My interpersonal relationships have always been filled with drama. I internalized this for over a decade... eventually I blamed myself for causing issues. But when I got older, I realized drama "followed" me because I enforced boundaries. I didn't let people disrespect me or my loved ones. I'd hold people accountable for their actions and not let them get away with toxic behavior. I'd encourage difficult conversations to smooth out misunderstandings. The resistance I felt from others made me feel like I was always wrongfully rocking the boat, "starting shit." To me though, there's a huge difference between starting drama and ENDING it. Saying "Hey. This is messed up. This needs to stop." I will never be someone who likes to start drama. I strive to be someone who isn't afraid to call it out. People don't like being held accountable for their shitty actions. But if the reinforcement of my boundaries (aka not perpetuating/disallowing it to continue) causes problems, I'll gladly call myself a Drama Queen™. Don't like drama? Don't be shitty 🤗😘
This is a photo my mom took on our first day in Ireland when we went last July. There have been so many great photos taken in the last 6-8 months that I never posted because I was obsessed with curating my stuff to make sure I had makeup, lighting was good, background was interesting, it was "good enough" to get a lot of likes, etc. I've never considered myself a content creator but I do miss normal life updates and sharing moments that don't need to be picked from 80 other takes or edited for lighting. Please bear with me for a while as I catch up and show you some vacation/life highlights I never got to post!
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Beyond cozy scarf
Top notch cropped long sleeve, M
Scalloped faux suede shorts, S
Cute as a button faux suede skort, M
Warm AF puffy parka jacket, M
2 habits I'm currently trying to form:
-consistent training sessions (anything more than once a week is a win for me right now lol )
-writing in my new planner every day
I have been surviving off of chaotic energy for so long, I mistook it as thriving. A little structure, step by step, has been keeping me sane and as cheesy as it sounds I already feel more at peace 😌
If any of you have noticed, I haven't been lifting much/at all. Some heavy stuff related to my last meet and my home gym happened over summer and I would be lying if those events didn't influence my perception of/motivation to powerlift. I needed a break...1 month became 6. Before I knew it, I found myself here. I tried to "get back into it" a few times, but my heart wasn't in it. I was afraid of losing my "branding" or abandoning a part of my social media identity, which made it even harder to come back.
Full cheese: the iron will ALWAYS BE HERE FOR ME. I am ✨R E A D Y✨ to enjoy lifting again!!! School, therapy, mental health, and (more recently) snowboarding have been a bigger priority. That doesn't detract from who I am because my hobbies don't define me. I'm a powerlifter and always will be at heart. How can I not be? This sport has been a huge part of my life for the last 5 years. Right now though, there are a few other things I want to focus on, too. I'm tired of feeling guilty for putting other hobbies before lifting 😌
Tldr: I'm back-ish in the gym, but for the right reasons this time 💕