lost over 100lbs!😱Check out her story below!

"My journey began in January 2014 my weight was 300 lbs. My Mom was hospitalized with blood clots several times. I had known I wanted to make a change due to gaining so much weight from my surgery in 2010. When I was younger I had gained and lost weight so many times I lost track. This time seemed to be a wake-up call for me because of my Mom's health. Seeing her and knowing I was going to be next if I didn't make a permanent change in my health. ...I started looking into Protein Shake's and came across IS I thought since I had a problem with sweets this would be worth a try. I started with the shakes, which I love. Later that year I started the Idealboost then, and IdealTrim for night time before dinner. When I started the bars I was amazed at how full I stayed.
My journey hasn't stopped I still have 20 lbs to lose my goal is 180 lbs since I am 50 yrs old and it is slower at this age I am sure that eventually I will hit my goal but I am not in a hurry it will come.
My program consists of Walking DVD's 3 - 5 days a week depending on my workload for 45 min a day.
I continue to drink 1-2 shakes a day with the bars as snacks in between. I also continue to take Idealtrim, and of course, Idealboost. I love the program and for me to stay on a program for 3 yrs just goes to show it is a permanent change not temporary. IS is a program that will stay with me always.
Thank you IS for helping me find my permanent change that was so needed in my life."-Tanya A.
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#transformation #idealshape #shape #journey #weightloss #loseweight #challenges #challengeshape #challengeseries #challengesaccepted
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Wake Me Up - Crown The Empire "This world keeps pushing down upon me, And I keep hoping for a sweet ...
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Wake Me Up - Crown The Empire "This world keeps pushing down upon me, And I keep hoping for a sweet dream. There's something left for me to see, There's something left for me to be. We can't ponder on this, world forever. You know we can save it, if together Growing, day by day to make it, but ... Wake Me Up - Crown The Empire "This world keeps pushing down upon me,
And I keep hoping for a sweet dream.

There's something left for me to see,
There's something left for me to be.

We can't ponder on this, world forever.
You know we can save it, if together
Growing, day by day to make it,
but my time's been wasted.

And while my eyes are open wide, I'm sound asleep on the inside,

Wake me up, from this dream that never ends.
Haunting me, Haunting me till my bitter end.
Wake me up, from this nightmare that I live.
Something inside of me keeps on giving in.

Well I keep searching for an answer,
But time will never tell, and you will never know.
My choices are my own, but I can't choose where I call home.
This life isn't carved in stone, this life has left me on my own.

And while my eyes are open wide, I'm sound asleep on the inside,

Wake me up, from this dream that never ends.
Haunting me, Haunting me till my bitter end.
Wake me up, from this nightmare that I live.
Something inside of me keeps on giving in.

WAKE ME UP!

I'm wide awake,
I'm not afraid anymore,
I'm wide awake
It's you who helped me win this war.

Wake me up, from this dream that never ends.
Haunting me, Haunting me till my bitter end.
Wake me up, from this nightmare that I live.
Something inside of me keeps on giving in.

Wake me up, from this dream that never ends.
Haunting me, Haunting me till my bitter end.
Wake me up, from this nightmare that I live.
Something inside of me keeps on giving in."
#music #song #songs #lyrics #instagram #rock #rockmusic #band #bands #punkrock #hardrock #alternative #alternativerock #epic #awesome #metal #heavymetal #songlyrics #badass #badassmusic #badasslyrics #rockmusic #rocklyrics
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20180902. Here we go. Most Friday mornings for more than half a year now, I find myself at this overhead ...
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20180902. Here we go. Most Friday mornings for more than half a year now, I find myself at this overhead crossing, glancing at this very picturesque “longkang” for a second before my sister tells me to hurry or we’ll be late. The morning rush has become routine - wake up exhausted, take bus ... 20180902. Here we go.
Most Friday mornings for more than half a year now, I find myself at this overhead crossing, glancing at this very picturesque “longkang” for a second before my sister tells me to hurry or we’ll be late. The morning rush has become routine - wake up exhausted, take bus 151, have an emotionally-draining session with N, quick lunch, take a cab to my next meeting. Rinse, wash, repeat. I rarely have time to stop and breathe because all is humdrum right now, all is a mechanical lifting of one foot in front of the other just to make it to wherever I’m going next.

This week, a few things happened that shook me right out of that reverie. My 93 year old grandma got admitted to the hospital, a friend living overseas called me crying with some bad news and lastly, mentors that I really looked up to disappointed me deeply. It was just all too much. And as I felt my insides crack late into the week, I recognised the terrible place I had arrived at and knew from experience that the only thing left to do was pray. Remember. Give thanks.

Tomorrow, my younger sister starts work again as an art director. It’s a big deal. It’s been exactly one year to the day since everything has happened, since life as we knew it split open at our feet like a pomegranate, and I’m not one to believe in coincidence. Our God is too big for that.

No, I believe that life is very rarely all good or all bad but a mix of both. In this bittersweet sea, we will learn to swim to shore no matter how many times we may get swept away again. I still don’t know what I’m doing with my career, ministry, relationships... oh, I’m figuring it out as I go along, just like you. Tomorrow might be better, the same, worse, but as the soft, temporary respite of this moment sits down beside me, I’d like to remind myself to savour it while it lasts. Say: thank you, I’ll see you again soon.
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I’m not a morning person and this getting up extra early to get jara ready for school would be a tough ...
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I’m not a morning person and this getting up extra early to get jara ready for school would be a tough job for me but every night her daddy lays out her clothes, sets his alarm for 6:30am so he can hit the snooze a thousand times, get up make her breakfast, wake her up, get a dressed, does her hair, ... I’m not a morning person and this getting up extra early to get jara ready for school would be a tough job for me but every night her daddy lays out her clothes, sets his alarm for 6:30am so he can hit the snooze a thousand times, get up make her breakfast, wake her up, get a dressed, does her hair, makes her come kiss me goodbye then takes a picture of her so when I do get up I can see exactly what she looked like before recess messed it up. I know you don’t want or need credit but I thank you for being such an amazing father to our little girl. Jara’s first full week of school outfits! #blackdads #blackfathers #blackfatherhood #blackmagic #blackfamily #education #daughter #love #parenting #school #schooldays #blacklove #gooddadgang #igkiddies #bourgiedads
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I'm currently having a party without any guests hahaha. It's not as sad as it sounds. I'm listening ...
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I'm currently having a party without any guests hahaha. It's not as sad as it sounds. I'm listening to music louder than normal in my jammies pretending I'm at a gig. I keep checking my phone to see if my neighbours have complained but nothing so far so I'm in the clear. There's no reason to wake ... I'm currently having a party without any guests hahaha. It's not as sad as it sounds. I'm listening to music louder than normal in my jammies pretending I'm at a gig. I keep checking my phone to see if my neighbours have complained but nothing so far so I'm in the clear. There's no reason to wake up early tomorrow so there's no real harm. :)
I promise this isn't as lame as it sounds. It's actually the best free fun I've had in a while.
Still, this is certainly fun. XD The only downside is that it's near impossible to play Cards Against Humanity by myself. Last time I brought them to a party, everyone there got bored because they didn't fully understand 2/3s of the cards. (But that's half the fun!!!) One day faithful entertainment, we shall make it to a party or have guests to lighten things up.
That's me out. The party's almost over anyway. I think it's a little cruel to keep my music the volume it is until 5am (especially after earlier on this week where I just couldn't sleep so I cleaned my room until 6.30am). I'm not drunk, just binged on some coca cola. It's just sugar. :D
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<span class="emoji emoji2611"></span>️ Off the bucket list, ever since I was a kid I’ve loved arcades, Chuck E. Cheese being my first ever, ...
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️ Off the bucket list, ever since I was a kid I’ve loved arcades, Chuck E. Cheese being my first ever, before he started doing crack, anyways, growing up I could never let go of going to arcades because the feeling was too nostalgic to the first time. Arcades from Las Vegas to arcades in Orange ... ☑️ Off the bucket list, ever since I was a kid I’ve loved arcades, Chuck E. Cheese being my first ever, before he started doing crack, anyways, growing up I could never let go of going to arcades because the feeling was too nostalgic to the first time. Arcades from Las Vegas to arcades in Orange County, any arcade makes me happy til this day. I remember always waiting for my uncle @vroc20013 to wake up from work after his long shifts, and me not understanding how tired he’d be, he’d still wake up and take me to a arcade called Camelot, and I would spend hours there never wanting to leave when he’d ask. I always told myself when I have a kid, I’m going to do the same exact thing my parents and uncles did to make sure I had fun and was happy. Now the time has come where I get to spoil my little Luna at arcades, even though the good prizes cost a ridiculous amount of tickets like a iPod for 750,000 tickets and you go up to redeem and you only got 500 😑, I’m still going to take Luna and hope she loves arcades as much as I do. And I thank my wifey and friends for tagging along, unlimited pizza and drinks and desserts, why not?!
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